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“There is nothing else than now. There is neither yesterday, certainly, nor is there any tomorrow. How old must you be before you know that? There is only now, and if now is only two days, then two days is your life and everything in it will be in proportion. This is how you live a life in two days. And if you stop complaining and asking for what you never will get, you will have a good life. A good life is not measured by any biblical span.”

— Ernest Hemingway, For Whom the Bell Tolls

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“For her everything was red, orange, gold-red from the sun on the closed eyes, and it all was that color, all of it, the filling, the possessing, the having, all of that color, all in a blindness of that color.”

— Ernest Hemingway, For Whom the Bell Tolls

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depression meal: standing in the kitchen for 15 minutes debating if i have the energy to cook then leaving after eating raw bread

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i am always kidding but i am also always serious. do not underestimate me

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haunted lullaby // Cavetown

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F A C E || brockhampton

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Walking in Shanghai’s Streets

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Stay so busy that you don’t have time to be sad

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*Curties?* Could you recomand some sad books?

*Curtsies* This is kind of…really broad. But fortunately I love misery so if you’re looking for:

Aesthetic Sad™: John Knowles’s A Separate Peace

Classic Sad™: Victor Hugo’s The Hunchback of Notre-Dame

Dramatic Sad™: Shakespeare’s King Lear

Disturbing Sad™: Keri Hulme’s The Bone People

Historical Sad™: Carol Birch’s Jamrach’s Menagerie

Political Sad™: Graham Greene’s The Quiet American

Philosophical Sad™: Iris Murdoch’s The Book and the Brotherhood

Nostalgic Sad™: Wilson Rawls’s Where the Red Fern Grows

Uncanny Sad™: Shirley Jackson’s Hangsaman

Noir Sad™: John le Carre’s The Spy Who Came in from the Cold

Southern Gothic Sad™: Cormac McCarthy’s No Country for Old Men 

True Sad™: Tim O’Brien’s The Things They Carried 

If you really want to torture yourself lmk and I can give you some music pairings for any of the above. (I’d also recommend checking trigger warnings for most of these. Feel free to ask me if there’s anything in particular you’re concerned about.)

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You need a private talk? Just send me an ask!:)

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“Eres los lugares más felices de mi vida.”

— Poeta Invisible

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As far as I’m concerned, there is no plan and pattern to the world. 

It’s just chaos.