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Home is supposed to make you feel safe, but why doesn't mine?

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Today, I stood up for myself. I expressed my thoughts to my project manager, informing him that I can't handle the project he assigned because it's too large for my current level of experience as a BA. I suggested they consider inviting an experienced BA who is familiar with the work.

On a sweet note, my boyfriend surprised me with milk tea and even brought some for my sisters. He is incredibly sweet, and I love him dearly.

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Jan 1 - 5

January 1 : Happy New Year! 🎉🥳

Started the day by feeling all tired and worked up. But I wanted to be productive so I pushed myself to do something today even though it's holiday.

I started to declutter my things, I throw away all of the piles of stuff that not of use anymore. So I have more space, I also wanted to sell my books. I used to adore these stuff but as I grow older, they don't matter any longer. I see them as bunch of unessessary things that I should get rid of.

after a while , I washed my clothes. My family said it's Jan 1 and I'm very zealous already. I washed my clothes and decided to go for a walk in the evening. I wanted to reach my goal of my 7k steps. but I was able to exceed my goal. I made it to 10k today.

yey! ❤️❤️

January 3: Unexpected Roundtrip

Due to technical issues with my laptop, I had to travel to Manila to get it fixed. Roundtrip—quite a hassle, isn't it? But I don't get to choose in situations like this. I needed to have it fixed ASAP because I have tons to do.

I'm writing this because I made it! I survived this tiring day of traveling and jumping from different cafes just to be visible at my part-time job.

On the bright side, this trip was not planned; however, I was able to meet my UXD colleagues and had small talks with them. They were my UXD buddies in YONDU, and about a year ago, we were inseparable. Life happens, priorities change, but I believe this given time, though a hassle, was a blessing for us to catch up with our BUSY lives.

January 4 : My Home

I'm grateful that I met someone as amazing as Don. He was very kind and calm in any situation we had to face. I'm blessed with a loving, caring man, and I couldn't ask for more.

I love you, mahal. Thank you for being there for me through the good and the bad. Thanks for everything you do for us.

I feel so loved by everything you do for me.

January 5: I can't believe 5 days have already passed in 2024. Days are passing so quickly, and it wasn't a good start for me. I'm trying to be okay these past few days and still hope for the best to come.

I wanted to kick off a healthy lifestyle, but a lot of things are getting in the way, and my mind couldn't handle this. I feel so tired already with all the drama and unnecessary things going on.

However, I can say it's just a bad week, not a bad life. Remember that each day is a fresh start. I'm giving myself a breather so I can face another week with endurance.

There are so many things on my plate that need to be done, so I'm trying to break it down into pieces to focus on one thing at a time and allow my mind to think clearly.

But there is one person whom I'm so thankful for: my boyfriend. Of all the people around me, he took a great deal to take care of me. Though we are miles away from each other, it never became a hindrance for him to show how much he cared. He valued all of my opinions and feelings. He and his family were very supportive of me moving near him. They tried to find a place for me to stay near their house. I've never felt so welcomed and accepted before.

We can never have a perfect life, but we can have wonderful days amidst chaotic ones, and that's something I hold dearly in my star pocket.