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MY NAME

EUNICE

It feels weird when someone calls me Eunice, and even weirder when someone insists that Eunice suits me more than Lei. Well, whatever, they're both my names. And don't get me wrong, I don't hate my first name, in fact I love it to the point that sometimes I feel like I don't deserve such beautiful and lady-like name. I just find it weird that some people prefer calling me Eunice than Lei, when Lei is shorter and easier to remember.

A little back story on how I got my name (Well actually more like how my Lola Mahal and Mama came up with my name). I was supposed to be named Eunice Joy, because Eunice means victory and victory brings Joy, and since I'm their first born (Not actually) I'll surely bring joy to them, but my Lola Mahal insisted on changing my name 'cause she deems it simple and common. She likes the name Eunice because a lot of her students that are named “Eunice” are very academically excellent and victorious. And when you’re victorious, you should be rewarded with a flower “Lei”.

So that’s that! That’s the story behind my name, and to be honest, my name itself is the story! I just hope I’m living it up.

P.S. I’ll forever be grateful of the name they gave me. I love it so much

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Good Day (I)

I'm not sure if I can keep up with this, but I hope I can. Hahahaha. My boyfriend actually inspired me to do this. So basically what I'm gonna do is that whenever I feel good or I'm having an okay-good day, I will share them. Journal/Diary style. Since my Tumblr account is pretty much private. Anyway, here goes my Day 1:

Today, I woke up with an okay disposition. Nothing fancy. Nothing out of the ordinary. I even almost went cray cray on my boyfriend just because I didn't get enough attention from him yesterday char. But I became productive after watching Mama's Girl. Surprisingly enough, I felt happy after. I felt satisfied. Releaved even. Hahahaha Here's my routine that changed my mood the whole day:

I did my usual morning exercise

I cooked for myself. Spicy chicken with tomatoes

Watched more movies

Ate ice cream. Coffee crumble flavor to be exact

Exercise some more

Washed my underwears

This is actually my favorite part of the day. I took a full on bath. Which felt really good by the way. I did my body scrub and all, complete with some Keratin treatment for my hair. Trimmed them bushes and all.

Washed my dishes

Cleaned a bit

Played ML

That's all folks! Hahahah I know it may seem dull and ordinary but for me, this day is satisfying. I can really call it My Day. Take care of yourselves guys. Even with a simple routine like those can make you feel fresh and renewed. xoxo, Lei

...and here's a picture of me looking radiant and all. A perfect visualization of how I feel like

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Bye 2017. HELLO 2018!

I’m already a week in 2018, but now’s the only time I decided to write my official farewell letter to 2017 (Not that it really matters) and welcome note to 2018. Our 2017 is a hot mess but I know and feel that 2017 gave me a lot of life lessons and memories to keep. How? and Why? Well, I am glad I asked myself. So here is a list of what I could muster from my 2017 life events:

Firstly, I want to thank God that me and my family welcomed 2017 with a very good health. I actually had a good health all throughout 2017. With just a minor hyperthyroidism, it wasn’t that aggressive last year. So YEY for me on that field.

I only had 3 subjects (9 units) on my last semester in Lyceum, but I was still stressed as fuck because of our Exhibit. I was not only an exhibitor but the head of finance, merchandise and runner as well. I kinda hated our president at that time, because most of the time she just nags and commands. We do almost all the works. I’m also not satisfied with my friends’ lack of effort, as always, when it comes to group efforts some of them just really disappoints me. Anyway, I was really happy with the fruits of our labor. Mainly because I contributed a lot and really gave the best I could possibly give. I was not that happy with my artwork, I know I lacked on that part, but I’m happy with our short film. I’m always happy with the films we make, even if some people can’t understand the story. So all-in-all, it was still a success. After that, I’m just glad that I can finally rest; Physically, mentally, and emotionally. 

T-24820 MULTIMEDIA ARTS GRADUATE BATCH 2017!!!!!!! Finally! After 5 years in college, 2 courses in 3 different universities.... I FINALLY GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE! I wanted to thank a lot of people, but sadly I did not do that. I thanked some, but not all. Anyway, I’m forever grateful to all the people that helped me and my family all the way. 

We went out-of-town not just once, and most of our trips are unplanned and rather spontaneous! I’m so happy that I spent such vacation with my family and relatives. First, We went to Batangas out of whim, just because it’s a boring Saturday afternoon and Tito wants to see their balik-bayan  cousin and his family from New Zealand. I must admit, I really enjoyed playing with Cookie and Cloud, I will seriously miss them and Batangas’  full packed Lomi ! The best Lomi  I’ve ever had in my life, and I honestly think that no Lomi could ever top that. Second, we went to Legazpi and Labo for Holy Week, just because the elders have long breaks. I won’t lie, I enjoy road trips with my family and relatives. We play random games just to entertain who ever is in charge of the wheels, but in our case, It’s just our Tito with no substitute. Third, we went to Labo again, for Mama and Tita Mommy’s high school reunion. I kinda felt sad at first and had second thoughts because I really want to go to BTS’ Wings Tour concert that day, but family first. Plus, all we did is eat, eat..... and EAT our hearts out! So it’s a win-lose situation. Lastly, we went to Ilocos-Vigan, in a backpackers tour package. How we availed that? It’s a long story. Anyway, I met this 4 year old kid, Lexi who claims that I’m her best friend. She’s so sweet, and probably one of the best things from that trip. Ilocos and Vigan are 2 equally beautiful cities with their own charms, too bad that my body and head can’t stand the heat. I’m so happy that I had these vacations before I got a work.

Speaking of work, at some point, I almost gave up at finding a job cause my portfolio sucks ballz and I'm bad with interviews, with my stuttering and stuff... BUT HEY!!!! I FOUND A JOB!!! I'M OFFICIALLY EMPLOYED NOW!!! THANKS INTEGREON MANAGED SOLUTIONS!!! THO' i'll have to wait until January to start. BUT STILL! I can now sleep at night knowing that I finally have a job! Yey me

Hello new phone (Oppo F5). After how many years of using my mom's old nokia phone and my beloved iPod touch, i finally bought a new one. Mainly because my brother broke his phone (AGAIN!)! So I have to hand him down my trusted duo. I've had that iPod touch (5th gen) since 2013 (But not really, since I broke the original one from Singapore and have it replaced after a year) so that's very sentimental for me, and I'm so satisfied with it to the point that I've only had keypad phones and low tech ones along its run. And oh, I'm kinda proud since I went to college, I buy my own phones with my own savings. So again, YEY ME

So that's just a very brief summary of my 2017. VERY BRIEF! Lol. A lot of things happened that I can't even put them into words anymore. But I guess you'll get the geist of it. I'm thankful for how my 2017 went. It was not a horrible year, really. I feel like 2017 opened new doors for me. OH WELL. Goodbye, 2017!!! I NOW OFFICIALLY OPEN MY DOOR FOR 2018! PLEASE BE GOOD WITH ME. WITH MY FAMILY. WITH MY FRIENDS. WITH EVERYONE, REALLY. XOXO, LEI

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OLA!

Hola! I've been off the grid for about 2 years... SO NOW IMMA BLOW UP MY TL WITH UNSOLICITED UPDATES OF HOW MY 2018 WENT

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Heart-ING

Our hearts beat in million different ways... It’ll also ache in million different ways. “I know how you feel” is always the understatement of the year. But again, what is the most emphatic response to a person who’s hurting?

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Bye 2016. Hello 2017!

Honestly, I can’t really say that 2016 is the worst year for me. I still feel blessed for everything that 2016 brought me and made me feel. Before I fully bid 2016 goodbye, here are all the things and reasons why I should be thankful for...

Tho’ I welcomed 2016 bedridden and my health is in it’s all time low half the year... I thank God that I ended 2016 in my healthiest form possible. 

I’ve always wanted my mother to have a partner again (ever since the first death anniversary of my father). I wanted her to have someone she can rely on when things at home and office gets out of hand. The love that we can give her is different from the love that a lover/partner can give. So..... I thank God that by the end of 2016 she found someone whom she can trust again and thank God that someone cherishes her EVERYDAY. 

My OJT experience in Knowledge Channel Foundation, Inc. is a blessing. Without any doubts. I’ve learned a lot. Met new people and bonded with them. Worked (WOW EVEN IF ITS JUST FOR 1 WHOLE DAY LOL) w/ Robi Domingo, Joj & Jai Agpangan, Igiboy, Ms. Rina Lopez and saw so many other ABS CBN artists from Vice to Emanuelle Vera in person (I was a bit stars-trucked with all of them especially on how they act onscreen and performed in front of many people but I acted cool all the way to not embarrass my boss and 2 other fellow interns LOL) I guess and hope that I improved A LOT while I interned there tho’.

Got the chance to see the wonderful province of Mindoro. It was really refreshing to see such nature and the fresh air AHHHHHHHHHHHH TAKE ME BACK TO MINDORO. I guess my reactions says it all. Bow.

2016 is also the year our mother got promoted.... So HOORAY FOR 2016! FOR OUR MOTHER! 

Last April 19, 2016, Sheng and I celebrated our 1st year anniversary together. YAY! Plus, on my birthday he gave me things that perfectly matches my 3 different sides. A book for my bookworm side. A dozen of cupcakes that’re Adventure Time themed for my cartoonfanatic/adventuretimefanatic/kiddo side. 3 Kylie lipticks for my girly side. He knows me so well, and I want to Thank God that He gave me someone who can accept almost all of me. And with that, I rest my case. 

Even if I doesn’t show this all the time, I’m really REALLY proud of my brother’s improvement and achievements when he entered college. I’ve seen his progress since day 1. He still have struggles with some subjects but I can see that he also tries his very best to learn and improve the areas he’s not good at. 

2016 is the year that I purchased and received books the most! Thank you mother and Tito Andres for funding my love of books. Thank you Sheng for the books that you bought for me (and thank you because I’d never thought that I’d get hook with their stories). Thank you Ate Shy for lending me the books that I can’t afford and giving me some of it. I’m grateful for y’all!

These are just some of the things that I am grateful for in 2016! Thank you Lord for all your blessings! So with that, I now officially bid 2016 goodbye and welcome 2017 with a smile and a thankful heart! :D

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I’m like the moon. L U N A

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When I first read the title, I was really puzzled and intrigued of what it meant. As I finished this short film, I suddenly found myself smiling an thinking of you.

I know what’s my first duty of love... It is to listen to you without hesitations. I also know my second duty... It is to understand and accept you. The rest follows.

I love you, man.

I wrote this in the summer of 2015.

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To my Pirate friends, Faith and Shanea, I would like to thank you two for all these things..... 

thanks for the good and bad times

thanks for comforting me every time something’s bugging me (may it be org, love, family, or financial problem)

thanks for trusting me w/ your secrets and for keeping mine

thanks for respecting my beliefs

thanks for loving me despite my flaws and our differences

thanks for understanding me and having patience whenever I’m throwing a fit

thanks for constantly reminding me that you both love and will miss me

thanks for still trying to ask me to go with your hang outs even tho’ most of the time I don’t come

thanks for always lending your ears

and lastly, THANKS FOR EXISTING IN MY LIFE 

Thank you! I LOVE YOU BOTH.

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Pen and Paper

    I’m a fan of writing, reading, and thinking. I’m a fan of deep thoughts. I’m a fan of everything done with all the person’s heart and soul. But why can’t I make my own now?

    I used to write A LOT of poems, stories, or even just a piece of my mind. I USED TO. Now it’s really surprising if I even write once a month. Of course school and ojt works are not counted.

    It’s a shame that I can’t even compose a single poem right now. I’m a shame to my third-year-highschool self. To my third-year-highschool-self that composes two to three poems a day, that can finish a book in a month or two, that reads a lot of articles a day.... I’m a shame to my old self.

    Going back to my old self, to that old self, won’t hurt anyone. So go Lei... 

Write again. Read more again. Think more again. 

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Tayo lang ang may alam. Nandon sa pagitan ng paalam at pahiram.

Peryodiko

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I started to believe a little less everyday and it sucks.

How I Met Your Mother (via himym-obsession-love)

It REALLY SUCKS tho

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Twilight Zone

Here they come... Thoughts are coming. In my own twilight zone, thoughts are coming and writing is my only option to express some of them. Thank you tumblr. Here’s to the first mess that you’ll ever read from my messy mind.