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aplacestillunheard · 3 months

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You don’t know stress until you are 16000 dollars in credit card debt. Blowing your paychecks every week gambling trying to hit something big to pay a chunk of it off to make it feel more manageable and having the worst luck in the world every time you place a bet.

A few weeks ago I was merely millimeteres away from winning 6000 off of a 5 dollar bet and when that miraculously didn’t hit I have just been chasing crazy parlays ever since, thinking my time has to be coming and getting destroyed in the process. I’ve probably lost 10000 dollars in the last 2 years in gambling alone. Not to mention the over 15k I lost in trading card investments after MetaZoo took a dump and went bankrupt.

I make shit at my job that I hate doing and been losing all essence of the happiness I have left. When all you can think about is the debt looming over and how you are going to somehow make that money back, there is no room left to enjoy life or even function as a human being.

To make matters worse being in a long distance relationship with a girl in the Philippines who is struggling with 4 kids on her own and often depending on me to help her out. I just don’t know what to do anymore…

I deserve so much better for my life, I just wish I had the confidence and ability to take charge and make money from my skills and abilities. Scrubbing toilets and breaking my back to run trash and tires around a huge dealership for nearly minimum wage is not anything remotely close to what I thought Id be doing at 32 years old. 💀💀💀

#broke #depressed #stressed #me #fml #debt #lost #broken #help #gambling #unlucky

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aplacestillunheard · 3 months

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