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I forgot how bad of a headache I get when I really restrict

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stomach, waist and rib thinspo board💗✨

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like i know im crazy and im the jealous type to a huge fucking fault but like there does come a point where like... dont say things that are just going to upset me?? like if you know that saying something is just going to make me insecure about my body just like... dont say it? dont tell me?? i was texting the girl im dating and literally she changes the subject just to tell me that some girl in her abroad group chat sent pictures of herself in her bra and underwear to show off her abs. and [redacted] was like “it sucked like no one wanted to see that!!” but like... obviously im going to hear that and be like okay theres a girl with a nicer body than me who has the confidence of a goddess apparently and shes sending you pictures without clothes on!!!! how do you not see how that would make me hate myself and my body even more than i already do!!!!  and like dont act like youre so upset about getting pictures of a wicked fit girl in her underwear im not an idiot. [redacted] hasnt even left yet for abroad and this is already happening i truly dont think i can do this long distance for four months. this is awful and i hate myself so much and im not eating anything tomorrow or for the entire four months so im actually skinny when she comes back. i dont know why i would think for one fucking second she would ever want me when she could easily be with someone whos not fucking disgusting and is actually skinny. i fucking hate myself. im redownloading myfitnesspal this never would have happened if i didnt delete it. 

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This could like... totally be worse, right? This isn’t the worst body check y’all have ever seen right?

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this has nothing to do with my ed but i cant post it anywhere else so here we go

tw: sex 

i do NOT want to hear it from men who think it’s “too hard” to make a woman orgasm. theyre cowards. i made a woman orgasm 7 times in a row last night and im a BOTTOM

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reminder

whatever your problem is, the answer is NOT in the fridge

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meal: *actually worth like 400 calories*

Me: okay so I probably ate like a good 600 - 700 calories

My ED: actually it was 800 calories

Me: okay so cool I just ate 900 calories so that’s good to know

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let me get one thing straight: eating whatever you want, whenever you want, is not acceptable under any circumstances.

it is binge behavior. it is neither healthy nor natural. do you think our ancestors ate like that? no. they only ate after they worked to gather berries or bring down a deer. eating whatever you want will, without a doubt, make you gain weight, which is terrible.

do you want to be a worthless bingeing glutton? no. of course you don’t. so monitor your food intake, and only eat within your caloric limits. okay?

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i. can’t. wait. to. have. a. tiny. waist.

(not me in gifs)

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mood: delicate lace lingerie, a soft baggy sweater, fluffy white pillows, bubbly face mask, a glass of cherry wine.

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Can my eating disorder please make a decision and either let me stop hating myself or be bad enough to actually make me skinny

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I’m relapsing y’all who thinks I should redownload my fitness pal just to flex on my attempted recovery 🤪

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