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that silly tongue thing he does when hes about to do something

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"I don't want work issues" then stop fucking creating them. it's literally that fucking simple.

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the masculine urge to call in sick because I do not want to work with the problem coworker but the knowledge that the chance I'll work with them is slim and that in order to recieve a full paycheque two weeks from now, I must persevere.

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happy 20th anniversary to Saw!!!

(featuring some new bts photos provided by james wan on his instagram)

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is there perhaps an audience for damon salvatore because a fic may be in the works. perhaps

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getting paid but having a schedule that gives you time to kill is weird. Last job I had I worked twelves so for three days it was wake up at 6:00, get dressed and ready for work and be there by 7:00, and then work for twelve hours and go home after to eat, shower, piss and sleep. working a 9-5 type schedule now means I have free evenings to use.

how have I used those hours, you may ask? To reconfigure my budget three separate times, and to map out every single paycheque I will get for the next six months (I have a chronic anxiety disorder and am forgetful about taking my medication)

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FILMS WATCHED IN 2025: ↳ Dying Breed (2008) dir. Jody Dwyer

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God grant me the strength to do the things I enjoy

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okay so. work was work yesterday and I am in the mood to beat a dead fucking horse AGAIN so I am venting below the cut. if you are going to read, look at the tags first because I tagged this fucker accordingly and I am still fucking angry despite like 20 hours to marinate in my anger.

how the FUCK are you, a person who identifies as, at minimum, gender non conforming or nonbinary, going to be in the dms of another queer person and one of our fucking COWORKERS talking about "being trans is a phase"????

what the fuck is that?? I get that you identified as a trans man at one point and now you don't anymore, but your pronouns are still she/they. you still identify yourself as queer and nonbinary or gnc to an extent. what the fuck is that about?? you can't be for reals, saying that being trans is a phase while still identifying with some kind of a label that is quite literally under the trans umbrella?? what the fuck??

"being trans is a phase" as a trans man, knowing you said that?? nope. nope. you saying that as someone who was so deep into that "phase" that you got top surgery unendingly irks me. and you've talked about how want to transition again before but you've totally flipped the script?? being trans is a phase now?? shut the fuck up before you say something like that to the wrong person. if I catch you spreading that harmful rhetoric I don't care anymore, all fucking bets are off.

it's bad enough that you're bad at working in all of the facilities we rotate throughout, you had to add being a shitty person onto that??

How fucking dare you. you don't communicate when it comes to our jobs at all. when we were at a cafe you took over assigned tasks without asking either me or our other coworker, to whom said tasks were assigned prior to?? you talked to the casuals so fucking often that it quite literally left most of your tasks in the hands of me and our other coworker because you neglected to do them in the afternoons, and you bitched the singular time we neglected to ask you about an assigned task beforehand despite repeatedly taking mine and said coworkers throughout the week prior to that incident?

and now that we're doing manual labor?? every single stop we the day we were together I had to get on your case about putting on your fucking PPE as we were getting out to do our fucking jobs. it was me or it was our supervisor because you kept putting things in places you wouldn't remember to grab them from. you fucking idiot. keep your PPE in your lap or in your pocket when we're on the road because you won't forget it then.

I hope next week you get some form of comeuppance. I hope you get paired with someone who's fuse is short and who gets frustrated easily. I hope they give you advice til their face turns blue and you take absolutely fucking none of it and they get angry in turn because you DONT. FUCKING. LISTEN. I hope you get kicked out because you are unreliable, lazy as fuck, and you are an absolute shitheap of a human being who took interest in the opportunity we have because you needed money and have lost five jobs so far at only 21. you don't give a fuck about any of the stuff we're learning when you should. fuck off with that goddamned noise.

I cannot stand the sight of your face or the sound of your voice anymore and if we get paired together next week I am going to ask to be switched off because I vehemently refuse to work with you again. I will not work with a lazy piece of shit unless I have to and even then, I will only be cordial. I am not your friend, you are not mine, and I will never pretend to be such. fuck you, fuck your bullshit, and I hope you get what you deserve.

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Coworkers - A.F.S x gn! reader

okay!! Look at me!! Coming out of my like, two week accidental hiatus with an adam fic!! I was doing fine at work today until I wasn't and I came home, marinated in my anger at one specific coworker and general peeved-ness at them until this came of it.

this fic can be read with the reader gender neutrally, hence why it's titled that way, but I wrote this off the cuff with the reader in my head being a trans man or at minimum transmasc. I didn't use any gender indicators in it so it can be read either way and this is primarily just something I wrote for my own comfort but I also wanted to post because I haven't posted an adam reader insert fic in a fat fuckin' minute.

fic type - this is very fluffy!!

warnings - weed use, probably poor editing as I wrote this running on four or five hours of sleep after being awake for sixteen, and adam miiiiight be a little ooc but this is a drabble I whipped up in all of 20 minutes and it's only 400 words so I am going to post it anyway.

Adam chuckles as he comes onto the deck, the sound of his laugh meeting your ears and making you grin.

Fridays are always the singular day of the week you reserve for smoking joints, rolling them up yourself and grabbing a blanket to combat any breeze that gets a little too strong, either sitting on the singular chair you've brought out to the deck or standing while you smoke it.

It's sunset when he finds you, the springy sky in Jersey displaying a beautiful array of pinks, purples, blues and oranges of all shades as you stand leaning against the deck railing, joint in hand and a blanker wrapped over your shoulders because it's spring and the sunset, not quite summer and the sunset yet.

"Friday nights," Adam nods softly, his arms wrapping around your waist as he finds you. He's used to this, coming out and joining you while you smoke, whether he is or he isn't.

He kisses the side of your head, presses his chin against your shoulder just so. It's been eight months since he escaped the trap jigsaw had put him into, but the two of you have been together for a decade, having gotten together while you were in high school. Having you around keeps him calm, as he states it. And he doesn't get a lot of serenity these days, so you're happy to be the serenity he needs if he asks it of you. "I love you and your commitment to a routine."

You can't help it—you let yourself press your back against his front, the joint between your lips as you take a deep inhale. You exhale through your nose, offering the joint to him.

He declines. You sigh, let yourself melt into the feeling of his arms wrapped around you.

"I hate work," you laugh. "I mean—that's an overstatement. Coworkers suck."

"Why do you think I went into freelance photography? Business was booming, I got to pick my own hours, worked alone," he says, his tone a little sarcastic. "Only downside was this stupid fucker and a puzzle piece, plus a very distorted sense of justice on his part."

You laugh again, not out of obligation but because it's kind of funny in your half-stoned, exhausted state. "Yeah, I'll pass," you murmur. "I'm not good with a camera."

"And you're an awful lot better with people than I ever was," Adam nods. You turn your head and when he kisses you, you grin into it. It's a peck, lasts all of five seconds, maybe, but you can't help smiling anyway.

"I love you, you know," he says.

Your grin widens. You tap the joint out, and kiss him soft and sweet, turning to allow yourself to kiss him without an awkward angle. Your nose brushes against his at one point, and both of you are grinning like idiots by the end.

Your response is a simple "I love you, too," against his mouth, but he knows you mean it, and that's all that either of you care about in the end.

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"i'm going to be responsible!!" (it will eat nearly all of your paycheque)

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wait ok now i'm curious how old were you when you joined tumblr and how old are you now

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in my documence. straight up “writing it”. and by “it”, haha, let’s justr say. Words certainly

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orientation for six months of work is tomorrow and I still cannot believe I got into the program despite a spot being virtually guaranteed. like what?? I couldn't land a job for a year and I turned to an employment experience program in my desperation and YOU ACCEPTED ME?? YOU WANT TO GIVE ME WORK EXPERIENCE?? AND PAY ME?? THANK YOU SO MUCH BRO.

They said that there were 15 spots available on my first day of selection week a week and a half ago now, and there were 15 of us there so my spot was virtually a guarantee, but still. I feel very jittery and excited but that might just be the caffeine and the exhaustion

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writing is so fun

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there’s a big difference between “i’m sad because a character i was emotionally invested in was killed off” and “this character’s death served no purpose, was used for shock value, and is the product of bad writing and i’m upset about that”

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when people are like “he’s not even attractive you could find a guy that looks like him at any gas station” i’m like….. well you see there’s beauty everywhere actually