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hello yes so, im posting this from a browser instead of the app because ive gone and made a new account and ummm... if anyone mutuals would still like to be mutuals it's @unperson-in-april sooooo yee :)

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my new tumblr is @unperson-in-april

i think im gonna delete my two accounts here and start over with a different account because its annoying that my main account (this account) isnt my actual main on here, so all of my comments and asks and literally everything isnt from this account, its from my other (not main but tumblr considered main) and its just so annoying

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i think im gonna delete my two accounts here and start over with a different account because its annoying that my main account (this account) isnt my actual main on here, so all of my comments and asks and literally everything isnt from this account, its from my other (not main but tumblr considered main) and its just so annoying

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why is falling in love seen as romantic only? sure i fall in love with my (romantic) partner all the time, but i was on a call with my best friend today and the thought "im falling more in love with you" came to me and i just? its not romantic but im still falling more in love with him? why is this not a normal thing?

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Let's talk for a minute about how beautiful and strong Nick's attraction to Charlie is.

When they are at Harry's birthday party and they are alone having "THE" conversation that changes everything, it progresses with whether or not Nick likes Tara, no.

Charlie: So you don't have a crush on anyone at the moment?

Nick: (With NO hesitation!) I didn't say that. (And then his look of, "Oh my God! I just opened the door for my crush to ask me about my crush!")

Charlie: Oh! What's she like then? (Insert Heartbreak here.)

Nick: (Again! No hesitation.) You're just going to assume they're a she? (Again, he seems almost shocked at his own boldness, but also kind of excited!)

Charlie: Are they...are they not a girl? (Insert internal screaming and gay panic here.)

Nick: Um...(All of his previous braveness deserting him.)

That's ok, because Charlie is a man on a mission now. A mission of love!

Charlie: Would you go out with someone who wasn't a girl?

Nick: I don't know...maybe...? (I don't know if I would go out with another guy that isn't the one staring at me.)

Charlie: (Deep breath, be brave!) Would you kiss someone who wasn't a girl?

Nick: (No real hesitation.) I don't know. (Internal dialog, "Would I? I don't think so...I don't know...)

Charlie: Would you kiss me?

Now this is where Nick's attraction to Charlie gets beautiful, because he could say he doesn't know, because he is still so unsure about his sexuality. But what he isn't unsure of, what he knows without a doubt, is that he is attracted to Charlie.

His answer is after a hesitation, but only because he was busy looking at Charlie's lips, he had visualized that kiss before he even answered.

His answer, of course being, "Yeah."

Not a casual, yeah. Not an, I guess, yeah. But an excited, breathless, anticipatory, "Yeah." Like of course, without a doubt, I won't be able to breath unless we kiss kind of yeah.

And then they kiss and his face is full of all kinds of wonder and awe and amazement. You can see it in his face, he's almost overwhelmed with how incredible it felt to kiss Charlie.

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i'm an expert opinion haver when it comes to films by the way. for instance when i see a bad movie i tend to shake my head and think like. well why didn't they make a good movie instead. but not everyone is smart enough to think like this.

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I love talking during movies I’ll pause the movie to talk more during it I don’t care emergency meeting

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The nuclear family setup is so stupid. We should all live in interconnected tunnels with our friends.

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this shouldn’t have to be said but if someone who struggles with cognitive issues such as fibro fog, autism or adhd etc has difficulty speaking or getting their point across, do not point it out. im talking about stuttering, misremembering words and definitions, using the wrong words in place of other ones, mixing up words or merging them together. you are allowed to help us find the right word but wait for us to ask first and give us a chance to find it ourselves. blurting out random words causes a lot more confusion for us and we often end up losing our train of thought.

also, in a similar vein, we may pause to think about what we’re going to say next, and it’s important that you not interrupt. for me, my train of thought is already on the verge of derailing. if i stop talking mid-sentence, give me a second to find my words and sort out my jumbled mess of a brain. don’t start speaking like we’ve finished our sentence and please don’t just abandon the conversation. it’s very frustrating, especially when you make jokes or tease us for forgetting words or misspeaking and it makes it much harder for us to get to our point. and tbh it’s embarrassing and it sucks because our brains aren’t doing what we want or need them to do and we don’t need a reminder every time it happens.

like the jokes might seem harmless or lighthearted but it hurts nonetheless because we are constantly in a struggle against our own brains. it seems like it should be such an obvious thing, not to tease or make fun of someone with cognitive issues, but so many people do it, including some of you who don’t think you do— particularly if you don’t think the reason behind it is a disability. it’s not the same as joking about your friend making a typo in the group chat. those are minor slip-ups and they happen to everyone. for a lot of us, they’re constant. we’re almost always trying to get our brains to work with us rather than against us and pointing it out only makes it that much harder to concentrate on actually articulating our thoughts instead of focusing purely on avoiding misspeaking so you won’t point it out again. obviously this will vary from person to person, not everyone with these symptoms feels the same way i do, but i think it’s a good rule of thumb to just. not interrupt and/or draw unnecessary/unwanted attention to our speech problems. i don’t think it’s too much to ask.

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i hate you drank less water headache i hate you slept too little headache i hate you slept too much headache i hate you too stressed out to function headache i hate you forgot to eat headache i hate you excessive screen time headache i hate you cried too much headache i hate you exercised too little headache i hate you no reason headache i hate you

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Neurotypicals: Think Autistic people are exceptionally literal.

Autistics: Describe their experiences using phrases like:

My brain feels like it’s filled with cotton laced with barbed wire, it’s not safe for me to make decisions right now.

I’m entering a Wait Mode until we leave.

Just looking at that rotten food makes my skin feel slimy.

Neurotypicals: Assume the Autistics are using metaphorical language to exaggerate common experiences.

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ok NPD traits according to weirdos online so far:

Tax Fraud

Attempted Murder

Being some type of cartoon villain

Having an evil aura (highly effective against empaths)

- Not being able to get a bus pass

- hating french people

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actually a girl becomes a woman when her fantasies of violence are no longer focused inwards, but outwards 💗

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baby i can get angry over things you’ve never even imagined

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