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Constellation Notebooks by Sara McNally (constellationco on Etsy).

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Hey, I'm sorry it sucked when you weighed yourself. I'm sorry you didn't like the numbers you saw. Instead of hating yourself for it, try and use it for motivation. To eat better and work harder :) I know you can do it. It'll be ok <3 Xx

Thank you, I didn't think that anybody except myself would care enough to read the stuff I post here. It means a lot to me, people sometimes don't know how a tiny thing like someone just, saying something, can help. I'm trying to let it be motivational, but every time I eat food I find myself regretting it and pushing it away, but then I really want to eat so I do. And then I hate myself for not having the strength to stop. I've done alright today, I'm happy with what I ate. It's not that I want to stop eating. I want to eat well, and eat less, and do more exercise. So, I am going to. <3 thank you, gorgeous :) xxx

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Why.

Why did they make me weigh myself?

I was doing so well, since the weighing machine had been moved from my room and down to the kitchen, I stopped using it. I had stopped caring what I weighed.

I was at a weight I was happy with, relatively, and on my way down to a better one.

But then, tonight, we all weighed ourselves. 

I stood on the cold panel of glass and watched as the numbers flickered. 

I want to cry, I want to scream and rip at my stomach and pull out the food that's sitting there. I can feel it there, weighing me down. All the fucking food I shoved down my throat today, I want it out of my system. I want it gone.

I've never weighed more than I have done tonight. What have I done?

I feel sick.

And I know only one person is there to read this.

She can't help me, because I don't need help. 

It's not help I need, it's just less fat. There, I said it. Fat.

I'm not going to put down how much I weigh. Because it makes me feel disgusting. Even if anybody else disagrees. 

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If you love a flower, don’t pick it up. Because if you pick it up it dies and it ceases to be what you love. So if you love a flower, let it be. Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation.

Osho (via lunaoki)

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Question Time

Rule 1: Post the rules.

Rule 2: Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post and then make eleven new ones.

Rule 3: Tag 11 people and link them in your post.

Rule 4: Let them know they’ve been tagged.

My Questions:

What’s your favourite album at the moment? I don't really have a favourite album, but right now I'm enjoying The Killers, and P!ATD.

What superpower would you like to have? Flying/Invisibility/Teleporting/Shapeshifter/Telepath (sorry, that's far too many, I'd rather just be magic and have them all)

What would you change in your life if you could? I wouldn't change anything, because life is as it is, and I don't think I would like that kind of power :P deep, I know.

Do you have any phobias? If so, what are they? Suckery things, like tentacle suckers.

If you had one wish what would you wish for? (And you can’t wish for more wishes) Him to love me ^-^, and Jack to stop loving me.

What’s the worst lie you ever told? I don't love him, and he doesn't love me, and there's nothing going on between us.

Favourite month? Why? July, because it's HOT and it's SUMMER and it's HOLIDAY TIME!

What would you do if the zombie apocalypse started? Find Derren Brown and make sure it's not him.

What does your last text message say? Thank you!!

What’s your most embarrassing moment? Can't remember.

If you had been the opposite gender to what you are, what would your parents have called you? Never asked...

I don't really have anyone to ask except Catherine/Matthew. So right backatcha :P

1. Why Matthew? (I have time to listen to a long story :D ) 2. View on The Killers? 3. Favourite band and why? 4. One thing YOU could change about your life, and why? 5. One wish, can't have more wishes. 6. Favourite food? 7. Worst food in the World? 8. Favourite feature (yourself)? 9. Why does liking someone suck so much, in your opinion? 10. Favourite colour? 

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Everything has suddenly gone wrong.

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What if money were no object?

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