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Oh, so when they get spoken to by a god in their head they're a "prophet" and "will lead us to salvation," but when I get spoken to by a god in my head I have "DID" and "should go to therapy."

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Having multiple things that affect memory is always a fun time because it’s like, Did I forget [thing I’m positive I Know] because of ADHD brain or chronic illness brain fog or did the info just never get handed off to the alter who was fronting at the time???

Or was it possibly all three at once???

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based off of something i heard in headspace

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Ah, the classic system experience of not wanting to be perceived but at the same time wishing that people were able to tell you apart and recognize who’s fronting but also that’s not even something you can do most of the time and also unmasking is scary as fuck but also damn wouldn’t it be cool to be treated as individuals sometimes with the acknowledgment that at the same time we’re all part of the same person and at the same time-

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me: oh great im finally home from work time to relax and-

every single headmate ive split since age 6 with their own unique evening plans despite not being present all day:

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Oh I didn't mean to imply you were, I'm sorry

, I was just saying that's who I compare myself to when I think of rathering to not be a system, like if I wasn't a system, I would be a singlet lol like idk if that makes sense, but like trying to say "why would you want to be a system, because wouldn't it be better to be a singlet?" Is a question I ask myself when I'm having doubt about things I guess? Idk if that makes sense

Also yeah, to me it feels different, not every time obviously- there are times I've wished for someone to take over for me , and it's just me and I have to figure it out, but other times, there have been helpers who take on hard tasks for me that I wouldn't be able to do without them,

There's also downsides, you know, like the ones who take over and make things worse for me, but I prefer to try and stay positive and appreciate the ones who help me get through and also trying to help the ones who aren't as helpful because they're not bad or evil, they just need help to work on their skills and coping better

Idk if that makes any sense, but that's how it feels for me

If you like being a system, why?

Genuinely asking. I cannot fathom enjoying this.

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While it's also hard and debilitating sometimes,

Its nice to feel less alone and like if it gets too hard, there's someone else to take over and help

I know it doesn't make sense because a singlet probably just has the ability to cope and handle stress and do many different things

But for me, who can't do certain things, it's nice to feel like I have people who can take over for me and help me get through hard things

If that makes sense

If you like being a system, why?

Genuinely asking. I cannot fathom enjoying this.

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Sometimes communication internally is so clear other times it's like I can hear them talking in another room but I have no idea what they're saying

Common things in DID that no one likes to talk about

- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)

- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot

- staying in the front for weeks at a time

- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)

- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them

- constant denial

- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes

- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum

- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)

- disliking your system

- wanting final fusion

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they call me the switcher because i *reblogs one fandom, quickly reblogs a different fandom* and ladies loove the way i *switches alters*

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Hey. Your brain needs to de-frag. Literally it needs you to sit there and space out.

If you want your memory or executive function to improve, stare out a window at the skyline or sidewalk or trees or birds on the electrical wires for like 20+ minutes per day. (With no other stimulation like a podcast or TV if you can manage but hey baby steps innit). If you're fortunate enough to have safe outside with any bits of nature, go stare closely at a 1 meter square of grass and trip out on the bugs and shapes of grasses and stuff.

Literally this will make you smarter. Our brains HAVE TO HAVE this zone out time to do important stuff behind the scenes. This does not happen during sleep, it's something else.

That weird pressurized feeling you get sometimes might be your brain on no defrag.

Give your brain a Daily Dose Of De-Frag.

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Don’t mind me just system posting

Wip before I sleep. Kinda a vent because I’m frustrated with amnesia rn.

I hate not remembering fuck all outside of productivity.

That’s me, I’m the second one. The first one isn’t an alter just supposed to be the body or facade of a singlet idk

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"you cant use your disabilities an excuse"

there are many reasons why a disability will disable someone. before you call it an excuse, maybe try considering why their disability, visible or invisible, effects their abilities.

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