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redesigned qphil once again lmao

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(from Phil's 15th March stream VOD, at 4:41:16)

[viewer question is at 4:40:48]

phil: "[reads chat, refers back to a prior viewer question] It was Origins? Uhh... [he rereads the question again]."

'"'What led Origin Philza on the path he's on? What happened differently this time that didn't happen to the other Philza variants?'"'

"Uh, so, he was an orphan, and... he liked to believe that his parents were, like, super rich. But they weren't, and... and he just wanted to be, like-- He wanted to have everything, and own everything, and rule everything, so that he could eventually enlist the help of the people to find his parents. Because he truly believes they are still alive."

"[laughs] That's it! Origins Philza wanted to be king, by any means necessary, to find his parents. [laughs] That was the underlying thing that I was gonna reveal eventually, but we'll-- we'll never reveal it now. Like, officially-- on the server, y'know. That was like... the bit that I was gonna like--"

"It was gonna be this whole thing, where I was gonna control the server, take over everything, eventually start handing out jobs to people. And then eventually those jobs would stop being, like, interesting. They wouldn't be like, 'Build a village! Build this, build that, bababababah! Gift something to a friend.' I was gonna give people, like, literal tasks."

"And then, the tasks were gonna slowly start changing to: 'Travel 20,000 blocks in this direction, and tell me what you find.' 'Look for a tall man, with a scar on his left eye.' Like, just really obscure shit."

"And then people would be starting to worry about me, and I would stop being mean, and I'd start being really scared. [laughs] And then people would come to me and be like, "What's wrong?", and then I'd-- I'd break down. I was gonna have a breakdown, essentially... where my character just, like... either cries, or lashes out, because he just wants his parents back." [laughs]""

"[laughs, reads chat] 'WE WERE ROBBED' [responds] It's fine, now you know! Now you know. And all the riches in the world won't be able to bring them back. [laughs]"

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People bringing up Chayanne is a glass child like yeah this has been a huge thing and was one of the culminating points of the fight that happened with Chayanne and Tallulah last year. I love this family sm and I love the way q!Phil is portrayed as a flawed parent

I don’t think a lot of people realize that q!Phil is absolutely incapable of reading emotions specifically Chayanne’s. Especially when Chayanne hides them to act tougher and fine. It’s a double edge sword and it’s nothing that can be fixed if it’s not said to his face.

ex: when Chayanne said that he hated fighting q!Phil he IMMEDIATELY broke into “I’m so sorry” and apologized over and over again you can tell he felt HORRIBLE. He cracked the moment Chayanne started opening up about what he really felt.

q!Phil sucks ass at noticing when his kid feels a certain way and it’s something he KNOWS. It’s why they said they would open up to each other more because q!Phil just /cant/ read his kids minds. And Chayanne is trying his best to slowly let out his emotions and that’s GOOD.

It’s FINE. He doesn’t need to bleed right then and there. It will take time for him to process what happened and it will take time for him to open up and q!Phil will be there ready when he can.

And I know it fucking sucks to see it happen but I for one think it needs to happen.

q!Phil and Chayanne’s relationship is very unique and specific. They believe in each others abilities and trust each other to take care of themselves. Chayanne has always seen his dad as untouchable so imagine how he feels knowing that he’s not invincible?

Chayanne is a mirror image of q!Phil both in all the good and the bad. Things aren’t black and white as most people make it out to be and no q!Phil is not a horrible parent, he’s not a bad guy and no Chayanne does not think less of his father.

Having q!Phil in Chayanne’s life has been so important to his development and it’s been good. He just needs the balance that q!Missa brings. Because in all the flaws that q!Missa has q!Phil is there to pick him up and vice versa.

The death family is the most flawed, troubled, loved, imperfectly perfect family and it’s why I love them so deeply. Because through all the pain and flaws they prefer to go through it together. They love one another and support each other unconditionally.

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something possesed me (this is a wip probably)

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You can pry Bucket Hat Lullah out of my cold dead hands

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Quack

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Siblings reunited ♥

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Yayy!! It's the! Siblings!!

(Please reblog don't just like!!)

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Tallulah looked down at her hand.

Certificate of adoption.

“Lullah!” She quickly hid the paper and sprinted back into the house.

She did want to tell her Papa Phil, but she was nervous. It wasn’t like the first time, Lullah remembers very well the day she asked Phil to take her in temporarily. He already had a kid, Chayanne, and she was just someone dropped off at his doorstep. She didn’t know what Phil would think or if he would say yes, but today she knows this will bring him glee.

So why was she nervous? Phil loved her, she was already a part of the family. Or maybe it’s excitement bundled into nerves. When Lullah first saw the certificate she couldn’t believe it. Finally, an official form to show who her family is.

Lullah knows who her family is. It’s been crystal clear ever since they’ve entered this new island. But something about the certificate makes it feel set in stone, it makes her feel secure. It feels like the last piece of the puzzle slotting into place. She gets to step back and admire the work and journey to finally get to this moment.

She gets to flaunt this certificate around, gets to be seen as Phil and Missa’s daughter by more than just the family. No more fighting for extra cookies, no more back and forth with the federation about their situation. Lullah knew in her heart she was officially part of the family, but every single reminder that technically, she’s not, felt like a prick to the heart. And now she has it, physical proof that this is her family. Something she can touch and see.

It’s silly really, it’s just a piece of paper at the end of the day. But she can’t help and read the words again and again. No one could ever doubt who her family is. Not the federation, not any outsiders, nobody. One last fuck you to everybody holding her back and tying her to her past.

This is her family, and this is where she belongs.

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she is home lulah is home and she is amazing look at the baby

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Outfit swap!

:D

Emerald duo, they are happy :D

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Phil correcting himself and remembering to call her Lullah <3

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Deathduo/pissa versión furries

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Eres mi musa

Siempre serás mi musa

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It’s official! Gee, I wonder who made this certificate of adoption?

(I made this before I left, by the way!)

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Missing them hours I s'pose

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Stop.

I can't.