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what i don't understand about "free gaza from hamas" truthers is like... how is that being accomplished by the genocide? how is murdering civilians "protecting" or "freeing" them? how does destroying the land free anyone?

genocide doesn't free ANYONE.

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i am. so mad. because i don't WANT to make my parents cry. i don't WANT to hurt them. but that doesn't mean i don't disagree with them. doesn't mean there aren't things where i really do need to give them a Piece Of My Mind. like, whatever if they hurt ME, but don't i owe something to other people? to people they hurt in the name of protecting their porcelain, precious, pretty princess? (her father destroys her things, and ariel runs away, on two feet she sold her voice to have. don't they know that?) and the truth is i'm not strong enough for actual confrontation without falling into aimless anger. i'm not good enough to hold my ground without making anyone cry.

ANYWAYS what's up guys how is everyone on this lovely overshare hellsite doinggggggggggg

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i literally do not understand the urge to have children. like, maybe it's because i'm ace (have no interest in the sex) and have a laundry list of Issues, but i just... do not see the appeal. a) why would you want to go through parenting and b) why would you want to bring another life into this world to be traumatized by all its horrors???? (maybe that's the fact that i never REALLY did therapy for the sui ideation talking but like--)

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HII ^_^ Sorry to request again, but i really would like the hand heart again with the aroace spec flag?

i only know of this flag, if u know any other aroace spec flags u can add those too ! /nf

heres the flag btw !!

Sure! These are the two other ones I know besides that one

[ID: three emojis of hands making a heart shape, with aroace spectrum flags overlaid on hearts in the middle. The first uses the flag with purple, green, and dark teal. The second is similar to the ace flag but has teal at the bottom instead of purple. The third is the orange and blue aroace flag. /End ID]

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i can’t find words for my anger right now so here’s a collection of thoughts that share the sentiment

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[Certain TM] girl dads will be like "me too is a scam movement. now as a man i'm terrified of even working with women. they're all liars" etc. etc. etc.

up until their daughter is going to have a male roommate

and then it's all "let's go behind her back and fuck up all her relationships (with female friends, mind you) by upending existing plans, because Don't You Know That All Men Are Evil"

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as an american citizen, you have the right to assemble. the police and other governmental agencies violate this right through mass arrests, illegal use of force, criminalization of protest and other means that threaten our right to free expression.

DO NOT TALK TO THE POLICE:

they are not your friends. they are not there to protect you, regardless of your race. their presence there is to protect the interests of the state.

what to do if you are detained or stopped by the police:

do not resist, even if you think they are violating your rights.

calmly ask someone to record.

ask if you’re free to leave. if you are, walk away.

how to stay safe during a protest:

write phone/legal aid numbers on your body. bring a sharpie for others to do this.

ALWAYS use the buddy system. don’t be selfish & stick to your own friend group. if you see someone alone, invite them into your circle.

don’t know where to seek legal aid?

before attending/during a protest, visit http://nlg.org/chapters/#massdefense.

NLG chapters are organized into regions. find. your region and write their number on your body.

encourage others around you to write that same number on their body.

4. if you are threatened with or under arrest:

you have the right to know why you’re being arrested. calmly ask. if they refuse to provide a reason, stay quiet and ask for legal representation immediately.

do not give any information or sign anything without a lawyer present.

what to do with your phone during a protest:

put your phone on airplane mode

disable face ID/touch, replace with 6-digit passcode instead

spreading awareness is great but avoid posting photos of people that include identifying features.

police want everyone to leave the area, what should that look like:

shutting down a protect through a dispersal order must be the last resort for police.

a clear danger must be present.

police must give adequate time for protesters to disperse and an exit route.

what are your rights if you’re being stopped or detained by police:

you do not have to consent to you or your belongings being searched. if you consent, anything can be used against you in court.

police can conduct a “pat down” if they suspect you have a weapon.

if you see someone being detained, what should you do:

record the interaction. police can not demand to view or delete any footage without a warrant.

use calming affirmations towards the person being detained. they are likely scared. be there for them.

use whatever privilege you have to protect others.

if you see a disabled person struggling, offer to help. find medics to assist people experiencing anxiety or having a panic attack. if you see a BIPOC being harassed, surround them.

personal note on using your privilege: i have seen white people, countless times, place themselves in front of BIPOC when police draw weapons/approach protests. it often works.

do not be a person that just acknowledges their privilege, use it for good.

10. remember that we protect us. ignite this chant as a reminder to everyone present if you have to. communities are supposed to help one another. don’t be a sell out, offer support, share resources, food and water. be a kind soul.

if you can not participate in a protest for whatever reason, you can still help! drop-off supplies! (water bottles, allergy-friendly foods/snacks with ingredients labels on them, sharpies, cards with legal aid numbers on them, masks, makeup remover wipes, hand sanitizer, etc)

sources/disclaimer: main source:

@ACLU and my own opinions. this is not legal advice. consult legal representation if you are in need of assistance.

stay safe, be on the right side of history. black lives matter, no one is illegal, we protect us, land back, all oppression is connected and free palestine. 🇵🇸

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the Columbia University arrests are worse than they seem. They're arresting protesting students for trespassing. It goes without saying students cannot meaningfully "trespass" in the common areas of a university they attend. So Columbia University has suspended all student protestors from their institution, in the process revoking their access to housing, their belongings, and most crucially damaging their academic futures. We are witnessing full scale silencing and removal of anyone of conscience from the next generation of academia.

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Colonizers write about flowers. I tell you about children throwing rocks at Israeli tanks seconds before becoming daisies. I want to be like those poets who care about the moon. Palestinians don’t see the moon from jail cells and prisons. It’s so beautiful, the moon. They’re so beautiful, the flowers.

— Noor Hindi, from “Fuck Your Lecture on Craft, My People Are Dying,” DEAR GOD. DEAR BONES. DEAR YELLOW.

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hey google (but fuck google though) how to do rebellious shit (because you are fucking angry) but not hurt anyone

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kid is extremely annoying

i think "wow, they're extremely annoying"

i think "hey, you were like that as a kid too" and have compassion

i realize "you fantasize about killing your younger self" which makes me question if enabling the behavior is truly productive

i realize "ok wait fuck my brain is actually a toxic chemical dump"

nothing productive has occurred in this train of thought. nonetheless, it shall recur tomorrow.

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like you are literally making fun of boycotters. i am literally boycotting. where is this middle ground you speak of???

h o w am i meant to believe that our opinions are "not even that different" when yours is "no one should take sides" and i own a kufiya and go to protests. like i sure as hell ain't a good activist but i certainly don't believe we should all just stay out of it. so like. no. we are not the same actually.

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h o w am i meant to believe that our opinions are "not even that different" when yours is "no one should take sides" and i own a kufiya and go to protests. like i sure as hell ain't a good activist but i certainly don't believe we should all just stay out of it. so like. no. we are not the same actually.

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cannot believe I'm being both-sides-ed with "but jesus loves everyone". i cannot fucking do this

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like, i'm not a zuko & ozai situation, you know? my parents don't want to burn the world to the ground. i'd say they'd never lay hands on my either, but then again, spanking was a thing, actually, oops. either way, they've never been abusive. they've never done anything i can point at and say "yeah, that's evil".

and like. of course that's how it is! we're humans. most of the bad shit that happens in this world doesn't stem from someone twirling their mustache and cackling. so much pain comes from people confident in their goodness. of course there's no proof they're irredeemable, because they're not.

and maybe that's the hard part. the knowledge that maybe, they could be better. that in a universe a hair to the right, they wouldn't have been like this. that maybe, maybe it's on me a little bit that they haven't changed for the better. maybe it's on me for not arguing well enough or often enough. maybe they are not my responsibility, but maybe there is -- was -- something i could do to change things.

ANYWAYS this is what happens when i visit my parents apparently lmao

the thing about being raised fundie/evangelical and being an apostate now is i will never trust my own mind or my own beliefs. i will always hate my parents for what they made me (and i will always love them because how can i not?) and i always hate myself, too.

and i will never really know what to do with that.