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WAIT so I got on here to look for a specific Sylvia Plath quote hahahahahahaaaaaaa (I know teenage me is good for a Sylvia Plath quote) and this came up in the search for some reason? And I just wanted to say that IT'S SO WILD THAT I FORGOT YOU SENT THIS but oh my god it WAS about me and it WAS about a treachery someone did to me and I WILL INDEED never trust again!! Like actually wow congratulations. And if you're reading this I hope you die. Not the person who sent me this, the person who did the treachery. Like honestly just die.

But anyway. Back to Sylvia Plath. And like... not being on here.

wait until you find out some old friends of the past committed serious treachery against you years ago that is so foul and unforgiving and totally out of character that you simply cease to exist. you will never trust again.

MAN, I don't know what it says about me and my specific trauma and also the way people have maliciously used my ask box over the years, but when I first read this I was certain you were trying to imply that either I was about to find some shit out about my own friends betraying me or that I myself was an old friend who did something treacherous to someone. I felt an immediate surge of adrenaline and anxiety.

Then I showed this to some people and all of them were like "no, that's probably just someone actually dumping about their own stuff" and that made me feel better.

Anyways! I am sorry you went through that. I experienced something similar once and I'll agree that I never really healed from it fully. There are very few things in my life that still actively sting when I think about them, but that is one. And it sounds like your thing was probably worse. I hope you're able to pick up the pieces and have better people in your life in the future, anon.

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It's my 15 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Missed this by a bit. Just a reminder that I hate almost all of you <3

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It's my 14 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

I know I'm off of here now, but I got a notification about this and it made me laugh because I don't understand the math. The date of this blog's inception remains a mystery. But hey, not many of us with an in-tact blog can say 14. So there's that.

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This is such a weird post to make, but I feel like I have to send it off somehow!

I made this blog when I was 15. I'm now 29. Dang. (I always thought it was toward the end of 2009 when I first made this thing, but according to my sources it may have in fact been early 2010... oops. I've been a fraud this entire time.)

This blog is one of the most special things I've ever had, if not THE most special. It's a time capsule of every moment of my life since I was a freshman in high school -- or it would be if I didn't delete all those posts back then, but summer afterwards is close enough. I count myself incredibly lucky that this even exists at all. Until this website shuts down (in probably the quite-near future) I will always be able to consult this page for every picture and every memory I could ever want to revisit from my teen years and early 20s.

But over time this has become a ghost town. Really, most of my friends stopped using this website YEARS and years ago, and a lot of my online friends have also left by now. I'm in contact with all the important people on other platforms. Meanwhile, this platform is accessed primarily by people who have no access to me otherwise, because tumblr has no proper privacy measures by design. My blog is no longer viewed by friends and online acquaintances, but by stalkery freaks, both of the lusty online kind and the psycho real life kind. I stopped posting about my personal life forever ago now primarily because of that, but even the occasional shout-into-the-void vaguepost gets those people off.

With that being the state of affairs here, I think it's time to just shut this down. I'm sure I'll get on here from time to time and maybe occasionally post if it seems fitting, and I'll forever go over my memories here when they pop into my head, but I'm not going to actively log onto and post on tumblr anymore. I have to close this vector of surveillance and pain for my own well-being.

Anyway... eternal gratitude for this utter trash-heap of a website. I love you forever. Let's not be strangers.

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Cat (Pet Commission) Gouache and Ballpoint Pen on 12 inch Wood Panel

Print Shop | Commissions | Tip/Donate

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Colors vs Final Illustration <3

I wanted to give folks here a heads up that I've deleted my Redbubble account (they added a crappy fee structure + they've never been good at paying artists fairly), so if you want prints you should use my Inprnt. Thanks!

Commissions are currently open; email at silverthegold@gmail.com for inquiries.

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tumblr walk of shame (frantically reblogging 908 different posts to cover personal posts where you uncomfortably overshared about your mental state)

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Cozy drinks for cozy moments ☕️✨

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gals

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Honeymoon suite in abandoned Mount Airy Lodge in Poconos, PA

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all the stickers in my shop✨