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Blanc — Lowee Bunny [4K Resolution]

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[4K] Noire / Black Heart — Beach Goddess

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[rkgk] Purple Heart — Captured

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You May Not Be My Big Sister… But I Am Still Your Little Brother.

[Warning: This is a long post and contains a lot of ranting about my feelings and experiences.]

In the world of online art and fandom, friendships can feel intense and real, even if you’ve never met the person on the other side of the screen. That’s exactly how it was with Lu and I. We connected quickly, drawn to each other by our shared interests and passion for art, and we got close fast—really close. Before I knew it, we were calling each other “little brother” and “big sister.” It felt like a bond stronger than friendship, almost like family, and for a while, we were inseparable.

But then, something happened between us—something I wish I could undo. We made a mistake, one that went beyond any friendship line, and it left Lu traumatized. She couldn’t see me the same way after that, and I could feel her pulling away. She even asked me not to call her “big sister” anymore, a request that hit hard. It was a reminder of how much our bond had changed, damaged by that one moment we both regretted.

Even though things felt broken, I didn’t want to give up. I still cared about Lu, so I kept trying to be the friend she deserved. I created fan art for her, hoping it would show how much I valued our connection. But her response was not enthusiastic. While she’d celebrate other people’s fan art, she hardly reacted to mine. It hurt—being treated like I didn’t matter, especially after everything we’d been through. Eventually, I reached my limit. I couldn’t keep putting myself through the disappointment and hurt, so I made the decision to walk away. I removed her from my life, thinking it was the only way to protect myself.

Lu noticed. I could tell she was sad, maybe even hurt by my leaving, but by then, I was too frustrated to care. A month passed without a word between us, but my anger kept building. On her birthday, I just couldn’t hold it in anymore. I reached out to her, and in that moment, all the anger, resentment, and pain I’d been carrying spilled out. I told her everything I felt, even how much I hated her for what she’d put me through.

To my surprise, Lu responded. She apologized, acknowledged the hurt she’d caused, and even begged me not to make our situation public. Despite my anger, I agreed. I kept our story to myself, choosing not to expose her, even though part of me wanted to. I could tell she genuinely felt bad, and that made things complicated. Because here’s the thing—I still cared about her. Even though she’d hurt me, even though I resented her, I couldn’t completely let go of the feelings I had for her. It’s strange how someone can hurt you so deeply, yet part of you still wants to protect them.

Now, another month has gone by, and I’m left questioning if I made the right choices. Should I have exposed Lu and what happened between us? Or was keeping it private the right thing to do? And maybe the hardest question of all—why do I still care about someone who treated me so badly? I feel torn between my anger and the bond we shared, even if it’s broken now.

I find myself afraid to seek out another sibling figure because I don’t want to relive what happened with Lu or risk removing the place she had in my heart. I miss her… and it’s hard to reconcile those feelings with everything that has transpired.

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[rkgk] Mechadimension Neptunia — Grimgerde IF

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[rkgk] Purple Heart — Half-Body Illustration

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[rkgk] Black Heart — Full Body Pose

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[rkgk] Nepu Pizza

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[4K] Vert — Rabbit Hole

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[4K] Blanc — Pokédance

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Bunny Blanc — Hyperdimension Neptunia

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Nepgear — Purple Sister [Beta]

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Doodle Bunny Blanc — Hyperdimension Neptunia

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Heres a nepgear maid hehe ~~ At your service ~~

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Original art made by tsunako , its my try of recreate

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gege evolves i guess?

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Nep!