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one thing about sports rpf that sets it apart is that these aren't about supernaturally beautiful people like actors and musicians and kpop idols are which is practically a criteria for any media facing job; made to be aesthetically beautiful and trained to be charismatic. athletes are often charisma vacuums because they start so young and are hyperfixated on their sport and have no personality beyond it. most of them are actually quite plain looking. there's some notable exceptions of genuinely stunning face cards but most are pretty average and the ones that are considered hot are actually hot for An Athlete. now I know some of you are disagreeing vehemently, blorbo from sportsball is the prettiest of them all, but really it's cause sports fans have so much exposure therapy to them, seeing the same faces all the time over a year and engaging in media about them, that they start finding beauty in the mundane where when you get to know someone you realise they're actually beautiful to you. now there is a notable scale where the more popular a sport/team/athlete is, the more they have entire hair and makeup departments for magazine shoots and interviews where they are styled or at least aware of what hairstyle or way to carry themselves looks good on them, and that adds to their overall attractiveness. scale down and you'll see someone calling a male cyclist with fucked up teeth who looks like a product of balkan incest a gorgeous girl. and that's how you get novel length and often better quality written rpf about dudes who look like in every other life were destined to the local town's convenience store cashier bored out of his mind at a gas stop in between your road trip you'd never spare a second thought of again. and I think that's beautiful <3

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lta finals moodboard

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Happy Yoyi because he's happy and that's so important to me HE WON AND HE WAS SO HAPPY I AM NORMAL I AM NORMAL ABOUT THIS MAN

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I do the opposite of gatekeeping, I’m not going to shut up until you like this thing as much as I do

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Thanks for the hard launch Vladi?

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Ahhh I don't want to think that Hyoshun is going to overthrow JP in less than a month, haha...

Anyway, I'm still stuck in a loop of seeing JP in every little thing and then make an AU.

But just look at them AaAaAaAa

Oh yeah my 9 years old me would be so freaking excited.

"I knew that what happened in Libra doesn't stay in Libra..."

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learning japanese for my oshis <3

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everyone says 'cringe is dead' all the time and yet the cycle persists likely due to the fact that many feel the need to rip off old skin rather than let it scab over and fall off. no your previous interests and passions were not 'cringe' and killing them will not prevent the world from stifling the new you. you are allowed to change and you are also allowed to have been something else before you changed. and you can go back again. evolve constantly instead of spinning around to bite at your own tail

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dissociative amnesia haver: wow i wish i remembered shit

dissociative amnesia havers when they remember:

dissociative amnesia havers when the memories then get taken from them:

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Sometimes I just randomly think about the fact that years of my life were wiped out of my memory and just stare blankly at the ceiling like. Why. Why am I like this. What the fuck is wrong with me. Like I know why I'm like this, I know what went wrong technically but why.

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She is all alone.

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23. Note

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fuck this i'm becoming a koi fan viva españa viva el motherfucking rey