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hcsv\hhh

For the word of God is living and effective and sharper than any double-edged sword, penetrating as far as the separation of soul and spirit, joints and marrow. It is able to judge the ideas and thoughts of the heart.

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One possibility is the metanorm: the treatment of non-punishment as if it were another form of defection; that is, player will be vengeful against someone who observed a defection but did not punish it.

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week 11, 수요일

12시에 일어났다,

3시, 학교 카페

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days forgotten

attachment disorder, case of unresolved (or transformed) separation anxiety; affection distorted, so as been said, in a word, i don’t love. barely kind. unkind; trying to look polite. seem alright.

infant antisocial, the dog and all the other victims; was very tactful as a child — trait of lovechild-orphan. even now, wouldn’t talk. wouldn’t cry, will watch and smile, will do whatever to satisfy them; serving. will fall asleep as soon as being ordered to do so — again, just a common trait of intelligent orphan. 

therefore adaptable. highly flexible. but the lack of orders, a structure; just another work to be done. 

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최근의 관심사들.

피아노 연습은 월광소나타 3악장 + 체르니 50 마지막 곡.

클래식 음악은 말러 6번 andante. 

robinhood

삼톡

녹차 모찌 아이스크림

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할로윈

 1p proposal 과제를 해야 하는데 영 귀찮아서 아무 것도 못하고 있다. 한 글자도 쓰고 싶지 않다. 아마도 내일 하게 되겠지.

 최근에 많이 쳐지고 있다. 오늘은 학교를 가지 않았고.. 번아웃? 그것보단 잘 안풀려서.

  간단하게든 여기에 글을 자주 써야겠어. 아니 어디든, 짧게라도 자주 글을 쓰는 편이 좋다. 1) to keep track of myself, 2) to calm these unbridled emotions, 3) to plan and think ahead.

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읽을 게 너무 많아 잉 ㅠ

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mahler n.6 finale

 처절한 투쟁과 패배.

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don’t you want my dirty love?

Hey bird, it’s all for you. You fool, I did them all.

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I make war, not love.

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18 summer, week 7, wednesday

멜라토닌을 평소보다 많이 먹고 잤으며, 악몽을 꿨다. 

오랜만에 학교에 가는 대신, philz coffee에 가서 리딩을 했다.

Day was not bad, but somehow I’m in the Mahler mood again. They sound like screaming. Violins, violas, cellos and basses. Everywhere, ever-screaming. And then everyone gets tired of, so sick of your depression. Desperation, so sick of your death. My death. Our death. The end. Finally finished. All dead. Everything gone. Relief. You will be gone too.  

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'Cause every time you smile it's a fake.

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my fragile mind

좀 더 강해지고 싶어.

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saw you caught between. all the people around. making the scene. and the bright ideal tomorrow... don’t go too far. stay who you are.

you will be, beautiful confusion

is king --- the talk of your town.

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Will is

smart, soft, stubborn, kind, trustful, protective, winning. Brainy. I think I better follow him around.

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2018 summer, 4th week

일요일이라 그런지 굉장히 여유롭게 느껴진다. 좀 일찍 일어났으면 더 여유로웠을텐데ㅎㅎ 내일부터는 10시엔 일어나야지!