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[arstde]

The Wound

"I'm going home"

Right after i left the war i never wanted before, wounded

-

"It's too deep. This may take a while to heal"

"Thanks doc. I'll make sure to take care about it"

He left me alone in the room. I walk to the front of the mirror and turn around. Yes it's so deep. I must have a really bad sleep because of this. I need to be extra careful for that.

"Hey, you okay there?"

The doctor is back, seems like he forgot something.

"Oh, yeah. I'm okay. The medicine helps me"

"You better never look at it again. It would just brings the pain"

"Only the matter of time that i would remember about this scar. Either i'm looking at it or not."

"You should try to live with it" as he left me again, bringing the document he forgot before.

"I'm gonna live with it forever"

-

"Hey i promise, we would help each other out there" the captain handled me the gun

"I'm really not ready for this, capt. I never did this before"

"Relax. The captain is here" said someone who has been in the war for 2 years, confidently

"Yes and don't forget that he is experienced. He would help you a lot"

"Okay then. I believe you guys"

-

"Sir, here. I finished it" as i handled my 1st weekly report to my new boss

"Thanks. You're looking better day by day."

"Thanks boss" i smiled and left.

I take a round to the pantry to take some tea. Lack of sleep makes me need some light caffeine.

"You really impressed the boss lately"

"Umm thanks? Sorry but do we know each other?"

"Nope. But i heard about you. Just be careful that you might get fired if someone finds out about the war"

I spilled the tea and i feel the scar hurts again.

-

"Jeez. I don't expect something like this" the captain shouted, dodging the bullet behind the wall

"Capt what should we do?"

"Shut up. Your panic doesn't help at all"

"Capt is right. You're just a burden for us" even with his experience, he seems not ready aswell

"But i need you guys for this. I can't go there alone" as i crawling, wounded on the back

"We fight by ourself. We don't need you anymore. Just go"

"But you guys are like my own family. I'm here to help"

"He said go. Listen to the capt"

-

"You left?" The doctor looks surprised

"They asked me. What should i do then?"

"Do you know what happen to them?"

"I don't wanna know about that"

-

"You can't do this anymore. It's better for you to go far away. It might help you a lot"

"Am i really want the war? But i don't know if they still want me to be there"

"Can i leave this? Or it would be just another useless and painful runaway?"

As i said to myself. Looking at my back on the mirror.

[arstde]

The City Park

"This place looking nice for me to stay"

As i'm entering the city park for the first time

-

Walking around alone, looking at all these people busy in their own business.

Some of them are playing football, some of them just talking to each other, or some of them are just alone with their own stuff. Reading books, listening music, and eating.

I wonder if there are an empty seat.

"Hey, you! Nice shoes right there!"

A little girl shouted at me. Wearing an old fashioned shirts. Looking too old for a girl with her age.

"Nice shirts there"

"Thanks! You're looking for an empty seat? You can sit next to me here"

"Ah thanks!"

-

"Jeez you're such a hard girl"

A girl in her early adult age trying to fight the little girl.

"No! You are"

"No it's you"

"You"

-

"Hey it's you again!"

"Brother i've been waiting for you. Look at my homework here. It's tiring"

"Well i wish i could help you with that but i know nothing"

"Well... at least you're here"

"Yeah... i think i'm comfortable to be here... looking at this crowd is scaring me... but you make me forgot about this"

"Hey you should try to break yourself with that. People are nice"

She doesn't know that i had a problems with a crowd before.

-

"Okay here it is. The beautiful clever young girl who shared a same interest with me. And she's rich"

The little girl introduced me to a fine looking woman.

"Oh, hi! Yeah she talked about you yesterday. She said she often meet you here when i was not around"

I stumbled with my words.

"Yeah hi! Nice to meet you too"

The fine lady accepts my handshake nicely.

"Okay now i'm the only kid between two grown up human"

"Shut up" both of us replied

-

"Hey give me that one"

"No give me that one"

I came just to find these two younger girl fighting again.

"You two are so cute. I feel like an older brother here"

"Yeah we know it"

"So... how's your day girls?"

"I'm just dying with homework"

The little girl pouting while keep writing on her book.

"I had a nice day one with my professor"

Her eyes staring the sky, imagining things happen.

"You?" Both of them replied nearly at the same time

"Just a rough day at work, as usual"

"You can tell us if you have problems, you know"

"Umm... i don't think you and this little girl would understand"

"Hey !! I know i'm just a kid but at least i could listen to you"

"Yeah we would listen to it"

"Okay... there is something..."

We spend the time at the city park to talk about problems.

-

"Uhhh... hi..."

A quite nervous girl that looks like older than me standing in front of us.

"So you guys should be so nice to her okay? We could be frienda but please treat her carefully"

"Okay it's easy" the lady replied.

"You know i'm sometimes rough, don't you?"

"It's okay she could handles. Just don't mess with her, brother"

"Okay little girl got it"

-

"Where is she? Haven't seen her a lot lately"

"Well she must be busy at college what did you expect?"

"Yeah of course. And you gonna keep doing that homework?"

"Of course. Don't you mind?"

"Well okay sorry"

There are only two of us sitting there. The park seems a bit empty for today.

"Hey you know what, little girl. I think i like her"

"Yeah she likes you too so what"

"I mean... i like her..." i tried to highlight it.

"Oh... well then try it"

"Yeah i'll try"

-

"I found that this place is the most comfortable one for me"

"Yeah me too" as she replied with milktea in her hand

"She really likes to talk with new people huh? Look at her there in the playground"

"Ah yeah true. Actually i know some of them too tho. I often go there to talk when you're not here"

"Well... maybe i can't. I can only sit here and wait for you guys."

"It's okay this place is still the most special place for me"

-

The clock struck 20:00.

No single person came to sit next to me in that day.

"Ah... little girl is in the playground again" i talked to myself.

"Hi... you're alone?" The older lady come approaching me.

"Yeah. Seems that kid having new friends. And the other lady is busy as usual"

"Well... i don't have a place to stay other than this one"

"Me neither. Sometimes i feel sad when those two not coming here."

"Let them be. It's their choice"

-

"NO I DON'T WANT TO. I WANNA PLAY THERE"

"Please i need someone to talk here"

"You can't force me with that"

-

"Did you just... what just you did to this seat?"

"Sorry i broke the seat. I was having problems and just wildly kick the seat"

"Now it's broken and we can't sit here. It's your fault!"

"Sorry girls i don't mean to. I had problems to control myself"

"You're a dick. We hate you" as they leave me alone and never come back to the city park.

[arstde]

The Regular Conversation

"Good night. Have a nice sleep"

-

"Good morning. Have a nice day ahead"

"Yeah you too, baby"

"You at work? Goodluck babe"

"Yeah thanks. You too"

-

*send picture*

"Ahh... she is so pretty"

*send picture*

"My heart"

*send picture*

"LET ME LIVE"

"I love you too"

-

"You are so special to me"

"You are special to me too"

"I wish it would be forever right. Maybe in several years we could meet"

"It's a promise"

-

Yes, that was our regular conversation. We could talk about it over and over again without getting bored.

And no, we probably won't talk about it anymore. Because i screwed up all the things. Thought that we feel the same way but actually only a one way.

I wonder what will you say if we were on our peak of our relationship. You gonna say the same? Or it is because we already have a gap after some of the problems?

Well i said this like you would read it. I know you won't.

I'm gonna miss these kind of conversation. I'm gonna miss waiting for your reply, your unexpected response.

I'm gonna miss you.

[arstde]

The Confession

"YOU WHAT?"

"Don't fucking yell like that at me"

"Just kidding. It's expected anyway"

-

06:45

Riding off the street in the morning. Already fired for what was expected to be happen at work.

~Me no ma e no, garasu wo ware!~

Rock song with some hard choreo. Somehow can't overshadow my actual feelings there.

"I wish you will appear in my dream"

She said last night.

"Well, no luck for me. But i had a nice sleep. Thanks to you. So good morning and have a nice day ahead"

At least i helped her.

-

"I'm dirty. Look!" *send picture*

"You're always dirty"

"My mind is always dirty. My clothes isn't"

She's right. Everytime i complained about work is when i did a lot or i took an overtime. And that is when i was dirty.

"I'll take a shower and then dinner after this. How about you?"

"I'll wait you home and we can talk again, okay?"

-

"WHY SO SUDDEN? BUT YOU SUPPORTED ME BEFORE?"

"Sorry but you need to know it is almost impossible"

"I know it is but do you mean i should put down my feeling? After you said i should try it?"

"Maybe i was wrong. But you need to put it down"

"I can't believe it. You just disappointed me"

Friends are unexpected. I need to be careful when i'm telling people about your feeling towards someone.

-

"Hey i won a competition at my workplace! I got money too" *send picture*

"Good job there. I'm proud of you"

"Thanks. I wonder what should i do with this money"

"You can save it? Or maybe just buy some idol stuff"

"I wish i can spend this with you. A nice dinner, a movie tickets, and... a milktea"

"It's a promise"

Everything looks so promising. Everything looks believable.

Except your friend.

-

"Do you think my voice is like a call girl voice?"

"Eh... what? Well it's been a while since our last call so i'm kinda forgot"

"Jeez my friends said that. I can't believe it"

"I think they're right tho"

"HEY"

"Okay okay just kidding. Let me prove then. You free tonight?"

-

23:14

1:20:17

*calls ongoing*

"Can you see the moon from your place?"

"Ah.. yeah. It's a full moon right"

"Isn't it beautiful?"

"Yes. But do you know that we always face a same side of moon everyday? Since it's rotation and revolution time are same"

"You are such a genius"

"I know. Well... it's hiding behind the cloud now"

"I think i'm gonna take a night walk. I should hang up for now"

"Well take care there. I'll wait for you"

-

"I had a lot of problems lately. And it always involving you"

"That's life. Not everything we want would come out as a good results"

"I'm trying to fix it"

-

*chat read*

"Sorry i spammed you. I just want to talk"

-

"You're busy again"

"Sorry i need to do something. Goodnight in advance"

It's not the same anymore.

-

"At least you know it. And you know it from me. I'm preparing myself for the worst. I'm gonna bury myself after this"

"I'm sorry but i don't feel the same way at all"

"It's okay. Sorry i have to drag you into this mess"

"You should find a good wife"

"Goodluck for whatever you do. I'm not waiting for you anymore. But i'm here if you ever need me"

*chat read*

-

06:00

~konna ni setsunai asa ga kuru nante

ima made yosou mo shinakatta

tokimeki na no ka

osaeteta nanika sakebou to shite iru-

[arstde]

The Milktea

"Ah, so we gonna keep going for more hours again huh?"

"Well... it's been weeks... what did you expect?"

-

23:00

I could finally go home after a long day, again. Riding through the dark street. Damn i forgot i don't have my dinner yet.

That place would be nice.

"Fried rice and milktea, please"

Going home with a full stomach.

I think i have a place to save me from hunger.

-

"How's your day? Busy at work again?"

She spares her time to reply my text

"Well, yeah as usual. And you?"

"As you can see. Staying up late for study"

"You don't skip your dinner right?"

"No, of course. It's YOU who often skipping it. You had it?"

"I got it, thanks. Fried rice and milktea"

"A milktea?"

I think i have something to be reminded of.

-

"No milktea today?"

"Hey, i got milktea yesterday. Should i have it again today?"

"I can have it everyday. Milktea is heaven for me"

"Yeah, guess i like milktea even more because of you"

"Kind of. Milktea is now more special to me"

I was staring there. A little bit pissed of thinking about distance.

"I wish i could share it with you"

"It's a promise"

-

"Sorry but you should stay late here in the next few days"

"It's okay boss, i'm fine"

-

"Milktea after work?"

"Yes of course" *sent picture*

"Ahhh nice, as usual"

That was my countless milktea picture i took for her.

"The waitress is starting to know me. Like if i came here he would know i would order a milktea again"

"Is it good right? I'm happy by just looking at the milktea picture you sent to me"

I'm going home with a full stomach, and a smile on my face.

-

"I'm pissed... the milktea store i usually buy is closed now"

"Eh? Then how could you buy it?"

"I don't know. I should go look for a new store then"

Thinking about her losing one of her favorite things is sad. Thinking about you can't do much is even more sad.

"Ah so sad. I wish i could get you one without you looking for it"

"It's a promise?"

"It is"

-

"Happy birthday!"

"WHY YOU ARE SO CUTE?"

-

"I got it today! And i'm so damn happy!"

"Well i'm glad to hear that. Been a while huh?"

"Yeah. The taste. And... how i describe it..."

"I think i know. That's what happen when you get your special stuff. A happiness"

"Yeah i'm happy of course. But it's not just a milktea. It's more special"

"Oh yeah? With bubbles?"

"More special because i think about you"

"Ahh..."

I think i'm in love.

[arstde]

The Twitter World

When tumblr is gone, the only platform i use to throw my shit is twitter.

Because that's how twitter goes : you care you respond, you don't you leave it.

I've been using twitter for 9 years. And going really actively talking about idols in last 2 years.

I found it's satisfying talking shit about idols. Same rules applied : you care you respond, you don't you leave it.

But with time, the number of people who care and respond increasing.

It increasing nicely. I got noticed.

Then i decided to go it all out.

So a lot of thing happens, i talk to strangers, discuss with people, argue... and make friends.

It's nice to talk with a new friends. Even if i never see their face or who they really are. They're still act nice.

And then at one point, one girl went advanced. She went through dm. At first it's still about idols but then started to drag the real life more.

And she dragged more friends. So it's now 4 of us. Different countries. Sharing life together.

This point turned to be a big one. Now i feel wanted. Now i feel that here, i'm special.

New rules applied : please care please respond, please don't leave.

At some moment i feel really lively, the respond is super special that even beat anything in my real life at the moment.

I didn't realize the danger: i turned out to hang my life on this one.

I keep hanging, i keep demanding. And that one who could satisfy my demand the best, that's where i hung myself the most.

But i forgot one thing.

That i'm a human.

I fell in love.

Things getting harder because i never knew if she loves me too or just acts nice like someone whose destined to meet and shared life.

My feelings became super sensitive.

I got jealous easily. I demanded too much.

I expected too much.

And that's when the biggest problem came. I ask another one about this kind of feeling.

She disagreed. She didn't want any love happened between us because it could harm one or more. And partically impossible due to the distance.

We got a fight. It turned to be a different place.

But it's only in the group. Privately it's different.

And wow. The one who i fell in love treated me even better.

But, the new rules getting attached even more.

I fell deeper.

And then, it turned out to be a timed bomb.

I got hurt. At one point that used to be normal, was not normal at all anymore.

And then here we are.

I deactivated it.

And went straight back to the tumblr.

Asking myself if i did it right or wrong, what should i do for her, for them, and for myself.

Dragging me back to the old times :

Got depressed and throw everything here.

[arstde]

Tumblr is back

So, that's it. That's the title.

I'm gonna post something like fanfic here.

[arstde]

Doing good will pay you back, in terms of something isn't materialistic.

Jadi, udah lama gak nulis guys.

Kebetulan lagi punya kebetulan yang bisa diceritakan.

Kebetulan itu yang namanya promosi.

Ya, terhitung hari ini saya "dipromosikan".

Sebelumnya menjadi shift engineer, sekarang diberi tanggung jawab memegang area pabrik dan juga audit ISO, yang sebelumnya hanya dipegang satu orang.

Secara karir, secara ilmu, saya syukuri. Satu tahun lebih sedikit sudah dipercayakan seperti ini. Walaupun beberapa bilang masih hijau, tapi tantangan ini diambil.

Hanya perjalanannya saja itu sedikit lucu dan saya bisa bilang kebetulan.

Di pabrik ini, ramai ramai orang menolak promosi. Alasannya karena selain tanggung jawab yang lebih tinggi, adalah hilangnya uang shift.

Memang dua hal itu yang mengganjal ketika saya ditunjuk untuk naik.

Ya, ditunjuk. Karena 4 senior saya yang ditawarkan naik menolak semua. Dan pilihan jatuh kepada saya.

Saya sendiri tidak ditawarkan, dan tidak meminta. Keputusan itu langsung ada, dan saya tidak bisa menawar.

Saya hanya bisa pasrah soal rezeki karena sudah mengatur, dan mencoba bersyukur atas kesempatan dan juga kemungkinan memulihkan kesehatan.

Tapi yang sangat menyentuh adalah ketika anak-anak menyesalkan pindah tugasnya saya.

Ya, bekerja di kantor berarti interaksi langsung dengan operator menjadi berkurang. Saya akan lebih banyak interaksi ke atas dan ke samping dibanding ke bawah, yang selama ini saya lakukan.

Dan mereka menyesalkan karena tidak lagi bekerja dibawah saya.

"Pak, lebih enak sama bapak saya mah kerja nyantai, gak ribet"

"Ah si bapak nanti siapa lagi pak yang bisa diajak becanda"

"Wah berkurang nih jatah kopi dan cemilan"

"Pak, sama si bapak itu mah gini......"

Semua kata-kata itu tidak pernah saya harapkan keluar dari mereka. Dari awal, saya hanya ingin bekerja nyaman. Dan ternyata yang saya lakukan selama ini yang mereka idamkan.

Bahkan partner kerja sendiri pun terlihat kesal dan uring-uringan ketika saya tidak lagi menjadi partnernya.

Maka entahlah, ketika saya terpaksa melakukannya, mereka pun terpaksa kehilangan kenyamanan.

Cara mengembalikannya adalah dengan saya kembali kebelakang, atau justru semakin maju kedepan, yang dimana pilihan itu tidak pernah terpikir sama sekali.

Tidak ada pikiran bertahan lama, atau bahkan mengejar setinggi-tingginya. Bisa disini saja sudah sulit, dan sangat bersyukur.

Tapi mendengar kata-kata tadi...

Apa saya harus terus maju disini?

[arstde]

I suffer pain more than i heal myself with happiness

[arstde]

I tried to release everything, with the goal is to be willing to accept anything happened. But it seems that i released too much, until reaching the point that i don't want anything.

[arstde]

Coquettish Caught in a Jam

Those new clothes suit you so well

Maybe it’s because you’d let down your hair

Street corner runway, you wave your hand

At the pedestrian crossing

April’s wind (If it blows)

Girls (every single one)

Will be reborn (as adults)

As if spring’s magic had been wrought

They somehow appear more dazzling than yesterday

Coquettish

Caught in your jam

Everyone is charmed

(Rooted to the spot)

You’re cute

My heart is stolen

His and mine

Our feet halt

For you, pheromone girl

Green man, people mill back and forth

Every time you turn to me

Even though you’re not my girlfriend

I feel so proud

Since long ago (I know you well)

We were childhood pals (like siblings)

I was surprised (thought I was mistaken)

It’s been so long since I saw you

And before I knew it, I’m in love

Coquettish

I’m caught in a jam

Can’t move now

(From here)

You’re beautiful

But I can’t say that

Even though I’m by your side

I make no progress

Just your friend, a boy

Coquettish

Caught in your jam

Everyone is charmed

(Rooted to the spot)

You’re cute

My heart is stolen

His and mine

Our feet halt

For you, pheromone girl

[arstde]

Words On Our Backs

We have aimed to reach this place where we are standing at now

But this is not the finish line

The time up till today, the time from tomorrow

How will they be different?

Taking the first step out, I realized for the first time

That nobody is by my side

I’m left alone, taking a different path from everyone else

My turn to go on a journey has come

How should I say the things I need to say?

If I stand still and turn back, I’ll want to be by them

Wishing to believe that my own dreams will come true

Yes, I’ll continue to speak of the words on my back

We’ve always been following behind you

Sorry for always relying on you

When actually, even you

Just wanted to cry too, right?

The remaining members will gather our strength

The bonds you taught us

With only a map of memories, the anxiety comes

This gaping hole can’t be filled

Yes, there are so many things we want to ask, but

We know it is a journey we cannot hold you back from

Even if the ends of our paths separate, we’ll watch from afar

Yes, your way of life are the words on our backs

Hey, will hard work be rewarded?

I believe so

What if there is no reward?

Even so, hang on till the very end

Want to talk, want to tell you, want to be with you

The days up till today are still not enough

Everyone waves and parts, but after that

Our hearts continue to speak of the words on our backs

[arstde]

The Wind Blows

In this vacuum of a land completely changed we lost our words and stood still What should we start on first? Searching for the light in the midst of despair If there is a God somewhere, please break open a new world from this land once more Even so, the wind blows towards the future Feel the breath of life on your cheek Even so, I will strongly live on Now, shall we start by laying down a single brick? The wound of our memories have become scars Within the pain, kindness is born Who should I embrace first? Let's talk about our dreams while in our warmth As much as the fallen tears, I want to hold up something; I won't become a bystander Even so, love continues towards the future People are looking for it Even so, I will take one step forward Shall we begin by picking up the hope that we had forgotten? Even so, the wind blows towards the future You should feel it if you close your eyes The wind definitely blows towards the future Even if you've lost everything and are lost I definitely exist here Remove the rubble blocking your way and live for today Even if the wind were to stop there is no world where the wind has disappeared No matter what, as if you are breathing, even if the day 'today' is painful.. Shall we start with what we can do?

[arstde]

Slave to Chocolate

The blue sky is always suggestive Though it's almost spring, the wind is chilly In a corner of the classroom I'm looking in Sits a bag that that hides The answer to my love… Just for today, I'm a slave to chocolate I'm the one being manipulated If I could hear your feelings I'd even kneel down right here It's a little sweet And a little bittersweet kind of day Holding out their hands All the guys shout "Mistress, please give me your love!" The sun and love are sort of similar It gets sunny, it gets cloudy, the sunlight changes Is it just my imagination, or are you coming closer? What you're holding behind your back Is an impossible miracle Today I'm definitely a slave to chocolate Don't pretend to tease me If I can receive a reward I might show you a single tear I'm so happy This unrequited love was so long To lonely people Around the whole world "Mistress, please give me your love!" Valentine's Day Is love's final exam The days our hearts pounded Get tallied up Just for today, I'm a slave to chocolate I'm the one being manipulated If I could hear your feelings I'd even kneel down right here It's a little sweet And a little bittersweet kind of day Holding out their hands All the guys shout "Mistress, please give me your love!"

[arstde]

High Tension

Forget what you look like and shout out loud We won’t get anywhere without the rhythm Just throw your stylish airs to the winds Make some noise, get excited Until the party ends WOW… you only have one life to live So dance! Tension tension max! Heat up let’s heat it up! Don’t matter if the English is wrong Turn that anxiety and nervousness into positive energy Tension tension max! Good job good job and it’s all right Our bodies will start swaying Even if the missiles fly and the world ends Our last moments will be a happy end Workaholics don’t thrive If you can’t turn off your switch you’ll break down When you’re too diligent all you collect is stress Just laugh and play And play hooky tomorrow WOW… let’s have even more fun And dance! Tension shake off the tension! Burst let yourself burst open Everyone of every age needs to join as one So no bad blood can happen Tension shake off the tension! Please please run away to live another day Heavy feelings will lift off your shoulders And the big cheese who’s always been sitting somewhere Would do well to follow your lead In these era of uncertainty We speak with frowns on our faces To the prophets who might see the future To the hypocrites who might proclaim their wishes Don’t cry! If you hate the night Reasoning just brings pain Worries in the dark So we should burn with something instead Blaze up with dreams and love Leave all your earthly cares behind Dance! Dance! Dance! Dance! Tension tension max! Heat up let’s heat it up! Don’t matter if the English is wrong Turn that anxiety and nervousness into positive energy Tension tension max! Good job good job and it’s all right Our bodies will start swaying Even if the missiles fly and the world ends Our last moments will be a happy end

[arstde]

Surprise Tears

After the class ended and the bell rang Suddenly you have a blindfold Someone hold my arm by force Take me away to gymnasium By the side of basketball goal You are put in anxiety But I heard "What will you do?" So irritate not to answer Classmates are gathering Has secretly been preparing Can I remove the eye mask? All together with a signal Ring the cracker! 3! 2! 1! 0! Happy Happy Birthday Cake candles Now breathe in and blow out Let's begin the party for you Happy! Happy birthday Operation is successful Birthday that is remembered by a lot of friends that sing here There're surprise tears on your cheeks To drink in a paper cup Today's hero is you I have received everyone's feelings Get collection of autographs as a present Seventeen is only once Summer is downpoured with cicada's voice With peace sign, everybody was taken pictures together Photo is a time capsule In one corner of worldwide The same age is living Youth would surely be now One day at a distant Seems to remember 3! 2! 1! 0! Happy! Happy birthday A wonderful year Only one Now I become an adult You seem so important Happy! Happy birthday I'm not alone Meeting by chance a painful thing Hey! Look around. We are getting near Our smile Surprise tears Happy! Happy birthday Cake candles Now breathe in and blow out Ahh reaching the past happiness... Happy! Happy birthday The middle of a dream still in front of the future's way shines brightly I walk the first step There's surprise tears on your cheeks Shine glittery surprise tears Happy! Happy birthday Good luck to you Voice in harmony Congratulations! Great affection congratulations! Happy! Happy birthday Good luck to you Let's embrace tightly Congratulations! last time, once again congratulations!

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The Turn of Chance

The turn of chance is coming to you next It doesn't matter how much you've lost, this time let's go for the win If you don't give up your dreams will come true You've always done your best So that your efforts will be rewarded... I think it's pointless to decide Which of the clouds floating in the sky is faster Even if you came out a little late yesterday Someday soon the wind's direction will start to change Sometimes you've worried alone Wondering what was it that you lacked But nothing will change if you just stand right there Luck goes around, like a rock-paper-scissors game You weren't lucky so far, but this time it's your turn Don't feel crushed, don't cry After the long winter Your spring is coming right away The friends around you, one by one, Went climbing the stairs that lead to their dreams Even if you're the last of the list, don't fret If the wind comes blowing your way you will catch up on them and surpass them Rather than comparing yourself to someone else at midway You'd better believe your future self Run to the goal at your own pace! Dreams don't turn the other way They're something we decide to turn our back on Whatever happens, stretch out your hand Luck is recklessness's ally Do everything you can! The turn of chance will surely come by one day It might look far away but it's certainly getting closer As long as you have voice, as long as light shines over you Keep shining at all times Even more than you've shone so far