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i find that film adaptations of books are fascinating to think about. my brother gifted me w the extended editions of the mainline lotr films and i've been watching fellowship every day for three days over and over before i would feel like i'm ready for the sequel—i just got to the mines of moria section of the film...i remember from back 20 some odd years ago reading the specific book of which this movie is an adaptation and i briefly had a moment in my perception where i felt like this was cheesy and cringe.

i love this movie and that feeling was quickly feleeting, but ive long forgotten the sensation of a movie based on books being lackluster. im no bibliophile, but this feeling makes me wish i could find the ability to read a book longer than a paragraph. my deficiency in attn is so unbelievably potent that i just can't do it. i can't.

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one day i'm going to call it quits and start a new chapter. my bday is 08/05 and i want to be done at the clutches of this room build nonsense. i'm so tired, i'm so fucking nauseated.

i'm going to just call out there, on my birthday is the last of any money i'm going to spend. q3/q4 2023 is saving.

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i just drank two fruit punch rockstar which i talked about the other day and im about to have labwork at the gp. my glucose levels are going to be...inaccurate.

edit #1: this is the best day of my life.

edit #2: i'll share something—whenever i'm at the dr and have a physical exam done, i get suuuuuper relaxed like i took a xanax and it's the best fucking thing ever. even putting the stethoscope to my chest renders myself catatonic.

edit #3: i spent the afternoon moving speakers around and i created a monster of this never ending build. im so happy rn, hopefully the catharsis isn't too fleeting.

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money is transient. everything is expendable. life is tragic.

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jumping ship.

twitter has been my home for 14y. i bid it farewell as i pursue other ventures away from strife and instability, as the social media outlet is run by memes and novelties.

hello.

edit #1: i choose to craft one post per day. ill fuckin' edit this as the day progresses to keep it unified even thru deviation, so i'll go ahead and publicize it and edit it when i get some more inspiration. i'm keeping twitter for another month while i get acclimated to this platform and see where i stand in june, 2023.

i dislike threads—i prefer to have the whole shit right in one place, and i have no interest in followers bc this is all me right here; this is my deal and my health. if i get any kind of follower, you'll all be inconsequential.

edit #2: i think i'm going to pin ea days post.

edit #3: i've begun watching a lot of gameplay videos of games of which i used to watch speedruns back 8y ago. this stuff is nostalgia city, and i don't mean when i used to play these games; it's the community of gamers exploiting the games that really helped me thru college and beyond.

i've since strayed far away from that culture for no reason aside from the fact i ghost everything and everyone i've ever met (will meet), so here i am watching a playthru of dk64 having the time of my life—love this game and its casuality (just made up a word), and i have the premium sub to yt so i can sleep to these videos wo ads. my yt activity is hilarious to sift thru.

edit #4: it's high time that i start collecting figures, even if it's amiibo. my room is too...wo character. this is an excellent goal to have.

edit #5: so there's a special energy drink i only get on my days off that when coupled w strenuous exercise unlocks this extremely perplexing sensation of bottomless hunger, and im addicted to that feeling—its extremely pleasant and only the rockstar punched non-sugar free fruit punch variety does this. i don't understand it and will never understand it.

i don't drink it at work because it becomes /un/pleasant when i can't sit and eat the world bc of time constraints, so i only do this on off days of which i get two per week. today i was cleaning the house and running around finding things to do until i got hit; that glorious sensation of glutinous hunger.

i just ate 20 dinosaur chicken nuggets, two bowls of cereal, two snack size bags of chips, an entire glass container of salsa w tortilla chips, a bagel w cream cheese and marmalade, and 30 small cookies (oreo sized). i'm about to pass out and take the biggest nap of my life.

what's interesting about this is that when i step on the scale the next morning, i have gained maybe a pound, if that. i'm 6'4" and im sitting at 187lb, so i could use the extra bit of poundage even tho im not getting it in the most...healthy of ways—no regrets. my motto is that there are no compromises.

we are on the precipice of something great.

edit #6: i don't think i'm going to post any pictures on this blog because i don't trust the internet, so all of my discourse about my ridiculous office setups will be wo illustrative context, and i mean at /all/~

no selfies, nothing that identifies my locale, living environment, or otherwise identity of any of the people w whom i identify in my life.

edit #7: