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Was inspired by art of the Friend from Deltarune, decided to try making a horror movie sketch of it. I think it turned out pretty well.

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The animatic is done!! 💕

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so what are our thoughts on sam/hellen

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Look Outside Ending Spoilers

(This game is still eating my brain, so here's another long textpost)

The Flawed Ritual ending is fairly ambiguous, as we don't know the exact mechanics of how mutation works, and that makes it very interesting to me. From the way the astronomers seem to mutate when they become afraid due to the wrong materials, and how you manage to keep your shit together in the Denial ending, it does seem like the mental state of the afflicted does play a part in their mental health post-transformation.

To my mind, this means that running into the bathroom to have a panic attack by himself was the worst possible thing Sam could have done. I believe this for two reasons:

Those already mutated, especially someone as collected as Helen, could have possibly kept him grounded to some degree. It was never going to be pleasant, but there's some possibility of keeping his personality intact if not surviving without a freshly traumatized mind. From there, he could get his bearings and the group could start working out their next moves for once the Visitor is gone. Running into the bathroom to stare into the mirror (which would visually spur on his freakout) was maybe the worst choice he could have made. This isn't to call Sam dumb, the poor guy is understandably freaking out and I don't know that I would do much better.

Secondly, more practically speaking - He's in the bathroom, and he's getting bigger. We have no idea where the mutation will actually end. What if he can't get out of the bathroom? What if he gets so big that his form has to either conform to the shape of the room or burst out through the walls? If you're already mutating, the best thing to do might just be to stay outside. I haven't seen anything that would suggest that people who've already seen the Visitor can be mutated further.

All that said, I do genuinely think that the other characters, once they get over their shock, would bang on the door to try and get him out and situated. At the very least, I believe that some of them would try and calm him down through the door. I don't have any reason to think that Sam transforming is necessarily a bad ending, plenty of people got mutated and came out of it really chill or even more helpful than they were before (the plumbing/water supply guy is a real MVP in that regard). Given time to adjust and depending on how you played your Sam, he might end up being a force for good in the same way he did in the Denial ending, just smaller.

Beyond my attempts to puzzle out the hows and whatnot, I also just think it would be very nice and thematic to have your strange and changed friends repay your kindness to them. You could have attacked or avoided a lot of them due to how they look or act, but instead you decided to take them in, feed them and befriend them. It would be really sweet if they decided to return the favor by helping you adjust to your new form.

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LOOK OUTSIDE SPOILERS

There's something kinda fucked about the last choice you get to make, where you either try to grasp the Visitor's true form or not. Like, for the Visitor's sake, I mean.

This node of a much larger thing gets seen in a way it's never experienced before, and decides to stretch over to our tiny neighborhood. It seems some funky little creatures doing what it assumes are creature things, and is maybe looking for the one who saw it in the first place. And then you get its attention and it grabs you, and you tell it that it's doing unbelievably horrific things to the creatures. It feels distraught and wants to leave, and obviously there's something awfully profound about a tiny creature getting a god to feel remorse just by being honest with it.

But the thing that keeps bothering me is the last choice. This thing has never really talked directly with anyone before. It has never been understood, and is grappling with the fact that there are things it does not understand, and in this way it might be kind of like a child. It hurt people because it genuinely did not know what it was doing, and now it's made this connection with you for the first time. So, before it leaves, to go back to the cold, black place where no one else lives or thinks or feels, it says, "Hey. Do you want to see me before I go? Like for real?"

And the ONLY safe, reasonable response is to tell it no. Even if you don't know how it goes if you say yes, it's obviously a bad idea. And the Visitor agrees with your decision after a moment of thought, too. So you don't see it, and it leaves. Maybe it'll avoid other intelligent life forever.

I dunno, man. There's something so fucked up about this big, innocent god-thing that gets to learn what conversation is and then never get that again. It never gets to have that connection, and will never be understood. It's going to think about that moment forever. Obviously it's good that it left, but it's just so sad to imagine it hanging bundled up in the void for all eternity just to avoid hurting anyone ever again. I hope it finds someone it can talk to without awful consequences some day.

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Holy shit, play Look Outside. It's maybe the best cosmic horror I've seen in video game form. It has fun turn-based combat, the artstyle is gorgeous. Some of the endings are so good that they could be premises for their own games.

Most of all, to me at least, it gives a shit about the little moments. It really cares what people are like during something horrific, and how you can interact with those people. It manages to make a lot of bright moments more touching for how awful things are.

Play it, I beg you.

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derealization vibe

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I need everyone to take this uquiz

Cultist simulator! Which spooky thang are you?

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(Image Description: Top Image: A search where someone has typed “how to deal with ASPD”, the search engine suggestion below says the same.

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hi. i've made a ko-fi page after some consideration. it's simply a tip jar, and doesn't necessarily go to any efforts towards my animations, so regardless of any donations, i will continue what i do. only donate if you can afford to. thank you!

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every time i see the more borged-up versions of her i go a little more insane lmao

most beautiful woman in the world

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aspd creature my girlfriend made for me

name is idc

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I've been giggling like an idiot thinking of this, enjoy this doodle !

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Fuck, man. Neurodivergent love. I’m never going to get over it. Depression love says “I will do my best to stay for you.” DID/OSDD love says “Every face of this brain is endeared to you.” Autism love says “I will do anything to reach you, to give you the understanding I never got.” BPD love says “You are a vital organ of mine, and I am one of yours.” Bipolar love says “Wherever I may go, I will come back to you.” Post-traumatic love says “I will always show you gentleness in this reckless world.” ADHD love says “I will try for you, no matter the obstacle.” Anxiety love says “You are my safe space and I am yours.” ASPD love says “I choose to, on purpose, for you.” OCD love says “I will stand guard for you.” Neurodivergent love. Neurodivergent love. Different brains in love, oh my G-d. These colors are uncountable and they are my religion.

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Storch smiling ! (Commission)

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oh mein fucking god im back

dropping more signalis oc designs here 💖 you think shit ended with r10 but no shits just fucking starting (bonus gestalt oc under the cut)