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This year, we get to celebrate the Rat's birthday! 🪅

...which means he only ages once every 4 years, lol.

Birthday babie gets a birthday cupcake which Hog made for him because I said so.

Happy birthday, Jamie, my beloved! 🧡

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commission for @/coldpanini on twt :D

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God I just need to post this to an account that no one from my real life knows me on

I really don’t expect anyone to interact I just need to get this into the void of the internet

Rant about past ab*se under the cut

It makes me so mad that a friend in our friend group (we’ll call N) remains friends with someone who got booted out of the group for abusing nearly every member in said group (we’ll call A).

Im talking physical, mental and psychological, like this girl is either narcissistic or has histrionic personality disorder, she threw knives at her previous housemate who is now my best friend after we trauma bonded over the very similar stuff she put us through.

Now this mutual friend (N) no matter how bad this girl treated her she still keeps her in her life, she has a baby now and I’ve told her what this girl has said about the baby, wanting to put it in makeup to look like it’s been beaten and post it online and when she was pregnant trying to take bets on how premature the baby would be and if it would have “defects”

A day ago (N) had told me that as of 4 months ago apparently this girl has a boyfriend, this doesn’t bother me because eventually her mask will always slip and people see her for what she is but I think it might be one of my previous friends…

A friend who cut me off because I was supposedly in love with them (we’ll call M). I wasn’t. I believe (A) told them that I was in love with them to stick a wedge in the friendship.

(M) was also the reason I broke up with my ex (we’ll call B), I was having a relationship with someone overseas then also started dating someone in my city, (B) was uncomfortable with me being with this other person and asked me to break it off, I did, then a week later (B) said they would be poly with me if it was with mutual friend (M).

I feel shitty that (M) is obviously still stuck either “friends” or god forbid in a relationship with (A) but whatever that’s their business and I really don’t give a shit enough to reach out because not my circus not my clowns.

What does make me feel gross is that (A) bases a persons worth on if they’re in a relationship or not, which I am not. I fully believe she will be parading around pretending she has the perfect life while saying “oh poor ashamed, they have no one and my life is perfect sparkles and roses”

I don’t want a relationship at all and am so happy with how my life is right now, I just don’t want this horrible bitch to use me as a measurement for how good and “better” her life is, I know she’s absolutely gloating about tricking (M) into not being my friend anymore, and if what I believe to be true then “claiming” (M) as her shiny new toy.

Fucking hell im done, rant over, felt good to get it off my chest and just out there yay

TLDR: I wish (N) would either stop enabling (A) and cut her out like the rest of us or just not speak about her in the groups presence full stop

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Roadhog provides some help

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Practicing how to draw the rat and hog <3

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Now I know it would’ve made more sense if it was lucio…but I don’t wanna draw his leg/skate details. I struggle drawing junkrats prosthetics already.

Don’t mind my shifty coloring and shading, I just get too excited sometimes

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Nice try Fawkes-

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Ratmanratmanratman

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one-handed waist

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I was gonna color this but I already spent way too much time on this so here…take this crumb…

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hi

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FINALLY DID THE REFS

note that they are completely separate entities from junkrat :0

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How many rings are you wearing? I like to imagine Team tank is chilling btw:D (uh, sorry Winston is out..maybe..V.V;)

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a doodle for funkyfluff 

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roadhog blazing down the road on his bike, in a leather jacket painted ‘if you can read this the twink fell off’

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i forget to post arts again………