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One Call Away || Alex and Asher

Tagging: @asher-mccarthy, @alex-abrams

When: Saturday March 25th

Where: Asher’s place and around Gradian

Warnings: Death is mentioned a lot

Notes: Asher is not okay and calls Alex for help. Angst, comfort and some ‘I love you’s’.

Alex, true to his word, was at Asher's apartment building within ten minutes. It didn't take him long to get to his boyfriend's apartment. He wanted to meet him at his apartment just in case Asher needed help with anything. He knocked at the door and patiently waited.

Asher had fallen into a fitful sleep the moment he’d arrived home from work. He’d been working for almost 20 hours by the time the woman had died and the other doctor had forced him to go home. He still doesn’t remember how he got home but all he knew was that he had made it as far as his couch before passing out. Despite this, he’d woken up with a yell and in a cold sweat several times before giving up on trying to sleep altogether. He’d been sitting on his couch staring at the wall when Alex had texted him back and he had almost cried in relief. When he heard the knock on the door, it felt like it was miles away. Somehow he was up on his feet and opening the door and his eyes focused on Alex. He opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out of his mouth and he just closed it again. Alex stood at the door after Asher opened it. He gave the other a small smile before reaching out to hug him, knowing that is what Asher needed at this time. Asher was still trying to form words in his brain when Alex’s arms surrounded him and he relaxed into them. He all but collapsed against Alex and the tears started to fall.

Alex brought a hand up and ran his fingers through his hair. He didn't know what else to do but stand there and hug him. Asher wanted to say so many things and explain to Alex that he was fine but there was something about Alex’s arms around him and his fingers in his hair that was breaking down the walls that he kept built for when he lost patients. Instead, he just held onto Alex like he was his anchor.

Alex stayed. He was determined not to let go unless Asher told him to. Even if that meant staying in the doorway all day.

The tears started to slow as Asher realised that Alex wasn’t going anywhere. The feeling that he had been punched in the stomach and had all of the air ripped out of his lungs hadn’t disappeared but at least the tears had for a moment. He pulled away a little from Alex to look at him for a moment. This time when he opened his mouth, words came tumbling out. “I’m sorry. I hope I’d didn’t wake you. You should come inside before my neighbours start thinking I’m having a meltdown. Which I am but that’s not the point.” Asher stepped back from Alex completely and out of the doorway so Alex could come inside. He ran a hand through his hair and stared at the wall again for a moment, his mind turning foggy again. "You didn't wake me, I promise." Alex gave him a reassuring smile. He went inside the apartment and shut the door before taking Asher back into his arms. “Okay. Good. That’s good.” Asher breathed out a sigh, happy he hadn’t screwed that up too. As Alex’s arms engulfed him again, he started to shake a little, a memory of the night flooding back. “I thought she was okay. All of her tests came back as normal but she kept getting worse and worse. The look she gave me just before she died, Alex, I-it-she knew I couldn’t save her. I’m supposed to save them, Alex. That’s what I’m supposed to do. She trusted me to save her and I didn’t.” Asher didn’t even know he was speaking, the words just tumbling out of his mouth before he buried his face in the crook of Alex’s neck with a sob.

"You tried to save her at least." Alex told him, rubbing his back. "She knew you were trying. Sometimes, you can't save them all, unfortunately. But you tried your best to save her and that matters greatly."

Any other time, Asher would have agreed with Alex and a small part of him knew that Alex’s words were rational but that part of him was being drowned out by the parts that were hurting and blaming himself. That parts of him that kept seeing the dying woman’s face as she looked at him before the all of the monitors started screaming at them. “I tried to bring her back. I tried for so long. I would let them call time of death because I couldn’t let her die. I don’t even remember when I stopped trying to bring her back. I think a few of the nurses had to drag me away because I couldn’t let her die. She died because of me and because I wasn’t smart enough to figure out what was happening to her.” "Asher, even the most skilled doctors in the world lose patients. It's through no fault of their own." He rubbed Asher's back some more. "You're brilliant. It's just that sometimes these things happen. But I can't even imagine how you must feel. I may not understand just how bad you feel and I know I probably won't be able to make it better, but I'm here for you."

“I know. I know.” Asher really was hearing everything Alex was saying but he unfortunately knew that most of it was being drowned out by the negative thoughts inside his own mind. “Do you really think I’m brilliant?” He asked after a moment, pulling away to look at Alex and search his face for an answer. “Can you just stay here with me and talk to me? I don’t want to be left alone with my thoughts again.” His whole body ached and he was well past tired but he was too scared to fall asleep again and let his mind take over. "I really do think you're brilliant." Alex nodded with a smile. "We can stay here or we can go back to my place. Whichever you want to do. I won't leave you alone."

A small smile graced Asher’s lips at Alex’s words before he hugged his boyfriend again. “I don’t…Buddy shouldn’t be left alone for too long but I haven’t seen Alfie for a while.” He stopped talking for a moment and sighed. “I can’t even remember if I fed Buddy when I got home last night. I can’t remember anything that happened after she died.” "Buddy is more than welcome at my place. If you want to stay here, we can. We can order in some take out and I'll make sure Buddy is fed." Alex paused to take a breath. "Maybe we can take him on a nice long walk."

Asher pulled back from Alex for a moment as he thought about what to do with Buddy. When Alex suggested a walk, he smiled a little, remembering their last walk together. “A walk might do me some good actually.”

"Great! I'll get Buddy ready, and we can decide where to walk from there." He then laughed a little as he saw Buddy's ears perk up at the mention f the word walk. Asher nodded and then watched Alex getting Buddy ready for his walk. He tried to smile as he watched them but then his memory flashed back to the night before and all of the feelings came flooding back. He swallowed hard and tried to push the feelings away so they wouldn’t try to escape again. Asher knew he was being irrational about all of this.

Alex got Buddy ready for the walk with a smile on his face. He thought that the walk would do well to clear their minds. He looked over at Asher and quickly walked over with Buddy beside him. "Are you ready, or do you need more time?"

Asher had become lost in his own thoughts when Alex appeared beside him again. He blinked at Alex as he spoke. “Um, no, I’m ready.” He needed the distraction and he always found Alex to be a wonderful distraction. He forced a smile onto his face as he bent down to give Buddy a pat. "Okay." Alex smiled as he made his way to the door. "Where are you wanting to walk? The park, the woods by my place, or just a tour of gradian? I'm up for any and all options."

Asher followed Alex and Buddy to the door and shrugged. “Maybe we can just walk around and see where we end up?” "We can do that. And I'm sure Buddy will appreciate the long walk." He gave Buddy a pat before going out the door.

Asher nodded as he grabbed his keys before following Alex out and locking the door behind them. “Do you know what the worst thing is about all of this? I don’t like how empty it has made me feel. Because being a doctor feels like the only thing I do and I can’t even do that right.” He sighed as they walked.

"I can't blame you for feeling that way. But I believe you are good at being a doctor." Alex reassures him as they walk. "You have many other patients that would probably tell you the same thing."

“I know. I know you’re right.” He wanted so badly to believe what Alex was saying but the irrational part of his mind was telling him that his boyfriend was lying to make him feel better. “What happens if I’m actually a really bad doctor? What am I supposed to do with my life?”

"Well, there is always something else you could do." Alex reassured him. "There are lots of fields you can excel at and you could always go to uni for something else. But I think you're a good doctor."

Asher listened to Alex talk as they walked, frowning a little. “Yeah, I guess. It did take me fifteen years to finally become a doctor though so I’m not sure if I could give this up.”

"I'm sure you don't have to." Alex smiled at him. He knew Asher was a good doctor, even if the other was having trouble coming to terms with it right now.

Asher nodded and went silent for a while as they walked. He watched Buddy pulling on the lead to try and get to a person across the street. “I also don’t want to lose you either.” He whispered, realising how dumb that sounded as he said it out loud. He was scared though that Alex would see that he wasn’t the perfect doctor or even the perfect person and just run. Alex looked up from Buddy and gave a smile. "You're not going to lose me." He reassured Asher. Alex was determined to stay by his side as long as Asher wanted him. "I promise."

A small smile crossed Asher’s lips as he looked over at Alex. He knew people could lie and just tell other what they want to hear but Alex had never once lied to him and Asher knew he wasn’t lying to him now either. “Thank you.”

"Anything for you." Alex smiled over at him before turning his attention back to Buddy to make sure Buddy was behaving. The smile of Asher’s face faded as his mind drifted back to memories of the night before again. He didn’t even realise he started talking out loud. “I’ll never forget the way her mother screamed and cried when I told her parents that I couldn’t save her. It was the most gut wrenching sound.”

"I can't even imagine what that must be like." Alex sighed. He felt for the parents and especially for Asher. It had been more than rough for his boyfriend. He couldn't imagine what it would be like to have to deal with the memory.

“It’s the type of thing we hate to hear as doctors but sometimes it is inevitable.” He sighed and wiped away a stray tear that had slipped out. “We have to try and distance ourselves from the patients sometimes because of this sort of thing but I always had trouble doing that.” "You have a good heart, Asher." Alex told him with a smile. "I figure anyone with a good heart would have trouble distancing themselves."

Asher looked over at Alex for a moment. “Do you really think I have a good heart?” He had always tried not to care so much about his patients but he had always cared way too much about everyone in his life, patient or not. "I think you do." Alex nodded and put his arm around Asher's back.

Asher smiled as Alex’s arm went around him. “Maybe that’s why I still want to help people, even after all of this.”

"I think it is." He nodded and got closer to Asher as he watched Buddy.

Having Alex this close to him was helping to keep his mind off the night before. It also reminded him that he didn’t always have to try and pretend to be so strong all the time. Alex was helping Asher to realise a lot of things and he was so grateful for that. “Thank you, Alex. Thank you for just being you.” He wrapped an arm around Alex to keep him close.

"You're welcome, and that's what I do best." Alex gave him a wink as they walked. He was happy to be there for Asher, regardless of what the other was going through.

Asher smiled again and watched Buddy sniffing the ground as they walked. “Thank you for suggesting a walk. I’m starting to feel better already.” "I'm glad you're starting to feel better." Alex grinned, glancing over to him. “It does help that you know exactly what to do to help me feel better.” Asher caught Alex’s gaze. "I honestly just suggested a walk because a walk always helps me." Alex smiled. "Maybe we can stop for coffee." “Still, it worked.” Asher nodded. “Coffee sounds amazing! I really do need some, actually.” "Coffee really does sound amazing. I think I'll get a mocha. Coffee and chocolate sound like a dream." Alex smiled. “Mocha sounds like a great choice. I think I need something with more of a kick though so I’m going to go for a cappuccino instead.” Asher leant down to pet Buddy.

"You can always go with putting an extra shot of espresso." Alex nodded. “How many shots of espresso do you think is too many?” Asher asked with a faint smile. "I don't know." Alex chuckled and leaned against him. "I don't know that my heart wants to find out."

“Maybe I should just stick with two then to be safe.” Asher let out a small laugh. "Yeah, that's a smart idea." Alex laughed Asher nodded and leant against Alex again. “Especially since I don’t want to have a heart attack.” "Yeah, that wouldn't be good." Alex nodded, leading the way toward the coffee shop. Asher smiled again, nodding to himself as silence fell over them again. He watched some kids playing across the street and then frowned as his mind drifted again. “One day I think I want to have my own kids. But for now, I’m very much enjoying being able to hand my nieces and nephews back when they get too much.” He tried to pull his mind away from last night to focus on Alex instead. Alex smiled at Asher and then the kids. "I never really thought about kids. I should really get on that." He chuckled. "Yeah, it is nice to give the nieces and nephews back." Asher nodded as he focused on Alex and his words. “It’s okay if you haven’t. I know some people who never want to have children and that’s okay.” He smiled. “Especially because they are Levi’s kids and they have picked up one or two of his more…interesting traits.”

Alex nodded. "It's just that I've kept myself busy so much that I never gave myself time to think about it. Maybe a mini me would be cool." A smile. "I can see why." Asher hummed in agreement. “I didn’t even think about a family of any kind of my own until I finished my residency and realised I was in my 30s and almost completely alone.” He shrugged. “I guess alone isn’t the right word. I just mean that I found myself in the career I had always wanted and nobody to share the success with.” Alex nodded, completely understanding. "I understand that. I didn't have anyone to share the success of published works with. Until now, that is." Asher’s lips formed a smile. “Exactly. But now I have you to share all of those things with. Good, and bad. Like what happened last night. I don’t know who I would have called if I didn’t have you in my life.” "And I'm sorry that I was asleep when you texted me." Alex apologized again. "I'll always be here for the good and bad."

Asher shook his head. “I already told you that I would have been more upset if you had been awake because sleep is important.” He smiled again and leant closer to Alex, pressing a kiss to his cheek. “I know and I thank you for that. Hopefully there won’t be more bad than good though.”

"I know, but I still feel bad." Alex murmured. "I hope it will be lots of good. We deserve it." You’re here now and that’s what matters.” Asher nodded. “We really do deserve it.” "I suppose that's true." Alex nodded. "Everyone does I think." Asher smiled and looked away from Alex for a moment to give Buddy another pat. He slowed as he saw the coffee shop came into view. “Everyone does but life can really be horrible sometimes.” "You’re right." Alex slowed when Asher slowed, wanting to keep as in step as possible. As they got to the coffee shop, he opened the door for Asher. "I'll find us a quiet table out here." “Okay. I’ll order our coffees.” Asher headed inside and over to the counter to order. He ordered Alex’s mocha, a cappuccino for himself, a cup of frothed milk for Buddy. He also ordered a few of the pieces of cake that looked delicious. Pointing out the table outside he saw Alex sitting at, he paid for the food and drinks and headed back outside. He sat across from Alex with a smile. “I hope you’re hungry because I saw cakes in there and couldn’t resist ordering a few slices.”

Alex sat with Buddy and pet the dog's head as they waited on Asher. Once he saw Asher approaching, he smiled. "I could definitely eat something."

Asher nodded and leant over to tickle Buddy under the chin. “Good. I could definitely eat all of it on my own but then I would regret it.” "I couldn't let you eat all of that on your own. I have too much of a sweet tooth for that." Alex laughed a bit. “Of course. No sweet foods would survive anywhere near either of us.” Asher smiled. "Nope. And I like it that way." Alex smiled and pet Buddy. “As long as there is enough for both of us otherwise I worry one of us might lose a hand.” Asher smiled, wider than he had all day. He wasn’t quite emotionally ready for a laugh yet but being near Alex was slowly helping him. "I wouldn't worry about losing your hand. I'm quite polite when it comes to my sweet tooth." Alex smiled back at him “I was actually referring to me. I get a bit possessive over my food.” Asher smiled again and looked up as their coffee and cake arrived. He thanked the worker and picked up his coffee to take a sip. Alex chuckled. He thanked the worker as well, then took a sip of his mocha. "The cake looks really good. “Doesn’t it? That’s why I couldn’t resist. He picked up one of the forks and ate a bite of the cake. “Tastes good too!” Asher poured the milk for Buddy onto a spare plate and placed it down for him. Alex picked up the other fork and took a bite for himself. "Oh, this is great!" He grinned before taking another sip of his mocha. Asher smiled as he took another bite and then picked up his coffee to take another sip. “I feel like the sugar is already helping me feel better too.” "I'm glad the sugar is helping you feel better." Alex smiled. He wanted Asher to feel better. “You’re helping me too. But there is just something about sugar when you don’t feel great.” Asher smiled. "Sugar produces dopamine. Dopamine is a happy chemical." Alex smiled. "I'm always glad to help." “See, I knew that but today my brain decided that it didn’t know that. I guess today my brain decided to just stop working.” Asher shrugged and sipped his coffee. “I know you are and I appreciate it so much.” "Your brain has just had a stressful night and needs a bit of a break is all." Alex smiled, knowing no matter where they end up, movies are in order. "Always." He sipped his mocha. “That’s true. My brain was working overtime trying to figure out solutions.” Asher paused for a moment to take a deep breath and then a bite of cake. Alex nodded. He knew what that was like. His brain worked overtime quite a lot. He took another bite of cake. Asher leant down to give Buddy a pat and then gave Alex a smile. “So what would you have been doing today if I had not so rudely interrupted your day?”

"I probably would have called you and seen if you wanted to have dinner." Alex smiled. "You didn't rudely interrupt my day. I like being with you." “Well, I would have said yes and not just because you’re a great cook.” Asher nodded, sipping his coffee. “I like being with you too. You’re quickly becoming my favourite person.” "You are becoming my favorite person, too. You're amazing to be around." He took another sip of his drink. Asher blushed. “Am I really? Even when I’m on the verge of a mental breakdown?” He asked, sipping his coffee. "You are." Alex smiled at him before taking another bite of cake and sip of drink. Asher smiled in return. “I knew there was a reason why I fell in love with you.” He took a bite of cake and paused. “I-oh. Did I say that out loud?” “You did say that out loud." Alex smiled. The words made him very happy. Asher breathed out a sigh of relief when Alex smiled. “Right, well, uh, yeah.” He blushed for a moment. “Now you’ve gone and made me speechless.” "That's not my fault. You're the one that said you are in love with me." Alex teased and grinned. "And I'm in love with you, too. You're kind, considerate, handsome, and great to hang out with." Asher smiled again as Alex told him he was in love with him too. He has been waiting for the right time to tell Alex and he was so scared of saying it too early and pushing him away. But he had said it and Alex had said it back. “I am in love with you. You’re the first person I want to talk to every day and the person I want to tell everything to. You’re so nice, smart, creative and handsome. I just love spending time with you.” He reached across the table to grab Alex’s free hand. “I just didn’t want to tell you yet as I was scared it was too fast and you would want to run away.” He blushed at Asher's words. "You could have told me the night we started dating and it still wouldn't have chased me away." Alex interlaced their fingers. “It would have been true then too. I fell in love with you long before that.” Asher blushed as he admitted that. “I just want things to go right between us because I don’t want to lose you as a friend or anything else.” He smiled and squeezed Alex’s hand.

"I also want things to go right. I don't want to lose you in my life, either." Alex brought their hands up and kissed the back of Asher's hand. “At least we’re on the same page about that.” Asher smiled wider at the kiss. “Well, I think you definitely succeeded at putting me in a better mood.” "I'm glad I put you in a better mood." Alex smiled. "I knew coffee was a good idea." “I know that I’ll probably still have trouble sleeping for a while and I will probably think about it a lot but knowing I have you to lean on really helps.” Asher sipped his coffee. “I told Levi what happened too and he wants to take me out and get me drunk to forget and I agreed. Don’t tell him I said this but it will be nice to spend time with just him.” "I don't blame you. It sounds like a rough thing to go through. I'll be there to lean on for sure. I even enjoy cuddles while I work." Alex sipped his own mocha. "I know the feeling. I love my nieces and nephews and Tobias is pretty cool to hang out with, but I like when it's just my siblings too." “Cuddles while you work? Well, if you insist.” Asher smiled. “But seriously, thank you.” He ate another bite of cake. “I think it must have something to do with knowing them your whole life. They just know you better than anyone else and luckily in our case, still love you.” "Oh, I insist." Alex smiled. "That's very true. They kind of get me and that's comforting." Asher nodded. “That’s the great thing about family. Friends too, actually.” He watched Buddy lay down and rest his head on Asher’s foot. “Speaking of work, how’s that been going for you? Hopefully not as stressful as mine.” "The best thing, in my opinion." Alex nodded and watched Buddy a moment before taking another sip. "Work's been great. I got a couple stories done and now I'm in a brainstorming mode for another." Asher sipped his coffee and smiled. “What are they about? Can I read them?”

"You can read them. They're nothing too fancy, but I like them." Alex grinned. “I love reading anything you write. I still read your poem any chance I get because it is both impressive and heartwarming.” Asher squeezed Alex’s hand. "You'll love these, then. One is about a boy who falls into a fairy ring. But that's all I can tell you about that one." Alex winked “I’m intrigued already. I cannot wait to read it!” Asher smiled. "I'm glad you're intrigued." Alex smiled at Asher's excitement to read his short story. “Of course I am. I am your biggest fan!” Asher grinned and downed the last of his coffee. “I definitely needed that coffee.” "I'm glad you're my biggest fan." Alex smiled and finished off his mocha. "My mocha hit the spot, too." “Although I’m sure you have a lot of fans out there.” Asher leant down to pat Buddy. “That’s great. Coffee can usually fix most problems. Coffee or cake.” "And they're special in their own way, but you are the most special ." Alex grinned. "Coffee is life elixir." “I like the idea of being the most special.” Asher smiled. “It truly is. But unfortunately it can only keep me awake for so long.” "Good."Alex's smile remained on his face. "That's true. Even coffee has its limitations." “I suppose it couldn’t be completely perfect.” Asher sighed and yawned. “See what I mean? But I also haven’t really slept for 24 hours so that could also be a factor.” "That's true." Alex nodded. Even coffee wasn't perfect. "That's right, too. Maybe we should let you rest for a while." Asher nodded. “Can I rest with you because I know the moment I close my eyes again I’ll see her?” He sighed, rubbing his free hand over his face. "Yes, of course you can rest with me." Alex nodded. He wouldn't have it any other way. “Thank you. I just hope I can sleep for more than five minutes without waking up screaming or crying again.” He had been fighting sleep for too long because he was scared of what he would see when he closed his eyes. "I hope you can, too. Maybe being with me will help." Alex suggested. “I hope so. I do always sleep better when I fall asleep with you.” Asher nodded. “Shall we head back to mine? We could watch some movies until I pass out.” "We shall." Alex smiled. "To tell you the truth, I might pass out, too. Especially while curled up with you and Buddy." “Buddy is a great cuddler, so I understand.” Asher smiled and leant down to wake Buddy. “Come on Buddy. Let’s go home where it’s warmer.” Alex stood and stretched. He was ready for the walk back to Asher's and the movie and nap to come. Once Buddy was up, Asher stood up. He held Buddy’s lead with one hand and took hold of Alex’s hand with the other hand as they started to walk. “What genre of movie do you think we should watch?�� "I don't necessarily mind what genre we watch, to be honest." Alex replied as they walked. “Maybe I’ll just load up the first movie that appears on Netflix then. See what it turns out to be.” Asher mused. "That sounds good. We'll probably be out before halfway through." Alex mused “I don’t think I’ll even make it far enough into the movie to figure out what the plot is supposed to be.” Asher looked over at Alex and smiled. "Me either." Alex yawned. "Even though I slept, it was still a late night." “It’s honestly a miracle you and I get a chance to spend any time together awake since we both end up sleeping a lot.” Asher grinned. “But you do give great cuddles so I don’t mind.” "Nap dates are fun." Alex smiled. "Besides, the cuddles are a bonus." “Nap dates are some of my favourite dates.” Asher looked ahead as Buddy got excited and realised they were back at his place already. He searched his pockets for his keys as they reached the door and opened it. It didn’t look like Alfie was home but he often appeared at various times of the day. “We might as well head to my room. If we fall asleep out here, I don’t trust Alfie not to either wake us up or to do something childish to us.” He leant down to take the lead off Buddy and watched him take off towards Asher’s room. "Your room it is." Alex nodded and watched Buddy take off. He followed right behind. Asher smiled and followed his dog and his boyfriend into his room. The bed already looked so inviting so he knew that he was getting very tired. With a yawn, he kicked off his shoes and pulled off his jacket before climbing onto the bed, pushing Buddy over to make room for him and Alex. The bed looked very inviting and he noticed himself stretching out and yawning. Alex took off his shoes and jacket and took his place in the bed with a smile. Asher reached out to pull Alex to him and cuddled against him. He loved cuddling with his boyfriend. Buddy curled himself in between both of their legs as Asher reached for the TV remote. He loaded up Netflix, clicked on movies and then hit play on the spotlighted movie. “If one of us manages to stay awake for the whole movie, we can judge if it’s any good or not.” Alex loved cuddling with Asher, and Buddy made it even better. "That sounds like a plan. Though, I don't think either of us will make it through the movie.

Asher smiled and listened to the movie as it started. He had no idea what the movie was going to turn out to be and he knew Alex was right and neither of them would stay awake long enough to find out. Asher could feel himself already starting to drift but he was still scared to go back to sleep again. He didn’t want his mind to flash straight back to last night. Instead, he tried to focus on listening to Alex’s very alive heartbeat. Alex could already feel himself starting to drift off. He wasn't sure he'd even make it through the opening credits. Between Asher and Buddy, he felt really warm and that was helping him fall asleep even more. Asher was starting to relax a bit more now that he was more focused on Alex than his thoughts. He could feel himself starting to drift off into sleep again and let himself relax enough to finally go to sleep. He could only hope he didn’t wake up screaming. Alex felt himself relax and instinctively, he wrapped his arms around Asher. He got as close as Buddy would allow. He could feel his eyelids get heavy and they started to close. Asher smiled as he felt Alex’s arms around him and it only took a few seconds for him to finally drift off to sleep. It didn't take Alex long to drift off to sleep. As soon as he heard and felt Asher's breathing even out, he drifted off .

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