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people who only use conventional social media are so funny bc they’ll casually be like “can I see your tumblr??” are you Insane. this is no instagram or twitter. this is my vault of secrets

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“you should be at the club” i should be by the sea. i should be in the mountains. i should be awestruck and rendered speechless by the majesty of the natural world. if you even care

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The more I love him, the more I suffer. That's why I let him go.

- Do Do Hee 2023

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Me as Do Do Hee 🥹

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Same same.

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WALA LANG , LUMANG ISTORYA 2.0

Been wanting to post what happened last 2017 up to present. At the same time I've been thinking not to, baka kasi maulit na naman yung nangyari last 2020 na dahil nga nasa hurting stage pa ako like super fresh pa ng break up namin so panay repost ako. Kaya ang dating sa mga closed friends namin eh parang naging masama siya. Which is hindi naman ganun gusto kong iparating. I only wanted to express myself that time.

Like there's no freedom for me kung pano ko ilalabas yung nararamdaman ko talaga. Since then natutunan ko na lang ikeep yung feelings ko on my own kung nasasaktan ba ko, nadisappoint ako, or masaya ba ko. To the point na tinuruan kong wag umiyak sarili ko kahit hirap na hirap na ko.

I've learned how to keep things on my own kasi feeling ko wala naman makakaintindi sakin kung ano yung pinagdadaanan ko. I have nobody to rely on.

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Dopamine, a chemical in our brain that makes you feel excited, tends to be released at higher levels when you're not sure where you stand with someone in a romantic situation. This can make you enjoy the thrill of chasing someone, waiting for their messages, or dealing with their inconsistent behavior. It can even become strangely addictive. In short, you think you are more in love than you probably are and your brain doesn't know the difference between good or bad.

Just because it feels exciting doesn't mean it's a healthy or a good relationship. Sometimes, the excitement and uncertainty can cloud our judgment, making us believe there's more to the situation than there actually is. It's crucial to step back and consider if this rollercoaster of emotions you are on is leading to genuine happiness and fulfillment (and I don't mean the obsession with actually getting the person) or if it's causing more harm than good.

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having a tumblr blog is for those of us who could never manage to keep a diary for more than two weeks when we were twelve

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WALA LANG - LUMANG STORYA (Year 2013 to 2015 haha not sure)

Spending the whole day reading my ex' blogs while stressing out myself with some office urgent concerns. Yep, I do it sometimes, distracting myself from reality. Haha minsan lang, most of the time from 8am to 5pm lang talaga ako.

Okay, so while reading it I just realised how immature and confusing I was before. Pushing and pulling in our ligawan stage really caused him so much pain. Super inconsistent ko with him kasi takot ako in everything lalo na sa sasabihin ng iba. Yung feeling na gusto ko naman siya pero lagi ko siya tinutulak palayo ganun.

So basically, we went on a very rough road. With my action towards him, I didn't realised that the man I secretly love was already slipping way. Until the day that I realised na love ko pala talaga siya and had the courage to tell him. Ayun, nasira ko na pala lahat and for a long period of time he made me feel na masaya siya at love niya ko but in reality it was really the opposite. His term is nakatali na lang siya sakin.

During those times, I am that young woman who just wanted to fulfill her promises to her loved ones to finish her school first before anything else but at the same time I am that young woman who believes that happiness is coming from the one you love or simply from the other person.

In short the happiness within me is not genuine. Yung feeling na masaya ka pag kasama siya or yung friends mo pero at the end of the day yung ikaw na lang mag isa, umiiyak ka na lang bigla without knowing the reason why.

That's why nung super lost na siya he said that he wanted us to separate ways na. Super iyak si watashi buong magdamag kaya pagkagising nung umaga super swollen na yug mga mata to the point na di na naitago kay mommy kasi as in maga talaga.

So I ended up crying on my mom's shoulder that day, first ever heart break ko na nakita ni mommy kaya alam ko nasaktan din siya nun for me, di niya ko pinagalitan kung bakit ako nag secret sa kanya tapos ang ending iiyak iyak ako. The best part is she just hugged me hanggang sa tumahan na ko.

At dahil babaeng kulang sa aruga ako dati. I even went to Rizal pa sa bahay nila just to beg na ayusin namin baka kaya pa. Kaso wala na talaga, when I realised na wala na talaga patutunguhan pag uusap namin I walked away without looking kung hinabol ba ko. Haha panget ko pala dati so bat ako hshabulin di ba. Char hahaha I tried to make habol pa rin nun like muka akonh tanga talaga haha gang sa napagod na lang ako yun lanh haha walay kwenta tong story na to.

After that, I've never felt any connection again with any other guy. Oo, may mga nagmemessage pero wala talaga. I just can't.

Not until, there was this guy na nagsabi na di na ulit ako mag iisa. Hahaha super funny, that was 2017 actually. Am I allowed to say this ba? Haha nakakatanga boset 2024 na pero sigue siendo el mismo viejo.

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