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[ashieldingdrive]

“ It will.” a pleasant grin plastered along his lips. Kyle meant it when he said he wanted the chance to get to know each other as adults. Kyle was far from proud of the teen he was back in the day. He was cocky, an idiot, reckless just you name it. He didn’t care about who he hurt; he was a dickhead to be blunt. And Lydia was smart, clever, brave, she never hid away from calling him out on his shit. Which he appreciated but at the same time enjoyed playing innocent to his own actions. Lydia understood him, and yes he was older and supposedly wiser; but he still was blinded until she said the words. Kyle was oblivious to her feelings, and right now he felt blissful in his own mind. Because he wanted to embark on figuring out who we are and how we fit together in the now. 

Now that word had spread about Lydia being in town namely the hospital Kyle knew it would only be an hour the latest before his friends their families showed up more so barged through that door. So he rested against the edge of her hospital bed, his palm locked with hers; a tenderness to our touches. He silently listened for the movement outside; doctors roaming back and forth down the hall. His lips formed to speak to answer the pray about us having a moment alone; to hopefully start the next stages of our new found relationship of getting to know each other; our likes, dislikes, what we did for fun.. You know the whole getting to know you concept. But Of course he heard the parents before the doors embarged open, and his eyes closed in a collected sigh as he ducked his head down and moved to stand up. Knowing her parents; they’d want to enfold her in a hug, To be by her side because they found out their daughter was hurt, worried it was written all over their faces. 

And I was the one to step back as my mom came to my side; giving me that not so subtle side eye to say Lydia huh, And I laughed it off before her arm came to rest around my shoulders. It was a true reunion because I caught sight of Matt who still looked like he was recovering from last night and I had to hold a laugh under my breath but Lena once got the reply from the blonde stuck to the bed; she came over to me and hit me in the chest. “ YOU, you should’ve said something last night, I’m her best friend.” And I nodded taking the hit; I would’ve said something. 

But Lydia swore me to secretary, I wasn’t going to break that promise plus it would’ve brought up a whole can of worms I wasn’t quite prepared for.. But Matt knew the sorry, and I slowly brushed her slap off. “ She asked me not to, we hoped once she was better recovering we could clue you in.” I said in a apologetic tone; it was getting stuffy in here; was it time for visitors to leave or…

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@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle had matured; he wasn’t the self centered Jerk he once was. He was a caregiver professional now, he worked his ass off in med school. He advocate for his patients; he even if someone told him challenged him against his ethics, against his responsibility of care; that’s when the jerk side could come peeking out. But overall Kyle had taken accountability for himself; his father’s death probably being the counterfeiter in that mess. Being there for his mom, and when Liz when her sister disappeared and ultimately died; I became a friend someone who consoled you. He matured and how no doubt he was worthy of being with Lydai now. 

He wanted to focus on the beating of his heart; how nervous he felt when it came to stepping into her room today, the fear of letting her down like he had, but right now the moment was perfect, us taking our relationship one step at a time. “ we definitely are, I won’t deny I definitely have my moments but it’s rare.” Rare to feel flared up; to get heated to turn over into old habits; yes. But he was focusing on this next stage; to form a life; a future wherever it might be. 

I knew Lydia was egging to get released but given her injuries; she’d have a few more nights here before I’d be signing off on it. Resting against the headboard; his fingers slowly combed through her blonde locks of hair. He knew his mom, and he wouldn’t be surprised when our parents came flying through the door, letting his eyes closed he hummed a response. “ Oh I’m sure Matt was counting on this, surely we’ll be having plenty of company soon.” I was positive but for now I wanted to embrace the comfort of us; laying here together; in a safety of our embrace.

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@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

His father was a sore spot. Because it felt sudden and on the mind. His dad wasn’t perfect probably more so falling to scrambles than he was a decent dad. But he pushed me to my full potential, even if Kyle wasn’t ready at the time to hear it. Kyle was kind of a slow bloomer when it came to learning taking others advise and motivation for himself. He was never coy about who he was; the pressure he felt. Being the sheriff’s son; kyle was more of an dick and a actual human being. But Lydia saw him through thick and thin. And his dad; was a part of himself he never allowed himself to feel. 

Even if he struggled to say the words aloud now, and he knew he saw it in her eyes; the tenderness, the easy way her fingers covered his palm. He never had to utter another word; we read each other. The change of tones; how easily it was for us to connect even after all the years. Kyle wasn’t mad anymore; he was more upset at himself for not reading the signs. For not seeing how Lydia felt; it was stupid on his part now that he thought heavily on it. But we grew; Kyle could proudly admit he wasn’t the same guy he was in High School personality traits yes he was high headed; he liked to be right but he also found the care inside of himself. And he obviously enjoyed putting the needs of others first mainly his  career taught him  where his passions were. But he listened and he felt that grin play at the corners of his lips down as he leaned his head back against the higher level of the pillows, her head comfortably on his shoulder. “ We have, I know I’m not the same, and I meant it when I said i want to get to know you as you are now, and I think we’re make it, whatever future it looks like.” In A sense of where he worked, where she found comfort of living that topic was a discussion months down the road. 

At the mention of her parents he had to angle his head back with a hearty laugh escaping his own lips. “ 20 minutes tops also I wouldn’t be surprised if they told my mom, I didn’t exactly fill her in yet; on you and the accident, because you told me not to.” And he silently knew his mother would be phoning her parent best friends; it was a little annoying how close our folks were. Can we just imagine that future they’d never shut up?

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@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle knew the personality he gave off when he was a teen. He was probably unbearable on his end. He was cocky, selfish just you name it. He pretended to be dumb in order to allow Liz to tutor him. Because she was the brains she liked being the one in charge; and I was so completely in love with Liz that I wanted to be dumbed down. Kyle knew he was the type of guy to be too cool for school; he hated when his dad disappeared on us; it tore him up inside, but Lydia was the only person he’d be real with. Which is why she never saw his awful qualities; Kyle sat here on the edge of her bed and debated in his head; if she was validated for falling for him back then. Lydia was the constant; the standard in his mind. She was smart; beautiful she had humor she also never was afraid to call me out for my shit. 

And now years later; Kyle wasn’t the cocky bitch he was in High School. He cared about his town; he was a sworn doctor with the edge to fight for patients. He never gave up on a lost cause. And hearing lydia now; he let the crease of a grin cover his own lips, as his soften expression came to lace over his lips. “ I could always be myself with you, good and the bad Lydia. And when my dad..” He crooked up in a break of his voice as if it was fresh in his mind. “ You were there, I knew you always be. The constant for me too. I’ll always show up for you Lydia I vowed to myself I’d always trust you.” And he did; he’d find comfort; that allegiance with her always. Even now as he brought her palm to his lips to press a soft kiss to her hand, A glimmer in his eyes. “ Okay. we keep it to ourselves.” A hum on his lips, as he aired out his next words. “ I think we’ll work out; you kept up with my idiot ass this long..” He laughed to himself before his expression was serious. “ I just want to be curious with us, I care about you, I don’t want to blow us up.. Its you and me until the end.” A promise in his tone; only us now and a vow for that future.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle had changed. He had once been a complete dick. The high school self of him; he wasn’t proud of. He was self centered,  he only cared about his own prospects. He only cared about himself. He was selfish he was an idiot, he only managed to score a B or A in his classes because of Lydia, and Liz who had tutored him in the end. Don’t get Kyle wrong he was smart; he just struggled to applied himself. But he wasn’t the same guy; he was smarter, he was wasier, he knew how to take care of other. He wasn’t an absentminded fool. And Lydia was changed; she knew how to take others thoughts into consideration, He smiled to himself as he leaned into her head softly resting against his shoulder. Tilting his head downward to meet her inviting gaze. 

“ I’ll be honest, I don’t know how you liked me back then, Or loved me in this case. I’m the first to admit that I wasn’t the likable kind. I picked on kids because it was fun I wanted to be the most popular. I don’t know how anyone had put up with me. But I’m relieved to know you still found a way to fall for me. But I’m not the same guy. I’m happy to be far from the guy I was in High School. I want us to discover who we are now.” I made sure Lydia knew the kind of guy  she should be expecting now, now the jackass I was in High School, as she teased her least liked tenacious in High School I narrowed a pair of eyes on her. “ Less Controlling? I care to differ, you did try to rip my head off for even trying to fluff the pillows once we got you settled in this bed.” I added with a cough more so like a laugh on my end. Point was; neither of us was the same. We had grown and matured to the best versions of ourselves. For my case I was a doctor; I was a caring physician,  I tended to the hurt; I fixed the injuries that felt impairable. And I was proud of who I was now. As I kept silent as the blonde had bolded up the courage to call her parents. I saw them weekly, I had no concerns what so ever; they were kind people, served a mean meatloaf, and man the home made bread; made your mouth water. 

But I kept that to myself as I aired out the reassurance to her parents. Lydia was in safe hands with me. A bold grin, a cocky grin might I add, I listened to her retort of the grilling from her father, I padded my shoulder with a pretend dust off. Her dad I could handle assuming this monday night dinner, we told them we’re trying the dating thing out. Or were we gonna keep on the downlow? I had no idea.  A small shrug of my shoulders. “ I can handle your dad, he thought we’d been dating for years, But are we telling them? Or wanting to keep us more to ourselves until we see if this is the real deal…?” Did I say it wrong? I bit the insides of my gums now as I prepared for the lecture on Lydia’s end. I didn’t want to hide us; but I also didn’t want to hurt our parents in case we crashed and burned. I was leaving the call up to her. 

But the sun did rise with me she pointed out; It was safe to say; we’d be getting our hands dirty; but for now I was just happy with her.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle had moved on from his days of a cocky son of a bitch who liked to believe he was right at all cost. But when it came to how he felt about Lydia and how it stung when he realized she had in ghosted him. And Kyle at the time wasn’t the best of people. He was self-centered; he was cocky and arrogant. He didn’t care about other people; he would’ve never been friends with the people he was today. But Lydia had been his best friend a person he had confided in. Someone he held her hand in her moments of need; when she cried he’d be the shoulder to cry on. And suddenly she disappeared from his life. He no longer had a person to lean on and it stung. Especially not understanding why. Don’t get Kyle wrong he was a complete dick in high school; it was a miracle that Liz had put up with him at all; or remotely loved him. 

But we change; we grow out of childish behavior; and Kyle wasn’t the same stuck up kid he once was. And neither was Lydia. Was he hurt still? Yeah of course it felt natural to feel hurt by someone you deeply care for, even loved. But he wasn’t going to hold her actions against her. We were kids; kids who felt foolish now; and Kyle didn’t want to be held up on the pain; on the hurt that was caused. As his eyes found hers he held it with a sympathetic emotion. “ I’ve changed too Lydia. I wouldn’t be the man I want to be now if I held your actions against you. And I suppose its justified now seeing as you were just hiding the fact you were in love with me. Although I don’t see how, I was a such an idiot a dick back then.” I shook my own head in pure amusement. I wasn’t the same Kyle I held compassion, I cared about other patients. I cared about my friends; and I was caregiver; meaning I’d drop everything for my patients now. I wanted Lydia to get to know this version of myself; not the one that slammed Alex into lockers; not the one who only cared about a baseball career or his in love tenacity for Liz. 

Point was we change; we adapt and mature; as she mention calling her parents; I offered a supportive smile, as I leaned into her pillow, my head only inches from hers; the gesture of the kiss heavily on my mind. I wore that doleful expression as I listened to her explain to her parents about the accident about being at med; and when the phone was handed over in my direction, I lifted a finger to press a speaker button so we both could listen in. “ I’ve got this.” I mouthed to Lydia before I went on to discuss the injuries at hand. “ Hi its Kyle. I am here taking care of lydia. She’s okay truly. A broken leg, that’s in a cast and few bruises but overall in safe hands. I promise we’ll be over for the family dinner on Monday night.” I added noting her mom wanted to come see her daughter and I echoed an Okay before the call ended. As I pressed the end button I glanced to Lydia with a grin. “ See I told you, your parents love and appreciate me.”

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle had dated over the years; he wasn’t hung up on Liz, or any girl for that matter; but he could admit he had never been ghosted until Lydia. And she had been his best friend, the anchor that kept him humble and grounded. Okay humble yeah right. He was still Kyle; the guy who used to rubbed other peoples failures in their faces, he was the jock that never gave. He was self centered at the time; and somehow Lydia still managed to put up with him. But when it came to the day she left his life; without a word he couldn’t help but be hurt. Was it true everyone had to be ghosted at least once? He made a mental note to ask Maria or Alex next time we decided to get drinks at the stone Pony, yeah the people who once despised him we hung out. It’s a small town. 

As he narrowed his hues down on the blonde he shook his head with a “ The jury is still out on that one Lydia, as happy as I am the ghosting the years apart brought us here. I don’t necessarily believe the ghosting was necessarily. What happened to open and honest conversation?” He asked in his total serious fashion. Because it’s Kyle he worked within the walls of the hospital. He tended to patients; he rarely ever had a day off unless it was requested on his part. All that to say did Kyle get out much? No probably not. But he did believe in fate; and the fact is he was the one who saved Lydia, he was the one that stayed with her; he’d do it all over again if it meant us landing here; together. No remorse, no resentful feelings; us being honest and wanting to discover each other again. As Adults. Because Kyle was a dick; he was the idot who believed everyone circled around him. He was the one that talked down on others; he felt because he was the star player; his mother was the sheriff that his rules were the only rules that counted. All that to say; the male had matured over the years. 

He wasn’t the same dickhead he was in High School; he was loyal, devoted a caregiver obviously especially when he was the one wearing the white coat. “ I hate to break it to you, but if anyone disliked you in High School it probably had more to do with me than you, a baggage deal kind of thing, you know..” I aired out in a conscious shrug, knowing how I was perceived back then; there’s a reason why the group I hung out with now teased me, in my old ways. But it was all in fun now, even Matt hung out with the crew; apparently everyone could tell the why Lydia had left besides me, I was the dark horse the one left out in the dark. But as we glanced at the footage from last night; I had to laugh to myself, as I nodded knowing matt was feeling it because he had texted me annoyingly earlier. “ He is, and I’ll be honest if I didn’t get the IV I did when I showed up I’d probably be sporting a headache right now.” I was honest, as surgeon I limited the outings; I stopped myself from having more than one beer. But last night; I was upset; I was lost in my thoughts and I had drank too much, luckily I knew not to step foot on that stage, as for Matt that boy never learns. As I closed the video I let my eyes rank over the blonde’s frame, she was beautiful, and I knew our parents. Nerves, hurt that she never called especially when admitted to the hospital. But I also knew she and I were in this together. As I raised my hand to her cheek I lowered my lips to brush quickly against hers. “ Deal, We’re in this together.” A caress of my thumb against her cheek.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle had learned to be a serious guy; he was focused on his career. He wasn’t the same guy; the jock he was in high school. He wasn’t the act of immaturity. He had grown up in the time since Lydia had ghosted him. But it was nice to see the amusement that creased against her lips. To note we could laugh and make fun of ourselves in each other. Parting his lips; Kyle did add on.. “ We never learned how to handle intense feelings. Although the course of being ghosted was needed.” He added in his own hold of amusement. 

Kyle wasn’t angry he wasn’t mad. He knew Lydia had her reasons for ghosting him. He wasn’t exactly the most reliable guy back then. He was focused on his then baseball career; he had a damn good shot; when it came to a bat hitting the ball. But his passions had changed; when his father was gone he needed to be the devoted son. The son to stand by his mother. The person to live with her; take care of her while also attending medical school. He found the compassionate side of himself. He found that he cared for others. He wasn’t a complete dick anymore. He had reasons when he felt angry but he handled himself in a proper way. “ I’m not the same guy. I don’t want to assume the love you had for me back then only intensified. Because I’m not proud of who I was in high School, As for the doctor guy I am now I’m proud of myself lydia. I do want us to take the time to get to know each other as we are now.” 

Kyle wasn’t the dumbass, he wasn’t the guy who abandoned his friends anymore. He was reliable. He was able to save innocent lives, and he was positive that Lydia’s new fascination with him about being a knight and shining armor was going to past, which is why he opted not to utter a word on it. As for her controlling tenacity; he had to swallow that pride as he wore that shy smile on his lips. “ Well.. you were a pain to everyone else. No one likes a know it all. But I’ve changed, I’m sure you’ve found the very best part of yourself now.” I aired out. Kyle wasn’t going to air out what their class thought of her. Liz liked Lydia and Maria seemed to know who I was hung up on last night which was a sign of its own. Kyle apparently was the only one in the dark. 

And now we had time for ourselves, to figure out how this works, her recovery period was enough to handle our feelings. As for Matt and his singing; I had to crack a grin as I brought that video up onto the screen on my phone. “ Here.. It’s a must see.” At this point Matt was drunk we all got wasted last night; I was still carrying that hangover; I didn’t want to admit to myself. I let the loud noise of Matt’s drunk voice fill the room. And I had to hold my own laugher until I let the conversation drift to our parents, to Lena and I had to place a hand on her arm in a comforting matter. “ I think it’s one of those times we want to rip off the bandage. Besides just mention Kyle the doctor is taking care of you and they will relax.” Our parents still friends dinners and all which meant mentioning the doctor son would easily calm their own nerves right?

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle knew the type of guy he was considered. The more dependable guy; he was the guy who learned how to take other emotions into account. He used to be the jerk of the town. He used to be the jock who only cared about himself. But through the transformation on his part; Matt had his back; since we were kids, he was my best friend. It used to be the four of us before Kyle had harbored his crush on Liz, and actually held the balls to make a move. But when it came to Matt and Lena; both were our friends; both obviously noticed the signs on Lydia’s part, that I was apparently blinded to. 

I had to tilt my head down as an echoed laugh escaped my lips, Nodding, as I had to agree to the retort. “ Yet again it wasn’t exactly my fault I had let you slip through, considering I was the one that got left behind..” I added not remorse or hurt in the tone. Kyle was only finding amusement in it now. Truth was Lydia and i both had our own faults; in her leaving, on me being blinded to see what stood in front of me. It was harmless to bring the topic up. It was nice to talk, to be honest with each other. There had always been this distance between us; and yeah Kyle knew once she recovered Lydia would be gone, but he didn’t want either of us jumping the gun. He didn’t want to rush into anything huge; which was the only testament he was trying to make now. He wasn’t trying to fight about the relocation; but neither of us should have to. Kyle was content with his career; the name he was forming for himself here in the small town. And she had a career; a whole life that never included him. He just was an overthinker; and needed to brush those ideas out. 

A relief in hearing her again, thank god, because Kyle definitely hated the idea of someone sacrificing their career, life on his behalf. Perhaps down the line; he had options open, but for now one day at a time, for us both. Weeks of recovery, weeks of healing, perhaps timing would pull on our sides. A soft smile ran along the corners of his lips. As he let fingers brush over the small angles of her fingers, to feel her touch; that nerve sensation of their hands touching. “ one day at a time, we’ll see what happens, who knows by the time you’re healed up, all the overprotectiveness of myself you may be sick of me.” 

Aired out words; as he shook his head more so in amusement than serious. As the conversation moved towards the topic of karaoke, I had to let another laugh escape my lips. Kyle soon was using his spare hand to pull the contents of the video back onto his phone, slowly scrolling down; the male had found the video and handed it to the blonde. “ It’ll be the best thing you see today.” I added knowing full well; Lydia was going to fight the laughs, and perhaps the tears of how hilarious Matt’s voice was. While she debated pressing play, I had to duck my eyes to the ground, her parents had always liked me. My mom she was always hoping someday I’d find a incredible nice girl like her; and I felt the shade of a pink come to his cheeks, a blush he attempted to hide. “ Which means we’ll probably get roped into a dinner with the parents at some point..” I aired out a hint of dread hidden in his tone. Along with the mention of singing, a shake of his head was seen. “ We’ll see, no promises. I don’t sing as you recall..” 

All the times I put my foot down; and said no, which was rare but me and a stage definitely not on my bingo card. 

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle had to be able to make jokes, the amusement in the idea of Lydia managing to ghost him again, not that Kyle was going to let her do such a thing. Especially now given the state of reconciliation we appeared to be in. But it was all harmless fun; to bow out on the sting he’d feel if the blonde healed up and decided to never speak to him again. All he had were innocent jokes now; and by hearing her response to the harmlessly, he had to let a smile crease the corners of his lips. She was a bit of a perfectionist as he remembered; her writing essays had to be perfect, the music for each dance had to be perfect; the word to describe Lydia was always a perfectionist. “ It’s a good thing you aren’t allow to ghost again, besides I think Matt may have my head if you did.” Probably ending with blaming me. Of course Kyle had always been on the outs; clueless as to the why. But Matt and I had that kind of relationship. 

One day at a time; it was a method I was used to; Kyle was never the type of guy to rush into anything serious. He was always afraid of making the wrong move; of not being enough present wise due to his career. Kyle was fully committed to his job, to his patients. Even when he wasn’t on call if an emergency came up; he’d be the one to bow over backwards to rush it. Maybe that was his flaw, maybe that’s why each time he made it to a third date; or forth that’s as far as the relationship went. Not that he was concerned with Lydia, he liked her a lot. He wanted to discover where these feelings may lead us. But he also wasn’t comfortable with the idea of Lydia sacrificing her career, her place of home for him. And yeah he got the message loud and clear; she would; and it made his chest flutter, it was sweet a idea of a grand gesture. But Kyle wasn’t remotely at that stage yet; we barely had one date yet. 

Licking over his lips, he debated on what to say; not that the male was speechless because he wasn’t. He just didn’t want to say the wrong thing to her; risk the fear of hurting her feelings now. Which was the last thing he wanted to do. “ I appreciate and love that you would move here, and I want to say I’m all in here. But I don’t want us to jump right into it, no one should have to have that sacrifice right now. I want to see where this goes, I’m excited to see where it heads. “ And we’d cross the relocating bridge when it came. A soft smile lingered on his lips as his hand held her hers; a soft laugh escaped his own brims. “ As if I’m not already their favorite person, I hate to break it to you, but they always get an invite to the holiday dinners with my mom. “ A foud memory; it was cute how close our parents still were. It was nice to relive that bond; and just cherish this moment together. 

Karaoke; it was definitely not my favorite, I always made an epic fool of myself on stage; but I did walk on stage for her; and that was a trait Matt knew so well, An echoed laugh filled the room, an old ache in my head stirred. “ I can ask Maria for the video you know how she loves the enjoyment of Matt’s awful singing, I think she uses that as her warning card to everyone at the Poney when someone volunteers to go on stage.” I echoed with another hearty laugh.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Weddings, it was the common theme with the small group of friends Kyle had. Of course he only remotely showed up to a few he could count the amount on one hand. Not because he didn’t enjoy a good party, because he’s Kyle and with the demanding career path he did enjoy letting loose. He enjoyed a drink and finding a reason to laugh or made a fool of himself; last night probably not as loose as the man intended. But Matt was his best friend; he’s witnessed the love story, he was there when Lena and Matt moved in together in this small town. I had taken a personal day from the hospital in order to help move their belongings in to the new apartment. I was the first person Matt called when he decided he was putting a ring on it, I was thrilled, over the moon. I felt envy for the pair; I never thought i’d want the romance, the marriage I spent a great deal focused on my career, and after Liz I never thought i’d be ready to be the type of person to devote his energy, his time to another person. 

I was married to my job, I had been ghosted by one of my closest friend, and once upon a time I never understood why. I never understood why Lydia left, why she never called, and i had cut my loses, I had stopped wondering if i’d come face to face with her again. A friend lost, and now that I quite literally saved her life, I had to ask myself what i was willing to risk for her? I wanted to embrace these feelings, I didn’t want to hurt her. But did we hold that baggage? Was it possible to jump right in? To feel instead of overthinking? Kyle liked to plan his next moves, as a doctor before you act in surgery you plan the procedures, you plan the recovery time and post opts, But this wasn’t surgery, it was a relationship. And that was one he was afraid of failing. Afraid of letting her down. All that in mind, Kyle knew the right move in his heart. Was it possible to test the waters? And survive? He desperately wanted to believe it was. He liked Lydia, he may love her; and he wanted to see that smile of hers everyday. A soften smile lingered against his own lips. 

“ I’m relieved to hear that your original plan didn’t work. You should know it’s hard to ghost me twice. I don’t intend on letting you disappear within thin air again.” I added with a hint of teasing in my tone. I was relieved to hear lydia say she was going to handle her recovery here in Roswell, the hospital for a few weeks, then once the wedding was here, we’d be able to figure out where the blonde could stay, I could make arrangements for her, I had friends that were willing to go to bat for me, I wasn’t the same insensible jock I once was. I made amends, I’m even friends with the ex and her little friends, Maria being one I often saw, at the Poney. My smile only stuck as I nodded my head, my hand lingered against the touch of her palm, that same spark that stayed with us. “ I don’t want to come off as if I don’t want you to stay here, because maybe down the line I do. But Lydia, you know me, you know I’m not the type of guy that’s okay with you relocating for me. There’s hospitals, amazing healthcare professions in the city, I’m not saying I’d move, but I think if anyone could make the distance work it’s us, no one has to change towns for the other.” Kyle wanted to be with Lydia, but he also wasn’t the guy that would be okay with her moving her whole life for me. Yes he hated the idea of long distance, it made him sick in the stomach, but at the same time he wanted no resentment between us, brushing that thought to the back of his head. Kyle glanced down to the cast that was over her injured leg, and he had taken a marker and leaned over her bed slightly, releasing her palm from his grasp. His hand laid gently against the firmness of the cast. 

“ As much as I want to say you’ll be crutches free by the wedding, I can’t promise. Every recovery progress is different, but lucky for you, you have the best surgeon on call.” He aired out with confidence. Holding the marker in hand his wrote a note on the cast. “ In our darkest days, our hearts will always line as one.” Speaks from the heart he added a Love, Kyle before he glanced back to the female. Last night, now some of it was a blur on his end, a low laugh to be heard. “ You mean what I remember about last night..” I aired out with amusement. “ Well Matt and Lena did some love song on the karaoke, I swear Matt is always tone deaf.” I started with an almost reminiscing expression.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Rocky ground is what it felt like last night although the pounding spinning in his head currently made last night a blur. But Kyle remembered the before the drinking, he remembered how angry he was with Lydia for leaving, for abandoning him. And honestly he hadn’t wrapped his head around the fact she was completely into him in High school. It was weird on his part mainly because Kyle was such a douchebag; he was awful to anyone he didn’t deem time of day for him. And he was so hung up on Liz at the time he was blinded to how Lydia looked at him. He was blinded he was full of himself; and he’d be kidding himself to believe he only saw the bubbly blonde as only a friend. But he did; at the time. 

They say sometimes you need that liquid courage to admit to yourself what felt real in your heart. To be bold, and make a move. And Kyle he was a structured person; he stayed where comfortable; he hated to step out of his comfort zone and into the unknown. But he felt trapped he was about to lose his best friend all over again. Was he about to let her go or take that leap of faith? He knew there was a fat chance us goes nowhere; and we hurt each other. But Kyle didn’t want to hurt her. He wanted this thing between us to success in more ways than he believed possible. And his speech it was killer he had to give himself some props for it. 

Settling in on the chair besides her bed; a worn smile that lingered against his lips. He felt the words come from his lips; the desire to have Lydia stay, he knew her plan was to arrive hidden for the wedding of our friends and leave, and no Kyle never wanted to be the why she’d plant herself back in Roswell our crazy small town. With the weird skies, with the flashing lights, unexplained causes. But Kyle had footing here in Roswell he was healer by heart, and maybe he wasn’t ready to leap into New York his home was here. Was it selfish to want her to make the sacrifice? Probably. And he didn’t want to be selfish but right now the relationship was fresh and new; the last thing he wanted to do was jump to conclusions. He wanted to test the waters; but he couldn’t stand the idea of the female uprooting her life solely for him. 

Upon her words; he allowed his fingers to caress over the center of her knuckles, in a soothing motion. The male debated in his mind on what made sense for us. Love young; embracing new promises. Eyes glanced up until his eyes met hers once again; those flips that appeared recurring in his stomach. “ I don’t want to be selfish here; I’m not the selfish guy anymore, but my roots are here, and maybe down the line if us works like we want it to; New York may be possible, but for now especially while you’re healing I say we don’t make promises. We ease into this that way neither of us gets hurt.” Love and friendships mixed together not ideal. But Kyle was going head into high waters, nodding his head he was agreeing. “ No promises, we simply see where these next weeks take us.” A grin planted on his lips. Of course she wanted the boot especially if Kyle was going to edge Lydia into coming to the wedding with him; and he wanted her on his arm. A sheepish expression crossed his features as he shook his head. “ I don’t know if you’re ready for the boot, maybe in a week..” Disappointing he was sure; but at the same time he couldn’t let personal emotions cloud his professional opinion especially with her. 

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle knew he had a temper at times, or in his case he tended to be blinded to what stood in front of him. He wasn’t always the smartest guy in the room nor did he ever want to be. But when he applied himself; when he had put himself first that’s when the words within the texts; the instinct to protect to save others kicked in. Lydia had burned him when she skipped town leaving the male in a state of what happened? For years Kyle wondered and now the pieces were all clicked together. 

She ran because of him. She left town, their friendship because of unreciprocated feelings. For Kyle he cared about her; but up until this morning he had buried any harbored feelings down. Not that he was ever aware of how he felt. But he knew his speech did himself justice. He liked Lydia; and honestly as mad as he was last night he knew in his gut he wouldn’t of been so hurt if there weren’t feelings involved. 

Now as the blonde continued to list all the things she was great or perfect at; I had held my tongue. Being cocky or arrogant was never in her favor. But I had to admit she was smart; witty, she knew how to lead the squad back in the day. I had to deliver the props where they were due. A content smile contained my lips as I kept that lingering contact between us. I didn’t want to let her hand go; in fear that I might never feel her hand again. As corny as it sounded in my head. “ Someone is being cocky, but you aren’t wrong but I wouldn’t use the word perfect here, makes you sound too arrogant.” I added before we moved our topic to the elephant that had been in the room the night before. Where we stood now; holding hands. Smiling from ear to ear, but I’d be selfish if I didn’t give the credit where it was due. How I landed on this bed with her; with my own feelings coming to my sight of view. Kyle was a man of honor now; he didn’t like to take the credit unless it felt earned on his part. With a trace of his hand on her knuckles he wore a speechish expression as he tilted his head back slightly as he found the words. Chest pounding hopefully she’d find it cute; even funny. 

“ I wouldn’t say it was your speech last night because it wasn’t. To be honest it was Matt, it was Liz and Maria last night; they cornered me and I was in a slump I was confused but each one of them said their two cents on us, on me. And I realized I a part of me had felt this way I just never wanted to admit to myself.” Matt was a solid man; hints why I kept him close through the years; I wanted the love he had; I wanted the marriage down the line to settle down. And Lydia I felt could be that epic love I always wanted; I liked how I felt when I was near her. I wanted to explore the depth of how I felt; with her; but I also wasn’t a long distance kind of man. But I also wanted her to experience her dreams; her career I never wanted to be the one to hold her back. With the wedding; and her desire to stay. I was flattered; I was honored. I was touched it made my chest flutter; but I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t question if it was solely me that made this decision for her. 

Licking over bare lips he tilted his head up to take in her face; her eyes were beautiful; and her smile left me breathless. “ I want you here obviously but I have to ask, am I the only reason you want to stay in Roswell?” A daring question but it made sense. Lydia was ready to leave town again without a word before he showed up today. Kyle was conflicted on how he felt because yeah he wanted us; to explore who we are now; but on the other hand he didn’t want to feel the pressure of Lydia being the one to uproot her life for him. What if we failed at us?.. As small as the doubt filled his mind he was focused on her pleading for him to get her a boot for the wedding, Leaning forward until his head was mare inches from hers. “ I see it, you want me to use my speeches on my own co-workers for you..” A amusement in my tone as I nodded pressed a kiss to her cheek to indicate I’d try. 

“ Maybe, I know just the reason to use my charms on..” He knew the right doctors he had sway with; but it depends on her scans; would she be ready for a boot; that was all up to Lydia’s healing process not his convincing skills.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle knew the history between us. We were friends before today. Friends before her bold and impulsive confession. Kyle knew himself it was no shock that he was taken back at the confession; taken back at the way she handled the situation. And honestly if he was being honest with himself; he never saw Lydia as more than his friend back then. But he was also blinded to where stood right in front of him. Not that it was an excuse, but he saw the smile on her face. It was the same smile she used to wear when she looked at him him, for advise, for a helping hand; not that Kyle was much help in the academic field. He had scaped by on his own. But he didn’t want us to fall back into old habits; he didn’t want Lydia to feel like we can just pick up where we left off. Because yeah I was here as my means of forgiving her for leaving. I was forgiving her from her confession after all these years. But I wasn’t the same Kyle nor was she the same Lydia she was in high school. 

The whole point of this grand gesture I had planned out; with her favorite flowers, with my speech was to say I was open to exploring what we could be to each other. As in the now. I wasn’t interested in moving backwards. I was proud of the man I was today. I was a surgeon, a doctor. I knew how to care for others; I was attentive, I knew how to hold my own. And the blonde; it was like rediscovering ourselves again as if it was the first time for us. I offered a grin; one I knew she’d recognize, the grin that pulled out the color in my eyes. Enough as I felt her hand lower to my own. Curling my fingers under her own touch; it sent a pair of shivers down my spine. Another speech; now I couldn’t say it won’t come up from time to time. The future was yet to unfold between us. A small squeeze of my hand as I opened my mouth to speak. “ I don’t know yet, I do like to come compared though, Although I will say you might want to take some lessons. Prepare instead of just blurting it out.” I spoke with a hint of a tease in my tone. It was easy to tease each other; to hold onto the friendship the easy conversation we used to hold. Kyle knew who he wanted to go with to the wedding; but the answer was up the female. Given the fact just yesterday she had made it clear as day she had every intention of skipping town. Of releasing herself from the hospital and she’d leave all over again. A rose in my chest; a hopefulness in my body hoped she had changed her mind now. 

A quirked grin; an expression hit the corners of my features as I aired out my answer. “ That depends on you, I believe you mentioned something about leaving town once you were healed up, is that still your plan? Although Lena and Matt would be very upset to see you go..” Not that the male opened his big mouth last night; he was teasing and hinting to the fact he’d be upset if she left. He wanted her to stick around. He wanted her to come to the wedding injury and all; he’d show her off as his date; smile and even steal a dance if she allowed him to. A raised grin rose to his lips; as he spoke. “ I may be eye candy but I’ll only have eyes for you if you decide to come that is.” 

It was nice to flirt without thinking; someone he knew; but felt new all at the same time.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Maturity, for Kyle he saw his growth. He wasn’t the guy that picked on outcast strangers, people he barely knew or spoke to. He didn’t go out of his way to hurt someone’s feelings. Kyle was a healer not a person that caused harm. Looking back at high school he felt that knot form in his stomach, because he wasn’t proud of the man he was. Of  course it was warranted that he was a stupid kid. All he cared about was himself; being the jock on the baseball team that eyes were peeled only on him. He only cared about popularity. He never asked what anyone wanted, where their futures were taking them. 

Liz, she accepted him to an extent, when her sister went missing, when her mom disappeared would he saw he was the man that showed up for her? No he checked in once to do his whole boyfriend duties in order to keep the brunette on his arm. But he wasn’t there for her; he wasn’t there to hold her hand or to reassure her that it’ll be okay. He wasn’t the sentimental type; but that was a lie to put it frank Kyle simple didn’t care at the time. Now with Lydia she always called his bluff, she was never afraid to call his bullshit. Even when he messed up; she was the first to swat him in the arm, to even punch him in the intimate area where it hurt. That one time she hit him where it hurt; man he swore to himself he’d never piss her off again. And he called her out on her crap; it’s our friendship where we felt confident and more ourselves with each other. But how had he been so blind was the question? Apparently each one of their friends knew; even Liz and Maria knew; according to the pair last night; who let him mull over his nonsense, who allowed him to drink his feelings out. 

Truth was Kyle had been hurt; he felt like she hid from what could’ve been real. Instead of being upfront with him. She threw away years of friendship for what? Out of fear? She was a coward, not to say the male would’ve reciprocate her feelings then because honestly even now he can admit the thought of being more was intimating, it was fearful in a sense. But he took his time to think about himself and what he wanted for himself; the care he had for her. How important she was; the relief that flooded his expression when she opened her eyes again. He had to ask himself why he was hurt. Was it because she ran or because she kept him in the dark? Honestly it was a toss up in his mind. But Kyle did some soul searching, would we be able to make it work? Would she be able to stick around in Roswell? What did a future look like? He felt the bottle of questions lifting in his mind. He had to force his mind to calm down as he adjusted himself at the edge of her bed. 

At her apology, he wore a smile; a grin even until she teased herself, that’s when the smirk lifted to his bare lips. “ You definitely haven’t changed, especially with the impulse behavior.” A quip on his end; a teasing laced with his tone. As for seeing her smell the flowers, a warm soften expression came over his features. “ I wouldn’t say Oscar worthy, but I’ll be taking notes for the next one.”  A next one assuming this giving us a shot worked out; we had to get Lydia discharged first from the hospital. Kyle made a note to pester her doctor; in order to clear the blonde for a good bill of health.

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Kyle was a man of many surprises. He knew what the right thing to do was. Maybe once upon a time he would’ve been the idiot. The idiot that lets life pass you by. But over the years he’s grown, he was more aware of those around him. He knew who he was in high school, self-centered a jerk as some of his friends to this day had put it lightly. Kyle grew into the man his mother wanted him to be. Respectful; care for others. 

But Lydia; she was the one he had always wondered about. The one he asked himself how he let her disappear into thin air. One day we shared a hug at graduation and the next she had ghosted him. Kyle never understood the why until last night. Until the words that made him freeze kept replying in his mind. She was in love with him. How? He was an asshole? Honestly even now as he stood a few bare inches from the blonde he had to ask himself the question of how. Yeah Kyle could understand falling for him now; he was caring, he wanted to be there for his patients; he was a doctor. And not to toot his own horn but he was handsome to look at. But back then; he tried to rake his brain as to how he was so blinded to it. 

Since apparently his whole friend group saw it happening besides him. Yet each one of them decided to keep their mouths shut; he was a little insulted but right now his focus was on her. His grand gesture of showing up for her; a lingered smile tipped at the corners of his lips. “ What can I say public speaking was always my thing.” Not really but let him lie to himself as he edged himself an inch closer to her bedside. The least he could do right? But he couldn’t help but wonder why? What made her like him so much? Kyle could admit he was a dick a jerk back in high school. Even last night he wasn’t proud of how he handled the reveal but on the other hand Lydia did try to tell him how he felt. Sometimes we feel differently. Sometimes we need to process to understand the possibility for more. 

When she spoke his heart swelled with pride. His heart felt a sense of belonging. Because she knew him at his highs and lowest, and she still found a place for him in her heart. Seeing where we stood now; him at her hospital bedside, it felt like nothing had changed at all. “ I’ll always be here for you Lydia. I know I didn’t always show it, but I’ll always show up for you.” Kyle felt the truth to those words as he held out the flowers; lilies her favorite, a soft grin emitted over bare lips. 

“ I figured I owed you one, I’m sorry.” An honest apology; one he ached to say as he shrugged his shoulders down handing the flowers to the female. “ But on my defense you did come out of left field. I don’t think I was wrong for reacting how I did, but I am sorry for storming out.” A baseball comment; one he doubted the blonde understood but it was the effort that counted right?

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.

[ashieldingdrive]

Continued

@iwannabewooed

Kyle knew he had the track record of being the man that messed up. Of being the guy that lets you down, probably the main reason why Liz and I didn’t work out. Was I proud of who I was in high school? No I was a total jerk. I didn’t care about other people. I had been the guy that purposely humiliated you, I was the guy that picked on the losers, I had no path. Until I took my head out of the gutter, until I got my act together. Lydia had been the constant, my best friend and last night the way I left the hospital, the fight between us reminded me of the guy I fought so hard to stray from. 

I was angry yes, I was mad that she never felt i had the right to know how she felt. I was mad at myself for not picking up on the cues. She was my best friend and I never wondered if she felt that way about me. I never felt that way; probably because I never felt that spark. I was focused on Liz at the time, but now I was a doctor. I had my life planned out in front of me. I cared for other people daily, I saved lives and now although I wasn’t the blonde’s doctor. I did in fact stand by her side. I didn’t leave her hospital room until last night. But I suppose it helped give me the clarity I needed. It didn’t help I had my mouth on a beer bottle most of the night. But Sometimes we feel passionately when we drink, our truths come roaring out. Plus Matt and even Maria and Liz spelled it out to me. 

I promised not to utter the words Lydia was in town, or that she was in a car wreck, so I didn’t I was vague about my question, and I got the information I wanted. I was the blinded fool in High School. But now I wanted to be smart, Lydia once she was finished with the wedding she was heading back to where she lived? Which honestly I didn’t know. I didn’t want to put my heart on the line unless she gave me the reason to. And I felt it the thought of never seeing her face again, the thought of walking away it scared me, but also brought on that sense of sadness I wanted the blonde in my life. I didn’t want to wonder if i was making the right choice, for once I stopped thinking despite the banging headache i had from the night before. 

I had the words framed out in my mind as I stood there, Luckily I didn’t fumble as I spoke. That would’ve been an epic fail. I stood at the doorward because just in case this speech went south; the male wanted to be prepared, but he saw it. The thoughtful look on her face, the way she nodded and waited a minute after his lips closed to speak. He had this speech in the bag; he wanted to get to know Lydia now, not try to remake what we could’ve been in High school. I definitely was the better version of myself now. 

A curve of a smile tugged at the corners of my lips as Slowly stepped further into the room. Feelings find you; to be brave to leap forward was another story. “ Well, I did always save the best speeches for those that will remember them.” A tickle in his throat as he held the lilies behind his back. Us trying? We could always start at the wedding; plus he could just imagine Matt’s I told you so face if he were to show up with Lydia on his arm. She kept uttering how she loved him, and he felt that flutter the knots forming in his stomach. He wondered how? He hated who he was back then, so he felt himself uttering his own thoughts. “ “ I have to ask how? How did you love me back then? I was a jerk, I didn’t care about anyone?” The disbelief in his voice as he inched closer until his knees had brushed against the rim of the bed she laid in. 

“ I couldn’t come empty handed especially after I was a jerk last night.” A guilt glance flashed over his features but barely. He soon extended the set of lilies out to the blonde. “ Plus just in case my speech failed I needed a plan B.” A plan B let’s just say that only went as far as the flowers; he only had one shot and it appeared he succeeded.