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[ashisill]

Starting over 2

Warnings: mentions past relationship trauma, protected sex, oral (f receiving), and fingering. I think that’s all if I missed any let me know

~

The next couple weeks you were the happiest you’ve been in a long time. You haven’t seen your roommate in a while since you’ve been sleeping over at Josh’s. Not that you really wanted to see her. Considering how she was always ditching you for a guy. Canceling your plans for a guy. Bringing you places then leaving you for a guy. You’ve been waiting to break away for a while, but after your breakup she was all you had. You’re glad you met Josh or you would’ve been in the same situation as him that night. Even though she’s technically the reason you met Josh, but he’s the only good thing that’s came out of that friendship.

You were afraid of bothering him, and everyday you offered to go back to your house. Give him a break from you, but everyday he’d say “I don’t mind”

“Josh I think I’m gonna head home. I don’t wanna bother you”

“Oh I don’t mind. I enjoy your company. Coffee?”

“Josh do you think I should go home? It’s been a week I’ve gotta be getting on your nerves”

“I don’t mind darling. You don’t bother me at all”

I when you finally decided to run home he called you. He woke up alone for the first time in weeks. You texted him saying that you were gonna run home before work. He didn’t mind until you mentioned you were sleeping at your place. He called immediately worried that he did something wrong. You were already stressed trying to get ready, but answered the phone.

“Josh I’ve got work what’s up?”

“I noticed you left, and I got your text. Why aren’t you coming back?”

“Well I figured since I’ve been practically living at your house. I would go home, and give you a break. I’ll come back I was just giving you some space”

“Oh. Did you need a break?”

“No, but I just thought maybe you did. I was also worried that you were too kind to kick me out”

“I was quite satisfied with our arrangement. It feels strange to be alone”

“Why do you talk like that?” You giggled over the phone. “Just say you miss me like a normal person, and your not alone you live with Jake”

“Okay I miss you, and I hope you change your mind. Also Jake doesn’t count. There happy?”

“Yes. Why don’t you come to my place after I get off?”

“Really?” He said sounded a bit giddy. He cleared his throat trying to play it off.

“Yeah silly. My roommate won’t be home either. That means we’ll finally be alone”

You hung up the phone quickly shocked at yourself. Josh almost choked on his coffee, and tried to keep himself busy. He waited and he waited. He debated on showing up to your work to bring lunch, but didn’t want to run you away.

“Josh what the hell are you doing?” Jake said after watching Josh do everything, but quite literally accomplishing nothing.

“I’m cleaning what’s it look like?”

“It looks like you’re a mad man. You’ve vacuumed like four time, and that spot your scrubbing. You’ve cleaned at least twice. Why are you so frantic?”

“I’m just waiting for her to get off work. I’m going to her place tonight”

“Oh”

“Oh? That’s all you have to say?”

“It’s gonna be weird without her here tonight that’s all” Jake said trying not to be nonchalant. However when you’re as close as those two they can’t hide it.

“Why do you care Jake?”

“I don’t”

“Oh but you do. Jake I swear don’t you dare-”

“Chill out. I’m just saying she’s been here for a while, and it will feel weird because we’re all used to her being here. That’s all Joshua”

“I just afraid of you pulling your shit again”

“That was a long time ago. It almost tore us apart, so calm down and go get ready. She gets off in an hour”

“I really like her Jake. Can’t you see that?”

“I know Josh I know. Just go”

Maybe one day they will tell you about their first love. The woman that almost ruin the twins. The girl that they both fell for, fought for, and loved. She wasn’t the best to them, and when she got bored she left them both. It was only then they promised to never let a woman come between them. Maybe it was just teenage love, but to them she was everything. Now they resent her with everything they have.

~

Josh knocked on your door and with flowers in hand. He was dressed far too nice to be chilling at home. You decided your low rise sweats, and a cropped shirt would be lovely.

“Hi Josh” you smiled opening the door. “Oh my gosh you didn’t have to do all that”

“It’s for you. You look very pretty. Your eyes are sparkling dear”

You realized in that moment this was the first time someone has genuinely saw beauty in you. Not lust, or “hot”, or drunken compliments. He truly thinks you’re beautiful inside and out.

You didn’t know how to respond to a compliment like that. You studdered and began to embarrass yourself. Your face turned bright red, and you lost your words.

“Did I leave ya speechless?” He giggled at you being so flustered.

“I’ve just never had anyone do anything like this. Im very sorry I don’t know how to respond” you laughed. Trying to play it off as if your love life wasn’t sad and traumatic. Except he already knew he saw right through.

“Kiss me ?”

“Seems appropriate” you giggled and wrapped your arms around his neck. His arm gently held your waist. While his hand rested softly on your face. With both your faces being bright red you welcomed him in. You showed him around your small home. He was very interested in every detail. Even when you stopped in fear of talking too much he encouraged you to continue. When you got to the kitchen you found a vase for your flowers.

“Oh I forgot to tell you. I got off early so I made dinner. Also there’s cookies in the oven”

“And you tried to say I did too much by bringing you flowers”

“Well you’ve done a lot for me” you looked down at your feet.

He walked closer to you and pulled your chin up. He didn’t speak until you looked him in the eyes. “Do we not remember how we got here? You saved me that night. You’ve done plenty for me darling. Although dinner looks delicious” He laughed at himself

“it is”

You brought the food to the table along with a pitcher of tea. He thanked you over and over. You promised it was nothing, but he continued to reassure you.

“You know I realize I’m a bit overdressed” he laughed his face turning red again.

“Maybe a bit. I’ve got some sweats that would probably fit you”

After dinner he went to change while you picked out a movie. The moment he walked into the room with your clothes on your heart skipped a beat.

“You could keep those if you’d like. They look good on you” you smiled softly.

“Look at you coming out of your shell”

“What?”

“You’ve been extremely shy do you know that? I knew you’d get more comfortable”

“No I haven’t”

“Love I asked if you were hungry one day, and you said no then your stomach growled.”

“Did not”

“Every time I give you compliment your whole face turns red, and you can’t look at me. When your afraid that your bothering me you get quite and look down at the ground. And never once have you bothered me pretty girl”

“I don’t do that” you said with red checks and eyes glued to the floor.

“Yes you do silly girl. See there you go again”

You covered your mouth in shock. He notices every little thing about. He’s memorized them before you even had. You quickly changed the subject “Movie?”

The moment you clicked play the tension was strong. You and Josh haven’t had intimacy or anything close to it. A kiss and a hug was as far as it’s gotten. A part of you really wanted him. To feel him all over you. For his scent to cover the sheets. To have his tongue against you. To see his beautiful skin dripped in sweat. To hear his breath pick up while he’s against your ear. To feel his hands in the places others didn’t care to touch. To be loved gently for the first time. To make love rather than feel like your being used. Another part of you is afraid that once he sees you he won’t feel the same. That same beauty he sees will be gone.

He put his arms around you, and cuddled in close. After a while you laid down on your side. He followed your lead, and laid with his chest against your back. You felt him harden against you. He quickly moved back in fear of making you uncomfortable. Instead you pushed back against him. His hand found your waist as he started grinding against you. You pushed back again feeling him close to you. When you let out a soft gasp he stopped, and leaned close to your ear.

“Come out of that shell pretty girl”

“Take me to my bed”

He picked you up like a baby and carried you to the room. He laid you against the bed and started kissing your neck. Naturally you started breathing heavy, and you squirmed beneath him. He kissed your lips, your cheeks, and your nose. “Can I taste you?”

“You mean?”

He teased his tongue against your neck. You hesitated, and he quickly realized you’ve never had this.

“No ones ever went down on you sweetheart?”

You shook your head completely embarrassed. “I’ve asked for it, but every time they make me feel like its gross”

“I won’t make you feel gross. I’ll make you feel really good” his fingers danced over your clit making you shiver. “Can I take them off?”

With your nerves taking over you couldn’t answer. You nodded your head, and he could sensed your nervousness. “I’ll be gentle with you I promise”

He raised up your shirt to kiss your stomach. Placing warm kisses all over you. He slowly raised your shirt up to reveal your breast. You closed your eyes scared of his reaction.

“Baby your bearutiful”

He took his time kissing everywhere he could, sucking on your nipples, and leaving small hickeys on you. You were already a wreck. The way he was taking he time to make you feel good rather than rushing to get to his needs. He already had you wrapped around his fingers.

He made it down to your waist and kissed the band of your sweats before gently sliding them down. His teased your thighs before kissing you through your underwear. Making you gasp out again.

“There you go sweetheart”

He slowly slid your panties down, and once again you covered your eyes. “Open your eyes I want you to watch. Watch me while I show you how your supposed to be treated”

“Oh fuck” you said it before you even realized.

He licked you once letting you adjust to the new sensation. Then again and again. Then he set a slow pace as you cried out. As hard as you tried to stay still you just couldn’t. He held your legs and followed as you moved. Your stomach felt warm and it took you a minute to realize. You were about to finish.

“No fucking way”

You sat up quickly he grabbed your legs pulling you closer. “Josh I think I’m gonna”

You fell quiet as your legs and core shook hard. This was nothing like you’ve experienced before. Your eyes rolled back, and you gripped his curls. You shoved his head away you quickly overstimulated.

He teased a finger against your entrance before sliding it inside you. Then another you felt like you might be explode, but when his tongue touched your clit. The noise that came out of you was shameful. “I can’t Josh I can’t”

He slowed his pace trying not to overstimulate you. Regardless you came hurdling towards another orgasm. You couldn’t form words to warn him. Your mouth dropped, and your entire body shook again. Rather than stopping right after you finished. He let you ride it out by slowing his fingers down and giving your clit kitten licks. Letting you experience a full orgasm.

He licked his lips, and wiped his mouth. “Oh my god. Come here Josh”

You started playing with his waist band. “Are you sure?”

You assured him you were and he pulled the condom out of his pocket.

“Magnum?” You questioned him.

“Yes” he looked at you confused. “I won’t hurt you pretty girl”

You nodded your head, and he pulled them down. You wanted to cover your mouth he was big. “Josh your-” you stopped yourself real fast.

“I know honey, but don’t worry”

He teased your clit with his tip. “Are you ready?”

“Yes please”

He slowly slid himself inside you. Only the tip before you asked him to slow. “Tell me when”

You adjusted and asked him to continue. Once he bottomed out you were already clawing at his back.

“Josh” you whispered.

“I’m here. I’m right here”

You whined out for him, and he was quick to remind you it was okay. “Josh fuck it feels so good”

“I know it does sweet girl. You’re doing so good”

He grabbed your wrist and held them above your head. His pace was slow but he was so deep inside you.

“I’ve got you pretty baby”

“I think I’m close again. Cum with me Josh”

“I got you just let go for me”

“Cum with me baby”

“God you’re so damn beautiful. Absolutely breathtaking”

“Talk to me”

“Oh I’ll talk you through it sweetheart”

“Please Josh”

I’m so proud of you. You’re taking me so well. Such a good girl. Do you know that?”

“Oh fuck”

That all it took for you to snap. Your back arched off the mattress and he held you close. He spoke to you softly as he finished with you. Not used to having an orgasm so strong you laid there trying to recover. He pulled out, and started tending to your needs.

“You okay pretty girl?” He gently brushed your hair out of your face. You nodded your head still not able to form a sentence. You tried to pull the covers over you, but didn’t get very far. You whined out from your lack of strength. “Shh shh I’ve got you”

He pulled the blankets over the two of you, and you laid against his chest. Before you realized it you were passed out in his arms. He let your body rest while he laid there with you. Staring at the ceiling thinking about you.

“God I hope you stay” he whispered into the night.

~

The next morning you were surprised he was still laying next you. You thought surely he’d be gone after last night. But when the sun came shining through the curtains, and woke you from your sleep. You rolled over to find him sleeping peacefully next to you. Your thumb gently rolled over his cheek. Skin soft so soft you wish you could curl into him. His eyes fluttered open, and his beautiful brown eyes lit up when saw you. No words were said as you laid there admiring him. He really is so beautiful. If only you knew he was thinking the same about you.

“I love you” he spoke.

Your eyes widened as his words. Surely he doesn’t love you. He’s just having a moment there’s no way he loves you.

“You do?”

“With all my heart love”

“I love you too Josh”

[ashisill]

I gotta see Greta again

reblog to have good concert luck

[ashisill]

just started crying bc I had a moment of pure realization that I actually saw gvf live and actually saw them with my own two eyes and actually heard josh sing right in front of me and actually saw jake and danny and sam and they were real and I miss them so bad I need that feeling again and it’s been so long and I miss them 😭

[ashisill]

Take it back ~ blurb

Warnings: crying, overstimulation, language, unprotected sex, choking, you being mean to Josh(he’s okay I promise), m dom/f sub, oral(m/f receiving), slight jealously, and I believe that’s all.

~

“More Josh” you whined as Josh slowly slid in and out of you

You had a long day and Josh was trying to help you unwind. All was well but you wanted more. “Harder baby”

He sped up, but it wasn’t enough. You started pulling at his back, and digging your heels into him. Your whines became louder as your need became stronger.

“Sweetheart what’s wrong? You look like you’re about to cry” Josh asked so sweetly.

“I n-need m-more- please more”

“Calm down baby. What do you want more of?”

“Harder. Rougher. I need it” tears threatened your eyes.

“Breathe baby. I’ve got you”

He slammed into you giving you what you wanted. When you winched in pain he stopped . “I can’t darling I don’t wanna hurt you.

“No it feels good. Please”

“I can’t hurt you. I can’t”

“Please” you choked out tears failing from your eyes. “I bet your brother would” that was mean. By brother you meant Jake. Look at him he’s entire personality tells you everything. The way he practically fucks his guitar on stage. Yeah you knew how he’d be in bed. Fucking ruthless.

You covered your mouth in shock from your words. In fear of hurting his feelings you went to apologize. Instead it only made him want you more.

“Oh that’s what you want” he smirked at you. His sweet demeanor changed into a side of him you’ve never seen. “You want me to fuck you like Jake?”

You stared at him in shock. He grabbed your throat “use your words or your not getting shit”

“Yes” you cried. “Yes please Josh”

“That a girl. Do you want it?”

“Josh I want it so fucking bad”

“You poor thing. On your knees”

“Baby please”

“Stop fucking whining. You heard me”

This was hardly Josh at all, but you fucking love it.

You got on your knees, and put your hands on your lap. If you were good maybe he’d give in, but you forget he can see right through you.

“Trying to be a good girl to get what you want?”

“No I just wanna be good for you”

“Good answer pretty girl. Open up”

He slid himself inside your mouth. “More”

He hit the back of your throat, and you tried hard not to gag. “Look at me darling. If it’s to much just tap my arm”

His pace picked up and you gagged around him. Instead of pulling out like he usually does. He nuzzled himself deeper. You gagged again, but you didn’t get a break. Over and over occasionally he pulled out, but not for very long. “You got it baby. I’m right there”

Tears once again were streaming down your face. He grabbed the back of your head, shoved you down. until your nose brushed against his stomach. “All the way that’s my pretty girl. I’m about to finish you ready?”

You signaled to him that you were, and he let go in your mouth. You stuck your tongue out to show him the mess he made. Then swallowed all of it and wiped your lips.

“Such a good girl aren’t you?” You nodded your head hoping he’d give you what you needed. “Come here”

He laid down on his back, and you followed his lead. He patted his lap for you to sit on top. “You look so pretty up there. Actually I think you’d look prettier here” he pointed at his mouth. You sat there confused he’s never asked you to do this before.

He noticed all the thoughts running through your head. “Unless you don’t want it”

“No!” You shouted and made your way up him. He grabbed your hips and pushed you down. You gasped out immediately. He began to work his tongue at an unforgiving pace. He always teases you with small kitten licks, but not now.

“Josh slow down baby”

He completely ignore you, and gripped your hips harder. That warm feeling that you knew so well began to form in your stomach. “Josh im gonna cum” you pulled at his curls and began to squirm.

With his hands around your waist moving you as you rode his face. Your orgasm took over and you lost complete control. He shoved you off, and flipped you on your stomach. “Ass up mama”

Before you could adjust yourself he slammed into you. You moaned out wishing you could stop yourself, but when you went to cover your mouth he wouldn’t let you. “Don’t you fucking dare. Let me hear you”

“Josh it feels so good”

“Is this what you need pretty mama? Some rough sex. You want me to destroy this pretty pussy?”

“Oh god Josh yes”

“Say it. Say you take back what you said about my brother. You know damn well he can’t give you what I can”

“I take it all back. I do. I promise. Your the best. You fuck me so good. Fuck I love your cock, and only yours”

“Sweetheart I’m not gonna last if you keep squeezing me like that”

“I can’t- I can’t help it. I think I’m gonna-”

He pulled out immediately making you cry once more. You begged for him, but he just laughed at your efforts. “So needy. Are you begging for my cock darling?”

“Please baby please I need it so bad”

“You need what?” He questioned purely just to tease you.

“I need to cum”

“And how exactly?”

“I need your cock. I need you inside me. All the way please Joshy please let me cum”

“That’s what I like to hear” He slid inside, but didn’t move. “Come on baby take us there”

You whined in protest but he insisted. You started pushing yourself back on him then moving forward. Fucking yourself against him. He put his hands his own hips watching you do the work. You tried as hard as you could to keep going, but eventually your pace began falling. “I’m trying so hard Josh”

“I got us pretty mama”

He laid his chest against your back, and gently grabbed your throat. “Let go for me. I’m right behind you”

You did just as he said, and let your release take over your body. You cried out his name, and he cried out yours. All that dominating attitude left as quick as it came. Your gentle sweet boy was back, as you laid in his arms. “That wasn’t to much was it?”

“For you maybe” you laughed.

“Yeah let’s hope you don’t want a round two”

You both agree that there was no way in hell that would happen. You laid on his chest, and his arms wrapped around you. Your eyes began to get heavy, and you made sure to remind him you loved him. He talked softly about his love for you as you fell asleep to his voice. You remembered then just how much you loved Josh being gentle with you.

[ashisill]

Stay a while 2

Warnings: language, mentions of past relationship trauma, arguing, oral (m&f receiving), fem dom for a bit, and failing deeply in love with your beloved twins.

(Not edited as much as I’d like it to be :/)

The long awaited part 2. It’s a lot more tame than the last chapter, but that won’t last very long.

~

“Jake you really can’t pull that shit again”. Josh spoke to his brother as the morning sun began to shine through the curtains.

“I would never hurt her. I didn’t know okay?”

“I know you didn’t but I did, and I told you to stop. Did you listen?”

“Being honest I thought you were being over dramatic” Jake stated, laughing it off.

“Do you want this to work? Is this what you truly want Jacob?”

“That’s a stupid fucking question ain’t it?”

“Then fucking listen to me” Josh snapped at his brother. Being careful not to raise his voice enough to wake up. You slept peacefully in Josh’s arms as Jake rubbed your back softly. Completely unaware of the conversation that was taking place.

“I know her better that anyone. I know her body better than she does. I know when it’s to much or even when it’s not enough. She’s been through some fucked up shit okay? It’s another reason why I’m so damn gentle with her, but you can’t scare her again. I know fucking know her, and if you care about her you’ll listen to me”

“I-” Jake went to speak unaware of your past. He’s realized why Josh is so overprotective when it comes to you. He’s always thought it’s because you are his first love, but now he’s begin to understand.

You stirred around his Josh’s arms. Your eyes having a hard time adjusting to the sunlight. “Good morning my love”

“Mhm” you stretched out. “Morning Joshy”.

“Where’s my good morning doll?”

“I was getting there Mr Impatient ” you turned towards him giggling.

“Do you want coffee?” Josh asked hoping you’d say yes, so he could have time to breath.

“Ooo yes please”

He nodded his head, kissed your forehead, and headed out the door. He stood in the kitchen alone, and took a breath. Running his hands through his hair to soothe himself. Jake laid there oblivious Josh had even left. He stared at the ceiling completely lost in thought.

“What’s on your mind Jakey?”

“Hmm oh … nothing. How’d you sleep?”

You watched him struggle for words, and he definitely wasn’t telling the truth. “No seriously what’s up?”

“You know very well that I would never hurt you?

“Of course I know-”. He cut you off mid sentence.

“Last night was just an accident. I’ll take better care of you next time okay? Please understand that. I’ll take such good care of you princess”

“I know Jake”

“Because I lo-”

He almost let it slip. He stopped himself, and instantly wished he would’ve just shut up.

“Coffee for you my darling” Josh pranced back into the room with two coffee mugs. “How’s it going in here my love?”

“Good me and Jake were just talking ab-”

What is it with them interrupting you this morning?

“We’ll that’s good” he said sounded a little frustrated, and took a sip quickly after. You realized then that they already talked this over before you’d even woke up. Assuming the things Josh told him you now realized why Jake found it so important that you understood him. And understand him you did, but did the words I love you almost slip his lips?

“Why is that?” You questioned him.

“Takings good” he hid his eyes from you.

“Your so full of shit. Don’t act like your clueless. What did you tell him”. You snapped at him, but you didn’t know why. Maybe it was in fear of losing Jake, but why? It was one night how are you in so deep so quickly?

“I told him to be more careful next time” Josh said keeping it short.

“And what else?” You asked but he shook his head as if there was nothing more. You locked eyes with Jake trying to pull out the truth. If only he wasn’t so hard to read.

“Joshua tell me what you said” you began to get angry with him, but again why?

Why? Why? Why? You’ve never been so confused in your life.

“Calm down hun I only told him to be more observant. And that I know you well, and when I say you need to stop i’m usually right”

“Promise that’s all?”

“Pinky promise my love”

“Why get so work up sweet girl?” Jake asked you as he pulled you in his lap. You took a deep breath, and spoke so softly neither of them heard. They gave each other a look of concern.

“We can’t hear you mama. Can you speak up for us?”

“Because I don’t want this to end” you whispered.

“Who said this was ending? I sure as hell didn’t” Jake reassured you.

You looked at Josh through your lashes with sad eyes. “You look so sad my darling. You think I’m just gonna take him away from you because he made a mistake?” he clicked his tongue and shook his head. “Nobody is going anywhere. Not right now, so don’t be stressing”

Maybe you should have payed more attention to the ‘not right now’ part. Except in this moment it felt so good to know they were yours.

“He’s right sweetheart. Nobody is leaving you. I promise”

“I mean it’s only just beginning dear”. When you saw the look Josh gave his brother. Your stomach sank, and you knew instantly something was about to go down.

You laid with your back against Jake’s chest. Josh began to make his way over to you. He lifted your shirt, and began to kiss your stomach. You squirmed as his hands began to wonder your thighs. He slowly slid down your underwear, and placed a kiss to your aching clit. You gasped for air at the site of it.

When he began to lick you softly you were already failing apart in Jake’s arms. “Relax pretty stay still” Jake instructed.

You hardly listened as your legs began to shake, and your arms reaching for Josh’s curls.

“Josh I’m gonna- I’m gonna”

“Already pretty thing? Come on baby let’s have it” Jake whispered in your ear.

Oh and you did. Hard. With your legs, and core shaking your vision began to disappear. Except he didn’t stop. “I finished Josh … Josh” you said weakly.

“Oh he knows”. You felt Josh smile against you, knowing exactly what he’s doing to you.

“Josh fuck I finished”. When your squirming legs became a problem he just pushed them up towards your chest … for Jake to hold down. With Jake’s arms wrapped tightly around your legs, and Josh’s mouth buried in your cunt. You felt as if you might burst, but that feeling only became stronger. Josh slipped a finger inside you then two. Curling it in that spot he knows so well.

Suddenly you felt a feeling that you’ve never felt before. “Josh stop I’m feel like I’m about to-”

“It’s okay. You’re okay” When you nodded your head frantically Jake’s tone turned feral. “Josh keep going”

“No no I can’t I can’t”

“Shh shh shh pretty girl. Let it happen I’ve got you. Your safe with us”

You never seen this side of Jake. So gentle? Doesn’t seem right at all. Especially after last night.

“I’m so close fuck. Jake I’m so close”

“Let it come baby. I’m right here. Were both right here. Fucking let it happen”

Everything went blurry, and you couldn’t feel a thing. If you didn’t know any better you’d think you’d floated off into space. Jake was kindly talking you through it. You wished you could process the words he was saying. All you knew is that you did in fact love him. Although he may seem like he’s all rough, and doesn’t give a fuck. He does care. Very deeply in fact. He cares about you, and maybe he’s loved you all this time. Maybe he loved you before Josh did. You were just clueless, but Josh wasn’t. Josh is desperately, and hopelessly in love with you too. He might have know about Jake’s feelings, but made a move before he could. There might have been a fight over it that you knew nothing about. And maybe just maybe there was a promise made. A promise that he could have you too. Only on your conditions of course. Again you we’re clueless, and fail right where they wanted you. And maybe you yourself loved Jake before. Did you attempt to push those feelings away for Josh? Or was it for yourself? Whatever the reason may be those feelings didn’t stay hidden for very long.

“I love you Jakey”

He’s waited longer than you’d ever know to hear those words. The world went quiet for a moment all he heard was your voice. A million emotions rushed through him until he felt like he was on fire.

He cupped your face with his hands, and kissed you softly. “I love you too sweetheart. More than you will ever understand. I know I can be rough with you, but I’ll hold your heart like it’s as fragile as glass”

“Jakey”

“My girl. My pretty pretty girl”

Josh watched as you confessed your love for his brother. He felt as if he was watching from a far. As if he wasn’t even in the room. He felt invisible almost. Like you were seeing right through him. He was far from the truth.

“Josh baby you okay?”

“I’m okay sweet love”

“Come here joshy” you moved off of Jake, and Josh laid his head on your chest. “Feeling left out pretty boy?”

He nodded his head against you. “Oh you poor poor thing. Lay back”

“Yes ma’am”

“You’re so hard for me darling” you started feeling him through his shorts.

“It’s all for you baby”

“Must hurt huh? Haven’t got enough attention?”

“It hurts so bad mama. Make it feel better”

You slid his shorts down admiring him through his boxer. “So pretty”

“Touch me”

“Use your manners”

“Please touch me please. I need it so bad” You hushed him, and began massage him. “Jake out”

“Excuse me?” Jake asked confused. “I said out”

“Josh you can’t do that-” you stared up at him lost.

“Your fucking mine I can do what I want” he got defensive.

“I can’t watch?” Jake tried to reason.

“Yes you can” you cut in.

“No you fucking can’t. Out”

“Josh enough. Jake’s staying you fucking started this shit, and your not gonna treat him like this. Now quiet or I’ll stop.

“No! Don’t stop!”

You kissed his thighs, and his lower stomach. You let him free, and began stroking him slowly. You swirled your tongue around his tip. “Do you want it?”

“I need it please. Please do it I’m begging” he sounded as if he might cry.

“That’s it baby. Such a good girl” Jake encouraged you.

You opened your mouth and began to take him in. He tried to keep himself quiet. If there’s one thing you’ve noticed it’s that Josh is loud. He tries to hold himself back, but it never last long. You know when he’s close by the way he sounds. When he bites his lip, and throws his head back you think you might just finish. It’s the soft whimpers that really gets you going. Especially when he’s buried up in your neck saying your name. Jake on the other hand it’s more just heavy breathing, grunts, and lots of degradation. You truly don’t know what you love more.

He held your hair back, and moved with you. You wanted to tease him, but you knew how desperate he was. Even so you felt him start to twitch, and you pulled off. He bucked his hips upward trying to find some friction. He stared at you in shock “I can’t I can’t do it”

“Shh love calm down. It’s okay I promise”

You took him in again, but before he got too close you did the same thing. You looked up to see tears filled his eyes. “One more time?

“I need to cum” was all he said.

“I know and I always get you there don’t I?”

He nodded his head and the begging began. “I can’t handle it I can’t mama I can’t”

“Quiet baby. Do you wanna cum?” You licked up the sides.

He cried out for you and began to move frantically. He was close very close. His grip on your hair almost hurt. “Please don’t stop”

And you didn’t stop. He finished and you swallowed it, but you didn’t stop. You thought he was gonna scream. Eventually he pulled you off saying it was to overstimulating. That’s when Jake but in saying he could take it.

You rolled your eyes, gave Josh a kiss on the check, and headed to the shower. As soon as you turned the water on they were standing in the door way. “Can I help you?”

“Can we join?” That said in unison.

You were briefly confused by there voices together. You shook your head no, but they promised to behave.

“We’d be good for you”

“Fine, but you have to stop that twin shit. It’s starting to scare me”

They gave each other a look. You then realized you didn’t even know the half of it.

What have you gotten yourself into?

[ashisill]

Starting over

Warnings: drinking, throwing up, smoking, and language.

This is tame for now ;)

(Very lightly edited)

~

“Girl you need to get out more” your friend spoke to you as she got ready for the party. “That’s exactly why your coming with me”

“No I’m not. I don’t party you know this”

“I know it’s not your thing, but girl you need to meet new people. I know how bad he hurt you, but this time could be different”

After a small argument you agreed, and put on the dress that’s been collecting cobwebs in the back of your closet. You’ve recently got out of a toxic relationship. You decided to never let your walls down again. Maybe you’ve shut down, but there was no reason to try anymore. “An hour at max”

“Yeah yeah an hour whatever”

~

You could hear the music the moment you stepped out of the car. “Stop stressing your gonna have fun”

“I don’t know about that”

You grabbed her hand as she guided you inside the house. She greeted people you’ve never met, and you stood there awkwardly. You found a spot on the couch, and that’s where you stayed.

As your friend met up with you again she was highly disappointed. “Are you kidding me? Get up let’s go”

She pulled you into the kitchen. She took a shot, and wanted you to do the same. You gave in, and took one next to a boy that looked like he had one too many. Barely holding his head up you asked if he was okay. Your friend assured you he was fine, and ran off again yelling something as she left.

“Hey are you alright?”

“Have you seen my … my brothers I think … I think they left me”

“What do they look like?”

He paused confused, and his face turning white. You grabbed his arm, and rushed him outside. He began to throw up in the grass. You gave him the water bottle you’ve been nervously drinking from.

“Here you go”

“You’re too kind” he said catching his breath.

You smiled at him, but it didn’t last long before he was on all fours again. He sat up and thanked you for the water.

“Want me to help you find your brothers?”

He looked around, and started breathing heavily. He stood up and pointed at all the parked cars. You soon realized his was missing “How could they? They fucking left me. The cars fucking gone. MY car” he said slurring some of his words together.

“Have you tried calling them?”

“Yes straight to voicemail”

He paused trying to remember if he asked your name. You laughed at his confusion, and told him.

“I’m Josh it’s nice to meet you. Could have been nicer under better circumstances. Sorry I’ve had a bit” he laughed.

“A think than a bit” you laughed and he agreed.

“No worries I could take you home if you’d like. I’m pretty much sober”

“Oh no you don’t have to do that for me. I’ll call an Uber”

“I really don’t mind. An Uber would take a while. My friend said she’s leaving with a guy she just met. I’m don’t want to be here anyways”

“Me either musics a bit loud ain’t it? It’s about 20 minutes out if that’s alright.

The car ride was interesting as you shared songs back and forth. Plus the extra ten minutes it took when he told you the wrong turn.

“It’s up here on the left. Look at those bastards I knew they left me”

“Sorry about my driving skills” you laughed.

“No worse than me” he giggled at his own joke. “Thanks for taking me home. Your so kind dear”

“It wasn’t a problem” you smiled at him.

He grabbed your hand with both of his, and thanked you again. He fumbled with the handle, and stumbled out the car. “number?”

“Number? Oh of course” you handed him your phone.

He slowly put his number in your phone, and thanked you again. “I’m not usually this way, but most people aren’t as kind as you”

You wondered what he meant by that, but dismissed it . You drove back home with a feeling you haven’t felt in a long time. Even though you were feeling good about the night. You just convinced yourself that he wouldn’t even remember you in the morning.

That morning came around, and as you figured no text. You felt embarrassed about getting so excited, and got dressed for work.

Your day was long as usual. When the evening came around you hoped to see that curly headed boy again.

“Y/n next table” you sighed softly, and walked out.

“Hello i’m-” you paused

“No fucking way. It’s you” he immediately got up to hug you.

Your entire mood was fixed in an instant. “What a coincidence. How are you?”

The other boys just stared at each other confused.

“I’m much better” he laughed. “How are you?”

“I’ve been better. Long day. I’m glad your here though”

Why did you say that? He’s gonna think you’re weird. He’s gonna think you’re falling for him. You just met him, and you’re blowing it.

He gave you a soft smile, and his eyes lit up. He went to speak, but another boy cut him off.

“Ya gonna introduce us to your friend?” one of the long hair boys said. He looked and sounded strangely like Josh.

“Right. Well that’s Jake he loves to interrupt”

“Well aren’t you one to talk”

“We’re twins unfortunately. Anyways this is Sam”

He waved his hand at you awkward, and you did the same.

“And this is Daniel. And everyone this is y/n”

“It’s nice to meet you all” you gave them your best smile. You turned around to see your manager watching you from a far. You hurried them along and walked away to grab their drinks.

“Umm you didn’t think to tell us about her?” Sam said.

“Well I just met her last night when you decided to run off and leave me”

“She’s gorgeous” Jake stared as you walked away.

“Watch it Jacob”

“You sure care a lot about someone you met just last night”

“Well she was the only one who checked up on me the entire night. And if I’m not mistaken you’re the one who left me there so shut it”

You came back with the drinks. Jake just smirked at you. “Thanks sweetheart” he said trying to push his brothers buttons.

Josh just glanced at him “ignore him”

The rest of the night went well. They stayed a while ordering drink after drink. Even after you took all there plates. “Hey umm what time do you get off” Josh said nervously.

“Ten so about thirty more minutes” you crossed your fingers hoping you didn’t have to stay late.

You walked away leaving Josh with a giddy smile. You returned waiting for more small talk but the table was empty. “Great” you began to gather the plates, and noticed the words smudge on a napkin.

“I’m waiting outside :) ~ Josh”

Your face turned red and you put the note in your pocket. You asked your boss if you could clock out, and she agreed to let you. You headed out front to find Josh waiting just like he said.

“You actually waited!”

“Of course I did. You didn’t think I would just run off and leave did you?”

“Maybe, but you didn’t” you smiled at him.

“So umm whatca doin after this?” He ask as his face turned red.

“Going home” you said then added “unless you wanted to do something”

“Do you smoke?”

And that’s how you ended up hot boxing Josh’s car with them. In any other situation being in a car with four men you barely know would be a nightmare. Except right now you couldn’t feel more at home. You all stumbled inside where you found a spot on the couch.

“Your tv is fucking huge”

Josh started belly laughing as if that was the funnest thing he’s ever heard. “You know what else is huge?”

His face went pale and he covered his mouth. “Did I say that?”

“Oh yeah you said that bud” Jake said. “Don’t let him lie to you”

“No don’t let Jake lie to you”

Sam let out a yell to quiet them, but instead you found Sam absolutely hilarious.

Josh turned the tv on some show you’ve never seen. You watched mesmerized for hours. Laughing at all the silly things, and chugging Josh’s water. Your eyes started to get heavy, and your head started to fall as you dosed off. Josh noticed and gently guided your head to his shoulder. Sam let out a loud “awwwww” and Josh shushed him. You laid there for a bit before getting uncomfortable.

“Would you like to lay in my bed?”

“No” you said defensively and pushed yourself away from him.

He quickly realized what you thought he meant. “Oh no not like that. I just mean so you could get comfortable. I’ll stay on the couch”

“Oh” you said shocked.

“I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable” he said looking down.

“No I just- I just thought you meant something else”

“Your welcome to take my bed like I said I’ll stay here”

As bad as you wanted a comfy bed to sleep in, you felt to bad. You settled to sleep on the couch, and he brought you pillows and blankets. Everyone went their own way, and you stayed in the living room.

The house was oddly quiet, and you just couldn’t get comfortable. Even though it was definitely in your head you swore you could see things in the dark. You grabbed your phone and walked up the stairs. You found your way to Josh’s room, and quietly opened the door. You shined the light from your phone, and walked towards the bed.

“Changed your mind?” He whispered.

“It’s scary in there” you made an excuse.

He laughed softly and opened the covers for you to lay down. You laid on your side trying to give him his space. You tossed and turned for far too long, and let out a sigh.

“Come here” he said laying his arm out. You cuddled up close to him. He wrapped his arms around you, as you laid on his chest.

“I’m really glad we met y/n”

“Me too Josh”

The next morning you woke up alone. Josh had already gotten up and let you sleep. You rolled over to see a cup of coffee sitting on the nightstand, still steaming. You smiled softly and took a sip. You headed downstairs making sure not to spill it.

“Ah there she is” Jake said still in his pjs. “Have a seat”

“What are you watching?”

“Don’t tell me you’ve never seen this movie”

“Can’t say I have”

He started to explain it to you, and it only made you more confused. You questioned if it was a good movie, and he pretended to be heavily offended. You made small talk with Jake before his smile faded “Josh is in the kitchen. I know that’s who your looking for”

“Well I was talking to you” you laughed.

“Don’t pretend to be interested. Go find Josh” You stared at him confused before you hesitantly got up from the couch.

You wondered why his mood changed so quickly. He was opening up, and talking with you but he just stopped. His entire demeanor changed. You wondered if he just got tried of you. Or maybe he was afraid of Josh being upset. Either way you wished you could have talked a bit longer.

You stood in the kitchen as Josh cooked breakfast. Music was playing softly and he was humming along.

“Morning” you said getting his attention.

“Ah good morning. I hope your coffee is good I didn’t know how you liked it”

“It’s perfect. Thank you”

You took a seat on the counter beside him while he finished cooking “How’d you sleep?”

“Good actually. I had a weird dream though”

“I had a dream as well. How long have you been up?”

“Not too long. What was your dream about?”

“What did you dream about”

“Oh” he paused like he wasn’t supposed expecting you to ask. “I can’t really remember”

Is Jake always like that?” you laughed thinking he wouldn’t ask much.

“Like what? A dick? Yes”

“He was talking to me then out of nowhere he told me to leave” you laughed again finding humor in it

“Hmm I’ll talk to him”

“No it’s okay I found it funny”

“Well I don’t. Truthfully I don’t want him to run you off. I swear I don’t ever move this fast, but I’m starting to like ya” he said before walking out the kitchen.

[ashisill]

My girl

Warning: unprotected sex, oral (m&f receving), gagging/having to stop, overstimulation, crying (the good kind), and Josh dom/sub (both!).

This is just a blurb because I have little time to write at the moment. Please Ignore any spelling mistakes they will be fixed eventually. Enjoy!!!

~

You made your bed, finished your makeup, and put small little braids in your hair. You put on a cute top and your sweats. Why were you getting all dolled up? Your boyfriend Josh was coming over for the first time in a while. You sat impatiently on the couch as you waiting for the door to open. You heard the door handle turn, and excitedly hurried to it. He swung it open immediately calling your name. You jumped into his arms and wrapped your legs around him. He carried you to the couch and laid you down on your back.

“Oh how I missed my pretty girl”

“I missed you so much Joshy”

He kissed you hard without pulling away. Using his tongue way more than usual. You pulled off and gave him look. “To rough?”

“Don’t ya wanna go to the bedroom if you’re gonna do all that? I’ve got a movie playing”

“Well that sounds fucking amazing come on mama” he picked you up like a child and carried you to the room.

As soon as your back hit the mattress he was on top of you. Kissing your neck, running his hands through your hair, thrusting himself into you. Both your breathing started to pick up. He pulled your shirt above your breast and began to lick and kiss them. He kissed your stomach and down to your thighs. Your squirmed and pushed his head down.

He pushed your hand away a gripped your wrist “bad girl let me take my time”

“Baby it’s been so long please. I need your mouth on me”

“Shh let me take care of you” he licked you softly making you gasp. You gripped his hair a little too hard, but if anything it only turned him on more.

“I’m so close already. Baby please don’t fucking stop”

You squirmed and he tried to hold you legs down, but failed. Instead he pushed your legs to your chest and continued “I’m gonna- I’m gonna”

Release washed over you as you kicked and twitched beneath him. “Did that feel good darling?”

“So good mine turn?” You laid him on his back and slid his jeans down. You pulled down his boxer and watched as his cock sprung free “oh fuck”

“You like that pretty girl?”

“Very much”

Without another word you began to lick up the side of his cock. You sucked on the tip before taking him in all the way. He grabbed your hair and moved you at a faster pace before you pulled off with a pop. “Well aren’t you a show off” he laughed.

“Oh yeah?” Might as well give him a show right?

You looked him in the eyes as you took him in all the way down. “That’s it mama all the way. A little farther”. He pushed you down until your nose touched his pubic hair. Which he trimmed nicely for you. You pulled off and gasp for air “Such a good fucking girl. Again”

“Baby I-”

“I said again”

Your gentle sweet Josh now being completely dominate with you. Of course you obeyed him and began to do as your told. You nestled into him, and he pushed you down again. This time you gagged around him, but instead of pulling you off as usual he kept you there. With air leaving your lungs, you tapped his leg, letting him know you’d had enough.

“Shit I’m sorry I got a little carried away didn’t I?”

“Yes but it’s okay Joshy” you said.

“I’m sorry I’ll make it up to you I really didn’t mean to-” you pulled the collar of his shirt until he was face to face with you.

“Just fuck me baby” you demanded.

“Yes ma’am”

You laid on your side and he positioned you so he could slide himself in. He wrapped his around your waist and began to slide in and out of you. “Oh fuck” you cried out.

“I know baby I know. You feel so good”

He dropped his hand down to your clit making you scream. “Someone likes that don’t they?”

“Yes I fucking love it. I love it so much. I love you I love you I love you”

“I love you too pretty girl. You know what else I love? That sweet sweet pussy baby” you let out another scream of pleasure. “Oh does she like that too? Do you like it when I talk about your pretty pussy baby?”

“Again” you managed to speak. He moved you until you were pretty much laid across him. “Spread those legs for me baby. Let me in”

His pace on your clit was getting faster and he squeezed around him. “I can feel that my love. Relax”

“I’m gonna cum”

You gripped his arm as tears streamed from your eyes. “That’s it love. Take a breath”

You cried and moaned above him as he tried to talk you through it. You wished you could understand him, but his words just scrambled together.

“I’m close lovely where?”

You mumbled and tried to understand him.

“Sweetheart where? Inside?”

“Inside. Please inside” you’d most definitely regret this after this, but now it seems right.

“I’m right there mama”

You stayed there laying atop his body. You didn’t have the strength to move. Josh rolled you back on your side as he began to clean up.

“More” you asked.

“You sure you can handle more pretty girl?”

“Can you pretty boy?”

[ashisill]

My love

Warnings: Past relationship trauma, past sexual trauma, crying, panic attack, fear of oral. This is all handled very gently by our beloved Jacob.

This was written for myself to find comfort in. If you struggle like I do I hope this reaches you.

(Unedited I was in a hurry to get this posted)

~

Jake has never once asked you to do it. Except for some reason your so afraid of letting him down. Jake is the only person who knows everything you’ve been through. You were hesitant the first time you two were intimate. Instead of pressuring you he held you as you explained your past to him. Wiping away your tears when needed. It was only few months later when gave yourself to him. He treated you so gently that you shed a few tears when it was over.

“What’s wrong my love don’t cry?” Scared to death about your sudden outburst, but keeping it calm.

“I just love you so much. Your way to nice to me. I don’t deserve you.

“This is how you should have been treated all along pretty girl. You deserve to be loved”

He’s always so patient with you. Never once attempting to pressure you into anything. Which is why you can’t understand why you feel it’s so important to go down on him. He’s done it to you a thousand times. You feel as if it’s unfair for Jake. Though that’s never been a thought in his mind.

~

You were laying on his stomach while a movie played. You started to gain some confidence, and gently touch him through his sweats. You tilted your head up to look at him. “What’s on your mind sweet girl?”

“Can I?”

“Only if you feel comfortable sweetheart”

You nodded your head, and threw the blanket over you. You pulled down his sweats, and kissed him through his boxers. Everything was going smoothly until you freed him from his boxers. You hesitated, but continued anyways. He grabbed your hair, and started guiding you. You took him in your mouth, and tried to keep yourself calm. It was actually happening, but you couldn’t focus on him. We’re you ready for this? You were already doing it, but is this what you wanted? You pulled off, and started breathing heavily.

“You alright down there?”

“I’m fine”

You lied to him, but you didn’t want to tell him you were freaking out. You just continued on thinking as it went on you would calm down. Except you weren’t, and then he pushed you down you gagged around him. You immediately pulled off, and tears threatened your eyes.

“I’m sorry I’m just gonna go to the bathroom”

“No no sweet girl come here” he grabbed your arm trying to comfort you, but you pulled away. You locked yourself in the bathroom, and sat on the floor. You wrapped your arms around yourself, and tried to breath. It didn’t last long as you began to panic yourself.

Jake laid on the bed worried sick about you. He knew you needed your space, but he wishes you didn’t leave the room. The worst case scenarios popped into his head. Before he could stop himself he was knocking on the door.

“Baby” you didn’t respond. “Can you talk to me please? Let me help you”

“I’m fine Jacob”

“You only call me Jacob when your not fine. Please let me in”

You opened the door with watery eyes. “Pretty girl what happened?”

“I don’t know. I just freaked out. I don’t know why I always fucking do this.”

“Don’t be down on yourself. Your not ready, and that’s okay. Healing takes time, and your trying to rush it”

“But you”

“What about me? Have I ever complained about it?”

“No” you shook your head.

“Exactly. Your putting pressure on yourself. If you decide you never what to then that’s okay. I’ll be just fine without it”

“But”

“No no none of that. Let’s go lay back down, and your not gonna think about it anymore”

“I’m sorry”

“No your not. You have no reason to be. No more thinking remember?”

“I remember”

“Good girl. Let’s go finish that movie”

“I think I missed most of it”

“I did too silly girl”

[ashisill]

I wait for you

Warnings: smoking, drinking, crying, mentions of sex, self sabotage, depression, suicidal thoughts, mentions of debating suicidal (it’s mentioned a few times. Please heed the warning if this triggers you), angst, angst, more angst, and being hopelessly in love with Sir Jacob Kiszka.

~This one is a lot, but I am very proud of how it turned out.

~

You and Jake had something special. Something that only comes once in a lifetime. Everyone watched you two, and wished for what you had. He loved you more than himself. More than his iced cold whiskey after a show. More than his beloved guitar. Honestly if you were to need him mid-show he’d drop everything, and run right off the stage for you. He was always running for you. Always looking for you everywhere he went. All you had to do was say his name, and he was there. He was always there. No matter what. You were truly his first priority. His first choice. His first love …. His only love.

You gave it all up. Things got hard, and you ran away. You fucking left it all behind. Your picture perfect life left in a daze. Although it wasn’t all your fault you still blamed yourself. Jake was busy all the time. Between tour, interviews, and traveling. You began fighting all the time. Every little thing was an argument.

You had your last argument in an cold hotel room. You got physical with each other for the first and last time. He never hurt you. He would never dream of it, but when you had enough you landed a smack against him. He grabbed your arms harder than he meant. You left that night, and you’ve regretted your life ever since. Running was worst decision you’ve ever made. How could you leave him? How could you hurt him when he’s treated you so sweetly. You’ve wanted to call you really did. Was it fear that stoped you? Fear of him hating your guts for what you did. You’d rather live in this unknowing pain than bare the thought.

“Jake wake up you’ve been asleep all day” Josh tried to wake his twin. They’ve found themselves in yet another hotel room. “Jake come on. The shows in a couple hours” he said opening the windows, and nudging Jake.

“Cancel it what’s the fucking point?” he said, and you could smell the whiskey on his breath. To see Jake so hateful towards his passion hurt Josh. ‘You drug me into this damn band, and you don’t even want it’ was the thought that repeated in Josh’s mind.

“Jake your drunk get the hell up” Josh said pulling the covers off, and throwing them on the floor. “I’m not doing it again Jake. I’m tired of this. Get the fuck out of the bed” Josh left slamming the door behind him. Where he was going? He didn’t know, but he needed some fresh air. He headed outside to walk the city.

There you were in the local park with your dog, having no idea they were in your town. Josh stumbled into park. The nature fascinating him, and catching his interest. That curly headed boy you loved so much came into your field of vision. As much as he’s changed over three years you knew it was him. “Josh!” You shouted.

He looked around confused, assuming it was another fan. Then he spotted you waving at him “no fucking way”. You bolted after him, and your dog chased you. “What are you doing here?” He pulled you in for a warm, and welcoming hug.

“I actually live here now. What are you doing here?”

“Got a show tonight darling. I missed you”

“I’ve missed all of you dearly. How is everyone?”

“Let me buy you a drink and we’ll catch up”

Meanwhile Jake is unaware of Josh’s discovery, but he knew you were there. He could feel a change in the air … He could feel you. For some reasons things didn’t seem so bad. For the first time in a while he got himself up, and took a shower. He brushed out his tangled hair, and cleaned himself up. Throwing on his favorite pants, and a button down shirt. Complete with some expensive cologne that he can’t remember where it came from.

Josh told you everything you missed in the past three years. You longed to be there for it all. Finally you asked the question that’s been eating at you since the conversation started. “So” you took a drink preparing yourself. “How is he?”

“Jake? Oh he’s fine. Still Jake I suppose”

“Is he? That’s good” you took another drink.

“Do you believe me when I say that he’s ‘fine’?” He said using his fingers as quotation marks.

“I want to yes. Is it white lie Joshua?”

“It’s a big fat fucking lie. He’s not fine. He hasn’t been fine since that night, but that’s not your problem. It’s just hard taking care of him when he doesn’t want to care for himself”

“I miss him a lot. I hate myself for leaving him. I’m not doing so good myself. I don’t even know myself anymore. It’s like I’m a stranger in my own body. The world seems so dark without him”

“I’m sorry dear. Jake isn’t much better. As much as I’d love to lie, and tell you he’s happy. He’s not at all”

You wanted to tell him the reason for your outing this morning. The true reason why you were there, but you couldn’t. How could you look him in the face, and tell him you didn’t want to live. How could you tell him hours before you were really debating on staying on this Earth. You could see him reacting strongly. You already knew the things he would say. Maybe even shed a tear with you. He’s already dealing with a lot, and you can see it in his eyes. You just couldn’t do it.

“What’s the matter?” He could still read you well.

“It’s just a lot, but I’m okay” lair how could you? He sees straight through it you know he does. He sighs, but doesn’t pry. Instead he simply just changes the subject.

“Have you loved another?”

“Never”

“Never? Not once?”

“Hook ups don’t count. Some of them look like him, but there never him”

“He could say the same darling. I don’t know if it’s a good idea to see him”

“What why not? Please don’t don’t this-”

“I’m not taking him away from you. Just listen to me. He’s not well dear. I wouldn’t say it if it wasn’t true. Come see me after the show, and I’ll think about it. Maybe all he needs is you, but I’m holding back for a reason”

“I think I know why, and I understand. Do you promise you’ll think about it” he’s hesitant because if you left again he knows it would kill Jake. There’s no way in hell he would make it out alive. Just the thought of it makes Josh want to crawl away and cry.

“Would I ever lie to you? I just need what’s best for Jake. I’m sure you understand”

“You so good to him Josh. I wish I had someone like you. Caring for me the way you care for Jake”

“That person is in a hotel room about a mile away. Like I said meet me after the show okay?”

You agreed, and said your goodbyes. Returning to your home to find something nice to wear. What used to be Jake’s favorite dress seems like a perfect fit. Josh headed back to the hotel to find his brother. “Jake you better be out of-”

“Yeah” was all he said.

“Feel good today?”

“I suppose so. Where���d you go?”

“Oh ya know for a walk”

“Where’d you go? Terrible liar you are”

“The bar. I’m glad your feeling better today”

He just nodded his head. Josh sighed knowing it’s taking everything out of him not to tell Jake. ‘Your lovers back! Your lovers back! She’s here you don’t have to be sad anymore! Please don’t be sad anymore. She’s here, and she loves you!’he wanted to shout it at him. To see Jake smile for the first time in three whole years. To see his face light up like it once did before. Instead he stayed quiet, and went on about his business. “Can you go check if sam is ready?” He asked Jake.

You did just as Josh said, and after the show he snuck you backstage. “I need you to be really quiet, and not let him hear you. Walls are paper thin darling” he said locking the door behind him. “I need you to answer me completely honest”

“Okay what’s up?”

“Your gonna stay?”

“A part of me died that day. I can’t go through this again. I fucking miss him Josh! I would go through hell again just to hold him one more time. I’d break all my bones if that’s what he wanted. If he asked for the moon I’d bring it to him. The stars too. He’s my world Josh need him back. I need his love. I need his touch. I need him Josh I need him. This morning I didn’t want to live any longer without him. The scary part is I almost fucking did it. That’s why I was at the park. I needed air. I needed to breath. Moments before you saw me I was crying on a park bench. Embarrassing I know, but it’s the truth.

“Oh darling no. No sweet girl no”

You broke into tears, and Josh comforted you with a hug. Like you predicted tears started to fall from his own eyes. “We need you here. You belong here. I am so fucking proud of you. Your here. Your alive. To know that life has been so terrible to you that you questioned living. It makes me want to hide away, and shelter you from every bad thing. I know I didn’t tell you this enough, but I love you. I really love you, and I don’t want you to be in pain anymore. Your safe now, and in a few moments everything will be okay again. I promise you. I know how bad your struggling. I see Jake everyday, and it just gets worse. I just want to see him happy again. Your the only solution my darling. I haven’t seen him smile in three years. He’s never excited about anything. He doesn’t have anything to talk about, and he always drunk. Always. When he does speak it’s either to cuss me out, or it’s about you. I know how bad things are, and I want to see you feel okay again too”

“What does he say about me?” You asked as Josh wiped your tears.

“It always starts angry. He’s angry because he wants to be happy again, but he can’t be. Your the light in his life. Then he starts to act like he’s angry with you. Sometimes he’ll cuss you out too. Then he’ll start to cry, and your name is all he knows. When I try to comfort him he’ll ask for you. I’ll say “she’s not here Jake”, and he’ll remember that your gone. He’ll start to think of you, and how he loves you so deeply. He’ll tell me some stories about the two of you before it hurts to much. Normally ends with him crying himself to sleep or getting so drunk he can’t feel you lingering”

“How could I do this to him? Your positive he wants to see me?” You asked trying not to lose your control.

“Come with me”

Josh knocked on Jake’s dressed room, and an annoyed “what?” came with it.

“Can I come in? I have someone you might want to talk to”

‘Could it be her?’. Jake went quiet, and Josh opened the door. There he stood with a cigarette in his fingers. His face dropped, and neither one of you moved. You’ve looked for him in every room, but now he’s here. A rush of adrenaline flowed through his veins. He feels alive for the first time, and all you had to do was walk into the room. Color has returned to his pale face. His eyes once grey, and gloomy now glowing in your light.

You both just stood there questioning if this was real. You broke the cement that glued you to the floor, and ran once again. Straight into his arms this time. Josh knew everything was finally better, and left shutting the door behind him. Letting his back rest against the shut door. His hand covered his mouth as he began to cry once more. Crying because Jake’s gonna be okay again. Because he knows all is well now that your here. Tonight he’ll fall sleep without a single worry. He’ll drift away knowing his brothers happy. Knowing he won’t have to make himself sick from worrying. Or staying up half the night waiting for Jake to come back with some girl that looks similar to you. He’s safe, and Josh can finally breath again.

You gripped, and pulled at each other like this was a dream you were going to wake up from. His hair got longer, he still wears those same old jeans, and he still smells like home.

“I’ve missed you” was all you could manage to say.

“My girl” he kissed your forehead. “Oh my girl”

You buried yourself in his neck fighting back tears. “I thought I’d never see you again. I wanted to call I really did”

“Shh shh it’s okay. I promise”

After all you put him through he’s still forgiving. The pain he’s been in for the three years was nothing just to feel you again. He’s willing to forget this ever happened just to keep you in his arms forever.

“I love you ya know? Time hasn’t changed it a bit”

“I love you too Jake”

His lips were locked on yours immediately. You pulled at each others hair, and the collars of your shirt. Trying desperately to get closer to each other. “Jakey”

“God I’ve missed you calling me that”

“I missed you. I missed you so much”

“I’ve miss you to my love. Do the others know your here?”

“Only Josh”

“Assuming he found you when he went on his supposed ‘walk’ the morning” he said holding your face in his hands.

“Well to be fair he was on a walk, and I found him”

“You found us. You came home. God I’ve missed you. Every day when I wake up your on my mind, and it stays that way till I sleep. Even in my sleep you haunt my dreams every night”

Lips crashing against each others once more. Emotion running through you both. “Why’d you leave me baby?”

“I don’t know Jacob. I don’t know”

His hand wrapped around your neck, and he kissed you hard. “Don’t leave again” his eyes began to water

“I’m here Jake. I’m not going anywhere my love”

He brought you to the small couch in the corner. Tangled up into each other, kissing his neck, and hands wandering each other’s bodies. Wordlessly you agreed to save it for later. Your felt tired like you haven’t slept in years. As you laid on your lover your eyes began to fell heavy. Jake laid their wide awake wondering how you were here. It didn’t feel real, and he held on to you just in case he woke up from this dream.

Josh came back later to tell Jake everyone was headed out. You were passed out on his chest completely unaware. “We’re fixing to leave” Josh whispered at the door.

“Alright” he woke you up gently. “Time to go sleepy girl”

You and Jake took a drive, and enjoyed the city lights. After you hit the bar that was in the lobby, and headed back to the hotel room. Everyone was gathered in the twins room talking about the show.

“Yeah I know. Did you hear how bad I fucked that up?” Josh belted out laughing far louder than he needed to.

Jake swiped the card, and the opened the door. You laughed almost as loud as Josh. As the alcohol hit your system everything was just so damn funny.

“Is that … her?” Sam asked confused.

“Sam look at Jake of course it’s her” Danny knowing immediately by Jake’s smile that it was indeed you.

“Y/n! Y/n! It’s you! Your back!” He shouted.

“Oh my god I’ve missed you Sammy”

“Good to have you back” Danny hugged you tight. You let your self go limp in his arms. “Someone’s drunk huh?”

“Just a little bit Danny”

“Josh check out this record I bought” Sam said already distracted.

“Let’s hear it brother”

It was a soft jazz album of a band you’ve never heard of. Jake’s eyes were fixated on you as you spoke to Danny. He reached out his hand, and you grabbed it with a giggle. He danced around the room with you, spinning you round and round. Stumbling all over the place, and tripping over each others feet. Josh watched in awe as a smile never left Jake’s face.

A little while later after the chatter quieted you collapsed onto the bed. Josh motioned Jake to come to him. They went out to the balcony “I’m proud of you Jacob”

“Thank you for taking care of me for so long. You could of kicked me to the curb. Or let me quit my job, but you didn’t. I’ll never be able to repay you, but know I wouldn’t be here without you”

“I promised you I’d always be here for you. I love you man”

“I love you too bud” they shared a hug before Jake followed you to the bed.

“Tying to escape?” you joked peeking your eyes open at him.

“Now ma’am I thought you were asleep” Jake said kissing your forehead.

You shook your head, and he joined you in the bed. You cuddled up on his side, threw your leg and arm over him, and began to fall asleep.

“Promise we’ll stay like this forever?”

“For infinity my love. I’ll find you in every universe I live I promise”

“I love you Jakey”

“I love you too my girl”

[ashisill]

Just the two of us

Warnings: semi-public sex, protected sex, oral (f receiving), fingering, squirting, I hope that’s all

~ This is very lightly edited so bare with me till I can fix it.

~

“Back of the jeeps all cleaned out darling” Josh came into the house carrying a bunch of random items.

“Okay love blankets are folded on the couch. I’m about to get the snacks” you said walking into the kitchen.

You and Josh always had a date night at least once a week. This week Josh’s idea was to take you to the drive in movies, and since it was October it was perfect for a fall date. “Where do you want to park love?”

“Middle but not to far” you explain as he drove. “Right here”

“Here? What about one up? Better view” he told you.

“Why ask if your gonna be picky Joshua?”

“You can’t disagree that this is a better spot” he said giving you a tap on your nose.

You smiled at him lovingly as he put the Jeep in park. He opened the back, and you begin to layout the blankets. “I’m gonna grab some popcorn”

You nodded, and continued to create your makeshift bed. You laid the biggest comforter on the bottom, and laid your favorite blankets on top. Along with some pillows to prop up with.

“Looks nice darling good job”

“Thanks pookie” you giggled at your words.

“Pookie?” He said confused.

“Yes” you fell over on the blankets laughing.

“That’s a new one. It’s supposed to get cold tonight I hope your all bundled up my love”

“Don’t worry about me. Come here” you said reaching out your arms for him.

~

The sun set and the moon rose making the stars come out. The movie began to start, and Josh lit up like a child on Christmas. “It’s starting”

“I haven’t been here since I was a kid” you said softly.

“We used to go all the time, but four kids running around causing hell wasn’t ideal”

“Yeah I could imagine especially you two”

“Oh yeah me and Jake ruled this joint. Almost got us kicked out a couple times. Surprised they let me in”

Not even twenty minutes in, and he began to rub your inner thigh. His fingertips danced over your skin as light as possible. He knows it drives you crazy when he just barely touches you, and that’s exactly what he’ll do. As he reached closer to where you wanted him his touch got lighter and lighter. You squirmed, and push yourself towards him.

“Josh stop that” He moved, and rested his arm against his leg. Acting completely oblivious as to what he’s done.

“Josh!”

“You said stop darling. I’m only doing what you asked”

“That’s not what I wanted and you know it” you moved his hand, and placed it on the band of your sweats.

“I must be confused mama. I’m afraid your gonna have to show me what you want”. He knows exactly what you want, and knows exactly how to give it to you. He knows you better than you know yourself. But it gives him satisfaction to tease you. For you to take control, and show him exactly what you want.

You huffed and placed his hand exactly where you needed him. “Oh right .. now i remember” his voice lowered making you unable to stay still. “Is this what you need princess?”

“More” you whispered in his ear.

“More? Are you sure? I just started”

You just repeated yourself, and he smirked as he moved down your body. “Baby please”

“Baby please” he mocked “listen to you pretty girl. You don’t want all these people to hear do you?”

What he said should have turned you on, but instead it made you aware. “Josh there’s to many people” he ignored you, and placed a kiss to your inner thigh. “Josh stop there’s people everywhere”

He stopped abruptly and hovered above you. He grabbed your chin making you look at him “love everyone is in their own car with the volume up to hear the movie. And who wouldn’t want to hear that pretty voice. I’ll keep your safe okay? Just focus on me baby no one else”

You took a deep breath calming down “that’s my girl. Focus”

He started again slowly kissing down your body as he always does. He slid down your pants slowly placing more kisses on your thighs. He nudged his nose against your clothed clit before sliding them off too. One soft lick was enough to make you squirm. He wrapped his arms around your legs, keeping you still. “Can I try something?” He looked up at you.

“What it is?” You looked unsure.

When Josh wants to try something you never know how crazy it may be. The thoughts that run through his head scares you sometimes. He gets wild ideas, and won’t stop till you cave in. “It’s nothing crazy. I can tell by that look on your face. Trust me I won’t hurt you I’m gonna try it okay?”

You nodded your head giving yourself over to him. He slid his tongue down to your entrance, and slid the tip of his tongue inside you. You bucked up immediately “Josh fuck”

“It’s that okay sweet girl?”

“Yes … yes again”

He moved his tongue up and down before sliding it inside you. He stayed there for a while before moving back up to your clit again. Taking turns on where his tongue moved. He knows your close when you reach for his hands. You held him tight in your grip, and he let you dig your nails into his hands. “Please don’t stop please please” you mouth dropped open as you grasped for air. He doesn’t attempt to stop until you push his head away from your sensitive clit. He dives right back in, and you beg him to give you a break. You try to push him away again, but he grips your wrist. “Stay still”

“It’s too much I can’t Josh”

“Your about to cum again” he slipped two fingers inside you.

“No I’m not I need a-” Josh always gives you a break when you need one, but he was right this time. Your hands gripped the blanket, and you unleashed upon him. You vision went dark as you shook violently against his touch.

“What did I tell you? I know you better than you know yourself. Look at the mess you made mama. Messy girl you’re all over me”

“Did I?” You asked confused. No words were spoke he just nodded his head.

Embarrassment hit you, but he knew you were safe with him. He knew how you were feeling by your flushed cheeks. He praised you for it, and reminded you how much he loves you. He discarded the blanket that definitely needed a wash, and covered you two up with the rest. He laid beside you his chest to your back “Do you want me baby?”

You pushed back feeling his length against your ass. “I don’t know do I?” You pushed harder making a soft grunt leave his mouth. “Do you have a con-”

“It’s already on come on pretty mama”

“Someone’s eager. Isn’t this a bad idea? I mean your not exactly quite”

“I know I’m a bit vocal darling, but I believe your the one who’s begging for my cock all the time”

“Right well when you get us kicked out it’s not my fault”

“Some things never change I guess” he continued to talk as he slid himself in. “Just for the record to kick us out they’d have to stop us first”

You knew it was a terrible idea, but it felt so good. Josh slid in and out slowly, and began kissing your back. “I wanna see you. I miss you”

He pushed you on your back. Threw your leg your his shoulder, and slammed inside you making a soft moan leave your lips. “I’ve missed you”

“Josh you’ll shake the car. People will know what’s going on”

“Sweetheart let them”

Another forceful thrust rattled your brain, and it was just you two. You’ve created your own world with him. Nothing can you hurt you, and it’s just Josh that takes care of you. This is one of those times where you realize it’s not just a fantasy of this fake world. It’s true, and it’s home. Josh is your home, your safe space, and your lover. He’s real. This is real, and sometimes you have to remind yourself of that. . “There’s my girl. I’ll take good care of you. Don’t worry about a thing”

“Josh” you cried out.

“I know I know shhh” he pushed the stray hairs away from your forehead. “Feels good doesn’t it baby? So so good”

You nodded frantically as he fucked into you just right. You felt close, but you couldn’t be right? He just started. You could hold off. Be sweet and wait for him to get closer. “Your squeezing I can feel it” it choked out of him. Maybe he’s closer than you thought. He pushed his own needs away edging himself in a way. “Let go sweet girl”

You shook your head no, and continued to fight it off. “But mama if you keep squeezing me like that I’m not gonna last either. Give it to me. Let go. Be a good girl and just let it fucking go”

“Josh” seemed to be the only word in your entire vocabulary.

“I’m right here. I’m always right here. Take us there darling. I’m right behind you”

A loud moan of release escaped your lips, and his hand flew to your mouth to quiet you. “Just like that. God your so fucking beautiful” he’s trailing off into nonsense, and you know how close he is. “So pretty so tight. So fucking perfect. Perfect for me. Perfect for my cock. Fuck I’m right there”

“Let go”

He collapsed on top of you, and a string of whimpers and moans followed. You scratched his back gently as you both came down from your high. “Can’t take us anywhere” he joked.

“We should probably leave”

“Yeah fuck your probably right. These people must hate us” he laughed putting his clothes back on, and fixing his hair.

“If we don’t leave now there about to hate us even more”

[ashisill]

Because you guys loved it so much I’ll be doing a part 2 of stay a while.

[ashisill]

Stay forever

Warnings: Cock warming, penetration (unprotected), waken by oral (m receiving), overstimulated.

~

You were woken up suddenly by the sound of crackling thunder. Your boyfriend Jake wasn’t bothered in the slightest. You let your eyes adjust to the darkness, and turned towards Jake.

“Jakey?” You sighed when he didn’t respond. “Jakey are you awake?” You knew he wasn’t, but tried anyways. You laid your head on his chest, and listened to his heart beat before drifting back to sleep.

~

The thunder woke you yet again. This time Jakes arm rested protectively around your waist. “Mmm Jakey you awake?”.

“Nope still asleep doll” Jake awaited the giggle that was sure to leave you.

Surely enough he was right, and a soft giggle escaped you “Right”

“Shhh just listen to the rain” he said. You both fell quite as Jake drifted back to sleep.

“Jakey?”

You shook him … no response. Jake is the most heaviest sleeper you’ve ever met. The word could be falling apart, and he’d still be passed out. You gently laid against him chest to chest. You felt his semi-hard cock against your leg.

You slowly moved down till your lips met his boxers. You kissed him through the cloth before sliding them down. “Hmm” he stired, but didn’t wake. You licked up the side of him, and his hand found it’s place in your hair. You moved the cover back, and his eyes were still shut.

You questioned if he was still asleep, but continued anyways. He harden against your mouth, and then pushed you down. He’s awake. You took him in all the way as he shoved you down deeper. You pulled off his cock with a pop.

“Morning” he said softly.

You didn’t respond, and just swirled your tongue on his tip. You began to suck, and his grip got tighter. “All the way” he said in a low voice. You began to take him in again, and he pushed you down till your nose brushed against his pubic hair. He kept you there till you began to squirm. He pulled you off by your hair, and he let you catch your breath. He did that several more times before you couldn’t take it anymore.

You pulled at his shirt, and he pulled you off immediately “I can’t Jake” you whined.

“Shh pretty girl” he soothed you. “One more time baby”

You whimpered, but obeyed his quest. Letting him guide you, as you tried not to gag.

“Up sweetheart” he patted on his lower belly, telling you to straddle him.

You climbed up him in a hurry, and sat just below his cock. He let you take control which you found odd because it’s very unusual. Jake is very dominant not just during sex, but during your day to day life. Your lucky if he lets you be in charge, and it’s usually if he’s tired or had a long day.

You placed your hand around him, and gently rubbed his tip against your clit. “Does that feel good?”

You nodded your head locking eyes with him. “You know better than that. Use your words”

“Yes” you said softly, and began to line him up.

You slid the tip in, and slowly sank down on him. Instantly his hands found their home on your hips. Instead of moving you sat there feeling him. “Gonna sit in my cock for a while sweet girl?”

“Can I?” You asked him. He laughed softly at the innocences of the question.

“Yes darling” a simple response when really he wanted to pour his heart into you. To tell you how much he loves you. How innocent you made a dirty question seem. ‘Of course you can sit there. You can stay there forever if you’d like’

“Thank you” you said breaking his heart from all the love he feels from you. Everything you do makes him fall harder in love.

“The rain is so nice Jakey” you said starting a casual conversation as if his cock wasn’t buried deep inside you.

“It’s very lovely baby. Did you sleep good?” Jake asked continuing on the conversation.

“I woke up a couple times cause of the thunder, but yes I did” you squeezed around him.

“I can feel that love” Jake told you.

“I know you can baby” you rolled your hips.

“Is the conversation boring you doll?”

“Yes your quite boring Jakey”

He just smiled up at you as you began to grind back and forth. His hands that never left your hips began to move with you. “Jakey?”

“What is it sweetheart?”

“I love you”

“I love you too princess. I always will”

You arched your back, and your hands gripped his thighs. He began to circle your clit with his thumb as you picked up your pace.

“Jakey” you said his name, but with nothing to say.

“Yes dear?” You had no response you just needed his voice.

As you bucked your hips frantically overstimulation began to take you over. “ Jakey please”

“I’m here. I’m right here. Fall if you need to I’ll catch you”

Without anymore words spoken you collapsed on his chest. He thrusted up into you, and you place soft kisses on his neck. He came to a stop a told you to lay on your side. A hand snaked around your waist, and he slowly slid himself into you. He threw the covers up around the both of you, and gently fucked into you as you listen to the rain hit the windows. With both his arms now wrapped around you he picked up his pace.

You dropped a hand down to your clit, and began circling with your fingers. Jake moved your hand a took over. Your moans became cries as he fucked you just right. You cried out for him over and over. You began squeezing around him as your body slowly went limp.

“Gonna cum for me now angel?”

You’ve lost your sense of grammar, and just frantically nodded your head. Any other time he tell you to ‘use your words’, but he let this one slide. You gripped his arm as hard as you could. “Just let go I’ve got you. I’ll take good care of you pretty girl. Just let go”

Your orgasm crashed against him. Making your whole body shake with pleasure. Your eyes rolled back, and your vision went dark. “Such a good girl”

“Jake” you shouted. He didn’t have to ask what you needed. He knew you couldn’t take much more.

“I’m right behind you my love. I’m right there. Right fucking there” he released into you with one last thrust.

“Don’t leave yet” you said as he went to pull out.

“I’m not leaving. I’ll stay here forever”

[ashisill]

The Jake fic is taking longer than I thought. So here’s a blurb to hold you guys over. Soft Jake should be out by the end of the week.

Josh is a girl dad

Jake is a boy dad

~

Josh is the one who’s fixing her hair for pre school. “Do we want pig tails or buns?” Turning on the curling iron, and making sure she knows not to touch it. “Its hot don’t touch” he’d say pointing at it. She’d nod her head as she watched her dad put her hair into pigtails. Josh is the one to apologize when he pulls her hair to hard “I’m sorry baby did it hurt?”. He would get it to perfection. Putting colorful little hair ties around them, or clip on charms to make her feel pretty. “Okay princess all done”. She’d smile in the mirror at her hair, and twirl it a bit at the ends. She stands up being careful not to touch the curling iron, and hugs her dad. Thanking him for making her look like princess. He’d smile from ear and ear, and place a kiss on her forehead. “Your welcome little darling”. He always makes sure she knows how much he loves her before dropping her off at preschool. “Do you know how much I love you?”. She would stretch her arms out as far as she could “this much?”. He’d agree with her, and gives her hugs and kisses before he walks her into school. Sometimes she gets teary eyed before he leaves, but she always comes home with fun little stories to tell him. And he’ll listen to every single word as he cooks her dinner for the night. Josh always makes bath time fun and relaxing for her. Once a week he’ll set a theme for her, or let her have extra toys, or if she’s had a “long day” he’ll message her scalp while he washes her hair. Which always makes her doze off in his hands. Right after bath time he lays her down in her “big girl bed”, but somehow she always finds her way back to his bed. Even though it may cause him less sleep he’ll never complain. She’ll find a home in his arms, and they’ll both drift off to sleep for the night. When she’s older, and gets her first period he’ll already be prepared. Giving her the option between pads or tampons, and teaching her the difference. Making sure to give her ibuprofen, and a heating pad for her cramps. He’s extremely understanding when she snaps at him. He never really loses his temper at her, and always gives her space.

Jake is the one to make sure there always a guitar laying out for him. One day he bought him one of those mini guitars. It ended up broke when he pulled the strings to hard. Jake just laughed it off, and took it to his office to fix it. When he’s old enough he’ll quiz him over music. Covering the screen in the car, and saying “what’s this song? Correct now who sings it?” He’ll teach him to be a gentleman. “You do not speak to your mother or any woman that way. Do you understand?” He will explain to him the importance of respect, and though he might not understand it now. It will become a part of him as he grows. Jake tries his hardest not to lose him temper, but sometimes it’s bound to happen. He’ll realized he messed up, and his son will began to tear up. “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to lose my temper with you. It’s just frustrating when you don’t listen. We can fix it together okay” When the time comes to teach him about the birds and the bees. A lot of parents get weird about having this talk, and leave out important things. Not Jake he told him everything he needed to know. When he hits high school, and starts trying to sneak around Jake knows. “I was your age once too. You don’t have to sneak around. I know your going to do it regardless if I say no. So I’m not gonna try to stop you just be safe” Jake makes sure he knows if he’s ever in a situation to call him. No matter what he’ll always pick him up. He’s pounded into his head to never get behind the wheel intoxicated. The day a girl breaks his heart for the first time. He’ll come from school and immediately head for his room. Jake will give him his space for a while, but he didn’t come out all afternoon he went to check on him. He’ll tell him about a girl he loved, and how she loved another. Jake will understand, and tell him how he got over his heart breaks. His son will tear up, and Jake will tell him that it’s okay to cry. Jake will hug him, and wipe his tears. When he gets his first girlfriend Jake makes sure he’s treating her right. When he tells Jake she had a bad day he tell his son to buy her some flowers. He learned everything he knows from his dad, and Jake was always more than happy to teach him.

[ashisill]

Stay a while

Warnings: crying, overstimulation, contemplating use of safe word, panic, degradation, praise, penetration, and mention of alcohol.

~

“You ready mama?” Josh asked, lining himself up with your entrance.

“Please Josh” you whimpered.

“Relax for me okay darling” You took a deep breath letting your whole body fall limp for him. “Good girl. You listen so well” as he spoke to you he began sliding himself inside.

“Josh” you said in a whisper wrapping your arms around his neck.

“I’m right here mama” he set a slow and steady pace.

“Josh it- it feels so good” you buried yourself in the crook of his neck.

“I know it does pretty girl. Don’t hide from me”. You let your head fall back. He brushed away the hairs that laid against your forehead. “Such a good girl”. He babied you, placing soft kisses against your neck, and cheeks.

He slid himself all the way out to the tip, and slammed back inside. Over and over. Each time he nudged against your g spot. He reached down and started rubbing slow circles on your clit. Building your orgasm up slowly.

“You really gonna put up with that?” Jake's voice boomed into the room. He stood in the door frame, the moonlight from the window casting a ghostly shadow.

“Josh?” You questioned him. A smirk played out on his face. “Josh?”

“I know what you want, baby. You told me, remember?”

“Josh I was drunk”

“Drunk words, sober thoughts. Gonna let me in or make me watch?” Jake said.

Josh pulled out and sat beside you as Jake took a seat on the bed. You grabbed the covers, and pulled them up around you for comfort. “What’s the matter baby? You look scared. You scared of me babydoll?” Jake questioned.

You shook your head slowly. “Words” he raised his voice.

“No! … no I’m not” you looked away from his gaze. You knew Josh was your safety. If it got to be too much he’d have you in his arms in seconds. Jake? Not so much. You worried a bit, but your desire burned deep in your core. Josh had always babied you during sex. I mean sure there’s been a few times you had some rough makeup sex after an argument. But Josh isn’t rough. Josh is sweet and gentle. Josh brings you to tears all because it feels too good. He builds your orgasms up so slowly it explodes out of you. Always quick to remind you how proud he is, and how good you're doing. However Jake, and gently don’t even belong in the same sentence. Did you accidentally admit to Josh you wondered what his brother was like in bed? Maybe. Did you mean it? Also maybe. But you’ve gotten used to being treated so gentle. What if you couldn’t handle his darker half?

“Yes or no darling?” Josh asked softly.

You nodded your head not taking your eyes off Josh.

“What did I fucking say about using your words? I wanna hear that pretty voice doll” Jake said, his hand now gripping your throat. Josh didn’t like that at all, and grabbed Jake's wrist.

“Okay ground rules” Josh pulled Jake's hand off your neck. “No bruises, no hickies, no bitting, no choking, no pain, no fucking marks on her. If you hurt her I’ll fucking kill you. One mark Jake, and it’s over”.

He turned to you, and took your hand in his. “And for you my love”. Instantly changing his tone to talk to you. “safeword is still the same. I will still continuously ask for your color. you don’t want to say it then tap my arm. Three times remember? Everything is still the same. If you want to stop you know how to. Tap my arms, say your safeword, or say your color. Everything comes to a stop I promise baby”

“Are you done yet?” Jake asked climbing on top of you. Josh knew deep down Jake would never hurt you. He knew Jake was taking these rules to heart even though he acted like he didn’t care.

“I suppose Jacob” he nodded his head slightly, giving Jake the go ahead.

“Okay Joshua” he rolled his eyes, and crashed his lips against yours. His hand found his way to your neck again. Josh could have smacked him until he realized. Jake's grip was just barely around your neck. His finger laid against your throat rather than gripping it. “On your stomach. Now”

You listened immediately, and hurried to flip over for him. You laid flat on your stomach exactly how he said too. He gripped your waist, and pulled your hips up. His hand landed against your ass with a loud crack. You hissed out as it began to sting.

“Strike one” Josh thought to himself.

Josh laid down beside you laying his arm in front of you. Shakily, and almost panicked, you reached for his arm. “It’s okay, pretty mama. Your safe”

“Color?” Jake asked, lining himself up.

“Green”

Without a single warning he shoved himself inside of you, and landed another hit against you. Completely down to the hilt. His hips pressed against your ass. You cried out to Josh, and pressed your nails into his arm. He gave you no time to adjust before he was thrusting into you at an unforgiving pace. You gasped out tears filling your eyes. Again and again his hips slammed into you making a loud clapping sound.

Josh watched, afraid of how you were acting. You gripped his arm, unable to make noise. “Baby? Are you okay?”. You couldn't respond. You had the right words, but they wouldn’t leave your mouth. A string of whimpers and moans left you as you tried desperately to speak. “Talk to me darling. Is it too much?”. You shook your head no as fast as you could.

“That a girl. She can take me. Can’t she?” Jake's hand left your hip, and tangled in your hair. He gripped your hair, shoving you down into the pillow. With one hand in your hair, and the other on your waist Josh began to step in. You still had Josh’s arm in your hands. Digging your nails deeply into his skin. Josh moved down, not even attempting to move his arm from your clutch. Once he found his placement his fingers found you, and danced around your skin. He rubbed slow and gentle circles on your clit. Trying not to overstimulate you more than you already were. You tried to lift your head, but Jake's force was too much. You gasped for air, and panic set in. You thought about using your safeword, and tried to remind yourself that you're okay. Josh noticed your struggle immediately, and went to stop it.

“Strike two” he thought again.

“Jake let go”

“She’s fine” he ignored him.

“She can’t breathe Jake. Let go”. Josh sat up pulling his arm away from you making you cry out for him. He pushed Jake, making him mess up his rhythm. “what did I fucking say Jake”. Jake pulled you up away from the pillow by your hair. You dropped your arms down holding yourself up.

Josh moved in front of you cupping your face. “Hey sweet girl. What's your color?”

“Y-yel-yellow” you managed to speak. Jake slowed his pace while Josh took care of you. You collapsed into Josh unable to hold yourself up now.

“Good job baby. I’ve got you my darling”. You threw your arms around his neck, and he wrapped his arms around your upper back. He held you up making eye contact with his twin.

“Your okay pretty girl” Jake said.

Jake's pace picked up again. You cried out tears falling off your cheek “shh I’m right here. Your safe”

“Listen to Josh doll. I’d never hurt you I promise. He’s right, you're safe. So fucking safe. Now feel it angel. Can you feel it? Can you feel me?”

“Jake I- I” you stopped getting choked up on your words. “Jake I’m gonna-”

“You gonna cum pretty for me? Give it to us sweetheart”

Give it to us

That’s all it took. Us. You never would have guessed the both of them would make you finish so easy. You were screaming their names in Josh’s arms as you came around Jake. “Such a good fucking girl. Gonna take me till I cum you little slut?” Praise mixed with degradation had a stronger effect on you than you realized.

“I can’t. I can’t” you cried.

“I know I know love. Take a breath”

“Josh I can’t do it”

“Yes you can-

“Yes you fucking can. Look at you. You can take it. I’m almost there. Fucking .. Take … It” each time he paused he slammed into you. He pulled out quickly cumming against your back. You fell into Josh he laid back, letting your body rest against his. Josh whispered sweetly to you, as you calmed down. Jake left quickly to get a towel to clean you up, and a warm washcloth for you as well. He cleaned you up, and laid you on your back. He placed the washcloth against your sore heat. “You'll thank me later for that” he said as he laid it against you.

“Thank you” you said it now rather than later.

He laughed softly “your welcome baby. Tried?” You didn’t have to words to answer, you'd hope he’d understand. You nodded your head yes, and he looked over at Josh. “Let him take good care of you okay? My times up”

“Are you leaving?” you sat up in a panic. “But you-”. You felt like a child again afraid of your parents leaving after they put you to bed. That nostalgic feeling rushing back to you made tears form in your eyes.

“He doesn’t have to leave mama” Josh always knows how to stop a break down. Josh pulled the covers back up around the two of you.

“I should though. She’s yours. Like I said, my times up. You don’t need me angel. Josh’s got you "Jake turned to leave.

“You can’t leave her like this. She does needs you Jake. Just stay a while longer”

“Please” you said, lifting the covers on the other side of you. Inviting him in the bed once more. He sighed and laid down beside you.

“Sleep now darling. We’re here”

[ashisill]

I’ve got a Josh and Jake x reader fic coming out sometime this week. Also thank you to the anon who suggested I make a master list. My account grew over night. 🫶

[ashisill]

Master List

(Contains 18+ themes)

Josh

Do it mama ~ smut

I’ll look after you ~ fluff

River ~ dad Josh

Broken bells ~ angst/fluff

Praise my goddess ~ smut

Blossom ~ angst/fluff

Makeup and rhinestones ~ fluff

Summer blurb ~ fluff

Waited all my life ~ dad Josh

Your needs, my needs ~ smut

Just the two of us ~ smut

My girl ~ smut

Starting over 1, 2

Take it back ~ smut

Jake

Honey, it’s alright ~ fluff

Stay forever ~ smut

I wait for you ~ angst

My love ~ smut/angst/fluff

Jake and Josh

Stay a while , 2

Dad blurb ~ fluff