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Reblog this if you’re 30 or older and don’t have a license. My family thinks you can still get one if you’re over 30, but there isn’t a point after that. I’m almost there, but I’ve been telling my mom I wanted (now need) my license before I turn 30, and I brought it up when I was 22. But I have nobody to help me practice and no vehicle as I have been unceremoniously banned from even sitting in the driver’s seat of our main vehicle.

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SEONGHWA & SAN ♡ MUSIC CORE 231216

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SEONGHWA & SAN ♡ MUSIC CORE 231216

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SEONGHWA & SAN ♡ MUSIC CORE 231216

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YUNHO ✶ MUSIC CORE 231216

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WOOYOUNG ✦ ATEEZ TAKE A FRIENDSHIP TEST

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I just found out that Seungkwan left a letter for Moonbin at the site before it gets moved and I honestly started tearing up. It was such a sweet letter. I’m starting to tear up again, but I’m not sure if it’s because I read his letter or because of something else. I don’t cry often anymore, except for yesterday at work and then a little bit ago. I always think there’s nothing left to cry over and then something else shows up. I didn’t even cry over Moonbin.

I didn’t cry over Sulli. I didn’t cry over Hara. I didn’t cry over Minwoo (100%), Dongyoon (SPECTRUM), or the member of NOM and TopSecret. I didn’t cry when I found out Haruma Miura had passed, and I had only recently found him cute. I didn’t cry when the yellow lab golden retriever mix we had for 16 years and through my moms ugly divorce left us. I don’t remember if I cried over the rabbits we had.

I cried over one hen we lost because I felt that if I had gone out and fed her more regularly and gave her water then she wouldn’t have passed because that was my job.

I cried over Jonghyun for about 2 and a half hours because I thought it was fake. I thought it was just a prank or something and I remember thinking maybe it was JR (NU’EST) or Jonghyun from CN Blue. He was the first bias I had when I still didn’t know all the stuff about kpop and Asian things that I do now. I remember I went into my moms’ room and laid down on the floor between her bed and the window, all curled up in a ball and balled my eyes out. I’m laying there talking to myself about it and crying and I could feel pain. I though my heart was breaking because of that and I never even met him.

I cried because a kid I knew in school died the weekend before in a go kart accident and it brought up talking about family members and pets that we had lost at that time (I think I was in middle school). But that was a strange one because the day before they told the school about his passing, I saw him walk off the bus to go home, which would have been impossible if he had passed that weekend. But the bus stopped and opened the doors and got off. Then we found out he was gone.

I haven’t even cried over my grandma. I was closer to her than to her husband (my stepgrandfather, technically). I cried over him because I grew up knowing him as grandpa and he passed in the hospital when there was really nothing left of him. But I can’t cry over my grandma? Not when I wanted to live there instead as a kid because the atmosphere was so much better and the stupid ex husband wasn’t there. Not when we would have sleepovers and bake cookies and she would tell me it’s fine to eat raw cookie dough. Not when I would help her pin sewing projects and pick blackberries and make raisin and watching movies with her.

I can’t cry over that? And I wanted to. I wanted to cry over her because that’s normal right? I feel like an asshole for not crying over her when I should have.

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It was Takizawa Kabuki Zero 2020 the movie that I saw and I didn’t know there was also a Takizawa Kabuki Zero Final and that’s the one with the spider and them on the flying rings bruh how do I watch that one?

Anyway TKZ2020 the movie was good, the movie part where koji, ren and raul as evil people was really scary tho ren’s acting specifically was legit scary. I’m super impressed by the drumming acts. It was great tho I can’t imagine how tired they must’ve been throughout every act they are insanely talented.

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crumch

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It looks like Baekhyun to me.

um lol

somehow i don't think that's sehyoon, google

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for personal reasons i will be going insane 

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Difference between those watching the Kpop concert

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i never want to contribute to toxic positivity so i want to acknowledge that sometimes things just suck and there isn’t a bright side. the best thing you can do in those times is take care of yourself as much as possible. maybe that means just brushing your teeth, drinking some water or calling up a friend. you don’t always have to be grateful for where you are in life. sometimes you have to get through some hard shit first, but i know that you’re capable of doing it.

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so apparently Mary is at work n didn’t know about wonhos enlistment news and I.. just dropped this in the group discord and she had to find all this out with my shittily made meme?!?$?

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Oh Sehun - Vintage Cars Fair

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(220204) #FeelinLike1stWin