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  gods   play   their   games    &   mortals   pay   the   price                                                                ©

                               an   independent   selective   &    private    multimuse    !

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find me here thx xo

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🤌🏼 i am an emotional mess rn .

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5 mini bottles of wine later , i have a migraine and i’m ready to 🖤 never hangout with my group of friends again. 🖤

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there is nothing worse than being drunk and having to hangout with the guy that could’ve been ur boyfriend 🤌🏼

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  gods   play   their   games    &   mortals   pay   the   price                                                                ©

                               an   independent   selective   &    private    multimuse    !

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no bc why did i think drinking wine and watching polar express was a good idea.

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  gods   play   their   games    &   mortals   pay   the   price                                                                ©

                               an   independent   selective   &    private    multimuse    !

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  gods   play   their   games    &   mortals   pay   the   price                                                                ©

                               an   independent   selective   &    private    multimuse    !

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  gods   play   their   games    &   mortals   pay   the   price                                                                ©

                               an   independent   selective   &    private    multimuse    !

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ACTUALLY  ,  i  lied  .   can  someone  give  me  an  opinion  on  a  header  i  made  ,  pls  i’ll  give  u   a  donut  &  a  nuggie  .  <3

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won’t be on until later , later tonight  !  getting  ready  for  a  christmas  movie  night  but  !  if  you  want  someone  to  plot  with  u  know  ,  i’m  ur  bitch  c:

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got pulled over and immediately offered the state trooper a damn krispy kreme donut bc i’m a jackass ALDNFNJD .

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7 drafts & 9 memes to do besties we’re on a roll here .

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ellis​.

it was easier to be cold, and to create the distance wasn’t it? the distance she was creating should’ve been welcomed by himself.. but it wasn’t. he didn’t welcome it. he hated it. “then i shall live in what dreams my slumber grants.” dark eyes followed her around the room, and he stood up straight and crossed his arms across his chest in quiet observation. “so then why do you not ask me to leave?” he finally speaks again, though this time he’s leaning against the table, one leg over the other. “and tell me.. if tomorrow i’m to be your shield and furthermore after that, karisa..  what am i to be to you tonight?” sure, she could walk straight out nd go find her father, demote him for being like this and not just being.a good little guard dog but that wasn’t exactly ellis’ style and it never had been. “what am i to you right now? and i’m not asking you as your knight right now.”

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          the  question  causes  her  to  laugh  inwardly ;  he  has  a  point  ,  even  if  she  won’t  admit  it  out  loud  .  it’s  for  her  own  selfish  reasoning  -  really  ,  nothing  more  ,  nothing  less  .  “  i  enjoy  your  company  .  ”  is  the  answer  she  offers  ,  back  still  turned  as  she  begins  to  move  around  the  old  journals  on  the  shelves  -  something  karisa’s  done  four  times  in  the  last  hour  to  be  exact  .  “  be  mindful  of  what  you  say  next  .  ”  the  princess  warned  ,  gaze  casted  heavenward  asking  for  any  source  of  strength  to  keep  whatever  composure  she  can  .  as  if  the  gods  would  have  pity  on  one  of  their  own  .  there’s  a  sharp  inhale  through  parted  lips  and  let  out  through  her  nose  ,  fingers  curling  against  the  bookshelf  as  she  finally  turns  to  face  him  .  not  that  she  can  put  her  thoughts  to  words  ,  not  yet  at  least  .  returning  to  the  war  table  and  leans  over  to  examine  the  pieces  on  the  playing  field  .  “  just  you  ,  ”  she  begins  ,  fingers  hovering  over  the  piece  that  represents  her  ,  lips  pressed  together  in  thought  .  “  not  my  knight  ,  the  lieutenant  general  or  the  prince  of  shadows  .  just  you  ,  ellis  .  the  boy  i  grew  up  with  .  the  man  who  taught  me  how  to  swing  a  sword  .  ”  she  contemplates  her  next  words  ,  whether  or  not  she  should  cross  the  imaginary  line  that  they’ve  made  for  one  another  .  “  and  the  only  man  who  will  ever  hold  my  heart  .  ”  she  says  it  with  confidence  ,  bright  green  hues  meeting  his   dark  ones  .  “    ⸺  i’m  the  daughter  of  hades  ,   when  i  see  something  i  want  ,  i  take  it  .  with  little  regards  on  what  consequences  it  comes  with  but  ,  you  ,  this  ,  not  being  able  to  have  what  i  truly  desire  ,  is  the  most  excruciating  pain  i’ve  felt  in  my  entire  life  .  ”  karisa  explains  again  ,  attention  never  leaving  his  ,  despite  the  want  to  just  leave  ,  she  can’t  .  it  was  him  who  asked  to  be  let  in  ,  so  there  she  was  ,  letting  him  in  .

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eden​.

“then i’m sorry i’ve never brought you anything– i will, ill pay more attention when christmas is over with.. you should be able to know that i care more than just words.” this whole.. loving christmas and making herself busy with everything to do with it, it was an act.. because it was the loneliest time of year when you missed someone. it was ben that she had the silly traditions with.. like gingerbread, eden loved gingerbread.. but god help her she wanted to hate it right now. it was just one little thing they used to do together from the many, it’s what made it so difficult.. even the smell reminded her of her brother. eden stepped forward so she could push herself between him and the counter, and it was purely so she could wrap her arms around him. “thanks benji.” it was noticeable, when she finally relaxed her shoulders. “i just.. i hate this time of year.” she admitted and it was good, it was her sign of trust. “can’t even make myself put the damn tree up this year.. but i did get you the best christmas present, ever.” had she stayed with her arms around him for longer than she knew she should have? yes.. but he made everything feel better. “i’m really the best bakery in town? you’re just feeding my ego!”

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      so  now  he  feels  like  the  world’s  biggest  douche  ,  “  alright  ,  let’s  take  a  step  back  here  ,  i  don’t   ⸺   i  don’t  do  these  things  because  i  expect  something  back  .  i  care  about  you  eden  and  i’m  more  than  fine  with  words  .  words  are  great  ,  i  love  them  .  no  need  for  gifts  ,  seriously  .  ”  larger  and  stronger  arms  quickly  find  their  way  around  her  ,  tightening  the  embrace  and  pressing  a  kiss  against  her  hair  ,  fingers  rubbing  soothing  circles  against  her  back  to  provide  some  form  of  comfort  in  the  midst  of  her  explanation  .  “  i  get  it  ,  trust  me  i  do  .  you  don’t  have  to  put  the  tree  up  ,  start  small  .  put  one  of  those  air  fresheners  up  that  look  like  a  tree  and  the  maybe  next  year  you  can  get  a  table  christmas  tree  or  something  .  work  your  way  up  ,    ”  he  offers  ,  another  kiss  is  pressed  except  this  time  ,  on  her  temple  as  he  pulls  away  with  an  eye  roll  .  “  you  didn’t  need  to  get  me  anything  ,  i  would  have  been  fine  with  cupcakes  or  somethin’  .   but  ,  it’s  not  me  filling  your  ego  .  it’s  this town  ,  everyone  keeps  saying  how  this  is  the  best  bakery  .   i’m  just  repeating  what  your  fans  are  saying  .  ”

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sienna​.

“considering i know your strength, i’m going to take your promise with great confidence.” but hadn’t she always believed in him? always. she could feel how her cheeks started to turn a deeper shade at the way their lips clashed together again, this time it was filled with more longing and desire, a need to show each emotion hidden within hearts. “you were always my courage to fight on and continue jack.. like calls to like.” there was a small smirk at his demand. “yes, prince kastos.” tomorrow. tomorrow when she’d fulfilled the order to return, she’d show him the true emotions of her heart.. she’d let him in, tell him how she’d really felt all these years. “i’ll find you.” there was a moment her fingers hovered mid air, like her touch wouldn’t be anything more than a blessing but after that hesitation her fingers moved to gently glide over his bearded jaw. despite how much she yearned to know more of his calloused hands she pulled away. “tomorrow, tomorrow i have something i need to tell you, but it has to be tomorrow.” 

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      his  own  hand  comes  to  rest  against  the  one  pressed  against  his  jaw  ,  peeling  it  away  so  he  can  press  a  kiss  against  the  inside  of  it  .  and  the  prince  is  sure  that  she  can  see  how  much  he  yearns  to  have  her  skin  against  his  again  the  moment  she  pulls  away  .  conflict  evident  in  steel  hues  as  he’s  closing  the  distance  between  them  once  more  .  “  and  what  if  tomorrow  never  comes?  what  if  the  war  wages  on  and  i  can’t  hear  what  it  is  you  need  to  tell  me?  ”  as  if  he  would  ever  let  days  pass  without  seeing  her   ⸺  he  only  wants  to  know  now  because  he’s  impatient  and  needs  confirmation  that  he  isn’t  going  insane  .  “  sienna  ,  please  .  tell  me  what  it  is  ,  i  will  tell  you  anything  you  want  to  know  ,  but  i  need  to  hear  what  it  is  that  you  want  to  say  .  ”