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I have this thing for needing to know every detail of whatever I am involved in.

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Back to the drawing board

I just moved to Maryland, once again leaving everything behind me. I feel like indifferent. I know I’m here to better myself but I still have some things to let go of.

While I’m here, I just want to focus on myself. Focus on loving myself, caring for myself, making myself happy. I want to get closer to God. I want to talk to him how everybody else be saying they be talking to God.

I just hope he talks back.

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Self Control

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I’m close

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I promise

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I’m gonna do the dopest shit ever

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I’ve been living

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Unsure of how I feel

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Sometimes I feel like I want to talk about how I’m feeling and what’s going on with me but sometimes I feel like I don’t have anybody to talk to. & I know my close friends say that I can hit them up but I don’t want to bother anybody. Even when they say I’m not bothering them, I still keep things to myself. That’s a very frustrating feeling.

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Fear means you have something lose

I don’t want to lose you

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Dreamed about you for the first time. You told me to sit down on the bed and we talked.

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It hurts knowing you see straight through me

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Wish we grew up on the same advice

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THE REAL COMES OUT AT NIGHT

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The broken are the more evolved

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Depression is holding on, sadness is letting go

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I'd rather take the risk of being hurt by you than to not be with you