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I have a new tumble. Feel free to follow me there

Since being diagnosed with crones disease but mostly multiple sclerosis I am struggling a lot more. Brontes great but need to write to vent Http://www.tumblr.com/blog/ms-and-bpd-killed-her-inside

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I love you more than I could ever express, I need you more than you’ll ever know. To have you through everything life has thrown at us in the last 6 months means the world. I love you, I love you for providing for us, for treating me like a princess and always putting me above everything. I couldn’t be happier with anyone but you 😘😘

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So happy to have this girl by my side 11/1/18 ❤️

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*** LONG BUT IMPORTANT INFORMATION*** We have decided to go public because it no longer became who knew, but who didn’t. On the 16th of December one of my worst fears was confirmed. I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, which verified why my health has declined dramatically especially in the last 6 months. To running two successful business’s to working very little to not at all, my health will not get better. My body will not heal itself and neither will a pill, a diet or an operation. My partner Bronte has been nothing but supportive and I’m very lucky to have a close net of loved ones close by. We only told a few people at first but some couldn’t be trusted with our privacy so we have told my to immediate family on my mums side (except those I choose to have anything to do with) as well as my closest friends. I choose not to speak to my sperm donors side, and do not wish to contact them to find out if it’s something that runs in the family. Family history will not change the fact I have MS. We do not know that if I carry a baby that they won’t have the disease and this is nothing I want to pass on. I have chosen to warn people before posting this and this is not something I’m dealing with well. The next few months and years will not be easy, they involve painful tests and a life that may not be the life I planned, but I refuse to let MS control every part of my life. I will love watching sunsets, I will love being loved and enjoy watching movies with my partner and I will do everything I can to make sure I live a happy life with my loved ones close by my side. This is not something I can beat but I can still love my life and the people in it. With the strongest girl by my side who I love more than I can put in to words, I can do this, even when I think I can’t. Also a huge thank you to the people who over the last month helped me piece back my life and helped me understand, took me for drives, laughed cried and gazed at stars with me. I may have an incurable disease but I have the worlds best ‘Ohana’ Family ❤️ Attached is an article that was shared in a support page, there is nothing that anyone can offer to help but love, support and strength. Thank

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Christmas with the in laws! Excuse my bloating I’m still recovering. #onlylovewassharedthatday #blessed

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Week of hell

This is my diary and the way I express myself. Not many people actually read it and I like that. My best friend has a brain tumour, my friend over dosed and is now brain dead. Hopes anniversary was Monday and Tuesday I had major surgery. I'm not healing as quickly as I want to. But nothing could prepare for me for the news I got today. I have multiple sclerosis. An incurable debilitating disease. I'm broken and upset. I'm broken.

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I stopped telling myself that I’m lost. I’m not. I’m on a road with no destination, I’m just driving with hope that I’ll find a place that I like and I’ll stay there. I’m not lost, I’m on my way.

Ahunnaya (via help-n-quotes)

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I get way too sensitive when I get attached to someone. I can detect the slightest change in the tone of their voice, and suddenly I’m spending all day trying to figure out what I did wrong.

Brandon Stanton, Humans of New York (via wordsnquotes)

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let November be the start of everything beautiful, let “us” begin.

Maram Rimawi,  writing prompt #66: Write about November (via wnq-writers)

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Be kind to me November, let me find the love I deserve.

soleilhoney, writing prompt #66: Write about November (via wnq-writers)

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It feels like crap after crap

We had $2000-$3000 worth of stuff stolen, money, personal sentimental things, phones, laptop, hard drive. What she room had the only photos of deceased friends and godson that she admitted to police of she stole. She was found guilty in court but police didn't file restitution, so we have to sue her. 😪 Ff t I found out that a best friend of mine had a brain tumour. I honestly went home and broke into a million pieces. Then I found out that my ex boss of 3 years and friend. Ex girlfriend of one of my best friends was on life support because she had overdosed, not thinking about her daughter. We are told she is brain dead and will need 24/7 care if she wakes up. My surgery has been booked on hopes anniversary. It's a major surgery and I have my doubts. I'm shit scared but more pissed off to the day it's on, as I miss her memorial 😭

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10 years of friendship and I couldn't have been more excited to see her! Hopefully not so long between trips next time xxxx love you @_mjwilliamson

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To say the last 3 months have been hard would be an absolute understatement. I met this girl almost 4 months ago and knew straight away she would be someone special in my life. I just didn't know in what aspect. We were both interested in other people but had so much going on and found comfort in each other. Neither of us have had an easy ride, in life let alone the last few months. Health, financial, relationship wise, death, stolen property, long days. But each day I wake up to this lady and each night I go to sleep knowing she will be there in the morning. She comes to work with me and picks up the slack because she knows I struggle. She drives with me me holds my hands to every appointment, she tells me she's here every step of the way no matter how hard it gets. She gets what I love, which is the simple things. She gets what makes me mad. She gets me. I still have a hell of a lot of learning to learn with her but I'm so glad that 2 red heads who met at a dump ended up finding an amazing friendship, an amazing bond and what most of the time feels like we are the same person. Last week she spoilt me, a trip away, pj set, pink tickets, a new straightener and a new pair of my favourite havianas. Things I most definitely didn't deserve nor expect. It took me awhile to say 'I love you', but I don't get tired of telling her. We aren't girlfriends, we find comfort in each other. But I won't let her go and I won't let her face anything alone. So baby, thank you to be the one to wipe away the tears, help me face my fears, drive me to every specialist appointment, watch and capture the beautiful sunsets the sky produces and thank you for being Aunty Bronte to the little man who stole my heart. I'm so proud of how far you've come in your job, your strength and your self worth! I love you ❤️💛💚💙💜

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Thanks for an amazing weekend baby 👌🏻 movie world, harbour town, eat street, queen street and dancing our butts off at the clubs! So glad To be home though! #lesbians #redheads #soblessed #voteyes