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i look in people's windows is the song that's been stuck in my head most today!

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wait is madison beer lgbtq or

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i think ttpd has just taken evermore's spot as my most favorite album

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wait is madison beer lgbtq or

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ttpd, mbobhft, bdilh, fots, waolom, icfhnric, icdiwabh, cososom, ilipw

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I can’t imagine not viewing this album through a queer lens

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no thoughts just

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this was such a fucking funny thing to do on lesbian visibility day

april 26, 2019 | five years ago today

kimby kloss liked taylor’s “ME! Out now!” instagram post

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I am dusting off my little blog here because TTPD has my mind absolutely reeling. I am really wondering if anyone else listened to this and had this feeling that the album confirmed everything that they were thinking was going on with her. I know we talk so much about reading her songs beneath the surface of muses or certain details used to craft a story, but to me, TTPD reads so strongly of her reckoning with her life in the industry. like, it's so much more than the relationships. it's the comp het, it's the religious trauma, it's the being exploited as a child star, it's deep wound of abandonment and neglect when she as a person got split off from her brand and both could not thrive, it's giving everything to this brand and career and fandom and that still never being enough. it's her codependency with the very people that exploit her. it's the fact that she is bigger than she ever imagined and none of it feels how she wanted. it's the simultaneous love and resentment she has towards her family, and relationships, and career, and yes, even her fans.

the rawness of this album, the unrefined feel, the summation poem talking about this as mania, the continuation of the cage imagery and themes of escaping to her mind/fantasy, the coping with criticism, numbing it all with alcohol, the willingness to burn it all down and disgrace her name because none of this is what she wants or at least not how she wants.

I have seen so many criticisms of the album and honestly, I understand where they are coming from, but I also think the things they criticize make the exact point of what this body of work is - something that exists for it's own sake to turn things back on the people that made her into what she is now. art created not to be acclaimed but because it demands to be expressed. it is an exorcism, an expulsion. it is something that erupted from her. and it's so meta because this fandom and the industry are voyeurs in an echo chamber so desperate to see what they want that they miss that this is about them. that is what makes it brilliant to me - it is self-indulgent and metaphorical, and complex, and so direct, but yet still masked just enough that people miss it. her entire life has become performance art. it is a play within a play. and I fear the audience has not caught on.

it feels like she is reclaiming it all. I feel like this could either be a hint at a new beginning or a signal that she has broken and this is the end. this felt like the tell-all memoir written in code that everyone else will finally understand when she really leaves this spotlight. it's the lucky one come to life. she is daydreaming about fucking it all and leaving this life behind so she can finally have some goddamn peace.

I love this album for it as art. it is so expressive. it is so heartbreaking. it's messy and nuanced, and I think it is going way the fuck over most people's heads, especially when you really dig into poetry being the theme and the specific works she references. it's only been a week and I am just starting to really dig in but talk about a fucking iceberg.

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she is boyfriend.

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april 26, 2019 | five years ago today

taylor released the music video for ‘ME!’

the clock behind brendon urie was set to 8:30pm

taylor often uses the numbers 8 and 3 together as a reference to karlie kloss’s birthday, august 3rd

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thanK you aIMee being capitalized like that and still including the line “and so i’ve changed your name and any real defining clues” sets up two delightful scenarios in my mind both of which i find equally funny

she was going to Keep it under the radar but then when It caMe time to put together the tracklist she changed her mind went fucK It i’M doing it anyway

the song is not in fact about kim kardashian and she decided to throw in a red herring to keep people from trying to find the real person, and decided you know what kim also deserves some heat let’s just throw her under the bus

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The Tortured Poets Department is a great reminder that women don't owe the world pretty. Taylor Swift doesn't owe anyone an easily digestible pretty pop album wrapped in a bow with short songs you can make TikToks to. She's allowed to present something raw, uncomfortable, and vulnerable to the world.

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THINKING ABOUT HER

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The Tortured Poets Department [2024]