I walked 4 miles in 80 minutes today. This time last year, I could barely walk 4 minutes without stopping for a break. It got easier as I chipped away at it. Iâll do the same with marketing my book series until itâs a bestseller. Anything is possible. â¨manifesting â¨
I once found a mixed CD on the street outside my house. It had âWonderwallâ written on it with black marker. I took it inside and listened to it. So many great songs were on there, âOne Headlightâ among them. I wanted to keep the CD so badly, but something told me it was in the street for a reason, so I put it in a pink jewel case (if you remember those) and set it on the sidewalk. It was gone the next morning. I hope the person who was meant to have it got it back.
At a glance, this is a random assortment of grocery items. But itâs more a representation of my little family. Sandorâs favorite chips, my favorite chocolate, and one can of the catsâ favorite food. Because everyone deserves to have what they like the most.
Itâs at times like this, when I canât sleep, that I think of all the other times life has redirected me. All the times I wished for things that didnât come true. All the times I cried. All the times I was sure Iâd reached my limit. And now Iâm here. Iâll know the reason some day.
Thereâs nothing quite like the smell of old paper. I cracked open the next box of my romance book inheritance from my aunt, and itâs like a waft of perfume. Beautiful.
Every time someone adds one of my books to their Goodreads âto-readâ shelf my grateful author hearts leaps like a little froggy going âribbit, ribbit, ribbit!â
(same anon) what do you think sculy's actions in never again are brought on by? stress? loneliness? her cancer? SORRY but i just really wanna hear you talk more about this episode which i agree is fantastic
I think itâs a combination of a lot of things, but not her cancer. I mean, itâs easy to read it that way but the truth is that the episode was actually supposed to air BEFORE Leonard Betts, not after, so Gillian played this episode as if Scully didnât know that she had cancer, so thatâs how I choose to interpret it. Gillian said sheâd have definitely played it differently had she known the episode would air out of order.
Scullyâs actions are brought on by a lot of things, but most importantly I think sheâs recognizing something in her life and relationship with Mulder that is starting to really worry her the deeper she goes into it. Scully is recognizing and voicing the opinion that I absolutely remember having upon my first watch of the show which is: what is Scully getting out of this and how does it make her feel that Mulder occasionally, inadvertently, treats her like a sidekick and takes her for granted? It was so refreshing to me to know that Scully not only SEES this, but is willing to say something about it.
The unfortunate thing is that she doesnât communicate it well and then lashes out when her statements (which are wrapped up in passive aggressive commentary on her lack of office furniture) end up being misread by Mulder. Mulderâs at his absolute worst in this episode but I love it because itâs nice to see them be real. Itâs nice to see the âidealâ partners fuck up.
So Scully is a lot of things in Never Again but the thing she is the most is unsure. Unsure where sheâs going in her life, unsure how sheâs somehow been here for four years without her name on the door or a desk to show to the outside world that she belongs here, unsure what she wants to get out of this journey, unsure how she fits in the office and in Mulderâs life.Â
So yes, sheâs stressed and sheâs lonely but sheâs also just needing some steady ground to stand on and The X-Files and Mulder do not provide that for her because a) they canât and b) she doesnât make it clear that thatâs what she actually needs. So she rebels against what she thinks is holding her back because thatâs what she does. Thatâs Scullyâs admitted pattern.Â
Never Again is so good because it was a matter of time. It was a long time coming, in my opinion, for Scully to stop and say âhey, wait a minute, what have I gotten myself into and where am I going?â and I love the fact that it doesnât really work. It doesnât play out the way the audience would want it to. It doesnât end up with a nice desk waiting for her with a bow on it because Mulder understands the problem. It doesnât end up with Scully feeling more secure in her job/life with Mulder. It ends in painful, awkward silence because these are two people who became so entwined with each other and it happened without them realizing it and now nobody knows whose life is whose anymore.
I think this is it, my favorite X Files gif.
Reasons include, but are not limited to: 1) beer; 2) fish tank; 3) Mulderâs couch; 4) Scully is fairly happy; 5) clink; 6) the look on Scullyâs face as she tries to gauge her partnerâs reaction; 7) Mulder in a black t-shirt; 8) Scully in a just a normal white shirt; 9) bowl of popcorn; and 10) Scullyâs dainty pinky when she holds her beer.
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It was 7 years ago today I went to the tattoo convention in Philly and asked a burly artist to give me a T-Rex on my middle finger. He laughed so hard I thought heâd hurt himself. He said it was his favorite piece all day. â¤ď¸đĽ°đŚ