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The signs as letters to my exes/love interests

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ARIES: 

You were so confident, energetic, happy and honest. You told it how it was and you never ever let anyone disregard your opinion. You were never afraid to push people away or shut them out when you thought it bettered you. I still remember your optimistic outlook on life, problems never seemed to drag on with you. You saw life as it was, simple and beautiful and never let anything get you down. However, your moods flickered like a switch. I couldn’t stay on top of them, your aggression and short fuse was ultimately the end of our 3-week-romance. But, when I think of you, I think of how strong you were. I still remember your parent’s divorce and how you hated them fighting yet you never complained, always fighting issues with a mere ‘I’ll get over it’ or ‘It’ll pass’. I think that’s what kept you so strong in the end.

TAURUS:

 You were the first person to break my heart with your stubborn, uncompromising ways. You didn’t realise it then, but that’s ultimately what had ruined our relationship. You wanted to do everything for everybody, but when it came down to me you didn’t give a sh*t. I hated you for months after our breakup, I hated what you had done to me. Only recently did I realise you didn’t mean to hurt me, you didn’t mean to be malicious, you’re too kind. I realised that I was unfair, that I wasn’t exactly easy to be with. On the outside, you came off as materialistic and selfish, but your heart was far too big to realise what you were doing was wrong. I don’t blame you for breaking up with me, you had your reasons. However, I do miss that goofy smile or the way your brown hair effortlessly flowed with youth and shine. You have everyone under your spell, we all adore you, it’s time for you to realise that. It’s a shame we don’t talk anymore, I wish things would’ve ended up differently instead of arguments and glares. I wish you the best.

GEMINI: 

You were probably the funniest, most down to earth, chill person I’ve ever met. I remember late night conversations with you over stupid shit like how Donald Trump might actually be a hot-cheeto and how one day we were going to conquer the world together. I wish things would’ve worked out for us, you were always so much fun to be around. People were drawn to you, they loved talking to you as much as you loved talking to them. Everything was fun and new to you, I loved that. I still remember your silly inventions like peanut butter on Spaghetti or Icing on pickles. You wanted to try and invent everything and loved to show off your inventions with your witty tactics and interesting facts. I wish things would’ve worked out in the end for us, but things began to become a game. I just hope whoever you’re laying next to right now can give you bigger, brighter dreams than I could. I’m sorry.

CANCER: *my sun sign*

We met and it was like suddenly our worlds combined. We were exactly the same, I couldn’t tell if it was because of our sun sign or not but we understood each other in ways I can’t explain. I met you during one of the hardest stages of my life, I was heartbroken and down and you did everything in your power to make me feel better. You’re so calm, caring, kind and loyal.I loved that about you. We didn’t last long, I don’t think anyone expected us to, either way, babe. It was fun while it lasted, but us together would’ve caused chaotic storms. I’ll never forget your late-night messages and how you overused the term “SMILE FOR ME!”. You always wanted people to feel better and would risk becoming sleep deprived just to hear my wild tales of heartbreak, madness and issues. You had a way of thinking through problems and coming up with logical answers but you were never afraid of suggesting to “SET HIM ON FIRE!!!” However, I wanted free from your grasp. You knew me too well and you became too obsessive and I started to feel trapped. I really wish I could’ve made it work, I really wish I could’ve been the one who kept your heart but it wasn’t mine in the first place. I’m sorry.

LEO:

You were the first person that I fell completely, utterly, chaotically in love with. Right from the start, you had captured my heart and I knew there wasn’t any way I was getting away from you without being broken. You were so charismatic, loveable and educated, it alarmed me. You had so many skills and you could play the guitar so well I honestly had fantasies of you serenading me. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE loved you. You had a way of drawing in crowds as if it was nothing, my introverted self hated that. You were absolutely adorable too with your bold ways and interesting speech. People love you, they still do. You make everyone feel so comforted and attractive, I envy that. Our relationship was rocky but it had been the best two months of my life, you sparked something so deep inside of me that I never expected it to burn out, but it did. You see, Leo, you were far too egotistical, social and prideful that it ruined our relationship. Instead of staying home to talk, you’d rather go out and have fun. I needed more from you that you couldn’t provide and it ultimately lead to our breakup. I just couldn’t keep a leash on you. I’m still in love with you, god, I hope you know that. I hope you know that it’s going to take a long, long time for me to forget you. I think that’s what makes me come back for more each time. I really wish you’d love me back, but it’s okay, life doesn’t work out the way you planned for it too, ever.

VIRGO:

You were the first person I immediately clicked with. We had known each other for a maximum of ten minutes and I had felt like I had known you for thousands of years. Part of me still believes you were my soulmate in some sense like we were bound to get to know each other for the short-lived time we had together. You were extremely flirtatious and neat, it was almost humorous to watch. But you had such a sad view on life. You were extremely critical and if someone didn’t live up to your standards you almost became offended. I remember staying up late with you and how you’d go on for hours ranting about your silly mistakes, I hated it then but I miss it now. And although your outlook seemed dark, you DID radiate some degree of positive energy. You loved to help out in any way you could, I still remember those snapchats you sent me where you found a stray kitten on the side of the street, named him “Sausage” and decided to keep him. I loved that about you, how you weren’t afraid to show a more sensitive side to you. I wish we could’ve worked things out, I wish it didn’t end with us hating each other. I’m sorry, love, I really am.

LIBRA:

I have no words other than you were insane and if I never see you again I will be JOYFUL.

SCORPIO:

You were so dark and manipulative- I loved it. I simply adored how you were so blunt and honest about everything, it was refreshing considering I was always afraid of offending people. However, you did seem to think you were better than everyone nonchalantly. Yet we talked for hours about almost anything, I still remember how caught up you were over that blonde girl who broke your heart. You told everyone you didn’t care but I saw through your ways. You were like a brother to me, we had fun with our playful flirting but when it came down to you catching feelings for me? I ran. I’m sorry I made you open up to me and I couldn’t stay for long..I really am. I wish I could’ve figured things out and I wasn’t so naive but, that’s just me. We haven’t spoken for four months now, I hope you’re okay.

SAGITTARIUS:

You were so reckless, care-free and fun. I loved being around you and still do. I had a small crush on you like the way a child would, but could you blame me? You were always out there with your ideas and your crooked smile, I adore it. You loved anything and everything to do with memes, drake and “bitches” (as you called it.) You were a year older than me and I’ll never forget the random words of “wisdom” you taught me. We still talk, it’s funny how a year from today I was watching you skateboard in the rain while I yelled at you to be careful and now we exchange casual ‘hellos’ while I ask you about your family and you shoot me blank dry stares. I wish things went back to how they used to be, but they can’t, and that’s okay. I don’t blame you.

CAPRICORN:

You’re so gentle in ways I can’t explain, It’s almost kind of sweet. On the outside, you pose as a stubborn person. You pretend that nothing bothers you and that you have a mentality that “I WON’T FORGIVE AND I WON’T FORGET!!!” but really if people genuinely get to know you, you’re pretty easy to figure out. When we first met I felt attraction flicker inside of me, only for it to be burnt out by your proclaims of love for someone else. I don’t blame you, you’re doing the best you can. I wish we could talk more, but I’m afraid I’m growing bored. I’m sorry..holy fuck, am I ever sorry.

AQUARIUS: 

I don’t love you in a romantic way, but rather in a platonic way. You were the first person I met who could truly tell me how it is. I love how original, independent and clean you are. Everything you do makes me smile and you put me in a genuine better mood. I never fail to have fun with you and even when I feel like things are crumbling down you’re here with your sweet ways! You love to listen and I think that’s my favourite quality about you considering all I do is complain and whine like the true child I am. Thanks for not running away even when it got rough, thank you.

PISCES:

You were so wise and gentle, I loved it. You never did things out of spite and loved to see things from the other person point of view. Issues were never forever in your eyes and you loved to work them out. I envied that, I was always the whiner who was sure that my problems would bury me deep and you always found a way to dig me back out again. I thank you for that, honestly. You taught me that not everyone is trying to destroy you and that sometimes, the world is beautiful. I love you and always will, thank you.