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Halsey performing at Xfinity Center in Mansfield, Massachusetts on June 3rd as part of the For My Last Trick Tour.

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you guys broke up? 😲😞

Yeaahhhhhh about that….. 🫣😬😫😫😭💔

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can you please share a snippet from is it over now, please? Thanks.

I totally would iffffff there was any solid new content written😬 I think a while back I shared whatever amount I had started for Clarke’s POV of cruel summer before my writers block set in too severely as we officially dove into the divorce process last fall.

Buuuuttt if you don’t mind a teeny tiny spoiler of where all the hot and heavy sneaking around is leading to… I know it’s been all spice for a while but I miss the ANGST that this shitshow was founded on so I will re-share this tiny snippet🫣🤭 Because I can’t remember if I had previously posted some of these or not.

🚨MILD SPOILER ALERT🚨 For “Is It Over Now?”

Good news tho I’m OFFICIALLY all moved in and settled into my new apartment…. Will now have LOTS of downtime with this 50-50 custody schedule soooooo the writing will be starting back up SOON🙌🏼

….but first, Pride celebrations the next few weekends🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈

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**Deep sigh**

(Restarts countdown of how many days it’s been since thinking Dr. Bosslady) 😪 💔

love the idea of soothing someone into submission. you've had a long day, sweetheart, why don't you let me do the thinking for a bit? i know you like to be in control, but it can be exhausting. surely you've earned a little relaxation after all your hard work. don't you want to rest a bit? unclench your jaw, relax your muscles, let your legs fall open. i want the only thought in that lovely head to be how good you feel.

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1000000% I’ve steered my story to an extent based on comments…given certain characters added scenes, included additional plot points and even made major character decisions based on how the story is being perceived, received, and enjoyed!!

I simply have a series of plot bullet points…. How much or little people enjoys diff aspects and mini-arcs determine the path in which we GET to all those big bullet points 🤭🤭

do fic readers know that their comments actually influence the course of the story sometimes? i don't mean in a "you need to write it this way because i say so 😡" type of comment, i mean when people are asking questions or really engaging with the plot and the themes in the comments they sometimes bring up things that i didn't even think of, or dig into parts of the story that i've overlooked, or get really interested/fixated on something i was going to just kind of glance over--and it has me going 'oh wait that's actually really interesting, that's a good point' and fully adding or tweaking or changing things about the story going forward. i'm literally adding an entire additional chapter to something right now because someone's comment had me like "oh i didn't dig into that as much as i could have." you have impact!

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yasi: two evenings in florida ⭐️ @iamhalsey🌛

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Halsey performing at The Hollywood Bowl in Los Angeles on May 14th as part of the For My Last Trick Tour.

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iamhalsey: we got @yasi baby back on the tour and the stunning, show stopping, award winning pics are flowing in. LOOK AT THESE TABLEAUX !!!!!!! Thanks for a great time Nashville 🌙 gonna sing for all the peaches in Georgia tonight.

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Darwinism 🐇 ★ ₊ ⊹꩜ design by me!

Darwinism means sm to me & my sis so im grateful Halsey added it to the setlist! I love the setlist! Thank you @tiredandlonelymuse 🌀

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ALYCIA DEBNAM-CAREY as Milla Blake Apple Cider Vinegar (2025)

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every time i think about arsonist it just seems to get worse and a new layer seems to reveal itself to me. the ya'aburnee x arsonist parallel is always there, feeling like a loose bullet reaching straight into my heart, but what's staring at me right now is how halsey went from "but what's worse? telling you my feelings or to die without revealing that you got inside my head and set a fire there instead?" to a whole song about him and fire. the former was written in a completely different context from the latter and knowing that his name means flame, it could've been a sweet detail/anecdote in 2021 but oh boy does it hit different now...

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⭐️The Great Impersonator🎱🎲🎭

My latest project, in honor of getting to see my favorite artist on tour this summer💙 18x24” (two versions of background)

Honestly envisioned this as a much larger/complex mixed-media piece, so might revisit down the road to incorporate more of the impersonations and symbols.

This album, (to me) was such a profoundly vulnerable reflection of the human condition, personal identity, motherhood, and mortality - among other things (sickness, fame, love to name a few).

Hard to fully understand and appreciate for those who don’t know much of Halsey’s backstory, but this project is a brutally honest and devastatingly personal confessional, a search for empathy and meaning that makes music most enjoyable to me because it scratches at the inner walls of my brain. More especially when I’m so invested in the PERSON behind the music, and I don’t think I’ve ever cared about a complete stranger to such depths ever of just wishing them genuine support and happiness.

Feel free to check out more of my work on my IG page! I do sell both the pieces I make or prints, and also do individual commissions for wedding/anniversary gifts.

@tiredandlonelymuse 💙Cannot wait to see you on tour (again🥹) June 17th in Chicago 🫶🏼

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endless clarke griffin: 61/???

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Hi👋 while im reading through everything again I have some general questions about your writing (which I love!). I’ve never wrote anything before and I’m in awe of people who can.

Here’s my first couple ( I have a lot 😅)

How did you come up with the story? Has the story changed much from your initial ideas to the chapters you’ve posted so far?

Aw love it keep 'em coming there's never too many!

The story idea came just from listening to some T-Swift vault songs on repeat in the midst of churning through a bunch of other fanfics and just listening to "Is It Over Now?" gave me the idea of a story about toxic sassy Clexa exes who just can't quite quit each other.

I was deeeeep into my canon fic, "Hold Me Down", and just wanted a fun break/escape from the realistic-Clexa that I was trying to keep as close to show-version of Lexa as possible. “Hold Me Down” felt very heavy and like I carried some unspoken obligation to ‘do right’ by this universe that had SO MUCH POTENTIAL…and I genuinely wrote that canon fic as my own personal outlet to fix that god-awful show with a much more interesting plot that focused WAY MORE on the grounder's and their dynamic and conflicts that would have arisen from Clexa's relationship.... and much less on the skyrats (also we deserved ONE REAL showdown btwn Lexa and Skaikru and I am very proud and happy of how I wrote that stand-off at the blockade outside Arkadia).

but back to your second question..... OH BOY has the story changed a lot since the initial concept haha .... mainly in DEPTH bc my initial idea was just me wanting a chance to write hella gratuitous *spice* with some LOOSE plot to string it all together.

Originally it was meant to be quick, (short), and basically just these two running into each other all over LA bc of their shared friend group and just having SO MUCH secret hooking up while still playfully hating each other with nonstop banter and bickering and blaming each other for why they weren't still actually together.

As the writing went on, I just could not help myself adding deeper emotions and significance (sorry ima Pisces but also I had way too many taylor swift songs to play off of with my loose outline) and it REALLY spiraled from there lol, I think because (to me) it's so natural for every version of Lexa to be so much of a strong facade she puts on for the rest of the world, but underneath she's just a little puddle of feelings. So I enjoyed (perhaps too much) running with Lexa's celebrity persona and then exploring all those deeper themes of "public" self vs real self, social media curation, and the damage of assumptions and mis-communication (or hell ZERO communication in this case). Also bc of the way the story shifted, if they HAD been constantly hooking up nonstop much earlier it didn’t make nearly as much sense how they would have stayed apart long enough to get to my later plot points.

Examples of how some things changed:

#1- Costia's character was originally meant to be a shallow, vapid wanna-be influencer who was NOT malicious in any way...but still was def just in-it for the exposure and maybe did care about Lexa innocently but just not on such a deep genuine sense. She was originally meant to be a very easy low-maintenance booty call who was always down for the late-night "you up?" text bc she enjoyed showing off her close affiliation to the actress and playing it up as more than it really was.

^^You maybe get that sense from those early chapters....but as the story went on esp after the rough Game-night chapter, and I (not-so-accidentally) made things much deeper and more harsh for Lexa, I needed at least ONE PERSON in the story to actually see her pain and care about her beyond her celebrity status, and that person just had to be Costia imo. What Clarke did/does to Lexa, even if it's just a fanfic.... I would not allow Clarke to be the one who breaks her but also gets to be the one to put her back together. Lexa needed to have a REAL attachment with someone else to make it significant that she just still can’t let go of her love for Clarke despite how awful Clarke was/is to her.

Costia becomes the embodiment of "you can be perfect, but still not perfect FOR ME..." An example in how to try and support someone, to LOVE someone who is at war with themself and trying to heal (and for those knowing what was happening in my real life while writing this whole story that probably makes a lot more sense.) I'm so defensive of Costia because I unknowingly was writing her for myself. Bc I related too much to what Lexa was going through with her view of herself and fucked up relationship with intimacy, where I needed a Costia in my life. Examples: what costia tells her when she makes the IG post after game night in “Mine(Costia’s version)….. how Costia responds when they are falling asleep at the end of “New Romantics”…. And how she treats Lexa after the vegas trip in “I can fix her” ch….

….so yea she's more protected than CLEXA in this story probably lol those two are toxic as hellllllllll but we still love them anyways as they figure their shit out).

#2 -Raven was NEVER meant to become the sort of villain she is right now? That was def a complete accident as the story got deeper. Though honestly the story isn't meant to have any one real villain? I wanted all the characters to be flawed, and noone in this story is innocent or blameless(except costia🤍).

I liked everyone having faults, and written where you SHOULD be able to "see" their perspective and why each character in this story is motivated to act the way they do (except Clarke, she's the biggest idiot here, she and I have BEEF). Wanting this to feel like it had more weight to it, I did NOT want it to pretty much be the whole friend group WANTING them back together because then what would really be keeping CLEXA apart? The friend group, and their opinions, had to be yet another obstacle (not just public scrutiny/fans opinions) for these two to overcome. Feels very natural that Clarke's best friend would "choose sides" thinking it was Lexa who wronged her bff....so we see Raven taking on that brazenly aggressive stance, not afraid to push buttons and antagonize bc that's def who she is....versus Octavia who is still on Clarke's 'side', but much more passively and only bc (right now) she thinks its what Clarke wants.

We will definitely see some shifts in the friends as more unfolds. We've already seen Murphy's impact once he was brought into things.... and Anya can read her best friend like a BOOK and called her out on the rekindled fling... but from a much more cautious and semi-judgmental way. How do we think Octavia or Lincoln would act if they also found out what these two are doing over the summer?

#3 - There was def supposed to be a bit of a Bellarke arc.... nothing major... just exploring a little bit more of Bellamy's unrequitted feelings. Seen in Ch 2 when Clarke texts three ppl after leaving the restaurant... Bellamy was only ever going to be that 'big brother' type of comfort friend where at most when they'd hang out for some venting/deep convos maybe she'd lean against him on the couch to watch a movie.... or little things that always kept them in some quasi-limbo giving Bel hope 'maybe one day'.... which was scrapped bc Luna's character just made more sense to keep as an ongoing presence to serve as a REAL threat... with both halves of CLEXA having a perfectly healthy option avail to them in Costia/Luna...

...but in initial outlines the two of them were gonna get closer as Lexa makes plenty of a mess with all her shenanigans, with Clarke wanting some company besides Raven's intense energy all the time, and Octavia was even going to support it, softly encouraging Clarke to maybe not overlook people who care about her and have always been around where she wasn't even looking.

The Bellamy side-arc was leading up to an IG post from Octavia that she was going to post, a cute *INNOCENT* pic of Clarke and Bellamy with the (T-Swift) caption "Maybe what you've been looking for has been here the whole time" and while nothing was ever ACTUALLY happening romantically between them, seeing it sends Lexa off on another destructive spiral. (Clarke, lost in her own emotions seeing Lexa’s retaliation antics does try to see Bellamy thru that lens, they were going to have ONE KISS before she realizes no this was never gona be anything and re-friendzones him again as a brother-like figure to her)

Wow did not mean to ramble for that long whoops.... but feel free to shoot over any other questions!!

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imagine this as the opening scene of a sapphic rom com set in paris staring alycia debnam carey

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