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January 4th, 2017 | 1:43am

So i'ts early as fuck in the morning. I am officially moved out of my own spot that i was sharing with my good friend ken, and now im living at my dads. Rent was just way too expensive and i have too much on my plate to handle $1200 a month. Thank god my dad was there. If it was for him i would have probably had to move back with my mom and her bf, which wasn’t bad. But was super toxic. Anyways, yeah i missed 2 days of this every day thought journal thing already. Damnit. Haha well lets get back on track and do these every day. I think it’s healthy and will be good to look back and see where i came from.

As i sit here, all i can say is that and keep thinking to myself is that, i’ve taken steps back and now i’m at a point in life where i can look at certain things for what they really are. This years definitely going to be a challenge and i don’t even know where this year will take me.

No laptop and no wifi is a big drawback. Because its important for my business’. At the same time. I know i can make shit work until i have enough to get a new computer. I’m definitely broke right now, but my mindset has not been like this for awhile. Motivated. Hungry. And most importantly i’m constantly analyzing myself and slowly gettibg stricter with money. This week is definitely going to be busy, but this week is still a bullshit, get your shit together type of week. All i hope for is that work is busy. And that i can start paying off some of my debts.

Idk. Where things will go from here on out. But let’s make some shit happen.

No more L’s.

[austinspooner]

January 1st, 2017

So todays the first post of this 365 blog. What can i say about the first day of the year? It started off rocky, but it was a chill day overall. I wanted to go out and celebrate NYE and go crazy, but my funds are definitely on the low side and also i didn't want to do anything i regretted and especially not wake up with a hangover. So it's 2:30am I get a text from the girl i've been lightweight seeing and talking too. Nothing serious at all, but after the 10 calls or so, of her insisting and fighting me to come over, over her choices and unfortunate events i just couldn't help get mad, even angry because i said she couldn't come over since i was really just focusing on working on some thinga and planning for the month. I really needed to focus, but the fact that she couldn't respect me saying no and her being persistent i've decided in my head i would rather have her just as a friend than anything else. It was just too much, especially on the new years and i just wasn't having it. It made me really think twice about dating, time management, and just being careful with my decisions. I slept most of the day (it was just one of those days)'d say until 3:00pm, i got up, i showered, and then i relaxed and tried to practice some cardistry, and then got a call from my roommate Ken, saying he needs the back door open. Him and mike ask for my help and this guy just bought a dope little firepit for the backyard. Ken assembled it, then we had a little backyard kick it. Our friend gabe came over, we chilled a bit more and waited for the fire to settle down. After the fire burnt out, our next destination was, korean bbq. For korean bbq, we decided to head to millbrae. This spot is a classic kbbq spot thats been around for a while. I consider one of the best, mainly because you dont have to eait or order your food. You simply just say you're here for the buffet, you get your coals and grills, then from there on, the world is yours. You have complete freedom of what you eat, all the way from the appetizers to the meat you grill. We ended up overestimating the buffet and just had the hardest time finishing the meat, i could still eat, but the last few bites were the hardest and by the time we left, we just all died from food coma. From there, we headed back to 368(mine but mainly ken's spot, also i'm moving out in 2 days). I got a tinder match on the way home. I got pretty excited, it's not everyday you get a cool match on tinder. When we got back, we just chilled, goofed off as usual, and at the same time I was making small talk with this girl on tinder. It was chill, but just before she unmatched me i told her to just call me and we'll see where it goes from there. Maybe 10 minutes later, i get an unfamiliar area code calling me, i wondered if it was the girl before i answered it. I answered the call. It was her. The call was super spontaneous, but i talked to that girl on the phone for about 2 and a half hours. Tbh, shes super dope and the fact that she speaks her mind and has a lot to say is a big plus in my books. Within that 2 hour phone call, i think shes spoken more words to me then the last 5 girls i've dated. I thinks thats dope. I love that shit. The way she was explaining her life and her morals just got me instantly reeled in and interested. She's got some really dope morals, aspirations, and purpose for life and damn, she can sing yo. It been a while since i actually sparked interested in someone and had some real ass conversation with. All i can say is, we'll see where this goes. I'm definitely down and open minded. Always gotta remind ourselves that life is too short. After the call, i helped ken out with a tiny project he was working on for his. It came out dope and i just did some behind the scenes to document it. And now it's 4:07am as i type this all up, i've decided to do a blog everyday like this to document progress and just have a typed form of my days. I guess you can call this a project, but mainky it's just for personal growth. Maybe i'll start writing that book...hm maybe I have school in exactly, 4 hours and 20 minutes, i have to bus by 6:30am to get my supplies from freshcuts, then after i have to go to school and be there by 8:30am. The question now is, do i stay up or do i sleep? Did i mention my computer's broken? Damn... Well i'll end this here. TBC... -Steez