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this manga panel speaks to my soul

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does anyone else feel weird & not good or is it just me

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does anyone feel the layer of plexiglass between themselves and the rest of the world or is that just a me thing

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teenage me and current me are both depressed directionless girls, the only difference is that current me started appreciating the beauty of the world and realized how good it is to be alive despite it all

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My friend just texted me asking “Are you feeling any better?”

I feel so guilty having to be like “Actually no haha…I’ve been back and forth to hospital appts and I’m seeing more consultants this week…”

Like he’s my friend and he probably genuinely wants to know how I’m doing. But I feel like whenever I’m honest about the state of my life, I’m being a downer. I have to couch it in humour and deflection to make sure people don’t get sick of talking to me. I feel so much shame whenever I actually open up about my health.

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there are some autistic “traits” that people find really annoying but that are inherently kind

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And in these next 50 years you will eat so many delicious meals, laugh so many times with so many people you love, shout and scream and sing and cry and smile so hard your face hurts. And you will see such beautiful sunsets and feel fresh cold air on your face and feel warm and safe wrapped up in your favourite winter coat.

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Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.

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yeah as soon as I wake up no longer fatigued for the first time in my life I'll be set

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the epic highs and tragic lows of literally just being in my head on a perfectly normal day

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i love this tweet very much

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Me: I’m fed up being stuck at home sick. Going to the supermarket will at least get me out of the house and stretch my legs!

Me at the supermarket: