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kill me

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i sound so uninterested in everything and honestly that sucks i wish i wasnt like that

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why do i ruin everything

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why do i feel like this my body feels odd i frel sivck what the fuckk i hate it augh

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and you wonder why i wont tell you things about my life

if you werent like this maybe i would maybe just just maybe because its not for you its not yours

i actually hate you

next time you ask ill make sure you know that until you take your last breath

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threat me all you want, im tired enough for me to care

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what am i doing wrong why wont you tell me

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im sorry hun im not doing good enough in here

shit around here is taking so much of me that i just dont know what to do anymore

but i love you, i always do, i always will no matter what, i always think of you and will be thinking i love you im sorry i make you feel that way i will try to not make you feel like that anymore, i just need to finish the exams and i may be free for just a moment so we can spend more time together ill try my hardest

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i dont talk about how i feel because of this

you always do this

i know you feel bad but do you have to act like this?

no its not all your fault, no you didnt ruin everything

you just made me slightly uncomfortable its literally nothing, its not like i hasnt happened countless times before or just straight up made so much weird shit and yet i didnt say anything because i didnt want to upset you

but i say oke thing you suddenly go "its all my fault i shouldnt be here you shouldnt have met me yadda yadda" like are you even reading your own words do you realize what you are saying at all? do i have to keep being so uncomfortable just for this to work?

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IF I FUCKING ASKED ID APPRECIATE IT!!!! THE FIRST DAMN TIME I ACTUALLY WANT TO DO SOMETHING YOU WANT TO GIVE ME IT BECAUSE OH YOU LOST YOUR TIME DOING IT I DIDNT FUCKING ASK!!!! I DO NOT CARE YOU IDIOT!!!!!! I DIDNT DO IT TODAY BECAUSE IM NOT OBLIGATED TO DO SHIT!!! I DO NOT CARE IF YOU DID IT NOBODY ASKED I DID NOT ASK YOU YOU MADE IT BECAUSE YOU WANTED YOU LOST YOUR TIME BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO SHUT UP

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thanks though, i just wanted someone to talk with

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why would you call with me like this :[ now i just feel even worse

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you expect me to actually not be upset at all with you? thats cute.

you messed up, wont apologize? welp, thats on you, im not going to use and waste my energy to apologize on what you did wrong. im tired of doing that, please grow up, because apparently the years went by and youre still stuck mentally to a spoiled child that doesnt take anything seriously unless you cant have any benefits from it

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I FUCKING WONDNRT WHY MAN I FUCKING WONDER WHY

WRONG??? MY BOY WRONGGGGGGG. GET FUCKED YO ASS BEEN DOIN THIS SHIT FOR YEARS I AM TIRED TO HEAR YOUR VOICE STFU DONT VICTIMIZE YOURSELF WHEN YOU KNOW YOU AINT THE VICTIM OF THE STORY BOY

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quite honestly i wish people just said they didnt want my presence. it would hurt less than just telling me to do something away or straight up going offline/leaving to talk with someone else

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im so stupid i hate this i hate this so much why am i like this why cant i just go back and be a normal person

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im seriously so tired of everything