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Mazeltov, crazy talk Your bright eyes looking into mine A riptide it is not, nor the wind, rain or thunder Not the old tree's roots or a beloved dog laid to rest Or even laughter

Kiss me with abandon Formless as a name that marks a thing it's after but I'm at my christening amongst the spears and domes of truth Laments of forced awakening Here is the be all End all

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Dream from 24/6/25

I was with my ex again, we were in bed together and making out and we had just made each other get off I think, no sex however. His mum had gotten pissed at him, not that I was in their house again but bc he hadn’t told her that we had been seeing each other. I told him that I enjoyed his company like a friend, I think I even said that I love him. Someone messaged him, it came up with a picture of my blue flower pj pants but I hadn’t texted him? We both had other partners, he said he was happy for me and I was smiling thinking of u. I don’t think we had gotten each other off, I think we were just lying there naked as if we had. Someone walked in , like his dad, who stared at my shoulder tattoo and I think he was attracted to me, felt like we were meeting in secret

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I had a dream I wanted king george chips so i sent someone to get them but they were an npc and needed really specific instructions on each part. then when they came back they took their share, which wasnt much, and i took mine. like i had reaped the benefits

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Dream from 19/6/25

I was in dispensary at the sink and Aggy was there and I was talking about GR and how I owe him money and she said did he pay for dinner and Mike was listening and I was like, what no, I just paid for smth bc he went to a1 one time and bought me a pie. I’m not so sure it was an accident, it’s like she wanted to hurt me and I was gonna sweep it under the rug and continue being her friend, act like it’s all normal

This feeling of being at school and One more assignment to do, I couldn’t be bothered

A dream where we went mushroom hunting. I sound saffies, you found a lepista nuda

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Dream from 9/5/25

I was with my ex at his parents house and I wanted to leave, to break up with him but I was putting it off. We clearly didn’t care about each other anymore, I kept hanging out on the side where he wasn’t and kind of hiding. It felt really awkward, like I was staying for no reason and also like hadn’t seen him in awhile. I thought about messaging him to break up

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Dream from 8/6/25

We’re sitting at pancake parlour and it’s really NPC our food is there and it seems like fake food, and I keep thinking this place is not like how it used to be

We’re taking ages to fill some lady’s order like 7 meds and she’s just waiting and then fn comes and starts yelling and it makes me kinda angry, should I say something? I decide against it. It’s got nothing to do with me. But he is nice to me. I walk past him and he says smth idk what. I even hear the lady as she is leaving as we’ve given her her meds now, saying smth about coming back and there is some special order for her and her mum and Aggy is there we bundle it in a plastic bag two of them and I am getting out a piece of paper to write a note

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Dreams from 7/6/25

It felt like I was at home the milkbar house, and I did not want to leave I really did not want to but I was getting shoved out, like my room was not my room anymore my brother had 3 rooms and he wouldn’t give it up and I had to go out and find a new place to stay . Did I push my brother down the stairs and he landed fine?

And I was at work and they were making me go back to Northcote and I really really dit not want to even tho initially I said yes cos I accepted it but Flavia had this look in her face and it was like I was gonna manage but I didn’t what to at all it was like it was all orchestrated by Frank just like how Emil has asked Kate if she wanted to swap it’s like. Had no choice

nightmare and I kept getting really hot and then I heard u say im getting hot

Being pushed out against my will rally really resisting

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Dream from 5/6/25

We were watching a movie and u were sitting next to me like a kid, I was like ur mum and we were thinking about doing mdma and I said no ur too young, maybe when youre 18. I was debating if I wanted to even do it. I knew it would give me energy and make me relaxed but idk.

I’d also given it to someone else before who was too going so what’s the difference ? I traced his lips with me finger

Somethng was gonna happen? Like something bad? But I couldn’t be bothered. I made it go away by not thinking about it anymore

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Dream from 3/6/25

Hello Katherine it’s Katherine do u have my phone? I think it was his ex . I went to some kind of performance and she was there and I had to get my phone off her it felt like it was in her handbag.

There was some shopping place and a kid was there and the parents expected us to give the kid smth for free I looked at the cartoon necklace on display and did not want to part with them

and I scolded the parents saying u shouldn’t be like that we might have given something if u didn’t push for it and I told the kid u should be kind and u should be kind even if u don’t get anything out of it, you have to and I got really teary, almost like I was about to cry, and then we were getting ready to go the event and there was some guy who did end up giving the kid something like an earring and he said I think ppl will be in ur side when we explain it but I said no that’s not true u should have done what u did I just had to say my bit too. And then we were sitting in the audience, the gf was one of the performers. And my legs were on his legs and he pushed them off. And then he has his hand on my thigh and thought Better of it. Took it off. Then the bf did smth and the gf as part of the performance or maybe not, thought it meant he was going to propose and everyone started singing the whole audience and she went up the stairs of a tower building thinking at the top he would be waiting with something special but he got up there and there was nothing it was a false flag it was really anticlimactic

He said if we met up it would be quicker but I was annoyed by it

Some lady at Work kept asking for tomato sauce jars but I didn’t want to hand them all out I felt like I wanted some too. They were made from scratch. I gave her 2 jars and I said there’s no more. She made me show her the third jar which was empty…

I think I was buying shoes. 2 pairs of black shoes and thought they looked old of secondhand has how can 2 different sizes fit me?

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Dream from 2/6/15

There was a movie, we were watching but there were ppl falling asleep everyone was basically asleep

Shannon was there he was talking about a map of the pharmacy and there was a customers name on it and I said I would rather die than have my name mark a place on a map. He shows me an example of like another shop and then one he prepared for ff.

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Dream from 1/6/25

I was walking in the street, I came up to some npc and told her to do what I wanted. A smiled and just controlled her. We stole a bus and I made her drive it. It was the last day of school I got a bus to pick everyone up like going to their houses and ppl just knew to appear and the bus driver just knew where to go. We were just picking ppl up in the general area like a handful. We picked o some man and he didn’t go up he went to the right first seat and played with some cords and I said typical man has to feel like he is doing smth with his hands to feel in control lol, cos a lady was driving the bus.

and I was gonna get changed when I got to school but then my classmates were like get changed now so I went to quiet area of the bus where there was a father and son and I pulled back the curtains and changed but I wasn’t sure what combo to wear I had various singlets and a cardigan I was having trouble pulling them off and trying them on and I asked my classmate which one? She said brown so I went with all brown and then she was reminiscing, it was meg, about all the stuff I’d messaged her making fun of how mysterious I was. I told her I have avoidant attachment style I don’t think she understood what it was but we were laughing. I just knew we had to get to the final say.

I woke up. I messaged gr. I appeared in he city to get coffee and I was trying to Snapchat him. I wanted a fancy coffee even tho my mum was home and would usually make it for me. I couldn’t find a coffee place but there was heaps of dessert places. It was 838 and I was gonna me late for work and late to him, if I didn’t make it back in time

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Dreams from 31/5/25

I was in the shop with Michael and my mum came and started roasting us I was so NPC I went to go face forward stock which he tried to tell me but I couldn’t hear him at first

We were in a circle with a bunch of ppl doing pharmacy role play but I was getting confused when it was my turn because I thought the scenario was about eyes but it was about Phenergan for eczema between the fingers.

I was with Anita, her parents had followed us. We were trying to go out

I was with a bunch of people I wanted to go out I wanted to party all night even though I'm old now

Someone came with a script it was soft like alprax with 50 then 100 tablets and there was no handwriting I told them off I said leave now leave now we’re not dispensing this and mn agreed with me

He was messaging me saying a bunch of stuff telling me the times he woke up in the night like 4 times and other stuff like I'd changed or smth. And also he talked about tears that leaked out of his face, like e was counting the tears, 4 of them? It was going directly into my brain.

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Dream from 29/5/25

My sister was texting me all this stuff like how she doesn’t wanna progress in her life, she was sending so many texts, like about each facet of what was next and how she didn't want to, like I don’t wanna do this or that like really resisting. She was at the shopping centre and I was trying to get to her, to console her. I had to cross a river? There was a plank of wood that I could crawl on to get over but I decided against it, it was scary and flimsy. There was a man there watching me struggling. I texted her saying like you don’t have to go through with it, just forget it. It's your choice.

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Dream from 27/5/25

I had a dream I was at work, I was focusing on something mundane. Like tunnel vision into this one 3d thing that was happening over and over. The lights were off so the shop was dark. I knew that you were there somewhere working the shift too, but I couldn’t see you.. you were at the back of my mind, but I couldn’t get to you. I felt really NPC. Then I saw you leaving, like walking down the aisle with someone else. We looked at each other.

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Dreams from 26/5/25

I was on the train to uni and Luigi was on the train to school and we were flirting a bit and then 2 women came up to him and started like domineering him. And he liked it, it felt like I was just some other woman. One of them was also like yeah u do this to all others, Then we got off the train and parted ways, me to his and he to his and he tried to kiss me goodbye but I avoided it

I was at uni and were about to have a big test one id been putting off for ages or had been coming for ages and it was for chemistry and I hadn’t studied and for some reason I didn’t care too much although I did try to look up my notes a bit some ppl were like wow didn’t u study and I was like who cafes ifs just a hort degree then I was In the classroom and they were reading our names in groups and preparing and I had no idea what was going on I felt I was just gonna wing the exam

My parents were in the street and I walked right past them and then later on they told me off and said that if I had gone inside the house all the family members were there like a gathering and they were all giving gifts but I didn’t care, didn’t want to join

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Dream from 25/5/25

I had an appt to get some filler done but I realised I had already done it so I don’t need to attend anymore. The appt was on a boat and it felt shady. The lady was at a festival in the city and she was messaging me like where am I and I was either gonna ignore her completely or message and say I’m sorry but I’ve changed my mind. Do I go through with it?

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I’ve always known

So know

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Raymond Pettibon