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yeah i’m fat again i’m with 67.5kg (i was at 62 which is almost skinny for my height) so yeah i’m mad

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i’m back again :))))))))))) i started counting calories again, i started weighting myself everyday again, i started faking and making dishes dirty so my parents thing that i ate again i’m so mAD WHY CANT I BE NORMAL???????

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ok so my mom made cookies and I love those things they are 68cals each and I ate three...... that was awful bUT IM STILL AT MY DAILY CALORIE LIMIT SO OK I GOT THIS

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it’s okay if you don’t workout while restricting, i do this too!! working out makes me hungrier and more prone to binge so yeah :D restricting is already good enough for me

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MY SCHOOL POSTED A PICTURE OF ME ON THEIR FUCKING FEED AND I LOOK SO FUCKING FAT AND IVE NEVER BEEN OVERWEIGHT BUT I LOOK SO FUUCKING FAT IN THAT PICTURE IM LITERALLY SHAKING I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH FOR LETTING ME GET OUT OF MY HOUSE LOOKING LIKE THIS

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food log .°(ಗдಗ。)°.

june 8th, 2020

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Breakfast

~ milk with cocoa powder (200mL): 155cal

Lunch

~ my mom made some meat :( I ate apx 85g: 211cal

Snack

~ greek strawberry yoghurt: 152 cal

Dinner

~ cup noodles but make it fit 👁👄👁: 212cal

Total: 730cal

Notes: it’s getting kind of hard, i’m in my 2nd/3rd day of restriction since I got back with my bULLSHIT and i’m already a little breathless and light-headed so yeah, hope i maintain this!!! wish me luck :D

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Food is so disgusting wtf

i’m watching mukbangs to suppress my cravings and their hands and faces get so dirty and gross i’m 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢

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two days back to restricting and i already lost 2kg (~4.4lbs) wtf???? im loving this ????? i didn’t even restrict that hard, im eating 800/900 cals everyday and not exercising AT ALL wtf not complaining tho 😳😳😳😳

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i always use my height as an excuse to not being skinny but she’s the same height as me and she has the body i want to have so no excuses !!!! i will have her body

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i’m starting to replace candies in general with yogurt and a spoon of honey and it’s helping a lot!!!

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i be like “i’m anorexic” and then eat normally for 3 weeks

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it’s pretty hard to fast during quarantine :/ i live in a pretty small house and my mom works with food, my dad doesnt care when i say i’m not hungry but my mom does. and i can’t purge because she’s always here. so yeah i will just eat as little as possible and hope for the best :((

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i hate that my weight goes 📉📉📉📉📈📈📈📈📈 i have no self control and i hate myself for that

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The cycle of binge starve is boring i wanna be normal 😭

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i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food i hate food

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