awanderingtortoise

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everyone's secret pinterest boards and private spotify playlists and deleted posts and dms and browser history and location and birth certificate and the inside of their house should be available to me for free whenever i want. i'm not going to do anything malicious with the information i just want to see

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👍🍾🇵🇭🏊‍♀️💞

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Are you single?

do these look like the posting habits of someone experiencing romance

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We Have Not Long To Love, Tennessee Williams

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we're all survivors now, living and dying - isn't it all the same?

or; 3 times Nikolai saw Zoya cry, and 1 time she did.

MY NEW (if new meant 'wrote and edited it three years ago and managed to put off posting it through the force of sheer will and immense procrastination') ONESHOT

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can't believe i managed to avoid captain america: winter soldier for a decade only to get buckypilled in the year 2025

(click for hi res!)

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We Have Not Long To Love, Tennessee Williams

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i don’t think people understand how much of life is grief. not just people dying, but losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become. grieving the city you had to leave. the friends you lost not in argument, but in silence. the summer that will never come back. the feeling that maybe you peaked at 12 when you were reading books under the covers and believing in forever

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somebody come get him he’s seducing the orchestras and entering a rivals to lovers arc

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when talking about zoya and nikolai it's hard to tell who fell first or who fell harder. their romance was a love built slowly over years of shared burdens and understanding. they offered loyalty to each other before they realized it had already become love and what makes their relationship so special to me is that it grew in the quiet. for three years, they stood side by side not as lovers but as leaders and friends and somewhere along the way, love began to take root.

zoya who believed she was made to be a weapon and was not meant for something like love found in nikolai someone who saw her and never flinched. nikolai who carried the weight of a nation and a demon inside him found in zoya someone who didnt just try to fix him but stood with him.

its like their romance came naturally as breathing and in the end that's what makes it so perfect to me.

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one of the instagram comments was like “if I were Nikolai seeing that ass in those pants every day I’d be moving so fast” and it’s been living in my head rent free. Nikolai’s version of carrot on a stick but it’s just Zoya on her horse in front of him yes absolutely

Morning Doodle: “Though he and Zoya took pains to hide the urgency of their mission, they rode hard each day and never spent more than a single night in any location.”(Leigh Bardugo's King of Scars CH 11)

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Homecoming, Tathev Simonyan

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Morning Doodle: Keeping Secrets and Hiding Schemes

Artist Notes: Back to Regularly Scheduled Weekly Friday Brainrot!

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zoyalai being my instant favorite ship after reading the kos duology they are just perfect and makes so much sense to me. the slow(est) burn, the mutual respect, the aching restraint, and the way their care and love for each other grow quietly in the middle of chaos. absolutely perfect.

"her romance with nikolai would never be bouquets of flowers and pretty declarations of love. it lived in the quiet they'd found in each other, in the hours of peace they were stringing together one by one."

theirs isnt just a romance, it's a story of survival and of learning how to let someone in after being hardened by war and everything they've been through. two people who carried the weight of duty and war, learning to carry each other too. i love them.

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grishaverse coffee shop + social media au

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