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Runaway.

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King in Yellow

Just a guy with a dagger and an entity in his head vs an eldritch god. Who will win?

I’ve been binging Malevolent podcast, this is inspired by episode 20

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I know people on tumblr looove stories of underwater cave diving, but I haven't seen anyone talk about nitrogen narcosis aka "raptures of the deep"

basically when you want to get your advanced scuba certification (allowing you to go more than 60 feet deep) you have to undergo a very specific test: your instructor takes you down past the 60+ foot threshold, and she brings a little underwater white board with her.

she writes a very basic math problem on that board. 6 + 15. she shows it to you, and you have to solve it.

if you can solve it, you're good. that is the hardest part of the test.

because here's what happens: there is a subset of people, and we have no real idea why this happens only to them, who lose their minds at depth. they're not dying, they're not running out of oxygen, they just completely lose their sense of identity when deep in the sea.

a woman on a dive my instructor led once vanished during the course of the excursion. they were diving near this dropoff point, beyond which the depth exceeded 60 feet and he'd told them not to go down that way. the instructor made his way over to look for her and found a guy sitting at the edge of the dropoff (an underwater cliff situation) just staring down into the dark. the guy is okay, but he's at the threshold, spacing out, and mentally difficult to reach. they try to communicate, and finally the guy just points down into the dark, knowing he can't go down there, but he saw the woman go.

instructor is deep water certified and he goes down. he shines his light into the dark, down onto the seafloor which is at 90 feet below the surface. he sees the woman, her arms locked to her sides, moving like a fish, swimming furiously in circles in the pitch black.

she is hard to catch but he stops her and checks her remaining oxygen: she is almost out, on account of swimming a marathon for absolutely no reason. he is able to drag her back up, get her to a stable depth to decompress, and bring her to the surface safely.

when their masks are off and he finally asks her what happened, and why was she swimming like that, she says she fully, 100% believed she was a mermaid, had always been a mermaid, and something was hunting her in the dark 👍

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figuring out a different cloak for this guy <3

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Shadows and light ~

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Storm hits the Ricasoli Breakwater Lighthouse in Valletta, Malta. 24 February, 2019, by Kurt Arrigo

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in the library. straight up "jergen it". and by "it", haha, well. let's justr say. My leitner

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anyone here fw malevolent the podcast?

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*noel voice* MA ITS THAT WEIRD FUCKEN CAT AGAIN

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i wasn't "struck" by lightning okay she touched me as gently as a lover. my heart stopped because i was so overcome with adoration. god. you really dont know anything.

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designs for the fiction podcast "Malevolent"

it's a weekly serial about a man who was blinded by a mysterious cursed book and eldrich being inside of it now attached to his soul must see on his behalf. In practice it means he describes everything to the man, named Arthur, which is a really clever mechanic for a podcast. The writing is so good.

in the podcast neither Arthur nor his scary friend are described so it's completely up to us- and I tried my best not to see any other fan art ahead of this.

anyway I love them and I'll post more later

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martin, for all his faults, at least knows when he's being self-destructive. he is acutely aware, even. jon, on the other hand, will look directly at daisy and say "it's all very rational, my back up plan for if I couldn't get you out of the coffin was that it would just kill me and if that didn't happen I was hoping that you'd just kill me."

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some tma things i’ve been able to do recently! i missed drawing them….

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my dead goth son and his friendly neighborhood personified concept of insanity

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Studio Ghibli Malevolent