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[hands you these] part 102

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I think one of my all time favorite parts of the aftg trilogy is in tkm where Neil is fully convinced he’s living the last few hours of his life so he says goodbye to Neil Josten and everything that name meant and immediately his internal dialogue flipped to referring to himself as Nathaniel.

His life as Neil was everything to him. It was the first time he’d had a genuine life to live in years and he gave that part of himself his own personal funeral so it couldn’t be something taken away from him by his father. His father could kill Nathaniel, but he’d never let him kill Neil.

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you act different now, but i still can’t help but love you. even though you’re not the same you were before, i still can’t see myself with anyone except you. even though i may find others physically attractive, i can’t see them the way that i see you. i may consider them attractive, but i’m not attracted to them the way i am to you. my heart doesn’t leap at the sight of them or at the sound of their voice like it does with you. they’re pretty, sure, but they don’t make me feel grateful to be alive at the same time as them the way you do. despite not even being yours officially, my heart already is. my heart and my eyes are loyal to you and you alone. and right now, i don’t know if i love or hate the fact. i don’t even know if you still feel the same way. but i still love you nonetheless—always.

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GIVE IT TO ME RACHEL

GIVE IT TO MEEEEE

MY COUNCILOR VIKTOR's OFFICIAL DESIGN

THE OFFICIAL DESIGN IS HEEEEREEEE!!! 🔥 I redesigned the spine so it makes sense now and you could actually build it irl! It's inspired by teeth braces, the elastic strings keep the back straight! Of course it's still made of gold and rubies! Also, chapter 3 and 4 of the fanfiction To Fall from Grace, based on this and written by @kantou_qed, are out!!! As always, please let us know what you think! I'll post new content dedicated to the last chapter soon!

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the Jayce struggle..

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VIBE CHECK! *yearns deeply for you from an unfortunate distance*

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(shaking my 14-year-old self) I was so mean to you but I love you, I love you, love you

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Morgan Nikola-Wren

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AI defenders will make it seem as if art is this gatekept pastime that only the most elite can partake in and they’re making it possible for the “normies” to create meanwhile one of the most memorable pieces of recent art I’ve ever seen is “My son’s drawing of safe”

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I’m not exaggerating when I say this post changed my life. Seeing this as a terrified self hating 17 year old was like finding a fresh water lake in the middle of the Sahara.

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this almost made me cry oh my god

being an older sibling is like. you've never known a life without me. mom yelled at me and it taught her she never wanted to yell at you. I painted my room purple and grey and then you did too. we live in the same house but I haven't spoken to you in months. I don't know your favorite color. I saw it was going to rain so I picked you up from school on my way home so your books wouldn't get wet. i was so worried when you woke up sick when you were three. you don't remember being sick. mom and dad made their worst mistakes with me and I'm glad they didn't make them with you. I'm doing everything for the first time so you won't be in the dark. I don't know any of your friend's names anymore. I used to know them all. if something happens to mom and dad you won't have to worry because everything will fall to me. you don't like to be home alone but even if you don't see me just knowing I'm there makes you feel better. at least that's what mom told me. you still give me jars to open for you because you can't quite get them. I only see you during dinner. i'd never even think about missing one of your concerts. I stand at the counter when I eat and now you do, too. when offered a selection of books you picked the same one I did when i was your age. I'm terrified you compare yourself to me. I love you. I don't know if you like me. I want you to. mom says dinner's ready

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no no no. shh and listen. lesbians and bisexuals are friends. bisexual and pan people are friends. gay and ace people are friends. trans binary and nonbinary people are friends. you’re wrong, we’re all friends, shut up

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I needed this drag. Let’s change guys and not look back

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field trip 😼😼

fucking love when I'm on a call with someone and they start to do a little errand or go somewhere else and they say "and you're coming with me" like. absolutely I am let's go on an adventure I've been spirited away

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MY SHAYLAAAAAAS

jayvik piece i made for valentines 💗 happy valentine’s day !