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True enough, I dreamt of you that night. I dreamt that you gave me one more chance and we got back tgt hahhaa. How I wish I never woke up from that dream...

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01/10/17 Sooo we took this really cute pic exactly a year ago HAHAHA. You told me that I love the memories we had but I don’t think that it’s true bc I really love you as a person and not just all the good memories we had. I also don’t agree when you said that we were just young and foolish because up till now I never thought that it was a mistake loving you despite how painful and upsetting things can get. My love for you will remain forever and always. We met last sat and you told me that you 领悟了很多东西， I guess I should be happy for you because you’re getting happier and I hope that you’ll continue being happy. As for me, 我领悟到了我有多么爱你。虽然我们分开了那么久，我对你的爱绝对不比第一天爱你少。也许你已经不爱我了，也许我们永远都不可能在一起。世界上有那么多的也许，但是我有一个很确定事，那就是我永远都会爱你。 🐠💕🐷

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01/09/17 You made this video for our 2th monthsary one year ago and time really flies hahaha. It'd been almost half a year since we parted but my love for you never changed. Idk if you still love me but it is okay because I love you forever and always and against all odds! Hope you're doing and coping well in everything. Stay happy 🐠💕🐷

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01/08/17 Time really flies. We turned from strangers to online friend to a couple and now back to nothing. Honestly, I would always want you because I just feel so right when I'm with you and that feeling will never change. I just hope that you'll be happy from now onwards even though I may not be the one making you happy. Phish phish lub phig phig forever and always and against all odds 🐠💕🐷

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31/7/17 0025 想你的夜，多希望你能在我身边。I can't sleep now maybe because I'm too busy thinking and missing you. Anyway, I'm really sad because you are currently interested in someone which I didn't expect it to happen because I wouldn't be. But it's okay as long as you're happy and that guy can bring you happiness. I guess i should be happy as well because you're finally free and you can finally be happy without fearing that I'd be unhappy. I just hope that the people u love and care about will treat you well and make you happy. As for me, I don't think I'd want to get into a r/s or find someone anytime soon because I still love and want you back. Anyway it doesnt matter lel. Please stay safe and hydrate!!

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1 year ago, I celebrated this day with you and it was the happiest day of my life. Even though you're no longer here, nothing will replace you in my heart. I cried when i got home because i thought of you and I will always think about you. I cried that day too for the first time since i entered army because i missed you but you don't seem to care when i video called you. But i guess you're moving on well, I'm glad that you're happier without me. Nevertheless, I love you forever and always and against all odds 🐠❤️🐷

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1/7/17 I really want you so badly but I know that I'll never have you back sigh. If you think I'm blocking you because I've found someone or because i want to move on then you're wrong. I did it because it just sucks missing you and then seeing you online but you're not replying me. It really hurts me everyday knowing that I can't be with you anymore. I know it'd be very selfish of me but i really hope that you won't find someone else LOL, but who am i to ask for that? I really really really really miss and love you... No one can ever replace you in my life and if I can't love you then i won't love anyone else... I hope that we'll be ok one day. I hope that you'll email me suddenly one day and tell me "lets meet phishphish", even though it might never happen. I want you forever, and only you.

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Hi, it'd be our 11th month together if we were still together haha. I wish nothing but the best for you. I hope you'll be happy and safe and healthy all the time. I love you forever and always and against all odds 🐠💕🐷

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01/05/2017 11.11 I love you forever and always and against all odds🐠❤️🐷 It’s our 10th month together and honestly I’ve never regretted anything except for hurting you and always finding fault in our relationship. I guess at this moment, it doesn’t matter whether we’re together or can be together anymore. I really just want you to be happy and i guess i won’t be that source of happiness but i will always love you and my heart will always belong to you. I would like to use this chance to apologise for all my mistakes and all the things I’ve done intentionally or unintentionally to hurt you. I’m sorry for breaking your heart, sorry for hurting you emotionally, sorry for making you lose hope in life, in people and in everything. I’m so sorry for everything phigphig. I guess I’m just not a good guy or a good person. All i ever did was hurting you all the time. Thanks for trying your best to be the best for me, thanks for trying your best to change just to be someone i want you to be. Sorry for trying to make you someone who i want you to be. Sorry for trying to make you lose everything. Sorry for being selfish and not sparing a thought for you. Sorry for everything… You’ve been the best gf i can ever ask for and i wouldn’t want anyone else but i guess i ruined everything. Honestly, you did nothing wrong in this relationship. You were just being yourself, you were just being what a normal girl would do in a normal relationship. It’s all my fault for making this relationship seem so hard and unbearable. It’s all my fault for making you give up so much for this relationship. Please do not ever think that you did anything wrong in this relationship. The only thing you did wrongly is accepting a jerk into your life. I really love you up till today and I will love you forever. Distance really makes the heart fonder and time will really tell everything. Sorry and thank you for everything peiyin. I hope that you’ll be happy everyday with or without me. 我永远都爱着你 🐠💕🐷

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I really miss and love you a lot. Idk if you'll read this but i hope you won't because it'd mean that I'm going to hurt you another time and probably the last time. But I still feel that I should say this because I need to you know something. Yes, I've hurt you countless of times. Firstly, by raking up your past all the time and making you feel worthless and unworthy of anything. Secondly, by restricting you or making you afraid of texting or hanging out with your friends because I don't have. Thirdly, meeting Jinting and crystabelle. I know all of it holds a big part in your trauma and heartpain and I know that what's healed will always be broken. You may not be able to accept me after everything and I have nothing to say because I wouldn't even accept or love myself, so who am i to make you stay? This is why i told you from the start that I'm unworthy of your love. Not because I would cheat on you, but because of my anxious and negative personality. I always knew that I couldn't bring the better out of you. I always knew that I was making you sad and making you an abnormal person, making you stay away from everyone except me. Honestly, i tried to change, I really tried my best but somehow, i really wanted you a lot. As for why I met jinting in the first place, I really talked to her as someone i could tell my r/s problems to. I couldn't tell my friends about it because they'd probably judge me and I can't even tell my parents too. I needed someone to advice or teach me how to change so I could be nicer to you. I kept telling her that I always hurt you bc I was jealous of you but idk what to do. And as for crystabelle, i know that you hated her and i know that I shouldn't go out with her. Then why would i do that when you're unstable? That's a very good question and you'd probably not believe my answer. But this is my truthful answer. I went out with her because I actually pangsehed her 2 years ago when she came to singapore. I went out with her because she had no friends in singapore and i just wanted to accompany her as a tourist. I felt so tired when I met her you know? I didn't have fun when i was meeting her because i was very guilty and I harboured 0 intention when i met her. I had no contact with her at all when we met. I know you'd probably not believe me and you probably won't trust me anymore. But I guess i needed to explain myself not to ask you to come back, but to let you understand the truth. I know that it's probably impossible for us to get back together again, seeing how serious and hurt you are this time. And it really hurts seeing how you blocked me in everything. Anyway whatever I said is true and I don't expect you to forgive me, maybe just forget me. I just want to tell you very truthfully that I really love you a lot and I've never thought of going out and getting another girl because you gave me everything i would ever want and need, that selfless and unconditional love from you. It's okay if you don't believe what I said above but I can say is 我真的没有对不起你 when i met crystabelle. I didn't even text her a single time after we met because i only treated her as a tourist. But it's okay, meeting her was wrong to begin with so I have nothing to say. Anyway, no matter what happens, just promise me that you'll take good care of yourself and be hapPY okay? 👌🏿I don't expect you to forgive me, in fact, I rather you forget me because I'm really unworthy of your love. But if you find yourself wanting or missing me again someday, promise me that you'll text or meet me again okay? I will wait for you. This time I won't meet any girls because there is simply no reason for me to. I will wait for you till you return, and if you don't, it's okay because i deserve it. Thank you so much for loving me so much and loving me above all. Sorry for making you lose faith in everything and hurting you. Please be nice to yourself and be happy from now onwards. I hope that we'll be together one day because i want to have real twins with you!! I love you forever and always and against all odds 我会永远的爱着你，一路上有你，苦一点也愿意 🐠💕🐷

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I'm really v confused and scared and sad rn. What should i do? Are you trying to hint a break up? Or are you trying to spite me bc you're hurt? Or isit just for fun? I really feel so troubled and depressed and idk what to do??? Or are you feeling v miserable so you want to spite me into saying a breakup so i can be better? I really dk.... I really fucking love you so much you know? Even when i can barely survive and do anything, I still long for you and love you so much...

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Guess what i found when i was sorting out my unwanted stuff hahaha. I love you npy!!

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11:11 i love you.

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It's 9am rn and you should be having lessons rn. Jiayou okay baby, you know that i always got your back and we are connected by heart even though we are separated by distance. Sighhh i told myself not to use phone at work but i miss you so much and i'm worried but we will pull through tgt right? Can't wait for the day we meet, meanwhile push on and take care

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555 Aykm ❤️ Npy forever. Sorry this is the last post okay(YOU ARE NAUGHTY IF YOU ARE READING THIS HAHAHA)Ahh it’s 555 but i still not out of my bed i’m gonna be late :( i will tc of myself don’t worry please promise me that you’ll too. When you feel like giving up on studies or life, rmb our happy times. That’s what we live for right? Whenever you think of our sad times, think of our future, know that i’ll always be there. Know that our hearts are connected and i’m always there to support you even though i’m not there physically to support you. When you feel like giving up or feel alone, know that you have good friends and a family that loves you alot. Most importantly, you have me. This is not a promise, this is not a way to redeem my mistakes, this is what i want to do and what i feel, this is my everlasting, unconditional love for you. That is true love like your mum said. Trust me npy, i won’t find girls or meet them during this period bc all i have in my mind is you. Take care alright? We’ll definitely be tgt again bc we are meant to be. Lets turn our longing for each other as a positive energy and lets work hard till the day we meet. I’ll wait for you, i love you so much.

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Best meal ever. Thanks aiai mummy and thanks aiai for believing in me. Take care when i’m not around. Pen down your feelings if you need to. I will not text or meet any girls when you’re not around. I love you forever❤️I will continue posting stuff but on a private account hehe. When we meet then we exchange how we feel okay? Take good care of yourself, please drink more water and don't be clumsy and watch out for your steps not people.

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6pm you still not replying me sigh. You must be in so much pain rn cos you want to but you cant. It's okay baby, i'll wait patiently okay? I love you, dont be sad.