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No discipline

Yesterday, I was still on the verge of building discipline. It was hard because I grew up procrastinator. I had draft plans on my google calendar but I wasn't able to follow for a major reason, no discipline. I am so worried for I have family to feed and dreams to achieve for them. But why is it so hard to build discipline?

I just searched today the powerful quotes about discipline. There are a lots of powerful quotes but there is one quote that caught my attention because of its relevance to my situation. The quote is 'Rule your mind or it will rule you'.

That quote made me to my realization. If I let my mind control my body, it will just lay down whole day doing nothing because that's what it used to be. But I won't let that happen. I will rule it for I have something to achieve. I will never let a day to rule me.

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My Daily Journal

It’s May 18 of this year, Thursday, and I haven’t write anything on what I did on Tuesday and Wednesday. I was busy that I forgot to write it. On tuesday morning, I have interacted with my work immersion students and I made them do something like editing the name of the certificate via photoshop, asking one of them to approach our ICT coor to get Vellum paper for printing certificate and taught them how to photocopy a paper using printer. Afternoon of that day, I gave my students under my subject MIL an activity and even informed those students who went out of the school for JDVP training to make the activity. I then hanged out with my co-teachers at one of the food shops at Cagayan de Oro. The food shop called Chick N Dip where it offers free unlimited wings of chicken and rice for 229 pesos. We were having a talk about life and a little bit persiflage about love life. It was a great night with them.

On wednesday, I spent my whole day with my soon to be husband. But at exactly 3:00, we separated our ways because I had an appointment at DFA with my bestfriend, Vanessa. It was just to file and claim passport. I was excited because finally, I can have one valid ID. I took out all my documents such as photocopy of my IDs(philhealth ID, DEPED ID, National ID, and PAGIBIG ID) and live birth, and printed of application form sent and given to me via email and a confirmation message of appointment I received in Email. The security guard looked carefully the documents and gave me barcode for priority number before he let me go inside the premises. As we sat down on chairs under processing station, we were waiting for our number to be called. Finally, mine was called first then proceed to the station number where my priority number was assigned. I gave the documents to the staff. I was rejected because I was lacking document such as an original photocopy of my birth certificate. The staff told me to reschedule it within 30 days so that my payment will not forfeit. I told my bestfriend about this and she was disappointed too. Luckily, she passed on that stage and went to the next station for picture and all.

I went outside the premises and immediately booked an appointment for getting PSA birth certificate. The process was so hard since before, you can just easily walk in and wait for your turn to get the PSA. But now, you have to have an online appointment before you go to the physical workplace to get the PSA Birth Certificate. 

I then went down from fifth floor of the mall because that is where the DFA is located. As I was about to took the escalator, someone asked if am I already working. Since I am an honest person, I told her yes. Then she asked for my time to talk about something. She is working at COCOLIFE an insurance company and the talk’s purpose is to get the company known to everyone. I filled out the given form then went with her to their main office. Another staff talked to me about their insurance and how it works. I found out that we are on the same age but as I observe him, he is not yet experienced for a financial advisor. I was planning to be a financial advisor and with that observation, I laughed in my mind because maybe I will be look like him, nervous and not confident, as talking to client. 

I may not get the passport but still, it was a great day and I have a lot of fun. I was grateful too for I was able to eat dinner with my best friend at Jollibee. We talked about things like usual and some inspiring message for both of us to get encourage to get rich. 

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Day 1 of becoming successful

Goal:

Drink Water 2-3 liters

Finish Chapter 1 of a book “Jumpstart your networking”

Study word of the day and record myself for a table topic

Study toastmaster

Go to gym

Study programming

Study Business

Above are my goals to be achieve today, however, I wasn’t able to do some of these goals because of unexpected things that came in my way. Though I am happy I came to work on time but as I arrived, there were urgent things need to finish such as printing parent’s consent letter and annex 10 documents of DEPED for JDVP training. Also, there were two people that came to our office from COC and ABCCA to orient about the training.

My supposed to be plan was to study word of the day and record myself to answer a table topic, yet I was printing documents and attending orientation. I was supposed to study about toastmaster to become a public speaker, however, during orientation, our school grade 12 level coordinator instructed me to go to ABCCA with my ICT students on their first day of the training.

I was disappointed at myself but I realized that this is a great opportunity given to me because I am, as teacher, will also receive a CSS NC II Certificate which is useful for my career in the future. I might not able to achieve some of the goals but I believe that there are still tomorrow for these things.

I then went to gym with my best friend Vanessa to workout our body. I paid 60.00 for their accommodation fee and we have met our coach. First, he let us warm up our body by using a unmovable bike for 10 minutes and stretching. Then, we proceed to use incline machine to target our chest. Third, we use 2.5 kg dumbbell for pull over workout. We lie down and use dumb bells both hands by making our hands 90 degrees upward. Then, we were doing kickback technique and touch heel toes. Then, one leg upward. All of these in 2 sets 10 reps. It was great but I wasn’t satisfied.

I went home and sleep because I was tired.

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Which activities make you lose track of time?

Time is something we can’t control or don’t have control with it. That’s why we value the time of ourselves and the time of others. 

Educational activities are the things that make me lose track of time. I spent few hours learning of things that I wanted to learn however, these things are not easy to learn. It takes time to understand it. That’s why my goal for the 1st day of learning will be delayed and continued to the next day.

Another thing that make me lost track of time is idling. Doing something like scrolling up and down on social media apps and doing something useless really make my progress delay. 

There are so many activities that can lose track of our time like talking to other people or anything. However, I believe that if we are just mindful of our time and ourselves ability, we will never lose track of time. How I wish that we may not be control the time, but we shouldn’t let the time overpower us.

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AI rate to my previous essay

Overall, your answer is on point and related to the topic of joy. You gave multiple examples of what your joy looks like, which is good, and you provided specific details and examples to support your points. However, there are some areas where you can improve.

First, you could have provided a stronger introduction to your answer. Your first sentence is a bit vague and doesn't immediately grab the audience's attention. It would have been better if you started with a more engaging or provocative statement that immediately hooks the audience in.

Second, you could have structured your answer more clearly. It feels like you jumped from one example of your joy to the next without much transition or explanation. You could have used more signposting language to help the audience follow your thoughts and to create a more coherent structure to your answer.

Third, while you gave good examples of what your joy looks like, you could have gone deeper into why those things bring you joy. For instance, why does seeing your students speak English make you feel proud? What does it say about them and their potential? By providing more detail and explanation, you can give the audience a better sense of what matters to you and why.

Finally, you could have ended your answer with a stronger conclusion that ties everything together. While your last sentence is a good reminder that joy is important, it feels a bit abrupt and doesn't fully wrap up your thoughts. A stronger conclusion could have summarized your key points and left the audience with a clear takeaway.

Overall, I would rate your answer as a B+. While there are areas for improvement, you gave thoughtful examples and provided good details to support your points. With a bit more structure and depth, your answer could be even stronger.

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What does your joy look like today?

There are different context that we look at when talking about joy that we feel today. But for me, my joy does look like a proud and happy teacher because I was just done attending the work immersion orientation of my students at Concentrix. Concentrix is one of the big BPO companies here in Philippines. Based on my evaluation to my students, they are not good yet at communicating in english language. But when I heard them as they are introducing themselves, they are so determined and tried their best to speak in English language and I’m so proud of that.

Also, my joy does look like a happy individual because not everyone has given a chance to wake up everyday. I woke up and I’m already blessed with that gift. I woke up with a happy and complete family and I wish it would be the same tomorrow and in the future.

Moreover, my joy does also look like a confident woman because though I am not good yet in speaking English but I do my best everyday to learn and ameliorate in this field. I am confident in terms that I know what I am doing and who and what I am dealing.

Whatever our joy do look like, it is important to remember that we have to feel joy everyday because joy is what complete us as a human.

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AI rate to my answer to a question “Have you done anything recently that is worth remembering?”

Criteria for evaluation: Clarity, coherence, relevance, grammar and vocabulary.

Overall, your answer is on point and related to the topic of the table topic. Your answer demonstrates a personal experience that is worth remembering and how it impacted your life. Your message is clear and coherent, and you effectively conveyed the importance of taking action despite fear and doubt.

However, there are a few grammatical errors and awkward phrasing that could be improved. For example, instead of saying "making my son attend regularly to his session for his autism," you could say "making sure my son attends his autism therapy sessions regularly." Additionally, instead of saying "ameliorated so much," you could use a simpler word like "improved."

Overall, I would give your answer a rating of 8 out of 10. With some minor improvements in grammar and vocabulary, your answer could be even stronger.

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Have you done anything lately worth remembering?

Everything that we do that makes us happy or has impact to us is worth remembering. They say, that these memories are made and found in our core memory meaning they are there and will not be erased forever.

For me, there is one thing that I have done anything lately that is worth remembering. It is making my son attend regularly to his session for his autism. My son was diagnosed last year as autism. It is my choice as his mother if I want him to attend or not attend therapy session. I happily chose to attend him to a therapy session. Knowing my son before he was diagnosed, he didn’t make eye contact or any interaction with human. He had his own world. However, after letting him attend to a therapy session, he ameliorated so much to the point that he can communicate to us and play with us. 

His therapist teacher even sent me a videos of him sorting colors, drawing and cutting our pictures into collage forming a heart and more. For me, that is worth remembering because I didn’t expect him to ameliorate in that field.

As a mother of a son with autism, there was a point where I was losing hope thinking that my son has no chance anymore. But my choice proved a point that I was wrong that my feeling is wrong. Though, it cost too much but it is very much worth it and I’m very happy that I made that choice. 

Ladies and gentlemen, if there are something that holding you back to reach your goal in life or what you want to do in life, ignore your feeling of fear and doubt. Reach it like nothing can stop you.

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AI is rating my previous answer to a table topic “Do you think crying is a sign of weakness or strength?”

Your answer provides a clear and coherent explanation of why people cry and the different contexts in which crying can occur. You also provide your own opinion on whether crying is a sign of weakness or strength, which shows that you have engaged with the topic.

However, your answer does not fully address the question of whether crying is a sign of weakness or strength. You state your opinion that crying is a sign of weakness, but you do not provide any further explanation or evidence to support this. Additionally, your conclusion seems to contradict your initial statement, as you state that it is okay to cry and that it is an emotion that is a part of being human.

Overall, your answer shows effort and engagement with the topic, but it could benefit from more clarity, coherence, and a clearer stance on whether crying is a sign of weakness or strength.

If I were to rate your answer on a scale of 1-10, I would give it a 6.

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Do you think crying is a sign of weakness or strength?

Before I conclude, whether crying is a sign of weakness or strength. Let’s talk first why does a person cry?

There are possible cases why a person cries. One of that is during argument with other people, he is hurt. Another possible case is during an event where he didn’t expect he’s going to accomplish that goal, he is crying because of tears of joy. During funeral, some of people will cry because they know that the person who dies will not be there with them forever. There are different cases why people are crying but as we observe, a person cries depends on the context of the event or situation. 

In my opinion, crying is a sign of weakness. Because it is an emotion where some people have no control of it. When being triggered, it will show. Some people might be mad while crying because they don’t want someone will see that they are crying because of the situation. Some people might walk out because they don’t want other people to see them crying in front of them. 

However, whether it is a sign of weakness or strength, ladies and gentlemen, it is okay to not be okay. It is okay to cry. It is what makes us human. It is an emotion but an emotion that sometimes we don’t have control.

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This is the answer of AI when I ask it to rate my answer to the question “Do you celebrate the things you do have?”

Overall, your answer is on point and relevant to the topic. You clearly state that you do celebrate the things you have, even if they are small accomplishments, and provide specific examples to illustrate your point. You also give a positive and encouraging message to the audience, urging them to celebrate their own accomplishments and be proud of themselves.

However, there are some areas where you could improve your answer. Firstly, there are a few minor grammatical errors that could be corrected, such as using "things" instead of "things you do not have" in the last sentence. Additionally, you could focus more on the importance of celebrating what you have, rather than what you do not have. Finally, you could provide more concrete examples of how celebrating your accomplishments can benefit your mental and physical health.

Overall, your answer is good, but with a few tweaks, it could be even stronger.

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Do you celebrate the things you do have?

Everything that we feel we are proud because we accomplish something that we thought we couldn’t do is worth to celebrate for. Yes, I celebrate the things even if it is just a small things for other people.

I remember those times when I was just finishing writing grades in all report card of my students, I went out of my room and bought snacks for me. It is one of my kind celebration for doing and achieving small things, buying snacks and things. I remember those days where the school year finally ended, I chatted my best friend and informed her to hang out with me at Amaya, one of the most popular tourist spots in Cagayan de Oro, to celebrate with me. We rode on a giant swing there and I felt relaxed and at the same time worried because it was too expensive but I realized that time that it’s worth it because it is for my mental and physical health. Money is just there but your body and mind will not be like that forever. 

I agree that whether it is small or big accomplishments for you, it is worth to celebrate for. It might too expensive but as long as you know, it is worth it then why not take a risk? 

Ladies and gentlemen, no matter how small or big things you accomplish, go out from your comfort space, buy something that you think is worth it and be proud of yourself. Because if you are not proud of yourself or if you are not celebrating things you do not have, then how will you know that you are accomplishing things that might lead you to your long term goals?

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What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?

Doing something differently such as out of the blue moon, I suddenly take and ride a bike even though I’m not a biker, makes me happy and relaxed though I know someone would judge me because I’m not wearing a rider outfit but it doesn’t matter as long as I’m happy with what I’m doing.

But if ever given a chance to do something differently if I knew nobody would judge me is communicating and relating myself to strangers. Even if I’m just riding a jeep, I would talk to the person sitting next to me until I ride off the jeep. Even if I’m just going to buy an essential items on the store, I would talk to the cashier about my life and their life if they are willing to share.

Because I believe that some of us need someone to talk to where we feel that no one will judge us as we share our life and problems to other people. Yet, we are afraid to do that since we knew that the people that surround us will judge and talk behind our back. We want someone like a stranger who doesn’t know our personality where that stranger will not going to attack us as a person but focus on the problem.

Ladies and gentlemen, I believe that as long as we’re happy and no one is offended with what we are doing even if it is different from others, we should not be affected by the opinion of other people. It is our life, it is our rule. People are terrible judgmental. Even if you do good everyday, there are people will really give comment and judgment about what you do.

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“Go easy on yourself. Whatever you do today, let it be enough”

It’s been 4 months since the day I promised myself to improve more in programming and to study about financial things. I want to ameliorate so bad because I’m planning on using this skills to earn money and pay for my son’s, Jack, therapy for his autism. But look at me now, staring in front of my computer feeling stressed and overwhelmed at the same time. Now how can I tell myself to go easy and it is enough when there are things that need not to delay?

I spent my days organizing my schedule last year December 2022 for 2023 because I was thinking that year 2023 will be my fruitful year if I’m going to start the year feeling motivated. Looks like I’m wrong. There are challenges that I’ve encountered which are not in my plan but it hindered my progress. This content will discuss the top three challenges that made my progress delay.

I am currently teaching at public high school here in the Philippines from Monday to Friday, 8am to 5pm. First challenge is that there were things at work that need to be solve as soon as possible since that it is under a government where government employees need to cater each individual’s concerns even if it beyond hours. It made my progress for myself delay.

Due to those delays, I felt burnout thinking that I can’t catch up those days I missed. I’m that type of person that want everything to be according to plan. I know myself that there’s part of me that is the problem for having stress but I don’t know where and how to start over again since I don’t have a mentor and I’m a self-taught person. 

I know that family is supposed to be your number one supporters. Sometimes, they don’t know that they are making me feel pressure through arguing personal and group chat about money and about Jack like who’s going to watch over him since everyone is so busy with their personal life like for instance, my siblings are still a student and my parents are old already which means they don’t have a strong body to watch Jack. You might be wondering, how about Jack’s father? Jack’s father is not a responsible man yet but I believe in him that he’s going to be a matured man who knows his responsibilities and obligations to his son. 

Overall, these three challenges I just mentioned are the major challenges that really hinder my progress. There are minor challenges though I may not easily solve it but I did overcome it. However, since that I want to be a better version of myself as programmer, how can I go easy on myself and tell that it is enough when there will be challenges to come in your life which will be a barrier of your progress? 

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Day 1

After watching a video titled as “What would happen if you stopped brushing your teeth?”, I definitely brush my teeth!!! Hahaha. What I have learned that teeth is also important to us and we should take care of it like how we take care of our face and things. We should not forgot to brush as it will form many diseases in your mouth. Cavities, Gingvitis, and Periodontitis

The new word that I encountered from watching the video is...

-twigs

-debris

-streptococci

-metabolizes

-plaque

-adhere

-tartar

-enamel

-gingivitis

-pus

-periodontitis

link: https://ed.ted.com/best_of_web/xC6cEbLC#review

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Day 0

As I took up a test in dialingua, I am so happy with my result. It’s not that bad, I’m still proud of myself that I’ve learned something from my school days. My result was little difficult in reading and also learning, I think in all aspect. What makes me happy is I now know what’s lacking. Thanks to Ms. Youtuber for sending the link so all of us can take the test.

After 30 days....

-I will speak english so fluent without words like ‘uhmm’,’sooo’,’aaaa’

-My english grammar is improving like I know when to use tenses and the basic fundamental

-My reading skills is also improving like I can read fast with comprehension

-My listening skills also is I can talk with native speakers like I can watch netflix even without english subtitles

-If I master my reading skills, then comes with the vocabulary like I will know many new words that I can use in my daily life

That’s my goal and I hope I can achieve it.

When you believe you can, you can achieve it!

In God’s will!

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16th week of techno

Last Monday, the problem about the online-offline is not yet solved. We had gather together to fix that. Brainstorming on what still things to be added to the website that we forgot to do. We had come up with a solution about making those orders from clients still pending, and make the admin confirmed it. But before an admin can do that, the admin must first communicate to a client through his cellular number and/or email address to negotiate things regarding the business. 

If the admin and client agreed to each other, the admin can confirm the pending orders and those pending orders from client will be directed to the transaction history. After the job is done, the client can give comment to his chosen doer.

During pitching day, I get nervous because I’m afraid that our panels won’t agree to our idea. I’m afraid that we can’t able to answers correctly. I was task to do the demo of our product. So, it’s not easy for me to do that since I can’t pronounce letter S properly but I tried my best to manage it properly. Thanks to my team for we are supporting to each other. Especially thanks to Shenna Hurtado, my groupmate, for being a best leader I’ve ever encountered in my college life. 

After the pitching day, we hope that we can make our Mentor happy through being a one of the presentors to represent in SM in front of investors. But if we don’t belong to one of the presentor, at least we tried than being regret of the chances we didn’t try.