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Can you give me a fish PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

You get a French Grunt

Haemulon flavolineatum

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who wants to go to the aquarium with me i want to stand in cold rooms for two hours straight and look at jellyfish and maybe pet a small stingray

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bonus photo of symbol project that made me think of angels :3

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here's my thoughts behind 'you are not trapped' (aka symbol project) because i thought it would be fun to title it and to get into the background in case anyone's curious (:

one night as i was falling asleep, i was panicking about a medical thing going badly, when suddenly a wave came over me and i remembered that if this thing goes badly, i am not Doomed forever. due to various things that have happened, around certain topics i tend to feel like i am a creature in a narrow chute that is exactly the size of my body in which i cannot turn around or escape, i can only go forward, and what is at the end of the chute may be something incredibly unpleasant and also irreversible. often it takes me a very long time of worrying about a thing before i can remember that if the thing doesn't go well for me, i can pivot and try again in a slightly different way. again, there are reasons that have made me feel like if something goes poorly, i have no further access to assistance.

being as this is quite a pervasive experience in my life, as i was falling asleep i tried to imagine a symbol that i could picture when i started feeling trapped in the chute to remind myself that i have options. i wanted to make it an overall symbol, like a road sign, with elements that were further symbolic within it, to make it easy and resonant to visualise in my mind in situations where i might need it.

i chose green for the main field partly for obvious positive associations of 'go' etc, but also because this green reminds me of my favourite leaf, the ginkgo biloba, which is from a very enduring tree that i also think is beautiful. the golden yellow of the arrows facing in each direction was picked to represent warm sunlight illuminating the imaginary scene. the eyes are to embody the whole point of the thing which is to look around and remember that there are options, as i mostly experience the fear as a sort of blinkered or tunnel vision. i mostly picked the blue eyes because that's what my eye colour officially is, but also to keep the palette more limited. the stars in the eyes are to brighten the vision.

the red stripe around the green field was to represent the intensity of the situation, but is tempered by the pearlescent sequins. the blue border is a reference to my colour of the year (electric blue for 2025) which is just where i pick a colour to be a motif if i'm acquiring objects and there's a choice to pick that colour - i liked the idea of placing the project in time by choosing this as the outermost layer. the pearlescent beads sewn as an outline were purely an aesthetic way to secure the backing layer of felt to the front portions for a neat finish, but i like how they tie in (:

the symbol project fits adjacent to my fish projects (and fish adjacent projects) which can be found in my 'suncatcher complete' tag, so the overall form is similar with a felt body and suspended suncatcher pendants. i liked how the teardrop shapes of the suncatcher pendants tied in to the eyes too. I think that's it! I've been working on this in various stages for just over a month, thinking about the elements behind it and painstakingly stitching each sequin into place, and the other day noticed myself almost immediately remind myself that i was not trapped when i began to feel afraid of something coming up. I'm going to hang this in my window and i hope it continues to help me to remember (:

symbol project is complete! 'you are not trapped', 2025, by me, B (: i'll reblog this with the reasons behind my choices for all the elements i included, but i'll describe it visually below!

extended image description of the symbol project in the video and the photos: A highly sequinned symbol made of felt, with three teardrop suncatcher pendants hanging from it. The symbol base is a rhombus with 90 degree angles, and is bright green felt with a stripe of red felt forming a border, and then a stripe of deep blue felt forming a concentric border around that. In the centre of the green field is a yellow shape made up of 6 arrows pointing outwards

extended image description of the symbol project in the video and the photos: A highly sequinned symbol made of felt, with three teardrop suncatcher pendants hanging from it. The symbol base is a rhombus with 90 degree angles, and is made of bright green felt with a stripe of red felt forming a border, and then a stripe of deep blue felt forming a concentric border around that. A yellow shape made up of 6 arrows pointing outwards, connected at the centre, is stitched in the centre of the green field. At the tip of each arrow is a small blue eye made of felt, with a holographic star sequin stitched into the center of the pupil. The six eyes form a ring, and each eye faces a slightly different direction if they're viewed from the centre of the arrow shape. When they're viewed as a set, they appear to be looking around the circle at each other, with two facing 'upwards' as the project is suspended from a silver thread. The green field is covered with tiny sequins which catch the light and look iridescent, but they look translucent when the light hits them in a certain way. The red stripe around the green field is almost totally covered by a row of pearlescent sequins nearly the whole width of the stripe, with clear beads sewn into the middle of each sequin. Around the outermost stripe which is deep blue, small pearlescent beads are blanket stitched with silver thread to form a decorative border. The symbol hangs in the air from a silver thread through the top corner of the rhombus, and from the two side and the lowest points of the shape hang teardrop suncatcher pendants strung from silver thread with three holographic star sequins on each one. The number of sequins in various forms across the whole project makes the symbol very glittery when it catches the light, and when light shines through the suncatcher pendants they cast rainbows. It's designed to be hung in a window so it can gently move, catching the light and sparkling.

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symbol project is complete! 'you are not trapped', 2025, by me, B (: i'll reblog this with the reasons behind my choices for all the elements i included, but i'll describe it visually below!

extended image description of the symbol project in the video and the photos: A highly sequinned symbol made of felt, with three teardrop suncatcher pendants hanging from it. The symbol base is a rhombus with 90 degree angles, and is bright green felt with a stripe of red felt forming a border, and then a stripe of deep blue felt forming a concentric border around that. In the centre of the green field is a yellow shape made up of 6 arrows pointing outwards

extended image description of the symbol project in the video and the photos: A highly sequinned symbol made of felt, with three teardrop suncatcher pendants hanging from it. The symbol base is a rhombus with 90 degree angles, and is made of bright green felt with a stripe of red felt forming a border, and then a stripe of deep blue felt forming a concentric border around that. A yellow shape made up of 6 arrows pointing outwards, connected at the centre, is stitched in the centre of the green field. At the tip of each arrow is a small blue eye made of felt, with a holographic star sequin stitched into the center of the pupil. The six eyes form a ring, and each eye faces a slightly different direction if they're viewed from the centre of the arrow shape. When they're viewed as a set, they appear to be looking around the circle at each other, with two facing 'upwards' as the project is suspended from a silver thread. The green field is covered with tiny sequins which catch the light and look iridescent, but they look translucent when the light hits them in a certain way. The red stripe around the green field is almost totally covered by a row of pearlescent sequins nearly the whole width of the stripe, with clear beads sewn into the middle of each sequin. Around the outermost stripe which is deep blue, small pearlescent beads are blanket stitched with silver thread to form a decorative border. The symbol hangs in the air from a silver thread through the top corner of the rhombus, and from the two side and the lowest points of the shape hang teardrop suncatcher pendants strung from silver thread with three holographic star sequins on each one. The number of sequins in various forms across the whole project makes the symbol very glittery when it catches the light, and when light shines through the suncatcher pendants they cast rainbows. It's designed to be hung in a window so it can gently move, catching the light and sparkling.

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TOMORROW! I’ve got to remember to make hybrid sweet and regular potato mash and observe what happens

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I find it very offensive that the more unwell you are, the more things you have to do to maintain your health. Things like following special diets, going to medical appointments, making big and important decisions about what treatments to use. At the same time, the more unwell you are the less energy you have to do all of these extra things. It seems grossly unfair.

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anyway time to go lay on the floor for a few minutes to regain some vertical standing ability to carry on doing my food prep hahahahaha

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I’ve gotten into watching diy/renovation/decorating videos on instagram and the problem with that is that i DO believe that I could have a go at loads of those things and have soooo much fun and do a pretty fine job at least but unfortunately. The symptoms syndromes.

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Life-32 x 24in- 81x61cm-2023

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Skeleton Panda Sea Tunicate Appreciation Post!!! 💀 🐼 🌊

Clavelina ossipandae, the skeleton panda sea tunicate is a species of colonial ascidian, also known as sea tunicates, a group of sessile, marine filter-feeding invertebrates. Just some funky little guys!

First discovered near Kume Island in Japan by local divers, pictures of the animal attracted media attention in 2017. But they weren't given their formal taxonomic description until 2024

Love to sea it 🌊

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Scrap paper beast

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once these 15 million different stressful situations resolve themselves I’m gonna be so normal again. I can be normal and not exhausted

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what is your favorite type of cookie. not allowed to throw shade not allowed to be mean to each other just say what kinda cookie you like the most. this isn’t a competition just a conversation between friends there is no right answer 

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(crawls on all fours with blood drenched on me) I have to do arts and crafts

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okayyyyy shoutout to me asked for help with something new that’s gone wrong and scheduled a time to get help with a call (‘guy who doesn’t have reliable speech and has a new stutter currently apparently’ voice (: but we stay silly) now I gotta get my Sunday back on track!!!!!!!!!!

- put away groceries

- timely lunch please!

- break time including one resp physio session #thebreatherrrrrrrrerr

- become the chopper (with breaks to lay down in between)

- my peaceful sunday evening where i do not freak out and get stressed because i made myself late, and instead do things at the times that they’re ’meant to’ be done to make everything flow nicely and chill style

We can start again any time of day baybeeeeeeeeeeee! Let’s turn the day around…………