b0nemilk

[b0nemilk]

hi long time lurker whats the tea on ur ex

Who’s asking …

[b0nemilk]

I just want to feel loved and wanted

Soft and gentle

I miss the butterflies in my stomach when you touched my face

Now you hardly touch me at all

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I’ll make my self smaller

So you hear me less

Get upset with me less

See me less

Resent me less

Then maybe you won’t leave

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So at night I’ll hug myself while you sleep on the couch

I look into the mirror and wish for something else

I drag my feet when I walk because I don’t want to reach the end

But at night it seems the blue light shining off the screen is my only friend

I miss when you missed me I missed when your around

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I’m alone arnt i

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Winter is coming

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I exist I exist I exist

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“dance

In the theater of self-belief, my heart hesitates, waiting for the curtain to rise.

I dress in hope, but beneath the fabric, self-doubt threads through every disguise

I build castles of courage, but they crumble under the weight of my own uncertainty. Leaving nothing but a non trophy suprise

Once agian asking myself if it was worth my

Demise

Demise

Demise

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“ I don’t even know how to comfort you anymore “

Yea…

Me neither I guess

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Novelty vices

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I don’t want winter to end :(

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I yearn

I yearn

I yearn

For the feeling of being sought after

What if felt like to be chased and be the soft lamb under a wolfs gaze.

I wish I felt your eyes Pierce my neck again.

Have you used me up.

Am I no longer ripe and fresh for picking but easier to compost to fuel your soul for more feast.

Am I no longer beautiful.

Is it me am I the issue

I don’t know.

I wage wars in my mind.

Fighting 3 of me at once.

I hate you but love yourself

Rest , but prick a needle into your gums for every time your breath pushes off your pillow case reminding you of your mortality.

I’m lost.

I want you

I want your life

I want your hand on my head even if it strikes me across my cheek.

Times like these I yearn for the closet in my childhood bedroom.

So I can hide from the outside afraid of the night even though my comfort was a lightless cube .

Look at me.

Kiss me.

Smile when I touch your hand.

Be proud of me .

I yearn for your love

I yearn

I yearn

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Como se dice

I literally want to bang my head into glass multiple times until it kills me

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I’m so numb today

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I’m sorry sometimes I do things wrong I’ve never been loved like this before. Like a feral animal I need to unlearn my lashing out behaviors.

I know I’m not perfect.

I do bad things

I. Just want to be held even if I’m wrong to know I’m still worthy.

and even when I’m right I need to know I’m praised .

Everything I do I want to prove my love .

Im sorry I. Wasn’t fully taught how

I want to be good

Please I can be good

I want love

I want to know what it’s like to be loved by me

Pure dedication

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I wanna go outside and fall asleep until I die