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To be loved is to be seen.

To be loved is to be there with you on whatever tide you will experience.

I cannot be the person you are expecting me to be anymore. Because when I was the one who needed you; where were you?

Where was the empathy?

Where was the assurance?

Where was the hug?

Where were you?

All those times that I needed you, you were there beside me blindfolded by an imaginary wall.

How could you just groan when I told you that I was sad?

How could you call me dramatic when you opened the washroom door and saw me sobbing my heart out?

How could you call me heartless after everything you have done?

How could you ask me to hug you when you are being the vulnerable one now?

After everything....

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you made me love you thru the good times and made me despise you thru the bad times.

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It's my 7 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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Why do we always insist ourselves to someone who doesn’t want to take risk for us?

Why do we always want to hurt ourselves by hoping that “we can make it”.

But what if we can? What if we are just insisting ourselves to the wrong people? Because I read something that says something like if you meet someone who is right for you, you don’t have to beg for the love you deserve. You don’t have to beg. We all know that we deserve that kind of love, but why are we still attracted to the people who give us less than what we deserve? Are we all masochists, aren’t we?

Why don’t we just go for someone who loves us genuinely? Who is willing to take risks for us. Who is willing to part the ocean just to let us through. Why do we love to fucking settle for less? It hurts to love the person who gives us nothing but penny, yet we still continue to embrace them; even if their skin turns into a metaphor of a torn. Is that how we love? Is that how we really show our love? Loving the person even if it hurts, until you are completely numb.

If this is how love should be. Count me out. I don’t want love anymore. I am always being misunderstood. Or am I being gaslighted? But I once saw my future with that person. And there is still hope left in me that we can make it. Or least I can say that I thought we can make it.

How can I move on from the person who I once loved more than myself? How can I move on from the person who showed me what love should really be like? How can I move on from the person who made me forget about the time when I am with him? How could I forget someone I loved more than anyone?

The genuine laughs.

The attraction.

The hugs and kisses.

The smiles.

The safeness.

If this is love, then I don’t want this. I rather not to love. I rather see myself aging alone than being hurt again. I don’t want to experience the pain where you want to cry but you can’t cry but you feel empty inside and you feel that your heart is aching. I don’t want to love if this is love.

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“communication is the key” but so is a sense of understanding. if i tell you something, and you’re not willing to see where i’m coming from, then what’s the point of telling you anything.

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How to get over someone who used you as a rebound?

When I experienced that, all I did was cry. Until there is no tears left to do so. Delete that person in everything that reminds you of him/her. And try to focus on yourself, make yourself busy. Its okay if at some point of your moving on journey suddenly he pops up in your mind, it is part of your healing. Do anything, eat anything, make yourself look miserable until you're fully moved on and its okay, then bounce back. Be the better version of yourself.

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"Ikaw ang aking buwan, kahit may pumalit ay mananatiling ikaw."

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"Isasabay kita sa agos ng panahon

Ayos lang kahit hindi ka na lumingon

Mananatili pa rin akong nandito

Sa lugar kung saan ko hinangganan ang ating mundo"

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Bakit kaya ganon? May mga taong akala natin ay sila na talaga yung "the one". Ilang "the one" pa ba ang dadating sa buhay natin para malaman kung sino ba talaga ang para sa atin? Nakakapagod na kasi ipakilala ulit ang sarili sa panibagong tao --- sa panibagong gugulo ulit ng buhay mo-- sa panibagong taong sisira ulit sayo.

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Paubaya

Akala ko ikaw na. Pero bakit mo ako iniwan mag isa? Akala ko magpapahinga ka lang diba? Pero bakit di ka bumalik sa tagpuan nating dalawa?

Pinaramdam mo sa akin na ako ang gusto. Pero nang umiyak ka sa aking harapan, luha ay walang hanggan. Ang ating mga mata'y nagtitigan, at doon ko naramdaman na hindi ako ang kailangan.

Napagod ka. Naubos ka. Iniwan kita sa panahong punding pundi ka na. Wala ako sa tabi mo noong panahong sumusuko ka.

Mahal pa natin ang isa't isa. Pero hindi mo na kaya. Hindi mo nahanap ang sarili mo kapag ako ang kasama. Pasensya ka na, akala ko kasi tayo na talaga.

Wag ka mag alala, pinapatawad na kita. Sa lahat ng lungkot at pait. Pinapatawad na din kita. Pero wag mo kakalimutan na mahal na mahal kita.

Hindi ko kaya maglakad papalayo, dahil ayoko iwan ka dito. Ayokong iwan ka sa lugar kung saan tayo nagbitiw ng pangako. Pero sana ako naman.

Pinapaubaya ko na sa kanya ang lahat ng nararapat sa ating dalawa. Siya na ang bahala kung ano ang mangyayare sa susunod nating kabanata. Aalis na ako. Para sa mga ala ala, salamat mahal ko.

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“Were you ever unfaithful to her?” I asked him. “More than once,” he said. “Have you ever thought of leaving her?” and he answered, “not even for a second.”

“And you, have you ever been unfaithful to him?” he asked. “Not even for a second,” I said. “Have you ever thought of leaving him?” I looked at him and whispered, “…More than once.”

Me (JNH)// Hintayan ng Langit (trans. Waiting Place of Heaven)

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Panibago (Short Poetry)

Panibagong mundo

Panibagong tao

Para sa taong mamahalin ko

Maghihintay lang ako

Hindi ko mamadaliin

Kung talagang para sa akin

Maghihintay lang ako

Hihintayin ko ang pagdating mo

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Reblog for a miracle to happen tonight

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Can u make sweet goodnight letter to the one you love?

Yes. Here is the sample hehe "Hey baby, before I sleep, you are still the last person who comes to my mind. I just want to thank you for staying with me since day one. I love you so much."

Omg sorry, ngayon ko lang nabasa :((

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Badly needed!

Reblog for a miracle to happen tonight

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pwede mo ba akong balibolin? paglaruan lang parang bola? ipasa-pasa bago itakwil sa kabila?

Awit, sorry di ako ganyan

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Don’t be afraid to start over. It’s a brand new opportunity to rebuild what you truly want.