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Funny Story Moodboard 🍷

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It's frustrating that you can come up with the plot of an entire fic in just a few seconds, but writing it all down can take anywhere from never to forever.

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been really into substack lately!!! it's just so much fun

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if you've never engaged with a creative art on a regular basis you need to understand that it requires concerted effort to get into "the groove" to make something and every second that it takes to get into that groove causes physical pain, but the only thing worse than doing it is not doing it.

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James Baldwin.

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Crushing and being crushed.

“The practice of love offers no place of safety. We risk loss, hurt, pain. We risk being acted upon by forces outside our control.” ― Bell Hooks, All About Love: New Visions

a collection about love, crushes and limerance.

as i actively try to rid myself of the feeling of falling for another, i bleed all unwanted love and attention in pages, songs, art and now, a collection of it all. a place where it can be remembered for what it is: a passing feeling.

prelude.

“I like people too much or not at all. I've got to go down deep, to fall into people, to really know them.” ― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

essays i've been reading to try and feel comfort about having a crush:

1. Crush Fatique | In the city as online, infatuation is an organizing principle.

2. Crushed | Crushing lays bare the potential of boundless desire, enabling us to embrace brutal vulnerabilities that are often subordinated to everyday expediency

3. Is It a Crush or Have You Fallen Into Limerence? | How an intense longing for a romantic connection can lead to a serious addiction.

interlude.

“He fit so perfectly in the love story I'd imagined for myself that I mistook him for the love of my life.” — Emily Henry, Beach Read

“Lovers” by William John Hennessy

romance books that have made me go insane in the last six months:

1. Love and Other Words by Christina Lauren

2. Funny You Should Ask by Elissa Sussman

3. Funny Story by Emily Henry

4. Love, Theoretically by Ali Hazelwood

postlude.

"L'execució de Lady Jane Gray a la Torre de Londres el 1553" by Paul Delaroche (1834)

things i love: vanilla scents, sunlight, hyper specific playlists, i hate it here by taylor swift, traditional parties, pink.

special mention to the love story of Lady Jane Gray and Guilford Dudley that has me absolutely floored thinking about them.

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"immortality sucks because all your friends die" all your friends die anyway. those we do not mourn are those who mourn us.

"immortality sucks because you forget who you are" we always forget who we are. do you remember who you were at four years of age? who you were at fourteen? "who i am" is a shadow cast on the wall.

"immortality sucks because" skill issue. skill issue. skill issue. give me your liver

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it’s kinda fucked up that you’re only an age for a year. I didn’t know how to be 23 yet, let me try again

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what's fia's plan to fix the ao3 maintance that will shut down the website for 10 hours that's scheduled after this week's race?

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Art nouveau flower shop, Brussels

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realizing your best friend is not the person that's going to be there for you when u need is kinda hard, especially when u understand they are choosing not to be next to you.

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The fact that Ares starts fights on Twitter bring me great joy for some reason

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You guys do know you're supposed to reblog things, right

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when you know, you know

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born to love forced to grieve

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Bianca Stone, from What Is Otherwise Infinite: Poems; “Cutting Odette’s Fingernails”