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It's a weird fucking feeling realising that you actually have to plan ahead for and schedule in the things you like to do, as well as the things you have to do.

I don't mean the complicated stuff, that's a given.

If I'm going to the cinema, then I accept I'm going to have to look up film times and buy tickets and figure out when I'm going to leave the house. If I'm going to visit a friend who lives in a different county, then I accept that I'm going to probably be looking up travel times and planning activities and where to eat and what time we'll be doing what, for possibly days beforehand.

But its even the fucking lowkey stuff. If I want to watch a tv show, I have to plan time out of my day to do it, and I don't always get round to it. If I have a whole day free for some reason, and I decide I want to watch a film (at home, on the sofa) and I don't lay out a plan for when I'm going to do that and how long I'm going to take, then it just won't happen.

If I want to go for a walk just around my local area before it gets dark, or eat something with a slightly longer cooking time, or write my diary, or read a book I've been looking forward to reading, or even read fucking fanfiction that is longer than about 8000 words, then I have to set some sort of plan beforehand.

Like, I know intellectually that executive dysfunction affects more than just the things you don't enjoy doing. But fuck it doesn't really hit you until you realise that you haven't sat down to watch an episode of that show you like for over a week, even though you can't really name any activities you've been doing or commitments you have that would make it impossible to do so.

Anyway, this is a reminder to people who struggle with that sort of thing: schedule your days off, lest they be swallowed by the Pit before you get the chance to do anything fun with them.

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Dockyard Quarter ☛ Canal Plaza DISHONORED 2 (2016) ◈ 10 / ∞

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being 5'7" is so fucked. AND i'm a top. i suffer more than you could ever know.

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rotary numpad on a mechanical keyboard

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Been thinking about them lately.

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LIES OF P — Scenery [ 14/? ]

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DEATH'S DOOR  ▴  dev. Acid Nerve

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Character design comms for @ / DimitriBlaiddyd (top) and @ / suncourts (bottom) on twitter

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Proficiency in both ranged and deranged combat

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extraordinary things are happening on tumblr.com/dashboard

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oh fuck this is a really good hill i gotta die on this

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I love this fucking gif so much. Violence and killing and destruction

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Dendrogaster (a crustacean that parasitizes starfish)

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That feeling when your body is requesting something but you're not sure what so you just start eating and drinking random stuff to try and figure it out