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Bangchan imagine #1

BxB

Y/n woke up with a happy mood accompanied by the cheerful voice from him mother.

"Stand up and eat your breakfast, I cooked your favorite" Mom said.

"Oki, just give me a sec"

The first thing he did was to look at his phone, straight to messages to send some memes to his friends.

After 1 second, one of his friend, Bangchan, replied with a laughing emoji and a greetings for y/n.

"You woke up early, huh?" Bangchan joked.

"Btw, goodmorning" he added.

"Good morning, daddy" y/n replied.

Bangchan and y/n have been friends since the start of college. However, y/n have always had a crush on Bangchan even after they become friends. To cover y/n's love for Bangchan, they always call each other some nicknames that couples use.

For bangchan it was probably nothing, but for y/n it was something.

It had always been special for y/n everytime Bangchan interacts with him and it made y/n fall harder for him.

Y/n was happy until this morning...

"HEY, DID YOU KNOW THAT A BEAUTIFUL GIRL SENT ME A FRIEND REQUEST?!" Bangchan chatted.

"Who?" y/n answered.

"One of my friends told me that this likes me, what should I do?"

"Accept and flirt" y/n said jokingly.

Thinking that it probably some girl that he will blushed on for a few seconds and move on.

But today was different.

"I'm going to accept her tomorrow then this would probably be my soulmate😍" Bangchan replied

Y/n left the chat for a second once he saw another one of his friend, Changbin, enter the group chat.

Y/n saw the whole conversation between Bangchan and Changbin and yet he didn't interact with the conversation.

"Fuck" y/n whispered.

With Bangchan and Changbin's convo, the more worried y/n became. Bangchan was serious and y/n wasn't ready.

As immature as it seems, y/n's cheerful morning became a sad one.

He didn't want bangchan to be with other girl.

Y/n wanted Bangchan but at the same time, he had a hard time with himself, he knows he couldn't be with bangchan for several reasons.

1. He was not openly gay

2. He had a homophobic father

3. He is a red flag

None of those reasons was better than the others, he couldn't be with Bangchan.

After a minute, y/n's phone lit up.

"Dont just 'seen' me" Bangchan chatted on gc.

"Sorry, just not in the mood lol" y/n replied

"Shit, what happened?" Bangchan worriedly asked.

Y/n didn't reply nor looked at the message. After some minutes his phone lit up again.

"Hey, are you okay, baby?" Bangchan privately chatted with the nickname that you two jokingly used for each other.

"Sorry, just really not in the mood lol" y/n replied.

"Does this have to do with school or something?"

"No, just not feeling it rn. Why is my daddy so concerned?" y/n said trying to light up the mood.

"STFU, I'm trying to be noice"

"I'll tell some other time"

"No prob, take your time, baby"

"Thanks"

"Are you up for some talk though?"

"Yeah, sure. Not doing anything atm"

"So this girl..."

Bangchan kept talking about the girl that sent him a friend request. Y/n could only say...

"Pursue her" y/n said with laughing emoji, but who is he kidding?

And the chat ended with Bangchan accepting his advice.

As dramatic as it gets, Y/n's heart broke and yet he couldn't do anything about it. There were too many factors that hinder his confession for Bangchan.

The time past by as if hours were seconds. Y/n wished he could feel better but nothing really works.

Y/n had the urge to look for other people to chat with and become more than friends but he is so reserved that there isn't anyone to chat. He installed some apps that might be able to help him have a gf.

Y/n didn't hate the girl for liking Bangchan but rather he envied her because Bangchan was already down to date her.

Y/n looked at the clock again and it was midnight already. To get rid of the heartbreak, he prayed.

"God, I'm hurting. I don't want him to be with her. If I could only be the right person for Bangchan, I would...I want him to be happy but I want him. I know he would never see me more than friend but I don't know why I feel like there is a chance"

"There is still hope that he might like me, but even if he does, I don't think I can take care of him" y/n continued.

"But I hope that I will recover from this" y/n ended that prayer and went to bed.

The next morning, he was already stress the moment he woke up.

Y/n wanted to feel better that is why he prayed again.

After praying, he was already in the acceptance stage. He knew he couldn't be with Bangchan even if there is a chance between them and this almost repressed feelings is starting to make him feel better.

"Hey, how are you and that 'girl'?" Y/n initiated the private chat

"I haven't accepted her, didn't want her to think that I'm easy sksksksk"

"Are you not easy? Jk" y/n said

"No, I'm not. My focus will be for you for now, baby" Bangchan said playfully

"Cant believe that you flirting with another girl and had the audacity to tell your sidechick" Y/n joked.

Y/n put down his phone harshly, covered himself in blanket and screamed with no sound.

"I'm not fucking ready, pls dont, i cant" Y/n said to himself.

Y/n couldn't resist and indirectly told one of his bestfriend, Minho, what he was feeling.

"You sure you liked him or you just jealous?" Minho asked.

"No, I liked him"

"I'm sorry but who are we talking about?"

"Tell you some other time"

"Ayt, take your time, but I kinda wanna know now"

"Next time lol"

"GRRRR"

A day passed and it was already midnight. Y/n thought about what Minho said, if Im just probably jealous.

With my on-going repressed feelings, I started to think that I'm just probably like that"

In the end, y/n didn't confess, he chose friendship over a stupid love. He couldn't treat Bangchan any better if they were in a relationship. But as the day passed by Y/n will only repress every feelings that he had with Bangchan.

(Hi, this is my first time writing a story. It's not the best but i hope you enjoyed it somehow!)

(Also english is not my official language, so sorry for the bad grammars, if there's any)

(Looking for active moots!)

#bang chan #stray kids #skz imagines #skz x reader #skz fanfic #bxb

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