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uhm....... guys?

crazy to me how anaxa is so easily ready to sacrifice parts of himself for the sake of his alchemical research to the truth, whereas su absolutely hates sacrifice. however, they are Much more similar than one may think.

MEI had offered for su to take the lead of project stigma, aka their most dangerous project, yet also the one with the highest success rate outcome. su accepted even though he hoped it would never have to be initiated - because he hates sacrifice. project stigma would wipe out everyone who wasn't immune to the honkai, effectively killing off a ginormous majority of the human population.

su hates sacrifices, but he has such a savior complex to the point where he's Also entirely willing to be self-sacrificial.

when him and kevin fought within the seed of sumeru, he was willing to put his life on the line to stop kevin. he KNEW he was so much weaker than kevin yet still made an attempt to try to fight him to stop him from initiating project stigma. su did it out of love for humanity and love for kevin and MEI.

they trusted and loved him too - had they not, then MEI would have never placed her trust in him to carry out protect valuka and project regulator. to trust him to bring kevin back to his senses if he ever strayed from the right path. because they both knew kevin would become so much more distraught and tired of everything than he already was, after MEI's passing. had they not, then kevin would have killed him during their fight within the seed of sumeru. he would not have thrown su out of the seed and told him to continue with valuka, letting himself sink into the sea of quanta.

if su did not love, he would not have cried with MEI when he made the promise to her. if su did not love, he would have never regularly checked on kevin while the man was in the sea of quanta. if he never loved, he would have died without holding the memory of him and kevin from their high school days close to his heart.

anaxa has sacrificed his left eye, his heart, his blood, and probably much more for the sake of his objectives. from trying to see his deceased sister one last time, to carving his own heart out to be able to guide castorice on her own path, to reveal the truth of the world's fundamentals to be able to leave behind answers for phainon who is destined to bear the weight of the new world, for his teachings to leave such an impact on hyacine and phainon, as if he were still guiding them despite not being alive anymore. everything was out of love and the belief he had put in humanity.

if anaxa did not love and believe, he would have never tried to rush back to his sister. if he did not love and believe, he would have never told families of the passing of their loved ones after we arrived back to okhema from the grove. if he did not love and believe, he would not have put his faith into castorice and pushed her to find the truth. if he did not love and believe, he would not have trusted phainon to be able to remind him of his past life in the next life, in case he himself couldn't retrieve his own memories.

when we see the flashback of empedocles and anaxa talking in the 3.2 quest, empedocles tells anaxa to promise to never harm himself again, to not do anything taboo again such as sacrifice parts of himself for his research. and yet, as we clearly know, that promise did not stand, and it is because he loves too much.

su was against project stigma, never kevin himself. anaxa was against the flame-chase journey, not hyacine, or castorice, or phainon, or any of the other heirs (not even aglaea, whom he didn't see eye to eye with because of differing beliefs).

both su and anaxa love so much, and yet one of the only ways they know how to show it is through sacrifice

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alright. Whatever

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OH MY GEEZ. THIS IS SO GREAT

dreaming of a dead man

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the accomplice🌫️

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anaxa drops at 12, and i have to go to my therapy appointment at 12. okay man.

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I made an illustration for @lostlegendaerie's fic, Miasma!

It's gonna be part of their Gravitational Pull limited printing (yipee!!)

You can check out the fanfic here 👈(you'll need an AO3 account to view it)

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I won my 50/50 lets go

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He saw the concert commercial

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wlcomr bakc

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someone make him some soup pls

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Anaxagoras sketch on the same page as Hatsune Miku, great pair

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WOAHHH WHAT THE FUCK

red strings of fate, you who is destined to be destroyed

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can we kill him maybe

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Sakuya Sakuma | [SR] Premonition of Budding | Please Ticket: From Sakuya - Part 1

*Knock on door*

Sakuya: Director, are you there?

Izumi: Come in!

*Door opens*

Sakuya: Delivery for you!

Thank you for all that you do as always! Here’s a free request for you! -Sakuya

Izumi: Ah, this is a “Please Ticket”, right?

Sakuya: Yeah! I’m free whenever, so if there’s anything you want me to do, please feel free to use it.

Izumi: Thank you. If I think of anything, I’ll use it.

· • —– ٠ ✤ ٠ —– • ·

Sakuya: (It’s really nice today. I think I’ll read my script out here.)

Sakuya: …

Muku: Good thing it’s so nice out today!

Kazunari: It looks like it’s gonna be sunny all day according to the forecast, so it’s totes perfect!

Kazunari: …Wait, SakuSaku! Oh, are you reading a script?

Sakuya: Yeah! The weather is so nice, so I thought I’d read the script for my next guest performance out here.

Muku: I see…! Sorry if we interrupted you… Kazu-kun, maybe we should go somewhere else.

Sakuya: Don’t worry about it! I only just got here, so it’s fine.

Kazunari: For realsies? Well then, if you insist~.

Sakuya: Did you guys come out here to do something too?

Muku: Ehehe, we just washed our plushies Tonapon and William, so we came to set them out to dry. …Look!

Sakuya: Ahaha, you really did. Good thing it seems like today’s a good day to dry things.

Kazunari: Yep, yep, the balcony’s got the totes perfect amount of shade for them to dry in!

Muku: Well then, we’ll leave Tonapon and William here to dry… there.

Sakuya: They both almost look like they’re happy to be cleaned.

Kazunari: I know, right? I knew they would~.

Muku: These little guys always look so happy after they get a bath.

Sakuya: That’s nice. I should probably wash my Blue soon too…

Kazunari: Blue’s your cat plushie, right, SakuSaku?

Sakuya: Yeah! He was a present from Santa.

Muku: It’s a really wonderful story how Santa gave him to you.

Sakuya: Umm… if you wouldn’t mind, could you teach me how to wash plushies?

Sakuya: I wanna give Blue a bath too.

Kazunari: ‘Course, don’t you worry about a thing. Just leave it to us!

Muku: I’m sure Blue will be really happy.

Sakuya: Yeah!

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Sakuya: Umm, first I need to dissolve the detergent in lukewarm water…

Izumi: What are you up to, Sakuya-kun?

Sakuya: Ah, Director!

Sakuya: I was just about to wash Blue.

Sakuya: Kazunari-san and Muku-kun taught me how to wash plushes yesterday.

Izumi: I see. …Ah, I’ve got it.

Izumi: Hey, Sakuya-kun, can you wait a second before you start washing him?

Sakuya: Huh…? Okay, sure thing!

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Sakuya Sakuma | [SR] Premonition of Budding | Please Ticket: From Sakuya - Part 2

Izumi: Here you go. This is my request!

Sakuya: A “Help me wash my Kareko-chan plushie” ticket…

Izumi: So, here’s my Kareko-chan plushie, I thought maybe you could wash her with Blue… would that be okay?

Sakuya: Of course! I’ll do my best to help!

Izumi: Thanks. Should I start by gently handwashing her?

Sakuya: Yeah! I’ve got some detergent dissolved into this warm water, so… feel free to bring Kareko-chan over here.

Izumi: Thank you. Fufu, Kareko-chan looks like she feels good.

Sakuya: Doesn’t she? Blue seems happy too.

Izumi: Anyway, I was surprised when you and the others suggested doing the please ticket thing, Sakuya-kun.

Sakuya: Ahaha, we did kinda spring it on you out of nowhere.

Izumi: …But I was happy to see all of your guys’ feelings. I also felt a little bad, though.

Sakuya: Please don’t feel like that! We’re doing this because we want to.

Izumi: Don’t worry, I don’t feel like that anymore.

Izumi: I’m actually kind of enjoying using them to their fullest since you’re the ones who suggest it.

Sakuya: I’m glad then!

Izumi: …I bet you were the first one to suggest it, weren’t you, Sakuya-kun?

Sakuya: Huh!? How’d you know that?

Izumi: Fufu, just a hunch. Our relationship isn’t that shallow anymore.

Izumi: When I first heard about it, I felt like the idea of making it something easy for me to use was a very Sakuya-kun-like idea.

Sakuya: I never thought you’d be able to see right through me like that, so I’m kinda embarrassed, but…

Sakuya: But that makes me happy.

Izumi: Huh?

Sakuya: Because it shows how much you’ve been looking out for me… for us, Director.

Izumi: Sakuya-kun… Fufu, it really is like I said. Our relationship isn’t shallow anymore.

Muku: Ah, Sakuya-kun! You’re washing Blue already.

Kazunari: And Director-chan’s washing Kareko-chan!

Izumi: I’ve been having Sakuya-kun help me.

Sakuya: Thanks to you guys teaching me how to wash them carefully yesterday, it looks like we don’t have to worry about them losing their shape!

Sakuya: Now all we have to do is leave them to dry for a little while…

Muku: Ah, then I’d recommend the balcony. That’s where we let William and Tonapon dry yesterday.

Kazunari: It’s nice and open up there~.

Sakuya: Thank you so much! Well then, let’s head there, Director!

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Sakuya: …And there.

Izumi: Kareko-chan and Blue almost look like they’re smiling.

Sakuya: Yeah, they really do!

Sakuya: Well then, once Kareko-chan’s dry, I’ll deliver her to your room.

Izumi: Are you sure?

Sakuya: Of course! Just let me help you with every part of your Please Ticket.

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*Knock on door*

Sakuya: Director, Kareko-chan’s all dry, so I’m here to deliver her!

Izumi: Ah, come in!

*Door opens*

Sakuya: Here you go.

Izumi: Waah, thank you. She’s so fluffy now~.

Sakuya: My Blue’s all fluffy now too.

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Choose!

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Option 1: It was really useful.

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Izumi: Your Please Ticket idea was really useful, Sakuya-kun.

Sakuya: That’s good to hear!

Sakuya: I was really worried that it was too trivial of a thing to do…

Izumi: It wasn’t trivial at all. Here, don’t both Kareko-chan and Blue look like they’re smiling?

Sakuya: Ahaha, I guess that’s true. …And more importantly, you’re smiling, Director.

Sakuya: It makes me really happy just to be able to see you smile like that!

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Option 2: It’s really soothing.

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Izumi: It’s so soothing that she’s this fluffy. I’m sure I’ll want to pet her all the time, especially when I’m tired.

Sakuya: You’re always working so hard for us, Director… I’m sure you get tired a lot.

Sakuya: I’m really grateful for everything you do, Director, and I’m always hoping to repay you for all your kindness.

Izumi: Repaying me, that’s… I’m glad you feel that way.

Izumi: And I’m so happy to see how clean Kareko-chan is now.

Sakuya: I’m happy that you’re happy, Director!

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Izumi: Thanks again, Sakuya-kun.

Izumi: You’re the one who helped me this time, but if there’s anything you want me to do for you, don’t hesitate to ask, Sakuya-kun, okay?

Sakuya: Umm, well then… can I ask you to do something right now then?

Izumi: Of course, what is it?

Sakuya: …Can you accept this?

Izumi: Ah, a ticket for your upcoming guest performance!

Sakuya: Yeah. I’d like you to see my performance, Director!

Izumi: Of course, I can do that. I’ll definitely come and see it, thank you!

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[A3!] Sakuya Sakuma | [R] Keeping Your Love All to Myself | Sakuya-kun’s Love Life!?

Sakuya: Hmm… What should I get the Director for White Day?

Sakuya: (I want to give her something she’ll be happy with, but there’s just so many things to choose from.)

Sakuya: (Huh, is that Kasumi-san over there?)

Sakuya: Kasumi-san, hello!

Kasumi: Hello, Sakuya-kun! I never thought I’d run into you here.

Sakuya: Same here! Are you out shopping too, Kasumi-san?

Kasumi: No. I just finished doing an interview, and I’m on my way back to the publishing office.

Sakuya: Ah, I see…! I’m so sorry to hold you up like this while you’re working!

Kasumi: Hehe, don’t worry about it. I was planning on taking a break and taking my time getting back.

Kasumi: More importantly, about what you just said… You’re in the middle of doing some shopping right now, Sakuya-kun?

Sakuya: Yeah, I am, but…

Kasumi: …But something is troubling you?

Sakuya: Huh, how’d you know!?

Kasumi: I could tell just by looking at you. Feel free to confide in me. I’m always willing to talk things out with you, okay?

Sakuya: …Thank you so much! Well then, is it okay if I talk to you about it a bit now?

Kasumi: Yes, of course!

Sakuya: Actually, I’m worried about getting a gift for someone who’s precious to me for White Day.

Kasumi: I see. White Day is coming up, isn’t it?

Kasumi: …Wait, someone precious to you!?

Sakuya: (Huh? The Director has always looked out for me, so she’s someone precious to me, right?)

Sakuya: Yeah. But I’ve looked at so many different stores, and I still don’t know what to get her…

Kasumi: You’ve got such a serious expression on your face, Sakuya-kun… She must be someone who’s really precious to you.

Sakuya: Of course!

Kasumi: So, in other words, this is about your love life…!

*Wind blows*

Sakuya: Huh? What did you say? I’m sorry, I didn’t catch that because of the wind…

Kasumi: No, it’s nothing! Anyway, this means you have to put all your heart into picking something out for her.

Sakuya: Yeah!

Kasumi: Right… It’s pretty standard to give sweets in return, but she might also be happy if you get her something like a handkerchief…

Kasumi: If she’s a busy person, something like bath salts or hand cream could be a good idea around this time of year.

Sakuya: Ah…! Now that you mention it, she did mention that her skin has been feeling a little dry lately!

Kasumi: Then I think hand cream would be just the thing! It looks gorgeous, and I think it’d be the perfect thing to give in return.

Kasumi: Right, right, there’s a new hand cream that just released that smells like sakura, and it’s really popular with women right now…

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Sakuya: I never would’ve been able to decide on something to give her without you! And thank you so much for telling me about the store that sells that hand cream, Kasumi-san!

Kasumi: Hehe, you’re welcome. I’m glad I was able to help you, Sakuya-kun.

Sakuya: Well then, I think I’m gonna head over there right away!

Kasumi: Head over there… To the store that I told you about?

Sakuya: Yeah! If it’s a popular hand cream, then I need to get there as soon as I can, or it might sell out.

Kasumi: But will you be okay on your own? Do you want me to come with you?

Sakuya: Thank you for your concern, but I’ll be fine!

Kasumi: I see. Well then, take care, okay?

Sakuya: I will! Thank you so much for your help today, Kasumi-san!

*Sakuya runs off*

Kasumi: …

Kasumi: (I’m still worried, though, since it’s a little complicated to buy high-end cosmetics. I’ve still got some time before my break is over, so…)

Kasumi: Alright, I’ll go and check in on him just a little bit!

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Sakuya: This is it…

Sakuya: (I don’t come to places like this very often, so I’m kinda nervous, but…)

Sakuya: (I’m sure this is the store that sells the hand cream Kasumi-san told me about.)

Sakuya: Excuse me. I came here to buy that hand cream that smells like sakura…

Store Worker: The new product that was released last week, correct? Excuse me for asking, but did you make an online reservation, sir?

Sakuya: Huh, reservation?

Store Worker: Yes. That item has become very popular, so most people come here after making a reservation…

Sakuya: I-I see!

Sakuya: I’m sorry, I didn’t make a reservation… Can I not buy it without having one?

Store Worker: No, if there are any left in stock in the store, we’ll be able to give one to you.

Store Worker: Would you please wait here a moment while I go check?

Sakuya: Yes! Of course!

Kasumi: (Way to go, Sakuya-kun! Please let there be some in stock…!)

Azami: Hm? Is that Kasumi-san?

Yuki: What are you doing sneaking around like that? 

Kasumi: Azami-kun and Yuki-kun!? Umm, well, about that…

Sakuya: Huh? That voice… Kasumi-san?

Kasumi: S-Sakuya-kun!

Sakuya: And Azami-kun and Yuki-kun too… Are you three shopping together?

Yuki: I dunno what Kasumi’s doing, but Azami and I came to check out the new high-end cosmetics.

Kasumi: Right, right. I just bumped into them by chance. I just… Had something important I needed to do.

Sakuya: I see! Ah. Kasumi-san, I was able to get that hand cream!

Kasumi: Really? I’m glad!

Sakuya: Me, too. It seems like it really is popular, but the store worker told me they had just one left in stock…

Sakuya: Now I’ll be able to properly give her a gift in return for White Day. Thank you so much, Kasumi-san!

Kasumi: (Aaah, Sakuya-kun’s shining smile…! It seems like he’s really happy to have gotten that hand cream.)

Kasumi: …So precious.

Azami: Okay, seriously, what the hell’s goin’ on?

Yuki: Right? I dunno either, but I think we should just stay out of it…