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[barrycousins60]

Where Did You Go?

Where did you go…

 Out of the corner, in a room that’s full of memories

In a house where you belong, in my heart… my soul

I don’t know where to begin but to just go all the way

To the first time that you opened up your eyes…

And I cried

 The sound of little feet racing through our little home

That grew into the boy you would become…my child

And the way that you would laugh, just remembering

The sound of your voice brings me to my knees

Oh, my boy

 The days of youth and who you are had just begun

You couldn’t wait to beat your mighty wings…you did

A Mother’s love and Father’s pride, life’s challenges you cast aside

In teenage years, you brought me so much joy

And your eyes

 You taught me how to view the world

To stand and face the wind

To carve the path that’s meant for only you

To love with strength and not look back

To never lose yourself

And along the way, to share a smile or two

 Now I’m standing on my back porch and I’m holding on to this

I heard you just now…just as plain as day

You said “don’t worry, I’m okay. It’s gonna be alright”

And as I raise my weary head, I look up to the sky

My boy...my boy

bdc

[barrycousins60]

Tree

I catch the tears

I kiss the sky

and he is there to hold me down

All I can see

surrounding me

is this a gift that I have found?

And in the light

I trace the clouds

as they lie softly in the blue

I'm reaching out

because I know

it's what he wants for me to do

And in the dark

I chase the stars

A sense of calm falls over me

I watch the moon

The day grows tired

and I am swallowed by the sea

Return to light

relive again

I know that time calls me away

And I'm not scared

I'm not afraid

because he wanted it that way

For many years

through wind and rain

and sometimes fire, it was to be

But all I know

he watched me grow

fulfill the life he had for me

I catch the tears

I kiss the sky...

bdc

[barrycousins60]

Not Alone / Reaching Out

Am I the last one standing?

Am I the last heart beating?

This feeling washes over me

The road ahead uncertain

My world beyond the curtain

A day I thought I’d never see

But I’m not alone, I’m not alone, I’m not alone

Someone is lifting me, calling out to me; not alone

And I’ve known your name since the day I was born

I know you’re reaching out…I’ll be alright; not alone

I know I’m not alone…

But I miss you

 Along the road less traveled

We’ve gone for many miles

We’ve climbed and fallen many times

And you picked me up; I picked you up

We’ve held each other up

My very first friend, brother mine

And I’m not alone, I’m not, I know I’m not alone

When I fall back I feel you lifting me up… not alone

And I know I’ve called for you a million times… not alone

And I know I’m not alone…I know I’m not alone

I know you’re reaching out and I’ll be alright

I’m reaching out, I’m not alone…

Reaching…I’m not alone

From the inside, deep in my soul

I’m reaching out to you…

Brother mine…

Sunshine…

Gundy…

…Rand.

[barrycousins60]

Perfect Sunrise

I am leaning very steeply as I go

Into the night of endless dreaming

The wind is howling and I cannot see her face

But I know she's there...I know she is there

Footsteps collide in the great puppet show where the king of the forest refrains

Where the church and the steeple and all of his people all running for shelter again

Dear Calliope, don't lose your faith in me...I'll keep my promise to you

Please believe in me, more than my memory...I'll find my way at the end of the day

...Perfect...is the sunrise

As I open up my eyes and I peer across the ocean

...Beautiful...so serene...and I cry

Who am I?...Who am I?

The sun beats down as I stumble to my feet

I turn and face the water and I know there's something out there

But a storm is rolling in and I can't seem to find my way

I have to go...I have to go on

Something inside of me pushing me, pulling me...I can't remember my name

But I feel I must go where the great undertow keeps pulling me back to the same

A distant memory flashes before me as raindrops begin to fall down

A promise to somebody and she depends on me...All I can do is worry for you

...Calliope...Calliope

Because the night is perfect too

[barrycousins60]

One (That moment when you feel alone...)

All that we know we are born

placed in the finite

under his watch

as we open our eyes for the very first time

all we can do is cry

all that we know we are born

All that we have we are young

life is around us

learning to crawl

taking the first steps that lead to the door

life from the eyes of a child

and all that we have we are young

All we are youth we are strong

nothing can define us

out of our way

running to forever like shooting stars

facing the mountain we climb

all we are youth we are strong

And now we are grown we've arrived

chased away the rainbows

learned how to fly

building the perfect bridge to the sky

as everything falls into place

raising our glass we've arrived

All of the years passing by

trying not the miss the

precious time of our lives

of love and laughter and growing old together

all in the blink of an eye

All of those years passing by.

And one day you wake up

and Summer has passed

the leaves have all fallen to the ground

you wonder how it went so fast and what was all the rush

the hands on the clock are fading away

all fading away...fading away...

All that we see is a road

lining the distance

lighting the path

hiding the footsteps that stood there before

everything fades away

everything turns to dust...

[barrycousins60]

The Raging River

The Raging river

Love...

Love is an ocean

The undeniable presence

That fills the body

Oh Lord, my soul

And you...

The raging river

Flowing forever

In uncertain waters

Back to the sea

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To separate the world from you

Not the world that loves you

But the one that you can't trust

I would move mountains

For you on your journey

But you would never know

The beauty of that climb

For the heart that knows defeat

Has lost sight of the mountain's peak

Your story's not over

It's just begun

Oh child of mine

And Love

Opens a window

When that door closes

No matter the challenge

You're not alone

Cause love...

Love is the hope

That breathes new life

Into the faith

In uncertain waters

That bring you home.

bdc...10/21/20

[barrycousins60]

Nine Years Gone (little Revisited)

I know you're looking back at me;

that you can hear me

The world must seem so small to you right now.

The better place where you reside

feels so far away.

And I'm here...I'm still here...

And when the sun races around the clouds

I can hear you...I can still hear you

And when the rain comes, I get down on my knees

This world keeps falling down;

and He can turn it all around

but right now...right now...

you're nine years gone

Still so many things to say to you;

that I miss you

A candle burns forever in the soul

Although it seems like yesterday

If I could just have one more day

My Ronnie Joe...It would be with you

I'll carry it with all I have;

the memories we had

because a brother's love is all I have to give

And just to see your smiling face

and to know we'll meet again

through these tears, I'm smiling...out to you

And I know you're looking back at me;

that you can hear me

And that my words dont seem so small to you at all

No matter where you are;

Just like a shining star,

I can still feel you...little.

bdc

[barrycousins60]

Just Like Shooting Stars

Wasted away

Yesterday

I can still hear the way that the wind cries

Subliminal sound

Coming unwound

As he finally hits the ground

And he moves across the floor

With every heartbeat

As gravity makes no sound

And darkness falls over the town

And nobody comes around

The leaves are all on the ground

Watching the cars go by

Like passengers on a train

trying to feel no pain

As everything fades away

And everything turns to gray

There is a man outside; he's laying in the street 

He's wasted all his life away 

The sky is black; his dreams have gone; its all a blur 

Nothing left; the only thing that he can see is a star

Man in the street

A single heartbeat

A stupid old man and he lays in a coma

Flat on his back

Like a heart attack

He's staring at a streetlight

And he thought it was a star (his last hope...)

It's gone!

He might as well move along ( nothing here to see..)

And all of his hopes are gone! (move along now...)

Might as well move along (nothing here to see...)

The leaves are all on the ground (move along now...)

As gravity makes no sound (nothing here to see...)

As everything fades away (aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...)

And everything turns to gray.

bdc

[barrycousins60]

Into The Mouth

Waiting,in the moment for a lifetime

where the truth will finally find you

hiding in the shadow of a dreamtime

in a never ending cycle

like a parasite that is feeding

on the lies that keep you here where the soul resides

a jester in the court of what is real

...and a word can set you free

but your suddenly surprised

that the moment has arrived It's time

your mouth completely paralyzed

and an open door is quietly closed again.

Falling as the floors dissolve beneath you

and there's not a thing to hold onto

as your fears take hold but you try to

but it's just no use, you can't

so you search for a shred of evidence

a reason to climb the walls

but the walls are falling on the inside

and the noise is coming from the outside

and suddenly it starts again

the ticking of the clock it's time

you hit the ground a broken mound

you can hear a sound the closing of another door.

Writhing, like a distant paranoid plaything

where the real is rapidly fleeting

and you've lost all sense of time

you cant de - cide

will you run from the lies they feed you

keep running or else they'll find you

or will you all of a sudden disintegrate

and it all goes south, down into the mouth

the moment has gone and your teeth fall out

your eyes roll up and the needle comes down

it all goes away it's all in a day

and you crawl from the corner and the nice man brings you food.

bdc

[barrycousins60]

I Remember It Like It Was Yesterday (Abby’s Song)

On a cold wintery night

not too far away

out in the parking lot...

waiting to take you home

We opened the door

the window was fogged

the room was full

but nobody else was there

just you...and the two of us...

and the day that "we" were born

to live...to love...

and to run

...so we ran

you were so small

you were shaking

so I held you

my dog...

my Abbey Jane

but it was you...not me

you provided

in the only way that you knew how

to show love...and you loved

...and we loved

and time passed by

in the blink of an eye

you were always there

always grateful for the love that we shared

through joyful sounds

and rodeo rounds

you gave without taking

and you ended the day with a smile

...and we smiled

we walked everywhere

and what can I say

when I got lost

you always showed me the way

now the time has come, God is calling you home

and we simply don't know how to say...

goodbye...there are no words

but in our hearts, we know the way

...so we feel

but it's not the end

...of our story...we know...

that somewhere very far away

she waits...and she knows

...one day

bdc

[barrycousins60]

I Am The Stone

The feeling that you get when you've fallen behind rolling the stone...

the cumbersome weight of an unkind world, you can't do it all alone

You stumble to your weary feet afraid to turn around

and you push because it's in you and you cannot come unwound.

I am the stone that so compels you to comply

I am the stars that fall before a darkened sky

on your journey to that place

where the light repels your fall from grace... (I Am the stone)

Like water, cast from the edge of a rolling boil

So unaware, you're tired of burning the midnight oil

You don't care...you're everywhere...whatever gets you there

there's a fire in the skies above; there's something in the air

So steady on, keeping your eyes above the waves

It's time to muster all the energy you've saved

and you cannot come undone

before you gaze upon the rising sun...

Morning has broken where the ocean finally meets the sky above

Standing in front of you is everything, a neverending love

The hand that lifts you to your feet; the one you can't deny

The one that was beside you and the one and only reason why...

I am the stone that so compels you to comply

I am the stars that fall before a darkened sky

on your journey to that place

where the light repels your fall from grace... (I Am the stone)

[barrycousins60]

Gravity

Gravity

You’re so far from me

We were never meant to be

Drifting on an endless sea

     Floating by my side

     The stars were all aligned

     Here in the Milky Way

     From the moment you

     Were taken by the Blue

     I wanted to pursue

     But I was taken too…

     Oh Gravity…

Wait for me

I’m in agony

Though I’m trying endlessly

You’re still so very far from me

                                    Miles away

                              Goodbye yesterday

                                I’ve broken orbit;

                                     Justified;

              I’ve gone too far  I cannot see, I’m lost…

                                  Eyes of blue

                        Who’s been watching you

                         Falling further cast aside

        I'm burning at the speed of light

                                    I'm gone

…Gravity

You’re so far from me

We were never meant to be

Drifting on an endless sea

bdc

[barrycousins60]

Days Filled With Light

When I was young

all I wanted was to be the one

just to have some fun

when I was young

days filled with light

the sun was warm and filled my eyes

and into the night

days filled with light

waiting for the day to arrive

when my whole world had meaning

but not to lose the precious time

before the time was right

days filled with light...

when I was young

love's multiplied

like waves of grace beneath the sky

she caught my eye

love's multiplied

my butterfly

sweetness came into my life

and she became my wife

my butterfly

she held my hand as I held her heart

and we walked this world together

if God is love then paradise

is a place where I call home

my butterfly...

love's multiplied,

days filled with light

...

bdc - 7/29/2016

[barrycousins60]

Child (...in a world gone wild)

There you are

You've gone and done it

I guess you lose again

With your eyes on the prize

And so it passes you buy

Oh! . . . .

Seems like you're paralyzed

Child...

In a world gone wild

What is real and true

Is not the end of you

I've seen that broken down look before

The stupid smile that you got on your face

Afraid if you try

You might jump too high

You'd fly into outer space

Child...

With your whiplash smile

With so much to do

It's a dream come true

...and it's not for you

As you look through shattered windows

And you're trying to find a door

the answer's out there somewhere

You were meant for something more...

But you don't wanna...

Child...

In a world gone wild

What is real and true

Is not the end of you

Child...

With your whiplash smile

With so much to do

It's a dream come true

...and it's not for you

bdc

[barrycousins60]

Eternity (the maddening ponderings of the sandcrab about life in the undertow...and God)

As I crawl from the sea

The mire of destiny

The wind behind me starts to blow

I'm buried in the sands

Of nature's killing hands

I'm freezing, my blood starts to slow

Somewhere beyond this sacred ground

A new sun slowly comes around

Chasing the man across the sky

But never really knowing why

When moonlight falls across the sea

The sleeping giant comes to me

To take the final light

To live through darkest night

The silence of the fallen

bdc

#mysonglyrics

#poetry

#lyrics

[barrycousins60]

FINAL FLIGHT

So far away

He longs to be the keeper of the night

His beating heart

From worlds apart

On mighty wings to take away the light

Flying high above the ground

The falcon spies his final prey

Far beyond the speed of sound

He's gone to steal the light of day

Go dark

And as the world fades away

She prepares to kiss the day

Just one more time

Nothing is promised to the dark

Has he stolen the final spark ?

The night owl wonders

And the man in the moon shines down

It's coming around

A heartbeat sound...

Daylight, alright

The falcon takes his swansong to the sun

On wings of fire

With one desire

He lives to see the daylight come undone

Faster than the eye can see

A bird of fire takes final flight

And from the sun, a mystery

As fire gives way to final light

Go dark

And the night owl faces down

The ashes are on the ground

The bird of prey

And wasn't it all for naught?

That it all started from this spot

Moonlight is fading

As the night owl looks to the sky

And as he gives to the black

Will it ever come back?

...Where is the light?

bdc