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White Nights, Fyodor Dostoevsky

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at first I was like "oh what an interesting and unlikely friendship! what silly b-plots they have!" and then... the demons...

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help ! i was vulnerable and i can’t take it back !!

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Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Violet Dickinson written c. July 1907. featured in Selected Letters

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Anaïs Nin, from The Voice

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what doesn't kill you makes you weird at intimacy

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tell me what it means. this sadness in your chest; is this all by design? are we following the plan? tell me what it means. is it random, or do we each have a destination? is it fated? what are you learning? is it/was it/will it be worth it? tell me what it means. this life, god-given, and the shape it takes around us. tell me what it means.

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Andrea Gibson, The Madness Vase

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I am creating a life i don’t want to run from i am creating a life i don’t want to run from i am creating a life i don’t want to run from

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Me: I yearn for companionship

Also me after any social situation: it should be illegal for me to interact with others

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I don't feel like I exist like other people do. People *sometimes* acknowledge I exist but I never truly feel connected to them. I feel like I'm just a ghost watching other people live their life and connecting while I remain alone. I don't know how to get out of my lonely space and I'm not sure I entirely want to. I've felt so lonely my whole life that I find comfort in knowing I'm lonely and no one can hurt me. Equally, I want to meet new people, be able to connect, and break this endless self isolation cycle but I have no idea where to fucking start.

Maybe that's my new year resolution, to fix this empty feeling of mine

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i have accepted that i will likely struggle w socialising and developing meaningful relationships for the rest of my life, but it doesn’t mean i’m not extremely sad about it and don’t wish things were different

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Walking with the Wind, Abbas Kiarostami (translated by Michael Beard)

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saw a video that was like “everybody comment what you did today so we can see how everyone experienced something different” and the comments have me tearing up on this train. what the fuckkkk. the human experience